That Night In Space

Hello. I feel that I should post more about the things I've been doing so here are some photos from the other night at Space in Heritage Row in KL. I was in Poppy last night too woah I feel like I've been really partying considerably alot considering that my holidays were only here like not too long ago hah.

I liked that night at Space a lot. It was also the night when I noticed (or confirmed rather) that I cannot properly get a grip of myself under the influence of liquor. That being said, I feel extremely.. happy when I'm tipsy/high. Like a form of happiness I've not felt ever since I left high school. Shit damn emo but it's true. =( I dunno why. Maybe it's the out-of-shell thing sigh dan lain-lain la. I was showing WL a pic of myself in form 5 then he said 'woah I've never seen you smile like that before without alcohol' :/



The picture I was referring to T_T

Omg why ar. I also dunno why. Maybe it's the need to be more serious and less playful when you go to college. Maybe it's the various sorts of expectations weighing down. Hmmm. MY was probably right when she said to club is a form of escapism we take and hence enjoy doing.

Ok emo moment aside, here are some photos of my journey to Space minus the astronaut suits :o damn lame.

It was the last day of my exams and I slept for zero hours the night before! Right after the final paper I went with the group to Redbox and I remember being damn sleepy omg. Skipped my dinner later for a 2-hr nap right before hitting the club.. but still!

Lack of sleep + empty stomach + liquor = not a very good sign.



On the way



SJ harassing me. As usual.



I need a haircut.



Still a steady and composed Alex.



Still somewhat there..



I got dimple



Caught red-handed hah


Pictures here-forth I was in my happy land already.



Bev, me, MY



Uh huh



No caption



SJ damn scared of me hahahah



Group photo Take 1!



Group photo Take 2!



A bit gone hah



Really gone hahah what is MY doin!



Sigh MY taking advantage of me



Bev and I



Too close for comfort *gasp



Are you..



..judging me..



..yet?



Messy hair + red eyes + funny expression = Gone.


My blog so that explains all the pictures of me wuu. And also have to self-censor some photos! hahaha. When I get the photos from last night maybe I'll post it up or something see first. If this is gonna be my pastime for the next 4 months woah bye money and hello (bigger) beer belly man.

Ok. Healthier productive lifestyle starting next week I promise!



-alexeO-

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November 18 Day, November 19 After Midnight.

remember.



-alexeO-

Tis' the season to be jolly~

What I've been up to ever since my 4-mths break came:



Karaoke with the group


Clubbing with the group


Penang with the group


I guess I had my week of crazy-all-out fun. Now it's time for MY idea of a holiday which equals to sleeping long hours at home doing nothing productive at all. In time, I should start doing fun and productive things again like hitting the gym or picking up a language or worst comes to worst, work *gasp*.

What will the next 4 months bring I wonder.. No more Year 2 of uni omgosh. Goodbye everything I loved about Year 2! If everything works out I shall graduate by the end of the 2 more semesters! omg *panics*



-alexeO-

Rollercoaster

I hate having to ride the rollercoaster of emotions especially when it comes at the most unexpected and weirdest of times.

Super uncalled for. I hate it hate it hate it HATE IT!!!

THIS IS THE TIME WHEN I SHOULD BE CHILLING MY ASS OFF WITHOUT HAVING TO BE INVOLVED IN ANY WHIRLWIND OF EMOTIONS WHATSOEVER.

It's not like it's engulfing my life as I am typing this. I still get my chilling time and all but I am not liking and appreciating this heartwrenching feeling at all. Not one little bit.

I want to go back to Penang. I want to spend time with good company. I want to escape as long as I possibly can. Coming back to KL is like coming back to my problems. The problems that I so happily left behind. But now I'm reluctantly back and it's overpowering and consuming meeeeeeeeeee slowly inside out. :(

I want everything good in this world. I don't want anything good to end. I want a stress-free life. I don't want to feel any uncomfortable feeling ever in my life.

For some reason, this, to me doesn't seem to have the makings of a great holiday at all. For some reason, this long break, to me might actually be unhelpfully untimely.

I need something to distract me from the sh*thole I'm in.

I need to stop being sensitive, clingy, and unappreciative.

I need to stop whining, reminiscing, and start feeling better about the world around me.

I thought I have grown out of this but apparently not. It feels a little different now though, and it's worst because it actually feels like my uneasiness now is justified for some reason.

If this is going to be the same feeling I'll feel for the next 4 months, goodbye sanity.


p/s: I am NOT thinking too much. I'm thinking just right.



-alexeO-

BIRTHDAY POST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIMI GOH OMGZ!

You're awesome! And funny! And wild! And I'm lost for words! (enough of an ego booster yet? LOL)

HAHA!

HAVE A GREAT 20TH BIRTHDAY IN THE LAND DOWN UNDER. WE'LL HANG OUT WHEN YOU GET BACK AITE!!

HERE ARE SOME EMBARRASSING CAMWHORE PHOTOGRAPHS I TOOK WITH YLAINE AND NIMI THE LAST TIME THEY WERE BACK!:










HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!



-alexeO-

Monash Sonata

I finished my last paper yesterday.

4 months of idle-ness beckons.

If everything turns out according to plan, I am going to have to say bye bye to my campus of 2 years. I have a feeling that I'll be missing everything about the Malaysian Monash campus. A lot.

I have also come to a conclusion that I am one of those people we all love to laugh at, who embarrass themselves when they drink excessively in clubs. Don't judge me.

I had a lot of fun commemorating the end of my second year of uni last night. But I don't like the fact that I'm completely butterfingered when it comes to getting a grip of myself when I am tipsy.

I'll post photos when I get them. Heavily filtered of course. Hah.

I don't know why I'm typing like that. Very choppy. I don't like it. But I can't seem to find a way around it. It must be my mind telling me to sleep. Soon, mind, soon.

Oh. I am going for a trip to Penang on Monday with my uni mates. After a semester of philosophy, social science, anthropology and cultural studies, I think we deserve a break of some sort. Hold your horses and tissue boxes though, I should be back before the end of the 5 working days.

And here's an interesting promo picture for a TV Drama/Soap Series I've got to share:



As you can see, I am the lead character. WL behind me plays the role of a close childhood friend who later fell in love with a girl I was going after. His favourite pastime includes basketball and just hanging out with his friends. K, standing most left, plays the role of the innocent petite girl who finds joy in the simplest of things. As you might be able to guess, she plays the role of the girl who's involved in the love triangle. SJ standing at most right plays the role of the girl who's determined to break my attraction towards the role played by K at all costs. Could it include the attempts of sparking a particular relationship and the subsequent destruction of a friendship? (Oh drama drama).

Aren't we just the greatest actors ever? The poses for our series' promo picture says it all.

Oh don't you just want to watch it already? Or stab me in my face?


"Monash Sonata"



Get it in stores nearby today.


I need to sleep.

-alexeO-

Update yo!

Halo everyone! This is an update!

So recently I've been struggling to 'pick myself up off the ground' but I managed to in the end (I think) albeit a lot of internal whines and bitching but hey what the heck right I am after all still 'picked up' successfully in the end wuhoo. Oh oh why why do I notice things like people not being responsive when I share with them my stuff! I am always super responsive (if it's not natural also at least I try!) when it comes to listening lor. Pfft~ I think it's just me. I think I think I think.. people are just not interested OMGZ! sucks to be me boohoo. maybe also cause I complain unnecessarily or too much that people are too bored with it already hahaha. Oh well, either way, still sucks to be me. :/


This is me with my thinking cap on. Hah!

It is actually my improvised hairband! I was telling people how my hair was growing out-of-hand-ish long and it was really annoying (especially while trying to do your work/study on the computer) and because I am not privileged enough to be equipped with any hairbands at home so I had to do with what I had. A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do wtf. Tak ada kaitan.


Random screenshot.

WL captured this because he thought it was amusing. I thought it was an honest explanation but oh well. :/

Hahaha nola in all seriousness. Who among us still look at the keyboard when they type anyway??? Who who who?? *suspicious accusing glares* If you do then I'm sorry. You can take comfort though in knowing that you have a life outside the virtual world. Congrats. Nerdiology101 is me.


Another random screenshot.

WL said I look like a sealion here (huh huh huh where got right??!) but I thought I looked more like "No Face" from "Spirited Away" instead. :/



It's a damn awesome show btw. I watched it several years back and it was seriously quite disturbing lor. I dunno why? Maybe it was the age? But it was certainly not your typical anime. Not in a freaky jump-in-front-of-your-face way la but still... just watch it la omg. I will recommend the original Japanese version and not the English dubbed one. More 'authentic' I guess. :/


From L-R: Anne, Me, TE, TK (wow the last 2 really look so much alike! they could be twins!)

I also had an interesting video conferencing session with my buddies who are all around the world now omg T.T so cool yet so saddening. Anne went all emo and said that this is the closest we could ever be together again wtf. NO OK SO MANY MORE CHANCES IN THE FUTURE. JUST.. JUST.. JUST... TAKE SOME TIME ONLY WHAT BOO.


SJ trying to rape my mic. T.T sigh he was so innocent T.T

Some karaoke fun! Oh ok I totally embarrassed myself without even getting high OMG could you believe it cause I was boyband-ing the whole way through and my imitation of BSB squeaky first verse voice for 'as long as you love me' and romantic giler babi 'i'll never break your heart' failed miserably. I think I went off-key and was.. pitchy in parts. HAHAHAHA wuu~ so technical~

But please admit that my cover of westlife's 'flying without wings' melted hearts! HAHAHA.


Me being very "into it". Omg not a very complimenting angle at all!

Oh oh oh did any of you watched the final race of the season for Formula 1 in Brazil?! OMG! I was so glad I did! I didn't even watch a single race for this season but I've been keeping up with the drivers championship points thingy.


Hamilton and Massa

At first I just randomly streamed the broadcast in my computer online because I knew somewhere at the back of my mind that it was the final race and the pit positions made it very interesting to watch. And also I needed an excuse from my work la. So OMG OMG OMG FINAL 3 LAPS THAT"S ALL I HAVE TO SAY. I"M SO EXCITED I"M GONNA TYPE IN CAPS NOW ALL THE WAY TO DESCRIBE THE FINAL 3 OMG LAPS.

SO HAMILTON NEEDED TO BE 5TH RITE TO SECURE THE DRIVERS CHAMPIONSHIPS IF MASSA WAS IN POLE POSITION WHICH HE WAS LA. SO AFTER A FEW CUTTING AND INTERESTING PITSTOPS IN THE BEGINNING AND THROUGHOUT THE RACE WHICH SAW VARIOUS DRIVERS EXCHANGING POSITIONS, HAMILTON WAS FINALLY 5TH HEADING TOWARDS THE FINAL LAPS OF THE RACE.

AT THIS POINT EVERYONE IN THE MCLAREN CAMP WAS QUIETLY CONFIDENT LAH (INCLUDING ME) SEEING THAT HAMILTON WILL CRUISE TO THE DRIVERS CHAMPIONSHIP AS 5TH CAUSE IT"S NOT EASY TO OVERTAKE ANYWAY HE JUST DOESN"T DO ANY MISTAKES CAN LIAO BUT NO ONE DARE TO SAY ANYTHING IN CASE IT JINXES IT HAH.

THEN THEN THEN THIS VETTEL GUY WAS EXTREMELY CLOSE TO HIM BEHIND HIM LAH. THEN YOU KNOW WHAT I WAS LIKE IT WOULD BE DAMN SAD FOR HAMILTON IF HE LETS THIS VETTEL FELLA CUT HIM SEEING THAT HE WAS SO CLOSE TO BECOMING THE YOUNGEST DRIVER TO WIN THE DRIVER"S CHAMPIONSHIP! THEN OMG YOU KNOW WHAT, WHILE THEY WERE TRYING TO PAST THE BACKMARKERS I THINK THAT"S WHAT YOU CALLED THEM THE DRIVERS WHO WERE OVERLAPPED, MY FAVOURITE DRIVER ROBERT KUBICA DUNO WHAT HE WAS THINKING SCREWED THEM BOTH BY NOT ALLOWING THEM TO PASS (THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO) AND IN FACT KUBICA CUT BACK TO THE FRONT OF HAMILTON AFTER NOT ALLOWING VETTEL TO PASS WHEN HAMILTON PASSED HIM HUH HUH HUH.

THEN THEN THEN WHILE THE COMMENTATORS WERE COMMENTING ON KUBICA"S STRATEGY, THEY SUDDENLY SAID SOMETHING ABOUT HAMILTON GOING WIDE AND OMG MY HEART ALMOST DROPPED WHEN VETTEL SUDDENLY PASSED HIM WITH 3 LAPS TO GO OUT OF 71!!!!!!!

OMG SO KESIAN I WAS LIKE GASPING WIDE AND THINKING WHAT COULD HAMILTON BE THINKING AT THE MO- MUST BE NOTHING MUCH BUT TO GET HIS ASS BACK IN FRONT OF VETTEL CAUSE HE OBVIOUSLY KNOWS MASSA IS IN FRONT LEADING THE PACK OMG.

THEN GOT SHOTS OF THE FERRARI TEAM CHEERING AND JUMPING AND MCLAREN STUNNED STONED GOSH!

SO HAMILTON WAS TRYING HIS BEST AND ALL LA TRYING TO PASS HIM FOR THE NEXT 3 LAPS BUT OMG TO NO AVAIL MAN SO KESIAN. I WAS ROOTING FOR HIM LA. I NEVER KNEW I WAS A HAMILTON SUPPORTER UNTIL I WATCHED. I WAS BITING MY NAILS OMG. I CAN IMAGINE HAMILTON"S "T.T" FACE WHILE TRYING TO PASS VETTEL. LIKE "T.T" "OMG WHAT IS THIS!" "T.T" "GIVE ME BACK MY 5TH PLACE T.T"

THEN FINAL LAP APPROACHED AND HAMILTON WAS STILL BEHIND. AND MASSA. MASSA CROSSED THE FINISHING LINE FIRST! SO OMG FO' SURE MASSA WILL WIN THE DRIVERS CHAMPIONSHIP IF THIS STAYS ON! HAMILTON HAD ONE MORE LAP OR THREE-QUARTER RATHER TO WIN BACK THE RACE! THE PREVIOUSLY MENTIONED QUIET CONFIDENCE MADE A SHOCKING AND SUDDEN COMPLETE 180 AND TRANSFORMED INTO A QUIET ACCEPTANCE OF DEFEAT!

THEN. YOU KNOW WHAT FREAKING HAPPENED? AT THAT POINT OF TIME?

YOU KNOW WHAT???

MY STREAM. DIED.

...........................................

?_?_?_?_?_?!!!

LIKE REALLY LOR OMG!!!

SO I WAS THERE MOUTH GASPED OPEN WIDE AND ALL RESTARTING MY PC AND MODEM AND ALL.. WITH MY MOUTH STILL GASPED WIDE OPEN.

BUT I COMFORTED MYSELF IN KNOWING THAT AT LEAST I WON"T SEE THE HEARTBREAK HAMILTON WILL FACE AND SUFFER PASSING THE CHEQUERED FLAG. AND WHAT"S WORST HAVING TO FACE IT AGAIN AFTER COMING SO CLOSE LAST SEASON ON THE SAME RACE BUT LOSING OUT AGAIN IN THE FINAL RACE. OMG DAMN FRIKKIN' SAD.

SO I FINALLY GOT BACK ON AND THEN I KNEW I WAS TOO LATE TO RE-OPEN MY STREAM SO I OPENED UP A SPORTING WEBSITE LOR IN HOPES OF SEEING WHAT HAPPENED.

THEN YOU KNOW WHAT I SAW? HAMILTON CROWNED DRIVERS CHAMPION. HUH HUH HUH? IS THIS ASSUMPTIVE REPORTING OR WHAT? POSTED EARLIER CAUSE THEY NEVER KNEW OR EXPECTED THE DRAMA BEHIND AND IN THE FINAL LAPS. SO I DIDN"T BOTHER MUCH THEN I LOGGED BACK ON MY STREAM LA RITE TO SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON. THEN I SAW SCENES OF THE MCLAREN CAMP CELEBRATING AND THE COMMENTATORS CONGRATULATING THE YOUNGEST DRIVER CHAMPION IN F1 HISTORY.

???????????????????????????????!

OMG HE REALLY WON OMG OMG OMG!!! BUT HOW HOW HOW? HOW WAS IT POSSIBLE?? HOW DID HE PASS VETTEL WITH SO LITTLE TRACK LEFT TO GO! WAS THERE A MISTAKE SOMEWHERE, IF SO BY WHO?!

THEN AFTER WATCHING CONTINUOUS REPLAYS AND ALL I REALISED THE DRIVER WHO WAS 4TH SUDDENLY SLOWED AND BOTH VETTEL AND HAMILTON PASSED THAT FELLA AND HAMILTON ENDED UP 5TH!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!! CAUSE THAT GUY WHO SLOWED WAS ON DRY TIRES WHEN IT RAINED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGG WHAT IS THIS? KARMA? RETRIBUTION? THE MOST KANCHEONG RACE BATTLE WITH COUNTLESS OF TWISTS IN THE DYING LAPS OF THE RACE??

ULTIMATE ROLLERCOASTER OF EMOTIONS!!!

I DONT KNOW MAN I WAS BOTH STUNNED AND HAPPY. THEY SHOWED SCENES OF THE FERRARI TEAM CELEBRATING TOO WHICH SUDDENLY TURNED INTO AN AWKWARD CONFUSION AND OMG QUITE KESIAN LOR BUT I DUNO LA I NEVER LIKED FERRARI THAT MUCH TO BEGIN WITH ANYWAY SO I THINK I FELT HAPPIER THAT A MCLAREN CLINCHED IT. MAYBE CAUSE THERE WERE SCENES OF NICOLE SCHERZINGER IN THE MCLAREN CAMP CELEBRATING TOO SO HAPPY FOR HER AND THEM T.T

SO OKLA GOT ALOT MORE THINGS I CAN SAY ABOUT THE RACE BUT TOO LONG LIAO AND I DOUBT EVERYONE WANTS TO KNOW SO IF U WANNA KNOW GIMME A NUDGE OF MSN AND I CAN SHARE WITH YOU THEN LA. IT"S ABOUT THE CELEBRATION OF HAMILTON"S FAMILY AND MASSA"S HOMETOWN CROWD AND PRESS CONFERENCE AND SOME MORE HAHA!

I THINK I MIGHT HAVE FALLEN FOR F1 AGAIN!! LIKE HOW I DID A COUPLE OF YEARS BACK. WE"LL SEE HOW IT GOES NEXT YEAR!

OK BAI FOLKS!

HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS POST (EVENTHOUGH IT IS NOT MY DUTY TO MAKE YOU FEEL ENJOYABLE) WITH THE UPDATES ON MY LIFE FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS IN THE BEGINNING AND THIS LITTLE COMMENTARY IN THE END!




-alexeO-

Happy Belated Birthday..

.. to my blog who turned 5 on October 19th.

Must be painful having to be a medium for wishing other people especially a few days just after its birthday.

You're old. You've seen me grow. You've seen me mature. You've seen me thru' my ups and downs. I love you!!

._.

someone take me outside :o

Also.

Happy birthday to Karina who had her birthday yesterday omgz omgz omgz.


risking my life posting this picture.

Hope you had fun. In Murni. And cramming your head the whole day for the upcoming exams.

Sorry to the October babies who had to do with having their birthdays on exam periods almost every frikkin' year. And I thought mine was bad. Hah.

Oops, I think I just hurt my blog again.

Someone really needs to take me outside.



-alexeO-

To those needing just that little bit of strength:

You know I rarely share videos.

So when I do, you can be sure that they're of an out-of-this-world quality. Most of them aesthetically of course, with jaw-dropping, stomach-churning, heart-wrenching impacts..

This video by my favourite band ever, is not so much as mind-boggling-impactful-bomb-shocker-woah as the previous', if that makes any sense at all.. does it does it?

Anyway as I was saying, this video by my favourite band ever (you can say whatever you like I don't care) has a much more explicit message, and the key lies in the song itself for me.. through the music.. lyrics.. delivery.. etc.

I listened to the song at first without knowing the message behind it and I loved it. Then after finding out why or how the song was created, I loved it even more.

Then after watching the video, it makes so much more sense.

According to Wikipedia, "lead singer Pierre Bouvier has stated in interviews that the song deals with his brother's battle with cancer."

Having a relative with the disease, it is certainly easy for me to relate to the various people, campaigns, organizations and songs out there raising awareness about cancer and ultimately giving strength to patients who might be undergoing treatment. It is a very, VERY grueling process lemme tell you and you can only do so much standing in the stands giving your support. And every ounce of it do count.

I am not trivializing any other problems anyone else could be facing here and I am also not trying to preach cancer awareness or anything similar.

But all I want to say is that life can be such a bitch most of the times and sometimes, just sometimes, all we need to survive the ordeal or day even is someone who when you fall or stumble down, he or she'll pick you up off the ground, or when you lose faith in you, he or she'll give you the strength to pull through.

Simple Plan, Save You. Enjoy.




-alexeO-

To those who are attached:

Do watch this video. Even if you're not, watch it anyway.



Beyonce - If I Were a Boy


p/s: When I say watch, I meant WATCH. Not letting it play at the background while you go do other stuff. That's 'listen', not 'watch'.



-alexeO-

To JL, SJ, and..

Happy Birthday Joseph and Sze.

High school check.
Uni check.
Primary school.. check also la!

To Yoke Keat who was in the same class as me for three years in a row in primary school(very rare considering how many classes there were in my primary school) and who also does not read this blog but included to just to have all categories checked, happy birthday.

(funnily ironic how he got the longest messsage of all)

Hope you guys have a good year ahead being in the 'twenties' till your next birthday(s). And thanks for warming the seat for me. I'll be right there.

Happy birthday again.



-alexeO-

Unhealthy

I think if I'm not the epitome of unhealthy eating habits, I don't know what is.

So it's no big secret(I wrote in my messenger's personal message) that I've been spending ridiculously more time than anyone really should in uni attempting to complete my group assignment - which happens to be a TV news feature production.

A little note on the assignment: It's TAXING. EXHAUSTING. DRAINING. EVERYTHING TIRING PUT TOGETHER!

We started feeling the pinch as early as on the second day of production. And we haven't even gotten to the editing part yet at that point.

What they tell you about spending all those time in the editing room. It's true. And ours was just a 15mins feature story. I cannot imagine the editing processes for a 2-3 hours film - particularly with all the effects and all. But then again, I'm specifying Hollywood here and knowing HOLLYWOOD with all its multi-million budget, equipments and humongous crew.. hmm..

So my group members and I hunted down people in shopping malls for interviews, made security guards give us suspicious stares, made random shoppers give us suspicious stares, risked getting beaten up for filming people without their permissions, risked getting thrown out of the shopping mall for filming illegally, shopped in Pavilion(???), ate free authentic granny's cooking, interviewed a granny and a granddad, laughed our socks off filming two self-made commercials, camped in the uni's multimedia lab, kena halau-ed from the m-lab twice by the guards, and after all that and the editing stuff later, not only did our 'tenaga jatuh' but our 'harga' pun jatuh.

Nola in all seriousness, we did learn a lot and had a good time producing our feature. (yea right la *rolls eyesx300*)

I think I drifted a little too far from what I wanted to say so back to my unhealthy eating habits la.

I'll list what I had so judge for yourselves wuu~

2 days ago:
Breakfast
Fruit Juice

Lunch
Fried Instant Noodles, Kopi Ais

Dinner
MCD - Spicy Chicken McDeluxe set.

1 day ago:
Breakfast
Fruit Juice

Lunch@5:00pm(?)
Tuna Bun

Dinner
4 slices of Pizza.

Today:
Breakfast
-

Lunch
-

Dinner
Korean Food.

Supper <- (hah! look I cheated!)
McNuggets, McFlurry Oreo.


Sigh.

The fruit juices better compensate for the lack of minerals and zat-zat.

And I would try to get the feature up on YouTube asap! But don't expect it too soon lar okay. I still have an essay to write OMG TALKING ABOUT THE ESSAY WTF WTF WHY ARE WE LIKE ONE OF THE ONLY PEOPLE LEFT IN THE UNI STILL HAVING ASSIGNMENTS TO DOOOOO!! EVERYONE BUSY PREPARING FOR THEIR EXAMS BUT BUT BUT HERE I AM BORROWING BOOKS FROM THE LIBRARY AND ACCESSING WEBSITES I DON'T NORMALLY ACCESS FOR POINTS AND EXAMPLES AND ANALOGIES NOOOOOO!

.. okay. I still have an essay to write and also the video file is quite huge. 2-3gb OMG GOT OR NOT AH. So until I find a way to convert it.. Make it smaller or something. Does YouTube allow videos more than 10 mins? I know they didn't.. but recently I've seen videos going over by a significant amount so... I duno.

So most prob after all that hassle bassle you would prob see that video in 1-2 mths time or something la hah!

But then again.. knowing me.. it'll probably appear much earlier than that. O_O

OMG I DID IT AGAIN. Talking damn alot then contradict myself with a simple statement in the end.

Haih. Bai la. A little headache.

Gonna get my much-needed and deserved rest now.

Goodbai.


-alexeO-

Sympathize Me

My eyes are about to bulge out.

My nose is about to drop off.

My head is about to crack open.

My body finally gave in, and I've now fallen sick. I knew this day would come, but I wish it was slightly later.

But I shall rise above. And be strong. And pass this passing obstacle successfully woo!

Here is a picture I left out (intentionally, probably) from the last post:




Oh why oh why is my workload never ending.



-alexeO-

How you doin'?

Camwhoring at Starbucks.




You were sayin'?




The effect I have on the ladies.




I have dark, puffy, and slitty eyes.




Lala poses 1,2,3,4,5. Fail cause we didn't know how to correctly count ascendingly from 1-5.




Attempt 2.




It was alot of fun.. really..




This was supposed to be 'angry'. Don't ask me. Karina totally off-themed.




'Angry' #2.




This was 'sad'. (literally). I clearly win. Karina fail.




Karina looks possessed. Yi Jun damn funny. I win again.




Hey.




How you doin'?


Ok you can start judging me now.

Photos credited to YiJun's very awesome laptop camera.


-alexeO-

How Adorable

14 years old but I looked like 10.


Gone were the days before my life became a bottomless shithole. Prior to everything spinning crazily out of control.

Only I can get myself out of the own grave I dug.

I want my life to be back on track.. fug.



-alexeO-

To Exangel

Last day of school, 2005.


Happy Birthday Chrisanne.



-alexeO-

Desperate times call for desperate measures

At times like this, believe me, it is necessary.



P/S: quit commenting on my handwriting already.

P/P/S: hmm. i feel somewhat sorry for the guy who typed in 'healthy life blog' on blogsearch and got referred to my blog.


-alexeO-

Lock and Load

I had my rest so technically, there shouldn't be anything pulling me down.

(PD photos up on my facebook. Click on my profile badge in the sidebar if you're interested.)

Motivated and raring to go. Here I coooooooome.



-alexeO-

4:02PM

4.02PM..

Alone in my room.

Listening to inspirational songs, asking me to go higher. And higher some more.

4:03PM..

Singer sounds like on the verge of tears.

.
.
.

Song ends.

*

I just got back from a short de-stress trip.

I told a friend last night I was going to meet her this morning at 11.30AM before I went to bed at 10:30PM. I was pretty sure I wouldn't be late (as usual) considering that I should have had enough sleep and be freshly awake at that time.

But I wasn't. I received a phone call at 12PM plus a couple of missed calls and I almost froze. I quickly returned the call and apologized frantically.

I made it at 12:40PM.

I felt so bad.

I slept for 13 and a half hours. And even then I didn't even wake up naturally. The phone calls woke me up. I remember vividly waking up before the sun even rose and I wasn't quite sure what time that was but I remember feeling still pretty tired at that time and I was quite sure it was just the natural body clock I've been setting kicking in considering the little amount of hours I've been sleeping for the past many days.

Fatigued. And my exhaustion continues..

Really, I am tired both physically and mentally and it shows. I cannot really consciously feel it, but I know it's there. I should also note that I am very thankful for the random trip which happened because not only did it allow me to take a break from the things which are weighing heavily down on me but it was also because of that very trip that I actually finished one of my assignments before I left. Richmond correctly said that my assignment would probably still not be completed by now if I hadn't actually gone for the trip.

I'm strange like that. I need things like that to trigger and knock my senses out because discipline is not something I possess unfortunately. I certainly hope I have it though.

Oh. Now "Always" by Bon Jovi is playing.

Goodbye.



-alexeO-

Graded

O rly?


Randooom:
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-alexeO-

Saya Budak Malaysia

Minggu ni' manyak sibuk.




Ini gambar random untuk memuaskan pembaca saya yang amat terhad. Sebagai prekausi(wtf) jika rindu saya terlalu banyak. Ambik di Sky Bar, KL.

Tempat yang cantik sekali tetapi dalam pendapat saya terlalu panas tak tau kenapa. Sepatutnya ada penghawa dingin lagi best. Saya amat gembira kerana 'penghawa dingin' adalah perkataan yang sangat canggih dan saya telah menggunakannya dengan sesuai sekali.

Oh Tuhan, kenapa Bahasa saya teruk sangat? Ianya bukannya seteruk ni dulu saya pasti. Ini adalah kerana saya dapat A untuk BM SPM. Saya sangat sombong, saya tahu. Biar la.

Saya tak perasan BM saya telah .. downgrade dengan begitu banyak. Oleh itu, saya amat curiga apakah kualiti atau tahap BM kawan-kawan saya yang lain.

Oleh demikian(wow), saya akan cipta satu "TAG" untuk kawan-kawan saya yang berblog/mengeblog.

TAG ni menyuruhkan kamu semua, kawan-kawan saya yang dihormati, supaya berblog/mengeblog post kamu yang seterusnya dengan menggunakan seratus-peratus Bahasa Malaysia sahaja.

Saya "TAG":-
1. Semua orang yang sedang baca post ni. Jikalau masih baca la. :/


Semoga Berjaya!

Sehingga berjumpa lagi.

Sekian, terima kasih.


-alexeO-

Filler Joke

Been procrastinating, lazing and mood-less. So here's something funny to read (at least to me) people might want me to share.

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Mr. Perkins, the biology instructor at a posh suburban girl's
junior college, said during class, "Miss Smythe, would you
please name the organ of the human body, which under the
appropriate conditions, expands to six times its normal size,
and define the conditions."

Miss Smythe gasped, then said freezingly, "Mr. Perkins, I don't
think that is a proper question to ask me. I assure you my
parents will hear of this!" With that she sat down red-faced.

Unperturbed, Mr. Perkins called on Miss Johnson and asked the
same question.

Miss Johnson, with composure, replied, "The pupil of the eye,
in dim light."

"Correct," said Mr. Perkins. "And now, Miss Smythe, I have
three things to say to you.

"One, you have not studied your lesson. "Two, you have a dirty
mind. "And three, you will some day be faced with a dreadful
disappointment."

------


-alexeO-

Sneak Preview | Teaser..

Alex Yeo outside Emirates Stadium, the home of Arsenal FC.



More to follow soon enough.. if everything which is gonna happen in between from now to the next time I blog does not warrant an emo or some random startling-revelation-type post..



-alexeO-

The Uni Ball and Its Afterparty

Signs you are getting old, or rusty:-

When you come back from a club feeling partially deaf.

When you come back from a club feeling dizzy after having the lights go dim dark bright dim dark bright repeat sequencex300 on you.

When you come back from a club feeling like you've just hiked a mountain, after having to groove to the music for only the first couple of songs, then having your legs feeling heavy and almost dying on you and your mind wandering to somewhere irrelevant and far away, like your bed.

Hello. Currently, my ears feel so blocked, my legs feel so sore and my head feels so spinny it isn't funny. Not at all.

Off-topic: What's the worst thing about opening your bag and having a black bug(presumably the world's greatest fiend, the cockroach), jumping out and crawling to somewhere between your stacks and stacks of university books.

The fact that it is still somewhere in my freaking room of course. ARGHHHHHH!! HOW TO SLEEP IN PEACE KNOWING THAT A COCKROACH IS ROAMING AROUND MY ROOM AHHHH.

AND DON'T JUDGE ME!

I know people must be thinking why Alex always got cockroach encounters stories to tell one.

It's not because I'm dirty ok! I dunno why also. If can I also don't want please. Sigh.

I don't think I'm even half as dirty as the dirtiest person around lor. In fact I can be quite obsessive compulsive when it comes to cleanliness. To a certain extent.

But anyway, stupid cockroach in my room. Nooooo.

Back to the original topic: Euphoria by MOS was.. quite decent. (sorry joe! it was part of my uni ball!)

I actually liked the dizzy-fying lighting effects. Made us feel like the whole lot of us were doing a robot dance. And it's also good for shy people like myself! It won't make your dancing that obvious and even so, you will actually look like you know what you're doing LOL.

One thing about Euphoria is their music. Personally, not a huge fan of electro-techno-trance thingy. Sorry I dunno the difference and to be honest I don't really care.

And even their RnB room had only like what, 50% of RnB. IF that was the RnB room la.

So if there is a reason why I didn't really thoroughly put myself to dance throughout the night, that could be it. Lawl.

And why so crowded one? Merdeka Eve? How come people before complained about the lack of people when today was certainly quite the opposite? O_o

And oh yea I didn't even need to sip any alcoholic drink to start dancing! That's progress for you. I only had a few sips of beer during the night and even then, was AFTER the dancing. Wooo~

I actually thought the ball was pretty good. I mean, I am not exactly mr.critical when it comes to judging events I attend but the food was above average(for me), the performances weren't second grade(for me again), and I was QUITE entertained throughout the night. So I don't see how much more I can ask for.

I'll post some photos when I get them. I'll try to at least. If I remember. Or feel like it the next time. Hahaha.

Ok ok. My blogging mood disappearing already. So bai bai.



-alexeO-

Lux Aeterna/Requiem for a Dream

One word. Imba.

Especially at 1:00, 3:00, 4:00, 5:00, 6:00.

EPIC. WITH A CAPITAL E-P-I-C.

CAN I DO A BATTLE CRY NOW AND RUN AND JUMP AND FORCE MYSELF INTO THE VOID WHERE I GET WASHED IN PURE ENERGY RAYS AND HAVE THE DARKNESS SWALLOW ME UP THEN SPIT ME OUT AGAIN TO WHICH I FREEFALL AIMLESSLY DOWN THE LIMITLESS SERENE SKIES.

I. AM. REBORN.


*presses play for the 3523532th time*



-alexeO-

Still there

Okay.. so my healthy life gets postponed a little bit - probably by a day or two.

Big deal. :/

It's still happening I tell ya, it still is..

._.



-alexeO-

Of Me and Beijing 2008

I get emotional watching the medal ceremony of the Olympic Games. What is wrong with me?!

I cannot help but 'risk' 'almost' tearing up witnessing the medalists accepting their medals and having the most sincere and genuine of smiles ever printed on their faces. All their hard work paying off and how proud they must feel at that very moment. And watching them tearing up while their national anthem is played especially when the camera fades between the faces of the medalists and the national flag just kills me. Full stop.

After every medal ceremony without fail, I will have this sudden burst of determination to take up a sport and aim to be on the podium one fine day. But of course, it is too late for that now. But it doesn't hurt to dream.

I WANT TO BE A MEDALIST ON THE WORLD STAGE T_T I THINK I WONT JUST TEAR UP BUT BAWL LIKE A CRAZY BABY IF I WAS INDEED THERE BY SOME STROKE OF GOOD, OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD FORTUNE T_T

sigh.

A few days back after witnessing one of the many medal ceremonies, I turned to my parents and asked them why didn't they make me take up a sport when I was much younger so they can have an extra thing about me they can be proud of. And of course so that I can ACTUALLY go through the exact same thing the medalists I saw on TV went through!

They shrugged. Then sniggered. I love my parents. T_T

APPARENTLY, I was encouraged to but for some reason.. I am where I am today. Dot dot dot.

SIGH.. *thinks of a sport I can take up now which doesn't require much finesse and it won't be too late*

Shooting. No interest. No talent also the last time I checked.
Archery. Needs some strength I think to pull the bow.
Swimming, badminton, cycling, martial arts. LOL.

Golf? I know they have a senior tour for the pros. :-| And I read somewhere a few days back they might introduce golf to the Olympics! OMG IS THIS A SIGN.

But alot of pros started young. Like Tiger Woods duh. +_+ But I'm sure NOT ALL started golfing before they could even walk properly right right right?

Haha. This will be another sudden determination thing down the drain in a few weeks or perhaps even days time. Oh well, at least it is nice to dream once in a while. Keep my much-needed spirit up at times. Boo.

And oh yea, the Italian national anthem is damn wowowoowow! They have like some Mozart(I know he's not from Italy stfu), orchestra, thingy in the beginning then some awesome melody later when the vocals(think so) actually come in. But that particular melody part sounds damn familiar I think it's some famous composition in the music world. But the music illiterate me wouldn't know it of course..

So we didn't get to hear the Negaraku in Beijing 2008. :/ So we didn't get to see history in the making yet. But I'm quite positive that day will come.. relatively soon. Actually, I think it is good in a way as it actually greatly heightens up the hype for the future first gold medalist from Msia.

And it be could from golf. From me.

My dream is still alive! Hurray! Hahahahaa.



the Dreamer,
-alexeO-

Healthy Life

.. starts next week.

more sleep

earlier sleep

earlier rise

gym

healthier eating times.

Laugh you may, but we'll see who gets the last laugh!

*insert determined emoticon*

p/s: I was browsing my folders looking for a photo to upload here to give the wtf random effect and I couldn't find any but I am now kinda determined to blog about the recent trip I had!! See how first la. Hah. Zz.



-alexeO-

Conversation with K

*

I self-inflicted myself

and it hurts so badly now

and I can't turn back time

and the fact that I have to do so much more

under so much pain

is almost unbearable.

*

Why do I have to be tougher than others now

cause I self-inflicted myself

why did I do that

cause I'm stupid

and ignorant

and lousy

and a failure to myself

and to everyone around me.


*

but I deserve it

I made a promise to myself

and the people around me

that I will not repeat what I did last sem

but it's just so difficult

and the longer i prolong it

the more painful my suffering become

and the harder it is to do.

*

It's almost poetic.

It's not just about the assignments. It's how I cannot muster enough strength to be responsible enough, to be disciplined enough. Guess I will not really grow up and break out of the shell until I find a way around this obstacle.

It's almost poetic. My pain, that's what.



-alexeO-

SOS

And just like that,

my resolution is gone.

I need help. Serious help.



-alexeO-

Hello

Hello everyone. It's a gloomy evening here in Malaysia just like any other typical gloomy evenings we have over here.

I am doing great, like always, well somewhat anyway, and no I have not slit my wrists or sunk into depression.

The recent posts in my blog might suggest otherwise but I think one important thing people who are actually concerned ought to know is that I like to sometimes see my blog as some sort of alter, inner, subconscious ego of myself which is often exaggerated, extreme and crazy. And it is important to express that ego in one way or another in order for me to remain sane and stay the person I am today.

That's my way of self-control and living in this world I guess. So people shouldn't read too much into posts like that! Hohoho.

But I do appreciate very much the concern and advices shown. Tankiu! I feel very cared for! Wahaha.

Putting that aside.. once and for all,

I am now in the much dreaded period of my semester in university. There is just so much to write and so much to do and so much to think about that it is unavoidable that I can survive the period without heavier eyebags or thumping headaches. Boo. =(

I had a resolution this semester to not hand up assignments overdue anymore unlike last sem and it is a resolution I am still determined to fulfill because handing up assignments late sucks to the core and the many marks I could have gained are lost as a result.

I also had a resolution to try and complete assignments early and doing all that while maintaining a healthy bodyclock but wtf. I guess I have to be realistic and take one thing/resolution at a time. Stfu, at least I'm trying.

On a sidenote, glad I got that part which was bothering me settled even though it was not done in the best possible way I would have hoped for but at least it is pushed under the carpet at least for now.

Time to start working. I might have the mood to brighten up the dark blog literally with photos soon! No promises though.



-alexeO-

The Annoying Funny Feeling

Sometimes, I just wish time would freeze as it is.

I would gladly continue being the underachieving kid I am, the kid with the unhealthy lifestyle, and all other things negative about me now as long as I get the people around me to stay and never leave me in any ways whatsoever.

I hate the fact that people have to grow old and venture into their own ways one fine day.

I hate the fact that it is unpropable that I wake up everyday feeling at ease, comforted to know that the people around you are still around you.

I hate the fact that we don't have the luxury of hanging out with the same company every single day until the day we die.

I hate the fact that we don't appreciate the people around us until they leave us.

I remember somewhat clearly one night a few years back when I was just lying on my bed before dozing off thinking about how lonely I was. It was during the time when I went to school everyday feeling like I had no one to confide to, no one who genuinely cares about me. It wasn't like I had no friends, depending on how you choose to define that term, but I felt everything was just so.. insincere.

I remember tears rolling down my cheeks after the thought struck me about how the siblings I grew up with and spent my whole childhood with were no longer a room or two away. And nothing is ever going to be the same again.

And now the feeling has crept back.

I don't know how people might take or interpret this; but I'm gonna say it anyway.

I hate the fact that I have very limited or no one around me who takes genuine concern about how or what I'm doing, no one who would reach out their hands when I am down, no one who would express gratitude for the things I do for them, no one who would show sincere concern over my feelings, over my problems, over my life.

I don't know why, but at times, I just blame whoever's responsible up there and think that this is not something I am blessed with unlike the many other people in this world.

I hate the fact that the very few people I can place my trust on are leaving or have already gone and ventured to their very own paths in life.

And that nothing is ever, going to be the same again.

We will all grow old, start working, meet new 'friends', and have other people in our lives to care about.

Sometimes, I just wish time would freeze as it is. I really do.

I am not writing this so that people can come to me and say they care or they are sincere and they love me. I also know how stupid I sound thinking like the pathetic kid whom nobody in this world loves. It is just among the many things that I feel I have to let out before I explode inside. Of course, you might not agree and accuse me of sympathy-seeking, it's your prerogative. I also understand the implication this post might have on the people who are actually affected by it. It might change things, and that is supposed to be a good thing for me. But to be completely honest, it really isn't. If anything, any change now as a resultant effect of this post would only equal to more insincerities.

It is ironic that when I actually see posts like this on other blogs, I immediately raise my eyebrow and laugh at their pathetic-ness.

I guess I can take comfort in distributing this token of redemption - now people can laugh at me, if they haven't already.

I don't know why I feel the need to be loved and cared about so badly.

I don't know why I feel so freaking deprived of everything.

I don't know where other people are getting their support pillars from.

I don't know why I feel so fking miserable, almost all the fking time.



-alexeO-

Those Little Irreversible Things

At times, no matter how much, how tempting, or how painful it might be, the wisest option is to suck it all in, and hold back. Regardless of how good you might feel at that very moment, and for that short span of time after.

Only because there are certain actions in life which are irreversible. And no matter how hard you try, or how long you wait after that, it will not and never be the same anymore. Never ever in our limited lifetimes.

It is simply not worth it.

Never let your emotions take control no matter what, that's my little piece of advice coming from experience.

Sounds obvious enough but it really isn't.

Somewhat ironically those little irreversible things are the very essences of what forms or constitutes a particular relationship between two human beings. Good or bad, negative or positive, thoroughly dependent on 'those little irreversible things'.

More the reason to keep 'those little irreversible things' under control..

And not let your emotions decide who you like or dislike, and vice versa.

If only our life isn't so dependent upon relationships with other people.

Hear it from me, I learnt it the hard way.




-alexeO-

Piercing Stares

If I stop judging, will I stop being judged?

As a sidenote, stop branding, labeling and essentializing me you ignorant fools.

After a thoughtful consideration, I think I would do with one person liking me versus wanting the whole world to.

Then again, I'm not so sure. But I shall shape my life according to that belief now.

Why are some people in the world so goddamn gifted and talented? What's worst is when you actually thought you had a particular ability or talent only to have it rudely taken away from you when you realized that your virtually non-existent abilities are remarkably inferior to those other people you meet later in life.

So where does that put me?

Not in a very good place - that's for sure.




-alexeO-