=(

Nick Cheong deleted my contact on MSN because I told him he idolised KennySia!

=( Less one 'afternoon-person' to talk to!

Lost my wise-talk and discussion buddy!!

Sigh.



year 2004. those were the days *sob* (ahh wat is he doing to meeee??!)



wow i looked like crap.




-alexeO-

Heartbreaking expectations

I spent many hours yesterday creating the powerpoint slides for my assignment presentation today for my journalism subject.

I practiced alot.

I did my presentation a few hours ago and my lecturer think I did pretty well.

However,
I disappointed myself.

I spoke in lightning speed, and yet I still went over-time.

And so many things I wanted to say but I didn't.

And my little struggle to find words. And my horrible articulation of words.

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I was so angry I started shouting loudly when I was alone in my car.
Not. satisfied. at. all.
*

SIGH.
Do I have too high expectations of myself?

Why can I never be satisfied with my presentations?


/endrant

-alexeO-

Tag #2

Tagged by SzeJia during my break from the net.
So here it is.

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TAG.

1. 5 things found in my bag
- Books - Readers, Unit Guides, Unit Books, Monash Handbook.
- Stacks and stacks of messy notes - both self written and printed.
- Highlighter
- Shades/Glasses in one box.
- Stapler and Pen.

What? What do you expect from a guy's schoolbag huh.

2. 5 things found in your wallet
- Gym Membership card - Yah dont give me that look.
- Identification card - 13 year old face.
- Perfume test paper thingies - you know those rectangular piece of soft cardboard they give you to test the perfumes? yea. i have that to make my wallet smell nice.
- Random Sticker photos - With people I don't really care about. Haha.
- Foreign notes - I collect them.

Money not much though, pretty broke.

3. 5 favourite things in your room
- Computer
- Bed
- Cupboard
- Rolling comfy chairs
- Have I mentioned, computer?


4. 5 things you've always wanted to do
- Super long holiday break in the Bahamas or some super nice beachside resort.
- Sing on a stage to a relatively large audience
- Get hooked up
- Organise or design something which ppl will acknowledge and praise me for
- Produce movies/short films.


5. 5 things you're currently into
- Assignments.
- Planning of a storyline for my first short film or movie.
- Thinking how to get my life back on track
- Digital camcorders.
- Nescafe Mocha.


6. 5 persons that you tagged
- Nick Cheong
- KarWai
- Joseph Yap
- ZhiVen (do u read my blog still?)
- Whoever who wants to do it.


End of tag.

-alexeO-

Cool pretty accurate stuff

Hands itchy while blog surfing.

Saw this quiz in KarWai's blog and so i started doing myself.
Eh not bad. Quite pleased with the results.

yala yala, maybe the answers are designed in such a way that everyone will say "yea yea true" but i think it's still relevant la to me.

so if u wanna know more about me, read the answers below. the perhaps 'shocking' truth? of me. :)

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Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.



-alexeO-

Tag #1

A comeback from my long absence from the internet from the comfort of home.. ahhh... this feels good.

Because I got tagged by Joseph during my brief hiatus, i'm gonna do it now! Seems fun. Here goes.

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1. Put your music player on shuffle.2. Press forward for each question.3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance: Well not really, but what the heck. I guess I'm all emo deep inside.

Will you get far in life?
All Black - Good Charlotte: Doubt it since my life is all black.

How do your friends see you?
Everyday I Love You - Boyzone: Thanks. I love you guys everyday too.

Will you get married?
Buttons - Pussy Cat Dolls: Not when I can have girls around me everyday asking me to loosen up their buttons.

What is your best friend's theme song?
Irreplacable - Beyonce: They think I'm irreplacable.

What is the story of your life?
Making Love Out of Nothing At All - Air Supply: Throughout my life, I make my own love out of nothing at all.

What was high school like?
Goodbye - Air Supply: Full of goodbyes at the last day of school, but other than that, I guess it's goodbye to the principles who came for like such a short term and left.

How can you get ahead in life?
And I'm Telling You I'm Not Going - Lakisha Jones: I insist I won't be going anywhere until I achieve my aims in life.

What's the best thing about your friends?
Glamorous (Feat. Ludacris) - Fergie: They're simply glamorous!

What's in store for this weekend?
I Finally Found Someone (Feat. Bryan Adams) - Barbara Streisand: WOW! I hope so!

Describe your grandparents.
Over my Head - The Fray: Up there watching me over my head.

How's your life going?
You Give Me Something - James Morrison: Can't..relate. sorry i've tried.

What song will they play at your funeral?
Beautiful Liar (Feat. Shakira) - Beyonce: !!!

How does the world see you?
What I've Done - Linkin Park: Stop looking at what i've done and start looking at what I will do.

Will you have a happy life?
Come to Me (Feat. Nicole) - P. Diddy: I will if Nicole come to me.

What do your friends really think of you?
If Everyone Cared - Nickelback: If everyone actually cared for me, I will turn out better.

Do people secretly lust after you?
Walk Away - Paula Deanda: No, they just walk away.

How can you make yourself happy?
With Love - Hilary Duff: With love.

What should you do with your life?
Imagine - John Lennon: Imagine!

Will you ever have children?
Wonderwall - Oasis: Can't relate.

What song should you strip to?
Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne: I shall keep holding on to my clothes.

What does your mum think of you?
Always - Bon Jovi: Always annoying.

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Say It Right - Nelly Furtado: Yea say it right ass.

What's your personality like?
Beautiful Stranger - Madonna: Beautiful, mysterious, anonymous.

What song will be played at your wedding?
I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance: eh! cannot!

Tagg
0)Anyone sorry.

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-alexeO-

Everyday Headache

T_T

I want to go online at home

Saya nak pergi internet di rumah

wo yao 'internet' zai jia

ngo you internet zai ouk agaehgah



:(

how come suddenly spoilt

sigh.


-alexeo-

Assignment round two

Lazy but cannot laze.

Angry but cannot scream.

Frustrated but cannot show.

Restless but cannot move.

Sleepy but cannot sleep.



I'm so sick and tired cracking my head thinking of what to say the best way possible. I really am.

But so is everyone else.


-alexeO-

I'm Tigger

Which famous feline are you?

You're Tigger. Playful and fun-loving, you enjoy hanging out with friends even though you don't always have to be the center of attention. You're never pessimistic or sluggish. Your enthusiasm is at once endearing and over-the-top. You're the quintessential extrovert.
Take this quiz!








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that doesn't look like tigger.

but wat the heck.

:/

if you don't know who Tigger is, give yourself a smack on the head.


"woo-hoo-hoo-hoo!"

-alexeO-

3 angry souls are gonna decimate me into a million pieces

Lol.

Up to now, I'm not even sure myself if I should be posting this up.

But hey, wat the heck, right? Everbody gotta start somewhere. ;)

Presenting...

..my very first short film made together with 3 girls..

..shot and edited in a very limited time span..

..all done within a beginner's film making workshop in my uni..

..featuring very laughable, to an extent embarassing, amatur-ish acting,

enjoy.. what we call it as,

The 3 Bimbos.

sidenote: don't even bother turning ur speakers louder to hear the on-going dialogues and audio. it's not worth ur time. coz all said was simply trash.




HAHAHA!

so malu!

i am so not gonna make this my official first short film. grr.

-alexeO-

;l

i have an interesting course.

which has interesting assignments.

which is fun to research and work on.

my course also allows me to be given many opportunities other courses don't get such as film making around campus, university radio etc.

everything seems great.

except,

the stupid contemporary worlds subject a.k.a world history which is a compulsory first year subject.

the assignments aren't bad but,

too much work. too much hassle. and too much understanding to do.

and i have such a lousy general knowledge. i don't know anything about history other than my own life's history.

today i 'accidentally' told my contemporary worlds lecturer i have not really started the assignment and her expression was priceless.

i could see my impression marks flying away. why did i even say that. stupid me.

weeeeeeeeeee.

i need to entertain myself.


-alexeO-

GC concert


I just wanna live! *music emoticon*

atmosphere was great from where i stood, albeit quite far, but good enough nevertheless.

and I can guarantee you the high-pitched singing falsetto voice you hear on the clip isn't mine.

-_-


-alexeO-

Not well

Irregular eating times, irregular sleeping hours, unhealthy eating habits, inconsistent intake of food, dependency on caffeine, early morning football matches, last minute completion of assignment..

..and i'm now beginning to feel the consequences of them all.

headaches, eyebags, black eye rings, itchy eyes, zits, short attention spans, tiredness, sleepiness, dizziness.

sigh.
need to get my life back on track asap.


-alexeO-

Car

I was driving home today when I suddenly saw this car turning out of the parking area for the student apartments near my university.. So out goes my camera phone to capture this 'once in a lifetime' event..



So unique!

And the car was like.. real small... everything seems so fragile.. like a little knock will break the car into pieces.

I trailed the car, not intentionally though.. it just so happened that it took the
same path I was taking.

So after another stop, I took more pics. Haha.



Somehow, I kept a reasonable 'longer' gap then i do with other cars.. I think it's because it's real hard to estimate the distance because of its rare size and length and all..

And there's was this part where it was congested and that car just caught the attention of every single car around it. Haha. Makes my "Waja", which, was right behind that car very much more inferior that it already is. -_-

So cool antique looking car.

Are they even allowed to be on the roads of today?

I wonder if it can go as fast as today's car on the highway or something.



Hmm.
If these are the cars ppl of the past were driving, where have they all gone to today? Some antique car gallery perhaps? Or why is it only usually seen in some rich man's mansion's garage.. Why is it rarely, or not at all seen on the roads today?
Too slow?
Too fragile?
Hmm.
:/


Randomnya.



-alexeO-

I hate you

More specifically, if you're a hypocrite.

Hypocrites annoy me to the core. Whether intentionally or not, they still suck. Some of them, are hypocrites just because they want to try to please a particular person around them for the sake of getting their approval or attention or just... to be damn fake la.

Stupid hypocrites.

You know who you are.

Don't pretend to be such a laid back student la if you're actually not!

Don't pretend to be one of those anti-smoking campaigners when you actually want to smoke yourself la!

Don't pretend to turn over a new leaf when you actually still have a passion with something which is isn't good le!

Can't people just be honest?
With themselves?
With the people around them?
With me?

Like I or anyone else around them will hate them so much liddat for being who true to themselves. In fact, hypocrites annoy me more than anything else.

One of my ultimate pet peeves.

Because I had fun doing it, i'm gonna continue to list down the hypocritical stuff i see around me.

Don't pretend to have such a strong 'care' and 'love' for the environment or animals but you actually love eating all those delicious meat la!

Don't pretend to be so religious when you actually sin so much yourself!

That's all, I think.

Here are some random stuff I took with my hp camera today when it was heavily congested in the toll. Eventhough I had the Smart Tag, they closed one lane so there were many many cars. T_T


Random cars cutting my lane


Cool looking scenery


Wahaha. super gaya driver me~ :D


yay i updated.

i just read back wat i posted.
wat a boring post. :/



-alexeO-

A Case of Jazz

I've not been updating because life is pretty much a routine and assignments deadlines are reaching fast.

Too fast in fact for my liking.

I'm gonna be in deep shit soon if I don't start getting my ass to the library to do my research for the assignments which are due next week and the week after. Very tedious ones too!

I got one due tomorrow, which I've not even started writing on! Haha!

It's a concert review.. and I've selected for myself a jazz concert.. more specifically, a Diana Krall: Live in Paris concert..

the whole show was pretty much the same played again and again but the last encore performance I felt was really genuinely good!

Because I'm a kind soul who likes to share good things with my friends, here's the clip!

Diana Krall - A Case of You


I like her deep, sultry, sexy vocals eventhough she's old enough to be my mother's younger sister. -_-
confusing, but nvm.

Enjoy the song!
and be touched.


-alexeO-

Hm

Everyone is talking about the shooting incident in Virginia Tech in the US.

I felt for the victims, but the gunman had his own problems which is pretty sad as well.

I'm not saying that what he done was right because of how he was treated, but his actions weren't out of randomness or had some mental disorder which prompted the shooting.

It's pretty sad. What happened to him in high and middle school.

It seems to mirror my own piece of history. O_O

I read an interesting piece of update from Yahoo! News : http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070419/ap_on_re_us/virginia_tech_shooting

Here are some things i found interesting in that article:

"Chris Davids, a Virginia Tech senior who graduated from Westfield High School in Chantilly, Va., with Cho in 2003, recalled that the South Korean immigrant almost never opened his mouth and would ignore attempts to strike up a conversation."

"Once, in English class, the teacher had the students read aloud, and when it was Cho's turn, he just looked down in silence, Davids recalled. Finally, after the teacher threatened him with an F for participation, Cho started to read in a strange, deep voice that sounded "like he had something in his mouth," Davids said."

"As soon as he started reading, the whole class started laughing and pointing and saying, `Go back to China,'" Davids said.

Omg stupid american kids.

"There were just some people who were really mean to him and they would push him down and laugh at him," Roberts said Wednesday. "He didn't speak English really well and they would really make fun of him."


I know exactly how it feels!
Well, I wasn't exactly pushed.. as far as I remembered.. I think.. eh maybe got.. but.. still! I was bullied in school!

So... all I gotta say now is..

Be afraid my former schoolmates..

be very afraid..


Bwahahaha!


-alexeO-

Booths galore~

Many many booths set up in my uni today

exciting~

firstly, the blood donation drive was here!


random ppl donating blood

i didn't donate though not because I'm selfish or scared, but I have a inherited disease which made me ineligible to be a healthy donor! ;) Actually if I got fresh blood, abit scared also la. And my disease wont spread one. -_- so don't avoid me ok?
it's actually not really a disease la.. just some condition where i'm lack of a certain enzyme.. zzz. :/

then, i saw..



Some drug awareness booth led by some chief inspector!

I didn't spend much time there though, looking at all sorts of interesting looking drugs and pills and all.. which looks pretty tempting. bwahaha.
and they also had some drug abuse talk in a lecture theatre sometime in the afternoon.. u actually gotta REGISTER to attend this talk. There were actually people attending that talk!! super surprised. Why would such talk interest anyone.. O_o

Then there was also the...



DIGI BOOTH!

wahaha my telco line~
I <3 digi.
jus coz i'm using it.

they promoting some new Fu-Yoh subscription plan thing and giving out good charlotte tickets if you purchase a certain amount of reload for your prepaid and subscribing to the plan.

However, all I did was to buy the reload, and they gave me the passes immediately!!

YAY! :D
Now I'm going to the concert too!
Just 24 hrs ago, I was already tengah complaining to my frens how I will be damn jealous that I won't be attending.

But now I am~
LOLOL.

I still super sleepy now cause of my boring lecture made boring my my boring lecturer and the fact that I only slept for 2 hrs.
Gonna sleep soon.

Nite!


-alexeO-

boring

I cannot stand it anymore. My American Music and Popular Culture lecturer is DAMN FREAKING BORING!#!@$@!$!@$!@@!$

She, yes a she, is like the perfect picture of the definition of boring. Seriously.

It's so sad because she hasn't been doing this lecturing thing for long but she's totally not trying hard enough to improve her lecturing skills! She knows her stuff but sometimes I think to myself, 'can she be anymore boring?'

It is 3X worst that the lecture has to be early in the morning where I still am half asleep.

ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAD TO STAY UP FOR A FOOTBALL MATCH THE NIGHT BEFORE?!!

It was torture I tell you. Complete torture.

Because it's a music related subject, we were often given much songs to listen to. And I actually just stared at the track time, waiting for it to finish, counting by the seconds..

2:33..
2:32..
2:31..

Oh my god.

I'm ranting like a 10 yr old girl but I don't care. Mainly because I've never came across such a boring use of 2hrs of my life every week before!

I AM SOMEONE WHO ISNT EASILY BORED SUMMORE! omg man.

I think people in my lecture also think i'm abit weird after noticing me occasionally turning around looking at some random people in the class and then turning away when they look back.

Not once summore.
Many times.

CANT HELP IT LA. DAMN BORED WAT TO DO.

She isn't good in the way that she never ever make sure people will understand the things she say. She ASSUMES the class is with her when no one responds.

I know the students are supposed to ask her for clarification if we didn't understand something but, we did before! she went on FURTHER elaborating on some musical terms 90% of the class wouldn't understand like purposely doing it to shut us up. she became not understandable the following week again.

super no point!
so we just gave up la.

end up the class all had a quiet 2 hrs just staring at this young looking lady going on and on and on about some jazz genre or blues.

And the JAZZ and BLUES genre is just super inappropriate for her lectures.

First she's so boring already.
Then include the damn freaking boring jazzy tunes.

summore not the famous ones.. the origins of jazz.. the early jazz music.. how they sound like..

I almost got a headache just by feeling bored. I couldn't believe it.

Was trying so hard not to sleep just now, and i managed to do it succesfully.


Sigh.

6-7 more weeks of seeing her.
Hope I can 'tahan'.
:/


-alexeO-

Everything-random post

I'm at a state where every song I listen to now sounds nice.

The songs in my windows media library are great. *thumbs up sign* very proud of myself that I've finally compiled a reasonable amount of songs which all I enjoy listening to.
I think I know how to know if I found someone who shares the same taste as me. Asking them to judge my song library!

Super random.

Anyway, here are some random photos which may or may not have relevance to one another.

Enjoy this random post.


this is a picture of kim and other ppl looking very happy :-



this is a picture of me being squashed by some big dudes from my class in high school. you can see my pitiful face if u look closely enuff. =( :-



this is a picture of praveen, tk and i in Kuching airport waiting for the plane back to KL. Who says 3 dudes cannot camwhore together too? :-



this is a group picture of the Kuching guys and 3 KL guys in one of the Kuching guys' penthouse. Thanks for bringing us around! We had fun! :-



this is a picture of my Puma shoes. It was so clean last time. :( It's so dirty and yellow now. Permanent yellow stain. Sigh. how to remove! :-



and this is a blur picture of Vincent Ng dancing with Syahirah! Bwahahaha. He's gonna kill me for this but I dun care. This picture was taken by Jia Xin. :-




ok. end of random-ness.


gdbye all.



-alexeO-

5 Science 1, Class of 2005

It's 6.30am now and I haven't slept cause I stayed up the whole night doing this very clip.

Not only because I am so willing to sacrifice la.
Stupid Nescafe I drank at 12am just is making me super awake now. -__-

Anyway, to my previous school and classmate, 5sc1 students,

This is the best I can do considering I started around 4am and with the limited amount of photos I have.

Yea I know I am supposed to have alot of photos of the class... but.. sigh..

I used to have so so so many more photos but they're all gone!

I cannot find them!
I duno where they all gone to. :(

So this compilation have like almost every photo I got.
Yea, that bad.

I'm gonna make a second photo compilation... so if you guys got any other photos which involves the class, pls do send me!! Thx!

Anyway,
enjoy!

:)


*ps: dun skip any part! watch the whole thing photos to photos. remember to think back of all the stuff we used to do back then! Bwahaha.




Ah.


-alexeO-