Happy Valentine's Day

Everyone's doing it so I can't lose out. =)

I hope everyone had as happy valentine's. I certainly did.
I had my 17th Valentines alone.Again. Nice streak. ;)

Shyan flew off this morning. A dedicated post to her will be done soon enough. This is not it, however.

<3 <3 <3

Hearts are fun to play around with.
Roses are red as usual.
I think i'm suffering from single-atrobia.Whatever that last part means.

Am I what some ppl will like a 'companion' to be?
Am I qualifed enough to take care of another?
Did I successfully make other ppl think what I want them to think of me?

Heck, I can't even take care of myself.
But hey.. who the heck cares?

Happy Valentine's Day all!
From a young, sexy,(and quite desperate) single and available man..


-alexeO-

Bwahahaha!
<3 <3 <3

Cahaya VII 2005

Around 15 minutes ago, I took my pendrive(which I have not used since late last year) down as I wanted to transfer my newly designed timetable into it to be printed somewhere else.

I viewed the contents and was very surprised indeed. :)
I found files I forgot was even there.

Last year's SSC magazine's editorial contents. :D

Not only I designed many of the pages in the magazine, I was asked to design the cover as well. I did 3 overall and let the board and teachers chose for themselves. So just now, I took a look at the 3 different covers I designed and analysed it a little.
Unfortunately, it doesn't look as nice as I first designed it. :(

Haha the covers are so funny I just have to post it.
Corny and messy are the right words for it. XD

Cover 1 has got dark and gloomy feel to it(at least that was what I wanted anyway).
The eagle is just there for some gaya reason and the contrast from darkness to light should be obvious but it obviously isn't. The forests below are supposed to be the dark side and the top bright area shud be the bright side. Like showing some change in alignment. Darkness to light.. get it? Those kind. Like Seri Cahaya bringing light unto the world. :)


Cover 1

Cover 2 is quite gay. Trying to be unique but didn't work out. The middle scenery section is just too contrasting with the light background. I was told the eagle looks extremely corny here. But wait a minute guys. Just try picturing this as a cover of a school magazine. It'll be freaking cool. I just wanna try man! The color.. first time in SSC history.. Yea..


Cover 2

Cover 3 is very similiar to Cover 2. I just doing it for Kim's sake. She got ideas of her own and wants to put the Seri Cahaya name and logo above instead of below. I don't remember who suggested bringing the 'dark forest' here.. But it just looks plain dumb.


Cover 3

So which of those 3 was finally selected?
None!
=D

Many hours in the computer lab and home each day thrown into the rubbish bin. :D
I'm so pleased. :D
No one informed me. :D
Why am I smiling. :D

I was then told the printing company designed the final cover or something. I was told all 3 covers were rejected for some reason.
So my final issue of Cahaya school mag which has me in it look like this!


Mag and Haris hand

p/s : I'm not disappointed or angry or anything.. Just frustrated on the fact that no one told me anything about designing a cover or what should be done etc. All they did say was ,"Alex. Design a cover" and I just did my job. No one checked my work until I submitted it. Oklah..to be honest how could I not be affected! Zz. Ok I admit the covers are not very nice but still! Tell me what you guys want wert. Zzz. And no, I'm not blaming anything on the editor. I'm still actually quite glad I did many pages in the mag. Proudest pages are the Editorial Board pages. 10q for ur time. :)


-alexeO-

Change of the tides

After last week's post, I suffered from a lack of inspiration and ideas. And still is suffering now. :(

So on Thursday, Allen,Kelvin,Haris,Richmond and I sent Praveen off-ed at KLIA. He left to Trinity College at Melbourne for his foundation studies. The beginning of our high school friends seperations? I don't know. It just feels awkward having your friend flying off to another place for his studies. It's not like it didn't happen before.. Adrian left after Form 1, Janice after Form 2, Joyce after Form 3..
I mean it's just different this time. I just can't explain it.

So like what I did for Adrian, I'm gonna dedicate this little post to him! :)

Hm,
It IS gonna be different without having Praveen tagging around at outings. I just realised it after he flew. Lmao. He makes the outings different somewhat. His double personality enables him to mix with all sorts of ppl, joining different groups. It's weird cause I just realised recently that I was actually quite close to him to an extent cause I remembered overnighting at his house with Allen for a few times already. We actually had this link I thought we never had. Bwahaha. It'll be funny to overnight at his house if he is to ask me recently. None of our outings now can be done without an argument, insult or vulgarity. :) All in a fun way of course.

I guess my 'drinking' sessions have to be put on a hold now. Hahaha. He's the main organiser of this sorta things. My wish is to pour beer all over him next year in Melbourne(there's a story behind this). They're several ppl waiting for me there next year btw. I just HAVE to go.

Praveen can also be considered some sort of an all-rounder I guess. If only he buck up on his academics side. Hahaha. He's not the dumb type or the lazy kind. His general knowledge totally pwns mine. He just doesn't excel to a standard where ppl can praise his academics.. U know.. those kind. He's sportsman of the year in SSC for several years(not a big achievement since it's just 'SSC' actually). He was head prefect after *cough* a few problems last year. And he won some several pointless awards. To top that up, he knew me personally. ;) That's a one hella big achievement.


Praveen and Huey Shyan

Oh yeah, Huey Shyan will also be leaving to the same place on Tuesday. :S I'm losing more company! Bah, more details soon enuff.

So anyway, it's gonna be a dull-er year without his overexaggerated laughs and high-fives. Gonna miss our frequent teamup vs Kelvin and fights we ever had. And oh yea, we haven't 'settle' it yet. Or fight till someone dies. HAhahahahah.

Shit ler. As I'm writing this.. I'm thinking of more and more times I actually liked him(in a straight way of course).

So for another many months, I will just have to insult Kelvin myself I guess. Lmao.
It will be soon until I can see his dumb face and then have our 'close account' hand shake. Bwahahaha.


-alexeO-

CNY 'pai-nien' day

I just came back from Huey Shyan's house an hour ago and feeling the extreme tiredness I should feel. My day started off at 11.30am when I HAD to wake up as the twins and Kelvin was supposed to pick me up for our planned 'pai-nien-house-to-house-thing'. So they sat for a while for courtesy sake and disturbed me while I was trying to get ready. I decided to bring my camera along as I thought it would be interesting to post the pictures I took for my very 'adventurous' day. :)

So I slept at 5am yesterday morning as I totally forgot about our initial plan. :(
Was dota-ing till 4am and finally felt like sleeping at 5am. Sienz. Had to wake up around 10+ to reply Teck Eng's sms regarding the time he would be coming and shit.
How sienz and tiring. So about 20mins before their arrival, I forced myself out of bed and took a shower. When they arrived, they spent time for a little while(just waiting for the angpau of course) and didn't let me get ready in peace. Thx anyway to the twins for fetching me the whole day! BWahaha. Before we left, we decided to take a picture to show our starting point.. before it all began.


The initial 4 before the group expanded. :) (at my house)

We left to KGSAAS after that to visit the KGSAAS ppl. It was only then we realised we could only visit Chrisanne as the others are either not there anymore or we are not really close to them. How unfortunate. -_- . We had to stop by at Vernon's place first as Chrisanne said she wasn't ready or something and ask us to take our time.
So we kacau-ed Vernon at his place and woke him up from his few hours sleep to spend time with us while we waited. From there, Gadafi went over and they both went to Chrisanne house with us in a little golden Kembara. :)


Teck Eng acting himself on the way to KGSAAS residentials.


Vernon forced to entertain us and Teck Eng.


Group Pic at Vernon's

When we arrived at Chrisanne's house, we were treated with some drinks(thx chrisanne) and some 'surprise' visit from Amy, Yin Ying and Wey Ping. Pretty cool as the gang became big and we started our first blackjack session. I lost alot that round btw. Was winning initially but had a losing spree all of a sudden. Nvm la. CNY once a year only wert.. Bwahaha.


Vernon getting excited over the card game.


Group Pic at Chrisanne's

So Chrisanne tagged along after that with us to Bukit Jelutong to visit Brandon Ho. Also met up with Jason Tee whom I've not seen for quite some time so meeting him again was kinda interesting. Only then I realised his flight was a few hours time from then so we had to say our goodbyes and hellos the very same day. -_-
Had another round of Blackjack there and that was when I realised how 'ong' Chrisanne is. I made her sit behind me when I played and I did win some money. O.o.


Group Pic at Brandon's

After that, went to Giant to makan MCDs and waved goodbye to Jason Tee who was gonna study in Taylors Australia. As soon as we ate, moved on with the twins to their Mobil station as that was the meeting place we set for Haris and Allen to join us.
Damn long later, only they arrived. Wtf man. But anyway, on the way to the Mobil station with the twins, we jumped off our seats like jacoons when we saw one nice rainbow right beside us! I mean.. it's the nicest rainbow I've seen to be honest. So curved. And so near! I could actually see the end!! Not literally the end.. but still! I can see the..almost the end. It's damn cool ler. It looks 46324623X better real life than in the photo I took! Gaya.


Nice rainbow. Best shot out of around 5 shots I had.


Twins acting boss

So after Allen and Haris arrived, 4 cars departed from the Mobil station to Nick's house. Didn't spend much time there unfortunately so we didn't get to catch the lion dance performance :( Saw some ppl who I thought I would never meet again too. :)
Interesting visit. Honestly hoped I could had stayed longer.


Rock Garden at Nick's house. Looks damn nice.

Departed from Nick's house to Shyan's house after that for a steamboat dinner!
It's like a friends gathering kinda thing so it's nice to see us interacting with each other again after so long. :( I ate super damn alot until I don't feel like I ate alot anymore. Yea that much. WTF i don't make sense. Bah screw it. The point is, I still had a satisfying dinner. And ate alot. Zzz.


Steamboat preparation at Shyan's place.


A bunch of greedy ppl.


Group Pic at Shyan's

Watched Arsenal beat Birmingham too after the makan session in the house. Chrisanne got a little tired so Haris sent her home and I just tagged along. :/ Thanks Haris!

I damn tired now btw. Not enuff sleep and too much activity for the inactive me.
College starting this coming Monday. Sien. Common Tests too. ARGHHH.

Fun's over for now I guess.
GG.

Yawn.


-alexeO-

CNY Part 2

So after the gambling session at my grandma's place which I lost alot, we went back to the hotel. Renaissance Hotel imo, is.. good! I don't know if it's the new bed they introduced or something.. but if there's a day which I just wanna run off from society for a while, I'll go there. ;) Super comfortable and the bathroom rox too.
Speaking bout the new beds they were promoting like crazy, it comes with 3 huge pillows and nice white sheets. No more disgusting greenish/brownish blanket thing. Those are cheap. :)


They actually have this at the lobby. -_-


The beds at the room! So comfy.

Day 2 was as quiet as the quiet-est street in Malacca. So we had the usual "GONG XI FA CAI" and "HAPPY NEW YEAR" greetings. Had a gambling session too the moment we arrive after lunch. After that, my very kind hearted aunty decided to bring the 2 maids whom we brought from KL to go bersia-sia. I tagged along of course, as I wanted to test out my photography skills which..erm.. didn't turn out that fantastic.
Brought them to the big old ship made museum for some photo takings.


The Battleship. Or whatever u call it.

Also went to the A Famosa Fort as u know..the big brick structure is apparently very ..'historical'. Also felt proud to recite to them the history of Malacca as we passed by a few buildings. "Tengok bangunan itu.. dibina Belanda ketika Melaka dijajah oleh mereka.. Tengok itu! Itu Portugis bina untuk mempertahankan jajahan mereka dari Acheh.." I felt damn smart that day wei! Sejarah SPM sure A1! Unfortunately, at school, we don't only learn about the foundations of Malacca. :( Sigh.


Famosa Fort from a distance. Many visitors.


A Famosa. (play champions league soundtrack)

Also passed by 4 different religious ..how do u call that.. worship areas? There's this hindu temple, mosque, chinese temple and church. All built damn long ago!!!
And the interesting part is.. all just beside one another! Harmony man. All build around the 17th to 18th century. :) Nice feeling to your heart. Like facing history face-to-face. Chunted. Unfortunately, I was too distracted by the fact that i'm facing history until I forgot to take photographs. Sigh.

The whole day was a bore after that.. Did nothing was extremely tired so I went to bed early. My final day in Malacca, my family and I were treated to an interesting lion dance performance at the lobby of the Renaissance Hotel. Pretty cool. First time I saw the lion standing on a pillar held by many men below. Gayanya. I know they have this thing for making the lion vegetarian but this is the first time I see the lion eating the cabbage from many feet above balancing on one pillar. Damn cool!


Lion on pillar trying to reach for the cabbage.


Roar. I ownz j00.

The Wan-Tan-Mee stall which my family regularly go to at Malacca was closed that day.. So we tried another stall instead. It was quite good actually. Pretty oily but I'm okay with it. :) I'm not very picky when it comes to food. Except vegetables thx.


The mee strangely looks fatter in photographs than in real life.

Went around Malacca for some sightseeing(father's plan) and traveled back to my grandma's place again. Met up with aunty who wanted to try the Nyonya food. SO ONCE AGAIN, I left the house to eat. Zzz. The Nyonya food was pretty good.. except I was too full to finish the Nyonya Laksa. :( The Nyonya Cendol was super sweet but I like it. Damn refreshing. The Nyonya Rojak thingy was okay.. like any other Rojak. Not a big Rojak fan here. :(


Nyonya Bee-Hoon Laksa


Nyonya Cendol


Half eaten Nyonya Rojak. -_-


This is the stall if you wanna try. Apparently it's a house-made-stall. Very long inside. This man looks happy to be posing for me.

Then went back to Grandma's place ONCE AGAIN for our final goodbyes and see you next year that kinda thing. The trip there was pretty good and the most important part was being able to stick together as a family even after this many years. I don't think many families would be able to meet for like what..so many years in a row already? Hmm. :/

Next year, there's a possibility of me not celebrating CNY at home anymore. :/
But the possibility is still not high so I'll just screw it for the moment. :)

So,
CNY reunion gone.
College's starting again.

Life is gonna be as dull as the journey back to KL.


woosh~


-alexeO-

CNY Part 1

My parents felt that 2 years is more than enough so they decided to celebrate the CNY back where it originally was.. Malacca. For the past 2 years, the Yeo family had been celebrating the CNY at my place, Shah Alam as they feel a change is required to toss away the old same routine and the boredom it may bring. But it isn't easy having a reunion at ur place. So...yeah.. :)

The trip back to Malacca was a relaxing one as the car had 2 ppl less this time. :D
It was definitely less fun but at least my sister and I got a bigger space to rest in the car for the journey there..


Damn jam wei. Frustrating!


Sun setting down on me.. :(

I left on CNY's eve so the jam was kinda obvious. Sigh. The supposedly 1 hour trip doubled in length and I had to suffer in the car. :(

Went straight to the hotel to drop stuff and went to the restaurant for the reunion dinner. Late as usual, being the Yeo family. Bwahaha. Met relatives and all there.
Pretty awkward as the the environment feels the same every single year. :/


Incomplete Yee-Sang. A must have for every CNY dinner

Went to my grandma's hse after that for the ang pau sessions from my aunty and uncles and of course, the gambling session. Bwahaha. I lost the most that night btw..compared to the other gambling session I had. ARgh.


A game of 21

Also played Mahjong and lost once again in the hotel with my cousins. !!!! Damn unlucky wei..Not noob ok? I got the set and all..but sometimes not enuff points to win.. or just plain lousy tiles. :(

Bah. I'll leave the rest for Part 2. :) Food pics coming up. Meanwhile, pls do call me for some mahjong or blackjack sessions. And I want to attend open houses! Don't forget to invite me pls..for all the good reasons :)


-alexeO-

Goodbye once again, Adrian Chong

Just last year, when Adrian left for Perth after his holidays.. I honestly didn't feel anything at all. It was only this particular return to Malaysia he made that had caused the strings to be rebonded.



Honestly speaking, however gay it may sound, I feel like I wouldn't be the Alex Yeo I am today if I had never gotten to know him. Eventhough it was obvious he was finding me an average boy in his classes, I still felt much respect for him.
It may be because of his sister or just his frequent first positions in class. He was smart, friendly and fun to be with as well during my end of primary school years and start of secondary school.

I felt that I could relate to him most among others, and thus.. I had made him the guy I would talk to everyday. Primary school term : Best friend.

He was a damn nice kid that time. As in, no vulgarity.. no bad doings and stuff. Being his 'good friend', I had to control myself as to not get influenced into the darker side. I was seriously very easy to be influenced and I was quite sure Adrian was the one who had prevented me from being a terrible gangster-like kid. :)
I guess indirectly he helped me achieved my excellent PMR results. Bwahaha.

Eventhough we looked like worlds apart when we were buddies that time, we still had some very interesting similiarities!
Like, we both thought Kelvin was _______?
We both played table tennis?
We both discussed Wah Lai Toi movies?
And etc etc etc.

Honestly, I did and do not know what he thought of me that time. Maybe he was just 'layan-ing' me as I was talking to him everytime. I don't know.
But I think the friendship should be genuine. :)

When he left to Australia in Form 2, the first few days of school was extremely different. I think I felt the lost of his presence among the class. I remembered looking out of the window in my classroom on the day he was flying to Perth, wishing I could see the plane(omg how gay). It was kinda sad.

Like everyone knows, I'm not a very social person.. First few months of Form 2, I spent time walking alone, eating alone and spending time alone. It was only after a while which I realised I could not avoid the rest of my classmates and then joined the Praveen and Kelvin gang.. which had resulted into today's chain of friendship. :)

It is nice thinking about the good ol' days I had when Adrian was still in my class.
The dumb games we played, the times he helped me in something. Bah.

When he came back for holidays for the first time, we met up of course and hung out.
But slowly... the more he leaves and returns, we(the classmates) did not feel the need or urgency to go and see him anymore to be honest. Some ppl even thought he just come home and calls us out as he got nobody to hang out with. But this has changed in his most recent trip here. :)

Of course he's not the goodie boy Adrian anymore. He drinks, and.... stuff.
I do not even know if he still finds the friendship genuine or not.

All I know is, he will be leaving this Sunday on the 29th and won't be back till December.
And for that, I wish him all the best.
There is a possibility of me being able to study in the same environment with him next year.
And I'm sure he will make it there. The decision lies on me now.

Definitely not as close as we used to be but his company is still full of laughter and fun. Bwahaha.

And this post has no gay intention whatsoever.
It's just a post to wish him all the best this year.
And also to say that, for the first time in many years..
I may miss his presence once again.


MCB..

CNY eve eve's eve

I can't believe it's approaching the end of January already. So fast.
Just the beginning of this month, I was in UK and about to start college.
Now, i'm already 1 month or less into college and feeling all stressed up already.
Well not really, but still! So much work. Nooo.

I have chosen a topic on aliens and life in outer space for my ESL research project.
I know it's quite common and every year there's surely some guy who would choose it. And that guy this year in my class is me.
Woohoo.
I can't think of anything else already. I'm not in a very inspired mood in the first place and secondly, I suck at thinking of topics anyway.
So if any of you guys got sources for my topic.. or just happened to come across an article on it in the papers or something, pls do inform me. I'll appreciate it to the max.

Transportation's a little less worry now. Chrisanne has gotten her cousin's driver to fetch her and myself to college everyday with a pay of course.
I don't mind. IT's so much more convenient.

Bloody JPJ rejected my letter stating I was colorblind. _|_ They want a DOCTOR's letter. Not an optimetrist. Damn dumb rite? Screw it la. Just wanna delay their job.
It's gonna be around June I predict till i finally get my license. Sucks.

Learning HTML programming for my IT studies currently. May practice new stuff on this blog. ;)

Adrian's flying back to Perth this Sunday. Since i'll be leaving to Malacca tomorrow till Monday, tomorrow's gonna be the last time I'll be able to see him till December.
If I work hard enough, I hope to see him in Melbourne U next year. IF.

Everyday I don't get enough sleep and the effects are showing already.


I don't know what else to update on.
Praveen's flying on the 9th next month, Shyan on the 14th. Koi Lin I believe on the 12th.

May only be able to send Praveen off since it's at night.
The others.. omg. Must think of solutions!

Asia Cafe has lousy food.
Salmon Steak is affordable.
Kopitiam opposite Asia Cafe selling Chicken Rice is nice.
I've never been to the Pasar Economy Rice stall yet.

Not gonna worry about getting banned at Blueserver anymore so I'll just leave games.
I need something to control me from playing games.
Thx.

CNY this sunday. Quite excited.
Mood's gonna be quite dead too anyway since many cousins and siblings cannot make it.
:(

I really wanna go Melb U next year.
I really wanna score well for SAM finals.
I really wanna understand everything I'm studying.
I really wanna be able to socialise with every single person.
I really wanna show my parents I'm actually working for my future.

I really wanna.
But just not desperate enough.


-alexeO-

Sigh

I have an ugly blog.

and I feel like drinking Chivas Coke.

:)


-alexeO-

It's a Thursday

Latest update :-
1)Still got alot of homework
2)Transportation still a problem
3)Adapting to the new class
4)Starting to like the college life of studying
5)Loving my hair
6)Still feeling like an ass
7)Gotta plan a day to collect deposit from school
8)SPM results rumored to be on the 28th of Feb. Not looking forward.
9)Still an ass
10)Allen's birthday this Saturday(may find it interesting to be blogged about)
11)No inspiration to blog

yawn.
-alexeO-

alexeO v.06

Another week of college begins tomorrow. Sigh.
It's like this clock which keeps ticking.. leaving you behind if you slack a little.
It just goes and goes.. if you don't catch up, that's your problem.

Soon enuff.. I may just be lost in this wheel of time.
I'm trying not to. But there's this force which is pulling me behind. Hard.
My other half. The lazy Alex half.

To simplify things, I have not yet done the work which I was supposed to do.
And classes start very soon. I feel like I just got dismembered by the Butcher from DotA. Sigh again.

My driving instructor hasn't called back. As expected. What a fag.

I realised something on my bed last night.
As I was blanketing myself, I thought of the reasons why I find it hard to adapt so easily to new surroundings.
I realised that, I am very very picky when it comes to situations.
It's like..
Ppl can accept another person easier than i do. For example, during this random grouping presentation thingy I had for ESL class, there was this guy who doesn't really know what Reality TV is and english was kinda on the weak side. But this other guy, who seems to be fluent in english and know as much or more than me.. just listened and corrected him as if it wasn't his fault or something and went on with the discussion without a single look of disgust or without an insulting tone.

I mean.
Huh?

I feel so bad. I was like.. half heartedly pitying that fella on why was he such lowly exposed, giggling deep down inside me. But this other guy I mentioned.. just accepted it so.. like nothing at all.

I realised I've been an asshole throughout my whole life. Who am I to judge ppl anyway? I discriminate ppl. I criticise ppl. I insult them.
And all this while I thought I was doing it because EVERYONE does it.
But that's not true. It was only me. It's not like I say it out.. I just think to myself deep inside.. However, the fact still remains that...

I'm an ass.

No wonder I have problems with my transportation everyday. I have received the punishment I deserve. Sigh. I am really sorry to the ones I felt that way to.
You guys dont know who you are. Thank God for that.

I went for my haircut finally just now.
I didn't cut it alot. Trimmed a little.
Shit. Dad may diu me later. He loves seeing my hair short.
But it's not. I know he wouldn't be happy.
And he's in the room beside me now.
How how how.
Meeting him for dinner later. Gotta play the ignoring game later and just smile at his remarks.
Especially now that I've..


*drum beats*
..dyed my hair.

yes i did.
it would be easier to show pics.
since pictures show a thousand words anyway.







I love it. :)

-alexeO-

Desperation to the next level

I think it's very uncool that I have to depend on different sources of transportation everyday.

Super inconvinient as well.

I called my soon-to-be driving instructor yesterday regarding my Undang test. He just told me he will submit my colorblindness letter to the JPJ and call me back to inform me when can I sit for the test. I don't know if that's an excuse or what but I have serious doubts on whether he will be calling back or not. I shall bug him later to force him to help us asap. In us, i meant chrisanne and I. If it's really more troublesome for a colorblind person to sit for undang, I'm just wasting Chrisanne's time. This sucks. I have given the opportunity for someone to create a super good excuse out of thin air. It's not my fault. Blame the genes. :P

I don't know when will I finally see myself holding my driving license. If that day is tomorrow, then today will be the happiest day of my life.
I'm troubling different ppl everyday. I do feel bad and guilty too. So far, thanks 1st sis, praveen, kelvin, vernon, gadafi.
It'll be nicer if that list doesn't grow cause I owe alot to them already. But it will. I know it.

So new rules, eh? Government trying something funny. By allowing u to sit for the lessons only after 1 month after getting ur Undang over with. Thx for troubling your citizen here who needs to get his ass to college everyday just to help improve the country's economy in the future. U're not really helping, just to let u know.

My college is fine. So far. My classmates are cool. It's just that it's me who's not doing the talking. They already have a regular joking gang already. Only that I'm not in it. It's me. I'm Alex. I'm not a very social person. I am trying. Sigh.
Classes are okay. So far understandable. Gotta start my mathematical studies homework soon. I need practice.

I screwed my ESL Show and Tell presentation just now. Don't ask me about it. I dowan to be reminded of it. It's just not easy performing in front of ppl whom you are thinking what they are actually thinking about u. I do not have that problem last year. That's because, I know everyone.

How much do an average college student spend per day anyway? I've been paying RM5 for my meal everyday. I duno if that's too much. Sounds costly. I don't use RM5 on an average basis in school. Zzz.

So 2nd week of college has ended. And I don't really miss school yet.
I really need my license. My Proton Waja is waiting for me at home.
I am getting.. impatient.
I'm worried one day I'll just drive off from home.

How.
How.
How.



-alexeO-

Still need to Drive

Still very desperate for a driving license.
It's getting to another level now.

It sucks. Sigh.

Got some presentation to do for ESL tomorrow. Some show and tell kinda thing.
Duno what to do yet. Cmon Alex. Best speaker for debate?? :P U can do better!

How am i going tomorrow?
How am i going home?

I don't know. :/


-alexeO-

T1<--my class

3 days into college, and i'm not feeling fantastic. The subjects are okay and all but i realised adapting takes harder then i thought it would be. Chinese speaking friends will go for chinese speaking friends. English speaking friends seemed to have a group originally already. The guys in my class are either booksmarts or dota freaks. Maybe it's better if I don't make that many friends and only a few. That'll be better for my studies. But wouldn't I be branded as a loser then. *Gasp*
Maybe.. I should just stay on the fence and don't get distracted too much to be on the friend-friend side. That way, I can be nice to everyone and still have time to study. Sounds like a suitable part to play in.

Hmm.

Specialist maths i realised is not easy. Yea. Just first day into it and I know.
It's a subject I have to work extremely hard on.

Was warned about punctuality on handing assignments and coming to class too.
Gotta change.

Need to buy books desperately. Some prices are just ridiculous. And they don't allow photostated books. Maybe i'll just photocopy some if i'm really desperate.
I shud had bought them earlier. The seniors have already sold most of them.
Possibility of books being sold out is high.

Still meeting my cahayian friends regulary despite the tight timetables. During breaks and esp after classes. Monday-Thursday is stressful. 8-3 with an hour break in between. I finish at 1 on Friday. Seemed much more relaxing.

Re-newed my profile at the side there. Pls tell me if it's out of place or right at the bottom. Cause it's supposed to be there, right below my chatterbox. ZZz.

Transportation still is a big problem for me. Now I got Kelvin to send Chrisanne and I home everyday with a pay.
Going I have serious problems. Gotta start looking for Shah Alam-ers to fetch me there.
Sigh.
Called my driving instructor just now asked about Undang. He said he was driving or something and will call me back. He didn't.

Life is sad as a colorblind and a November boy.
:(

New friends, driving license, subjects, books, new friends, driving license, subjects, books.
What am i gonna doooooooooooooooooooooooooo?
:/


-alexeO-

Orientation

SAM Orientation was today. It was.. awkward. In a sense that.. everything was so..alien. So just plain weird :/

Amazingly, I woke up an hour earlier before my alarm somehow. I think it's due to the jetlag I'm facing. Zzz. I also finally shaved off my moustache and chinaman beard. :( I look freaking weird now. Sigh.

So basically, I arrived in the morning. Then called up my friends. Walked up the stairs to the freaking HIGHEST floor and met Teck Kuan..and tried to collect my student ID and timetable. But what the heck.. the line was so freaking long to the classroom i was supposed to go to. And that time I wasn't even sure if i was at the right queue. Bah.
So I left. And went all the went down. Then I went all the way up again. Then down. Then up again. Sweated like an old dog. Wtf man. There goes my 'clean' image.

Finally got my stuff at that very class. And met up with more of my friends.
Then went to the class I was assigned too. And met my..other classmates. Who were kinda friendly.. but most of them shared a similiar feature. One guy introduced himself to me and said hi. I did the same. Sigh. 2 more friends said hi. I replied.
=/ Seeing the class I'm gonna spend 11 months with, I believe it should be okay.
I'll learn to socialise more. I have to.

Met up with ex-classmates at Starbucks and chatted a while too.

Classes start tomorrow.
I'm not looking forward to it at all.
When I told my ex-classmates I'll be doing Physics, they gave me that ..'look'.
Zzz. Damn offended. But shall prove them wrong. Bwahaha.

Mind not ready for studies.
And to think of the transportation problem stresses me more.

Who's gonna fetch me to and fro everyday.
Sigh.

What a troublesome start to my 2006.

-alexeO-

hm..

College for me starts tomorrow. I wonder how's the situation like in Seri Cahaya today. It's gonna be weird having school without Alex there. Bwahaha. Gd luck to schoolboys and schoolgirls anyway. To the form 5s, don't follow my footsteps and struggle at November. Pls start early.

ADP also had their orientation today. So far, I only know 2 ppl that's doin ADP.

Many courses gonna have their first days tomorrow. Including mine.

My 1 month holiday has ended so quickly. I think it's the 2 weeks trip I had that has eaten my time I planned to use to laze around. Bwahaha.

And I can't even drive yet. I have not even sat for my Undang. Wtf. Damn mafan for me cause I got some colorblind problem. Gahh!! I only went for the first seminar thingy.

Who's gonna fetch me to college then? :(
Hopefully I can get my P by.. around February. Sigh.

Not ready at all.
Duno what to do.
Zzz.


-alexeO-

Roar

Happy New Year everyone!

I'll be coming back on Jan the 2nd. Pls mark that date on ur 2006 calendars thx.
:)

It's been a while since I last saw anyone.
It's nice seeing ppl saying they miss you at their blogs and on msn.

I'm touched. Thx. :')

I really appreciate it!

will be back soon! see ya all soon!!

:D


-alexeO-

UK

This would be my last post before my flight to the UK. More specifically, England.

:/

It's gonna be a looooong trip so I guess I won't be seeing any of you guys for a lil while. Flight back is on Jan 2nd. :(
Besides the fact that i'm gonna miss the casual outings with my friends, I'm gonna miss the christmas and new year plans my frens are gonna have. Hmm. I know I wouldn't be seeing some of them for a long long time but what the heck. Also gonna have only one day to prepare for college(what's there to prepare anyway) since my programme starts at Jan 4th.

Speaking of friends, happy birthday in advance, Wilson. We may have one or 2 misunderstandings before especially the famous incident in class but know that I still think u're funny and a kenix wannabe! Bwahahaha. And stop scolding ppl.

To future Aussie-goers including the not so confirmed ones.. Praveen, Koi Lin, Pei Huan, Huey Shyan, Chrisanne.. I sincerely wish u guys all the best. It seems like a giant leap but know that we'll always be there for you! Take care guys. I mean it. Don't waste all the effort of studying abroad by slacking. Work hard! Hopefully by 2007 I can see you guys there! :)

Praveen pls do take care of your alcohol intake. I may miss my drinking partner temporarily but I hope it doesn't become permanent. :D I know this sounds gay but good luck all the best in Trinity!

Huey Shyan.. stay the nice girl you are and do know that the times I scold you or talk rudely was not always intentional.
No hard feelings! Whether or not you are going Australia, don't make ur decisions based on friends. Stop worrying whether we'll lose contact cause true friends will keep in touch no matter what!

Koi Lin, Pei Huan.. I doubt you guys even read this but good luck to you guys too. :)

I also would like to stress that I've always wanted to meet twins and triplets in person and woah. How lucky at year 2000 when this set of twins entered my class. I'm sorry if I crossed the line and became annoying but I am seriously fascinated by the pair. Even till now, Teck Eng and Teck Kuan still gets annoyed by my frequent comments on twins and asking each how it feels like.

Teck Eng.. I want you to stay lame pls. But sometimes being overlame is just damn lame. And it doesn't make any sense anymore. So control it a little :D I feel proud and happy when you seek me for advice and your constant tolerance with me also keeps me surprised all the time. I mean how could you tolerate me insulting you so much and all. Even sometimes I feel bad. Somehow I feel you don't like me as much anymore but who the heck cares! BWahahah. Hope you achieve your college resolution whatever it is.

Teck Kuan.. Kelvin is right all time. I admit I've told him I dislike you for some reason. Bwahaha. But hey, no hard feelings alrite? I hate almost everyone anyway in some way. Just this year we've been interacting more and I guess it helped to improve our eh-hem, friendship. It was a great Genting trip you organised and thanks for that too. I know having called names for almost half of your life isn't easy but just deal with it alrite? I think by next year it will lower down drastically. I've been thru that part of life too. And also, don't smile so wide in photographs pls. Thx.

This year had been a hectic studying year(not that I did that much) for SPM-ers.
It sucks seriously. So I've been attending many tuition and started with Chrisanne's house and then Kelvin introduced me to some great add maths class which unfortunately I keep disappointing the teacher. So,

Chrisanne.. I guess we have a weird friendship or I just think it's plain weird. You keep confusing me with your "i don't like you alex" etc. But sometimes you say "frens frens" ?_? But I've learned to tolerate and i guess that's fine :D
We still haven't perform our duet on "bless the broken road" but I'm sure we can do that some other day. Zzz. Stay healthy pls. And don't ignore me on MSN when i nudge you next year. Bwahaha. Thx.

Kelvin.. Lol. Longest ever I've been in the same class with. 8 years in a row I think. That's fantastic. Thx for ur sms. :/
I not writing much because I can see that we gonna hang out much next year.
So screw it. Bwahaha.

Richmond.. Have fun dota-ing. See you next year I guess wherever you are. Piloting.
Gl hf. Call me for cc sessions.

Nick.. Pls improve your dota and then call me to 1v1. And stop merajuk-ing. And lying. And crying. Bahh. Other than that u're cool.

I also have several e-buddies I call them who shud not be forgotten.

Mei Chan. LOL. We have to thank Teck Eng for introducing me to you and vice versa.
Cause it has been great. Even if we did not get to meet each other in real life, I still think u're cool. Deep down inside I don't know what u think of me but I don't care. Praise me if u can cause I like living in denial. Also stop acting angry like me. And yea, thx for ur effort in stopping me for gaming. But I just can't. Sorry for not replying ur messages fast enuff on msn these days. Gd luck next year whatever you do aite! =) We'll stay in touch on the net.

Joyce. Hey lola. ;)

Eileen. Bwahahaha. I hardly know you omg! I just remember you as the std 4 girl who danced the indian dance. -_- lala.

Kar Wai, stay smart. Don't lanci.

Su Cheng, hello.

To those I didn't mention or forgot to, I don't mean it.
I duno who reads my blog so don't get offended pls. ALL THE BEST to you too!!!

Like I said in my previous post, I'll be doing SAM in Taylors College.
If you miss me, pls see me there.
I'll be more than happy.

Thx.


Teary-eyed,(not really)
-alexeO-

My new beginnings

I am no more free from academics.
I am no more free to do anything I please.
I am back as a student as I once was.

I have reincarnated.

I am now, a college student.

Woah. Pretty gay thinking of the idea that I'm attached to education once again. From Dec 2nd, I had officially ended my formal education which will only continue if I enroll for a certain higher education. And yea, I just came back from doing that.

I have enrolled into the SAM programme at Taylors College.
If you miss me, pls see me there.
The timetable sucks. The hours are longer than school hours.
I can imagine the 'hectic-ness' of this.
I don't like this feeling.

Like I told my friends, I'm not looking forward for college life at all.
It's like entering a new school. And besides, probably EVERYONE in my class could drive already. And me? I just took one Undang Seminar. That's it.
It sucks.

And shit. I forgot to tick my medical problem too. I just remembered. The had a section for colourblindness. And I didn't tick that. I just remembered. Die.
I'm gonna make it a point to tell them during Orientation Day.
Sigh.
I'm such an incomplete person.

And also, my self esteem cannot be any lower at this point. Not only am I an incomplete person, I'm also a dumb person. I didn't even meet the minimum requirement for Specialist Mathematics. It sucks. It requires you to have a C5 for Add Maths at least. But my forecast shows C6. And I thought a credit will do. They never mentioned it at all.

When I showed my forecast to the lady who was helping me, she was already advicing me. I just made every subject borderline. I have to work very hard. Especially for Specialist Mathematics which thankfully they let me take that subject.
Hey, I'm not that all sucky in Add Maths okay? I know my results show otherwise. But seriously. I could understand everything and do everything in class.
ARgh.

And I'm not that dumb either. I know I achieved Cs for ALL my science subjects. But who the heck cares. U need at least a C6 for physics, I got a C5. =)
Btw, I'm doing the Computer Engineering/Science group of subjects. So screw Chem and Bio. I don't need you anymore. Bwahahaha. My subjects are:-

English
Maths
Specialist Maths
Physics
IT studies

They also had a Chemistry subject for this stream. U are supposed to choose 2 out of Chem, Phy and IT. But OMG? I'm definitely not touching Chem in my life anymore.
So I dropped it.
And I'm gonna take IT. I've never taken IT in my life.. but I'm gonna see how is it gonna work now. I hope I can manage. I should be able to.
And physics? I was one of them Ariff said not to touch physics anymore when I leave school. But _|_ I'm doing it. I like physics. I think I can do it too.

So SAM requires consistent work throughout the year.
And guess what?
I'm gonna do just that.
College life is the perfect time for me to turn over a new leaf.
And education is getting serious now.
So stfu bad influences. I'm not gonna listen to ya.

It's not a cheap course. And I know that. So I won't be trying to waste my parents money.

I still am not looking forward for college life.
I am not looking forward for the 'new-school' environment.
And the troubles of waking up so early. And not even driving myself.
As of now, I still have no transport whatsoever.

This sucks.
I want to drive so badly.
But i'm colorblind. And I dunno the right procedure to pass the undang test.

And the fear of driving a manual car.
So many things bothering me.

And I am having thoughts of not achieving more than C5 for Add Maths for my real SPM. The lady asked me just now if I think I could score better for my real SPM for add maths. I said yea. What if I don't? Will they pull me out? Won't that be uber embarassing?

I hate all of this.

-alexeO-

1U



Watched The Chronicles of Narnia : The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe just now.
I personally liked it alot eventhough my friends thought it didn't meet the expectations. I thought the battle scenes were extremely 'kan cheong' especially the build up to it. :D

However, I have to say it doesn't really live up to the publicity given to this show. Firstly the preview was fantastic(i love previews). Then the posters. I mean.. it doesn't even reflect the whole movie. The focused on the details they showed only once or twice in the movies which i don't geddit.
Well it may not be as wow as intially pictured but it still worked for me.

Checked out the Narnia official website just now. And read the synopsis for the 7 Books. There's one which showed the creation of Narnia..(i'm quite sure they would make this into a movie because there were several things said in the movie which touched on the formation of Narnia)
Another showed the summoning back of the 4 main characters.
The rest with new casts.
Another with slight relation with the lion,the witch bla bla bla.

Oh well.

Also was super malu-ed just now. By the freaking hand-sensor-dancing-machine.
ARGH.
Normally those games attract a crowd no matter how good or sucky you are.
And that's such an unfortunate thing. Cause I did attract a crowd.

And.
The malu thing was.

ARGH.
U know the machine.
I was only standing at ONE SIDE.
U are supposed to stand in the middle.
Standing at ONE SIDE is for double players.

But I was playing Single player.
And I stood at ONE SIDE.
And I was complaining how faulty the machine was cause it couldn't sense properly.
And there were ppl smiling at me from behind.

The minute I left frustrated, a guy walked inserted coins and started playing.

Oh.my.god.

Malued. to the max.
Gahh!

Left immediately and did not want to turn back.
Sigh.

-alexeO-