Monday, March 29, 2004

How will you feel when....

Got this sudden urge of posting this message as soon as it 'happened' to me.... =/ Felt very... uncomfortable when it happened to me... felt.... left out... felt like being kicked 3 times at my solar plexus..... Felt, like trust is a word without anymore meaning...Hmm..... If it's a matter of maturity and accepting things the matured way... i have to admit i'm not ready for that yet. Cause, I honestly, was not very pleased after this 2 phone conversation... :-


-Was doing my physics revision online at some site, then saw something i not sure need to memorise so i called my fren-

Me : Hello, *Fren's Name*

Fren: Hey, yeah? anything?

Me : Hey, don't put on speakerphone... other ppl can hear me..

Fren: Oh ok, ...wait, yeah?

Me : Yeah... u know this formula.......*some crap long formula*.................... do u need to memorize it?

Fren: Yeah, u have to... the teacher said whatever he thought will be coming out...

Me : Oh ok..hold on...got phone..
*Back from phone call*

Fren : Hurry man, i don't have much time...

Me :*Jokingly* you think i wanna take ur time meh?

Fren : Yeah~ Ok anything else?

Me : *confirm on the formula again*

Fren : *Slightly frustrated* yeah~ Yeah! I myself don't know the formulas yet...............so anyway, how did u know that there was ppl around me just now?

Me : Hm? Just a guess ler......Okla....thanks..bye...

So after that, i decided to call fren number 2.... just in case he know better...


Me : Helo, yeah, do u need to memorize this?

Fren : Yeah....

Me : * Asks some other question*

Ok..i'm cutting this short... so suddenly, my first fren said something... like some loud Yes? or something...

Me: Huh? ... *I thought they did some call divert thingie*...

Suddenly, another fren spoke too...quite rudely summore...like scolding me for disturbing........ I was like, " WTF?".... and i realised... they are having a study group together..
without me knowing a single thing about it...and they are like what? the frens i always go out with?


Hm..........................................................................
I duno ler.... at least now i know how it feels to not be told anything... and i dun think i'll ever do that to anyone anymore...coz i know it's not nice! =)

But oh well, maybe i duno the other story....Haha.... anyway, did some online Studying yesterday and today...yesterday did biology and now physics....and quite glad i took the science papers in English..cause it's basically all in the net... seriously some notes are really useful.... just hope i get to convert them to great results! Haha...ok..wish me luck..ending here..gotta study~ =)

Bye.


Saturday, March 27, 2004

27th March 2004, Saturday

One of the most significant date in my calendar. =/ That date is not only sandwiched between many important and eventful events, but also having many useful happenings too...!Hm.... what the heck am i talking about? To make things easier..
I'll explain one by one the numbers and words on the date(which is today anyway for u noobs that dont know):-

27th : Got to watch, know who got voted off and almost cried after the tribute video in American Idol Results Show which i was really excited to watch after the concert on Friday! Indirectly, that added my love to 8tv!~ , this date also made me know the confirmation of Malaysian Idol which I am really looking forward to!! Will tell more about that later... Thus that has made me loving 8tv even more! Did not attend tuition cause got slight transport problem~ =D(anyway, i really was not looking forward to because I was really tired =/ ) , this date also 'merupakan' a date which i was really really wanting over the week that was rumoured to have at least one day of holiday but did not and was really frustrated ! So finally free from school! Yay~ Also a date which I am supposed to STUDY.. Exams are on the 29th...!

March(reaching April) : 3rd Month of the year... and it's ending. So basically it's almost the 4th Month of the Year... Realised how fast time passes. It's almost April! During the December holidays, was thinking what will happen, how much I will change in my studies and all throughout the year. If i thought about what will happen to me on April then, I will think about rapid improvement, maturity, and well-respected. Honestly, did not really changed alot from December. =/.... Installation Day is coming~, and with a blink of an eye, end of school?! .... And damn, time passes really fast! I can't really accept the fact yet!

2004 : Wow, who would thought I will be here in 2004. After many rumours on the end of the world, asteroid striking, Y2K, Judgement Day, ridiculous events, Alex Yeo CY is here!! In 1999, when i was about 11 years old... thought about what will it be like when I am in 2001,2002,2003,2004,2005. What i saw was a taller boy, looking good, sounding sexy , having lots of friends around, being matured, doing 'cool' stuff, studying hard. Wow, did not reach my expectations but at least all happened at least a little bit =) . 2004.... Really, a year which i imagined cool future stuff... maybe not flying cars yet...but i thought of every school/house having a voice or facial detection machine or something like that~ And surprisingly, was not as disappointed as I thought when that did not happen. Cause maybe I grew along with the years and did not notice any huge change. But maybe if I come from the past, I'll see rapid developments. But I dont know~ So i can't say anything about that =)

Saturday : Eep! Back to reality. Saturday.... Monday's Exam. This a supposedly Study Day and so far i did not live up to the name yet. Got EPL soccer matches today. And tomorrow, the game of the week! A little excited about that, but i think i should not be as the 'supposed-to-have' emotion is feeling worried. So erm, will try my best to study.. and hopefully pass all the papers with my fingers crossed. Stupid stuff, only one year of difference in level of education but it's like so different. It's like playing a game starting with the difficulty 'easy' then suddenly shot up to difficulty 'you deserve to rule the world' ~ Dang the education system, and dang the high expectations. Dang everything.

Erm, back to topic. Yeah, I'm a big fan of Reality Shows! It's basically a name it, I like it kinda thing. My least favourite is maybe those obvious scripted shows , eg:- for love or money, joe millionaire, etc.

And whatever the critics say about Survivor , I love it. One of my favourite show around. Seriously, damn nice and the concept of twisting everything everytime is cool. Hail Mark Burnett! And oh yeah, Fear factor is cool too, Amazing Race is good stuff...

Not forgetting American Idol, one of the best shows! Did not expect to like it this much in the beginning...as it's only singing and all. But i finally got to understand the whole show and... love it! Watching every episode now....started from Star World ... and after I got my 8tv(favourite channel so far), I realised the episodes in 8tv is faster, so i shifted to 8tv. Watched all episodes i missed from 8tv in Star World so i basically watched almost every episode now~ Cool stuff. I already have a few favourites and like I said, elimination is a sad process =( ....was damn sad just now at the Results Show, Argh! I have no problems with Simon. =) Cool guy, cool criticism. And, it's amazing what Idol Shows like American Idol, Pop Idol, Australian Idol produce! Guy Sebastian , Gareth Gates, Will Young, Kelly Clarkson, Clay Aiken, Ruben Studdard... All really popular people now. Their songs are big hits. Even having bigger hits than the current celebrities right now worldwide. I don't see why not anyway... some of the current 'stars' suck and the idols are really talented.I like everyone of them. =)

Talking about American Idol, Malaysia Idol is coming too! Yay? or.....Gay?
I'm just curious on the judges and the contestants. I really hope they have someone like Simon who tell it as it is because without him, it's boring. Everyone will receive polite nice compliments and that's no fun at all. Then they will have to balance it out with a female pretty judge like ....Paula! =) I don't think we have a problem there as we have many talented female here in M'sia and pretty faces! =) Then Randy is basically a random spot. It will be better if we have people that are really qualifed professional judges so that we stand a chance in World Idol! I just hope the contestants are really really talented. I don't mind Vince(from Akademi Fantasia and Astro Talent Quest) win again. If not, better. I hope there's No fake 'wanna-bes' and boring voices.... or it will be a huge disappointment and embarrasment! Really excited about it, and Akademi Fantasia Season 2 is coming too... Hmm....

And I'm currently addicted to the flash games available at one site. The games are all addictive and fun to play! So basically i'll just waste my time there. And yes, that's a real distraction!... >_<.... Hm...

I actually wanted to talk about other stuff that happened recently . But the date today is too important and eventful I have to type it out! =)
Will talk about the other stuff next time that i'm sure it'll put a few more confused faces ....=/


And oh yeah, many thanks to Allen for helping me realise a few stuff and...checking out my blog often! =) Many thx to bro, sis who also helped me with my 'confusion' =) Thanks to everyone who gave their feedbacks and reading this right now! And I'm sincere! =/

Wish me luck everyone... for my exams...! Nervous.. Argh! I'm not ready at all man.... Just hope I pass everything. =/
And woah! I just accidentally off the switch for my monitor! Panicked! coz i thought i off my computer by accident without saving this !!! OMG! ....

Ok, will stop here.... ..................................still recovering from my shock...................................
ok..
Till next post,

Chiow!

Thursday, March 18, 2004

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Criticisms, Zzz

They are just .....great. Great things to improve someone or something... yes, some may show it in some different way but they all just concludes with , " it sucks,so pls do something about it. " =/ ............ Argh! people and their way of telling things... It's weird come to think of it.... to have different people saying things in different ways but end up with a same meaning... All just either trying to make the receiver feel good or to some extent..even bad... Why the heck for? If it looks ugly, say it looks ugly. I don't understand the necessity for someone to go all the trouble just to say long things with reasons and facts and proof and all... -.-" ...... coz at the end of the day, whoever that got criticised will thank them for it. And it so happens that in the world today, if someone criticised nicely, ppl will rarely take it to heart and follow.... but if someone tells them honestly and straight to their face... it works. Always. =) So basically, whoever that tries to criticise in the nicest way possible is not trying to help you at all....but a real friend who wants you to look good and proper will be damn honest even if he/she have to hurt you.... =) So don't go be angry with whoever that did that to you! (but make sure he/she is not trying to hurt u purposely just for the fun of it -.-'')So just, Trust me, I'm experienced. =)

So anyway, now -
Current Mood :- Confused . ?_?
Current Activity :- Pringles , thinking of things to type , surfing , thinking of things to type , wondering on ways to improve blog , phone just came so i'm on the phone now too. Zzz..

Btw,I received many 'interesting' remarks on the colour of my original blog.....-.-'' !......erm, wait a while....can't concentrate now..phone.... ok back....yeah, now about the 'remarks'....... Yep, I changed the colour all right...if u noticed~ duh. N this color is a random pick... so erm, feel free to comment about it!And I also wanted to add some more features to this page...i tried the colour picker and it didn't turn out so i dumped it... the small games i thought it was too ...'logical' and boring.......and other things were just too..... "mafan"....so i turned out not having anything new here except for the background colour! And if some of you noticed, there's this small banner-like picture at the bottom right..below the quote of the moment...hm... i still can't get that to work even with a proper URL and all...so if anyone know the problem, please please help...=)... So anyway, before starting to type, i thought about alot of things but i forgot it all when i started. Argh! I got terrible memory for my age anyway, an info for those who don't know~....for those who know, cheers to you coz you know me! Bwahaha, ....Zzz, And oh yeah, about my current mood now..... I'm really really confused...

Confused. In the sense that, I don't know what I'm doing now.. I don't know if i'm right, or wrong. I don't know what people think of me. I don't know what I am pictured like. I don't know what people will think of this post. All that. It's just that. I am just so confused. Am i this, or am i that? Am i north or am i south? Argh! -.-

Had a talk with a few people few days ago that made me realise how.... complicated my thoughts really are. I never really thought it was simple, really. Just not as complicated like now. I, for one... think that I'm really ....different from everyone else. I can actually feel the difference. It's that... I see things in people other people don't see. It somehow kinda acts like a Truth Machine tool and I can really see the real personality of that someone.... either first impression or the hundred, I realised I see the real true side of someone without needing to be that person's closest friend or something. I dunno. Please don't misunderstand and think I think I'm damn smart....or something. I'm being really.... honest here. =/ ..... So anyway, all that, had naturally made me..... an advicer. Yes. Someone who advices... It's basically because i really can't stand the antics all around me.... all those pretending... all those fake stuff...not being their real self... and it's also because lots of ppl around me are my friends and I want to tell them that they are wrong doing this/that and all. OF course, you will have this group of ppl who really can't stand my advices. But I do know i don't just simply go around telling ppl what to do. It's when they reach an extreme stage...pisses me off with their 'fake personality' ... i really can't stand it. Therefore, lots of ppl also think that I don't and can't tolerate with people and their negative sides... And thank God for that. Coz I really think that that is a good thing as it makes me who i am right now... Having the ability to not fall into the trap of those ppl who are just really..... fake.

I have problems explaining this i understand, 95% of ppl i tell this to don't understand what i'm trying to say. So if you are the 5% ...thanks. For instance, I have a friend who really i just don't know why...he is just so...not himself. He does things that I know he really don't mean to and things that is just not him! I don't know how to explain this. It's just so obvious to me.... but when I look around , ppl seem to be enjoying his fake style. Is this because ppl tolerate better? Are ppl actually seeing what i see in him but just ignoring it? That frustrates me to. Why am i the only one noticing it? And when I do something about it... for instance, advice my fake fren, everyone just...don't seem to back me up or care.

It's like being in a scene with no sound at all where I see this man killing this woman and giving the knife to someone else beside him and when the police arrives, they catch the man holding the knife at that time, leaving the murderer standing there pretending to be innocent.... And everyone else noticed it too! But they just stand there...stares blindly without muttering a sound at that woman lying dead....while I keep jump , scream , shout , tell the policeman that the real murderer is standing at that scene itself.

It's scary. It really is. Is that what is really happening? Or no one except me noticed the murder?

Just imagine that scene without any sound. It's freaking me out right now. Coz that can be the reality. Or is it not? I'm confused again.

So I just hope i don't pass a false negative message here. Coz I am a confused young boy and don't really know what's happening. So erm, anyone know the truth or have similiar thoughts or just wanna flame me, feel free to post your comment or just post at the chatterbox... I'm getting really blur right now and tired ..... like usual. So erm, thanks for ur responses for my previous post. Incubus rox btw. and God, the sweaty guy. I feel damn dirty when i think about it. Zzz..
So ending here... and speaking bout friends...... bah..i'll do it in my next post..

Bai~

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

Incubus, 16th of March 2004, Kuala Lumpur

Woah~
The concert..was somewhat..amazing. Nothing went wrong i think...except for a few people who almost fainted and puked due to the lack of air to breathe! But other than that, it was great, as expected. And oh yeah, the other few things that bothered me was the ''I-dont-care-who-you-are-but-i-am-gonna-jump-like-mad-till-i-step-on-your-shoe'' attitude, and the freaking smokers that smoked non stop throughout the concert that just ruined the healthy me and made me smell like them, the people who just squeezed through everyone just to get a good place to stand...and of course... my height~ =(

Dang, life is certainly unfair for those who are just basically genetically shorter ~ Yes it is. And almost or just basically everyone reading this right now is taller than me...so you don't know.. Well, i'm telling ya right now.... just try to bend your knees down till you reach my height... makes the world a bigger place, doesn't it? Argh! and that's the thing that bothers me... and even the fact that i stood somewhere at the front of the many many people in the concert, i still faced that problem! One tall guy is enough to block my view! Grr..... they should impose a rule where shorter people like Alex Yeo should stand in front because everyone wants to enjoy the concert~ Oh well, that's basically impossible, so I just think i should be lucky cause I was one of the dudes in front and my vision can squeeze through a few heads to see the band playing. =) If i was somewhere in the center or at the back, i won't be posting this right now. Probably either screaming in frustration or dozing off somewhere cause the medical team pulled me out during the concert to give me the attention i need~ Well, that didn't happen. So i'm happy and rocking!

Btw, to make things look neater and easier, this was my schedule:-
11:30am-5.00pm : Arrived at Praveen's house...! Waited for Allen, watched TV, went online..... So after a little while, Allen arrived with his usual self.... First thing he said when he saw me, " Alex. You look fat/fatter" ...........I was like....."Really? Damn." But in my heart.... I wanted to reach inside his organs and pull everything out and tie it all around his face and kick him till i leave a shoe mark on him.... but i didn't, =) So everything went fine.....! 'Walked' to SS15~ the Cafe area....had lunch. Ate Tomyam Fried Rice+Egg on top which is damn nice like usual..... Oh damn, hungry...argh...so anyway, after lunch, went to Cafe, surfed, chatted, played........and went back to Praveen's house. Called taxi to take us to Amcorp Mall...... went there to meet praveen's father, father fetched us to Bukit Kiara, bla bla bla bla bla bla bla........ and arrived at 5! Concert supposed to start at 8/9 by the way..

So 5 pm.... We went to the ticket counter and i wasn't surprised by the crowd turn out at that time..... already damn many people in front....so we just basically followed the line and stood somewhere in the Front-Center line..... I looked at my watch... 5.30... OMG! and i heard the gate opens at 7....... I seriously did not think that i can tahan for like.... an hour and a half standing there doing nothing...slowly sandwiched... argh.... well I did ..... =) We just distracted ourselves from being tired by standing in weird leg positions, talking, eating Ice-Cream..... (Nestle Drumstick sux btw,) and doing other stuff till they finally open the gates...OMG! That part was seriously damn fun..... I was like laughing all the way with my frens coz everyone was like pushing, pushing...can't even stand straight..there was one part where i have to hold a tree just to make sure i stayed balance.......bwahahaha......so after a while of pushing and ass to ass touching (yucks) we finally got through , gave the ticket and ran to the front of the indoor thingie and stood there.... We were there like..i dunno how long..i lost track of time talking and waiting impatiently while allen got prav and himself a beer .... I drank water btw.... I don't drink~ I'll lose my hot personality if i do that ... =) So anyway, the people really started to grow.....really...a lot... from the time u were enjoying the air to breathe and complaining about the heat..... you will complain about the air and the heat 30 minutes later... argh...~ So the lights dimmed, people cheered, they tested the spotlight, people cheered....they arranged the props, people cheered.... lolz... abit lame but i understand their excitement....!

So after a while, a band came out ..... Pop Shuvit(spelling)~ and Wow..I realised they are really good...! I never really understood asian rock bands before but pop shuvit really proved me wrong... they really were very good and i enjoyed every bit of their gig...cool stuff..... people started to warm-up and go crazy and jumped and all..which was really fun... =) After Pop Shuvit.... OAG came......I was like....WTF...but when they start..... I only recognized them.....recognized their songs rather....=)..popular stuff..... so everyone got crazy again, jumped again and got excited....~

Then after their performance, everyone waited for another half an hour again....Zzz.... but this time everyone was not that impatient cause they know the main performance will be out next.....after a little while...Incubus walked in...and woah...started with Megalomaniac....and wow........ It was crazy.... Fun like hell, Great like dunnowhat..... everyone sang along, rocked, jump......damn cool.... nice stuff..fantasic stuff..... then a few songs passed, and that was when things started to get a little irritating.....! One smoker beside me was like blowing the smoke out everywhere..and I even got to touch the heat of the ciggaratte! Ouchh.....and taller people was squeezing through everyone and blocking almost everything of my view...! And Suddenly, I was seperated from Allen and prav...it was damn lame....lol..... I got back to them anyway, when i finally couldnt stand the heat and CO2 so I just squeezed through some people and reached them~ Got a slightly better view....there's this small gap where my vision can actually squeeze through... and see the singer...nice stuff ...people all around know the lyrics and that made the atmosphere even better~ Ah.... cool stuff.... and there's this guy.....and freaking hell..... his hair is...... quite long.....and omg........ full of freaking sweat....and during the songs.... He was like shaking his head all around... and yes...I WAS BESIDE HIM! AHHHHHHH!!!! I felt so disgusted and sticky that i have to move a little bit more to the right.... and then came other guy in front of me... jumping like nobody's business , stepping on my shoe and toes during the process....damn it. Be considerate man....

So other than that, everything was great.. they never sang Drive though... sang lots from their new album =/ ......... I got to enjoy myself quite well that night..... a stress releaser.... =) But i can see Allen enjoyed it more~ He jumped much higher and shaked much more..... Lolz.... it was a funny and enjoyable night and trust me, I'll go again if there's anymore rock concerts coming to Malaysia~ I'll go to any concert anyway... I love music~...=) So if u got the time and no company, ask me out! bwahaha......! (and i mean it -_-)

And now erm, my blog is getting really messy and stupid....my language is all mixed up right now.......my head's still shaking in the concert.....dang.....getting really sleepy now....zzz.... and I think I wrote enough! Any question post it at my comment section or chatterbox...I'll Try to answer you , considering if I know the answer or not.... :) So getting really tired of typing right now.... Zzz..... Have......to........end....this.......post.......

btw:- Shaved a little just now...and i left a little moustache there coz i felt.... 'keberatan' ARGH! and i look damn ugly now!
Dang those people who said my moustache is ugly and ask me to shave....oh well, it will grow back soon =/ I HOPE!

So,

PEACE OUT!
AND ROCK ON!
BWAHAHA~

-Adios-

Monday, March 15, 2004

Wow..

It's been a while.....a very very long while!!

OMG!!! I feel so.....sorry for my blog.. I just abandoned it like that..... NOOOOOOOO!!! Anyway, don't worry visitors that check this page often, (I'm not saying this to please myself, I know there are ppl who still check this site regularly! I know you are out there!!) =) I'm gonna start blogging anytime soon!!! So pls do check this page~ N I'm gonna add a chatterbox to me page too! Got the idea from Atif/ Leon's blog.... Go check out their blogs too.. I have links to their page~ Cool stuff....rite.... so now i got a comment thingie + a chatterbox~ So just write stuff at the right place k?

K...Holidays(1 week) are here...and i'm not gonna waste my time doing nothing! :)

Have fun all...

Peace out