Ow.

My forehead hurts. I think I got like 3 new pimples.

I was randomly rubbing my forehead when suddenly I touched a painful bump. I moved around more and realised there are about 2 more which hurts. To add to that, my palm was almost fully covered with oil.

Heck. What is happening.


Screw you pimples.


Gah,
-alexeO-

When the clock shows 3:21am and you are not yet asleep and still facing the computer with 'sejarah' notes scattered in front of you, you know you are in deep shit

Not long more.

(shivers)

Hmm.

I duno what to say.

It feels like.. I'm just waiting for the time to come. Just sitting here letting the seconds tick away and just let time pass and yet there is this twisted feeling in your heart telling you that you are not prepared to face it yet.

Hmm. Dunno how. I've also decided that I may not screw Chemistry just yet. :) Teck Eng was my saviour and he today decided to tutor me the basic stuff you must know for Chemistry. Well apparently if I know the few stuff he thought, I wouldn't fail and will at least score a credit. That's kinda cool considering I had originally planned to forget about Chemistry. And yea, the stuff he thought enlightened me alot. Chemistry's kinda interesting now the way I look at it. Thanks TE!

Today's the last day for certain schools. Yesterday for another number of schools.
I wonder how the Form 5s are taking it over there. I have one more week of school. The week after the upcoming holiday week would be my last. I had planned to do sooo many things with different friends on how are we going to give the best goodbye ever. I had planned with one friend to put all memories into a form of Cds, planned with another to take as many photos as possible, planned with another to give an individual goodbye speech. Obviously I hope I can manage to do all of that but if only time allows. Sigh. So little time.

It's so sudden ya know. Teachers telling us to study like 2 months ago. Suddenly after the trials I had already like 3-4 weeks to SPM. Very sudden indeed.

I know i'm not incapable of scoring good results. I do know I'm capable.
My forecast results may show a little on how I am doing but it doesn't show my inner strength and abilities at all.

With a little bit of will, I'm gonna prove my teachers who gave me Cs and Bs wrong.


Thank you,
-alexeO-

The man

I am a misai boy who scored 3A1s, 1A2, 1B3, 1B4 15C, 26Cs for my forecast.
Which also means 4As,2Bs,3Cs.

And nope, i'm not that shy about my results. If not it wouldn't be posted here.

I'm such a effing noob.

I still got one more Biology paper to go but I doubt it'll affect my forecast by anyhow.


Hooray to me. A1 for BM, eng, EST just in case you're curious. And 6C for what else but Chem and Add Maths.


20 more days,
-alexeO-

25 days, 50 mins

Yeap. That's how long till SPM actually begins. Pretty scary thought. Even after watching The Amazing Race just now, was intially excited after watching next week's preview. But after thinking how close it is to SPM next week, mixed feelings. Hmm.

Results were pretty not satisfying so far. I did horrible for my Chemistry and Add Maths Paper 1. I'm actually kinda disappointed. I'm gonna do something about it.

Other than that, I believe most teachers had already finished marking. I heard lots of senior 5 parents were complaining cause of how late the trials were and how are they gonna apply for scolarship and such. As such, I think all the results will be finalised tomorrow with exception of Biology I think cause we just finished Bio this Monday.

Damn sad. Getting so near.



Aih.
-alexeO-

Dell 24" Widescreen UltraSharpTM 2405FPW Flat Panel Monitor

Dad bought a freaking awesome monitor for himself. But i'm using it temporarily.. best resolution goes up to 1920X1200. It's the Dell 2405FPW.

Bwahaha. Tried Dota-ing just now with the monitor. Initially got a little headache but it didn't take too long for me to get used to it. It's a little weird cause the units are bigger than usual so it's like erm, will take some time to micro haha. Now thinking like omg, if I still could play World of Warcraft. Will be damn damn damn chun man!



Chunted. Damn big. Hahaha.


Playing Dota requires you to be more observant.


The Dell 2405FPW

Too bad I still got Biology exam on Monday and SPM in one month's time.
If not it's gonna be WoW frenzy for me with this baby!



Dell-ed,
-alexeO-

Not over

So I have one more paper this coming Monday, Biology for my SPM trials. The science week wasn't woweee as expected. Chemistry was horrrribleee.. Add Maths i really duno how I did. Physics, checked my paper 2 and realised it was about the same standard with any other physics paper i've done.

I duno man. It just seemed like I just cannot pass the barrier. The barrier which after crossing will only trigger the improvement... I'm just so stucked. My science subjects marks are the most consistent marks of all my subjects. It's not like it's a good thing. But the marks ranges from 40-50. Every single time.

That's like damn sad.

Sigh.
What happened to the Alex who actually studied and worked. Well maybe it was never there. But it was never 'this' bad. I mean, yeah i've been working now and all. Too late? I duno. But I just know that I will not regret if my SPM results are not satisfying.

But hmm, there's still one more month.
Gogogogogogo Alex!


Support me!
-alexeO-

Chem

Chemistry. How many countless times have I complained here. Well I'm gonna do it again. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*)^&#%@#$!@)&($^&#$%!@$%!@%&@#$&^@#$!! ARgh.

My chemistry sucks. And I'm gonna have the chemistry paper for my trials tomorrow! Yay.

No matter how hard I try, it's just insufficient.

Hey Chemistry, I think you already know but I hate you!!!


GAhhhhh.


Wish me luck!
-alexEO-

Blogskins

That's it. Spent 2.5 hours searching for a new blogskin at www.blogskin.com but OMGWHATTHETOOTOEEOBOOTEATAEGAEGHAOROHORNYCOWPROBLEMGAHGUHGEE man!!! Some either focuses ur text at one small little box at the center, some fonts too small or some looks nice initially but after going through all the hassle in editing ur template, previewing it sucks. So I'm just gonna remain it as it is at the meantime. I'll probably change the colour and that's it.

I had enuff :(

So the only changes i've made to this Blog is 2 brand new fresh links! One to Mei Chan(Petaibabe) and another to Teck Eng(LTE). Do visit them as they are interesting individuals like you and me too! :D


Gonna relax my mind now after stressing myself over the blogskins. Grrr.



Surfed~
-alexeO-

28th November

:) These days I received many emails regarding on what the birthday of a certain someone actually means. I don't know if it's true but I sure like it to be everytime :D Well i analysed two of these kinda emails i got and this were the answers.


Is your birthday day 28 of the month?
Your Life
You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own ability.
This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If you
try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to see
things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever.
Your Love
You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in your
heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out before
seeing any progress in love.

I also checked...

NOVEMBER:
> >>Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique
and
> >>brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and
strong
> >>clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in
> >>personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets.
> >>Always thinking.Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous.
> >>Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a
> >>way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless
> >>provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others.
> >>Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not
> >>appreciates praises. High- spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep
> >>love and emotions.Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely.
> >>Hardworking. High abilities.Trustworthy. Honest and keeps
>
>>secrets. Not able to control emotions.Unpredictable


Well they certainly sound nice but I still have my doubts. For example, "hardly becomes angry unless provoked"...this is certainly untrue. I get easily very fast. -_- ..I'm also not patient and i DO appreciate praises. I'm not high-spirited and I dont think i'm well-built either. Hardworking is laughable. Hahaha. Other than that shud be right :P.


And I don't like the Love Life thing. Unlucky in love?!!!

GAh!
-alexeO-

Before I forget...



Happy 17th Birthday Chrisanne Oh!!!!!!!

Yes, yes. I know you're older than me. No need show off. Now get ur license and drive me around! :D

Hope on this very day onwards we forget any previous misunderstandings we had real life or even on the Internet! :P Also hope you actually enjoyed your 17 years in this world and start preparing for the next many years to come! :D :D :D


Me and Anne.
-alexeO-

Dad's birthday

My family has this thing of celebrating every single family member's birthday regardless of the age whatsoever. As long as you are still part of the family and is available in Malaysia(to my 2nd sis n bro ;P), your birthday will definitely be celebrated. Not with balloons and party hats and all but maybe just a nice dinner outside and the famous tradition of blowing the birthday cake. Btw, the time you spent with friends is either the night before or the morning/afternoon of your birthday. I personally think this is a good way to keep the family bonded every year. :D

So 2 days ago, on the 5th, my family and I went for a dinner outside. I was in the middle of my trials(I'm still in the middle of my trials now) but what the heck. I wouldn't miss it. So as I sleepily woke up from my regular afternoon nap, I got myself ready that night and my sister was impatiently ushering me to the car. A few minutes later on the road, I could start talking again.

Me : Eh, where we going to eat ar?

Sis: Some vegetarian restaurant.

Me : (What the heck!) Har, why?!!!!

Sis: Mum eating vegetarian today wor. Have to lah.

Me : Sigh. Yeah hor. Hmmm.

Sis: Lol.


Everyone knows I hate vegetables. Omg. The bitterness. When i was younger, i couldn't see why anyone could ever eat it as if they don't feel a single thing. I mean, how could some even say things like ,"wah, damn nice" when they chew on the..green leaves!

So anyway, I knew I had no choice and not eating meat that night may not be as bad as I initially thought too. Firstly definitely for health reasons.. The other was it wasn't the first time my family went to a vegetarian restaurant for a birthday dinner. So I remembered the last time I went and the food wasn't that bad. I mean they actually have fish, meat, mutton made from vegetables. Very good efforts I should say.. looking at the food which really looked like real meat but in fact was actually made by flour etc etc. Some looked so similiar(and even tasted quite similiar) until my Dad made a joke about even if they really put meat inside, you wouldn't know.

Well, he has a point you know. Hmmm.

So after a short ride in the car, I finally arrived! The shop name was Lian Chi Vege Health Food restaurant. Damn, what a turn-off. Health food never tasted as good as it benefits. I think this is where the 'you gotta give and take' phrase comes in.



It didn't take long for me to realised the ceiling design inside was really good! They have this lanterny lord-of-the-rings-elf-land-lanterns hanging from the ceiling. Other than that, the entire restaurant was pretty ordinary.



My parents, aunty and a friend of my family's came a little later and joined my sis,grandma(was with us) and me. My sister ordered the food and the orders were eatable. Lol. A while later, the waiter came in and arranged the bowls in a circular order. Just like what they do in chinese restaurants before the shark fin soup comes out! It was kinda exciting thinking what soup was gonna appear. When the waiter brought the huge soup bowl in, it actually smelt like the shark fins soup! I wasn't kidding. Definitely, it wasn't. It was just this. -_-"



And hey it is not as bad as it looks(maybe). It tasted fine except for some strands of vegetable and the soup is in fact green in colour. -_-"

I didn't take any pictures after that as I thought it was a little distracting to my family members. :P The few dished which came out next was actually quite good especially the fake curry mutton. That is my favourite vegetarian dish and I'm proud of it! :D

My Dad's birthday celebration continued with my entire family singing the Happy Birthday Song and blowing of the cake in my Mum's Office in her shop. The cake tasted not bad and I gotta go home after that.(The next day I was going to have my Sejarah paper. I did quite okay I think for that paper.)

Summary of One Week of Trials.
The papers were okay. Wasn't that easy wasn't that difficult. I hope I would get some surprise results which I myself didn't expect I would get. I asked for my Moral marks a little earlier in school today before my Maths Examinations and my teacher was like, "you ar...macam enam puluh lebih..sixty something.. saya tak berapa ingat. saya tahu cuma 2 orang dapat lima puluh lebih dalam kelas ini" Wtf. Wasn't very motivating or convincing. Actually made me thought about it and worry during my second maths paper. Grrr. I hope he REALLY wasn't sure. I'm certainly wasn't expecting sixty something especially after I realised alot of ppl got 70 something and the highest was 82. Argh. Frustration. Somehow, I think i shouldn't had asked for my marks. Oh well. Come to think about it, i know ppl who failed their moral. So erm, it isn' so bad? Sigh. I really don't want sixty something!~ I will be damn disappointed. Sigh.

Next week is the dreaded week of any examinations. The Science Week. The week which is gonna pull my first week marks down like hell. Damn dumbbbbbbbbbbbbbb. Hope can score for my Physics. Add maths..I really hope I would pass again and hopefully score higher, but the recent results I got in class wasn't very convincing. Nooo. For chemistry, hahahahahaha.


Trials,
-alexeO-