I don't like driving anymore
Yes. I said it.
A boy who was proud of his so-called 'gifted' driving skills ain't claiming that anymore. In fact, he is saying no more than the opposite.
My driving sucks. It's true.
I just finished my driving lesson minutes ago. And it was horrible. I never felt like I want to get out of the car so much in my life.
This was what happened.
It was my 3rd lesson or so, and my driver was supposed to pick me up from a place near my college.
So I went there on time and waited. Not longer than a few minutes, he arrived.
So naturally, I got into the passenger's seat and hoped to arrive at my driving centre for some maybe balancing or 3-point-turn practice.
After maybe a few turns or so around, he asked me.
"So you want to drive to the centre?"
I cannot remember the words exactly but it was something along that line.
A little suprised, I was thinking to myself like ,'what? can i or not'
In words, it came out as "Err...not sure la.. can meh?"
He didn't really reply. Probably used to such replies I guessed.
He just gave a little smile and said something like,"can slowly".
So he stopped the car at some area near my college.
I quickly proceeded into the driver's seat as soon as possible as I was quite sure there will be some college students around and I don't want anyone to recognize me.
So happily and excitedly(with a little fear), I got into the car.
I had not driven for 1 week plus so I had to try to comfort myself and get used to the stuff.
Sigh. Bad move, Alex.
So I was driving very slowly and happily..
For the first time in my life,
I got honked.
Screw those people I tell you. Can't they ever understand the L plate behind the car?! Not everyone are born good drivers u know. Grr.
The honkings got very normal after a while. Hey I'm not allowed to speed anyway. What do you expect?
So I learned how to change gears for the first time. Omg. How can he actually teach me on the road?! I mean.. it's just so sudden. Couldn't I get some warm up first at some less congested road?
Obviously I took some time to get used to it.
But when I finally did, it was quite smooth sailing until I got to some traffic congestion.
Oh gosh.
It's super tough for a first time. It really is.
I don't care if some people who are reading this are saying,"it was easy or not that difficult"
The fact remains that, it was tough from me. Coming out from a stopping position to a moving one.
IT"S TOUGH!!@!$@$%!@
Especially if there's a mini hill.
Super duper tough.
The moment I put down my hand brakes and do the balancing shit.
GG. Thousands of cars already passed each staring into my car in some annoyed look.
HELLO? I AM NO EXPERT OKAY? I BELIEVE UR EYES ARE CLEAR ENUFF TO SEE THE L PLATE BEHIND??
Bah. More honks.
I tried to keep myself composed and just concentrated on driving.
I was also a little sleepy so I was trying my best to open my eyes wide. (don't tell anyone this especially my relatives)
There was one time I remembered, some young malay guy who was having a P plate at his car.. came and cut my road and he put his hand out like a signal of thanks or something. I THINK HE DID IT INITIALLY! He came so close I had to turn right a little. My instructor immediately shooked and said "ehhh dont turn like that!"
I was explaining about that car but he just asked me to release my oil or something.
Haih. Bad impression.
My first on-the-road drive was pretty okay with exception to the stopping parts I guess. I don't think I was the worst, no.
There were some moments when my instructor shouted to me but he didn't really mean it in a negative way. It's all part of the teaching process. How can things like "CLUTCH, BRAKE!" or "OIL HANDBRAKE" be considered as harsh. Cmon now.
Nothing could make me happier than finally arriving at the driving centre.
I did Parking today. First time too. Pretty fun. It went quite well!
But I mati enjin-ed twice. In a row. Not during the parking process but after u know.. when you try to get out of the parking area? Yea. That part. I released too much clutch. Twice in a row. Other than that it should be okay. Like any other student. Not magnificient though.
There were also MANY times when my car jerked and felt abit old-school. I realised I don't know how to control my oil properly.
When I press, it's too much.
When I try to press softly, nothing gets pressed.
Then when I release the clutch, my right leg will automatically feel like releasing the oil a little. Then I'll end up not using up any oil at all.
That's just so wrong to do during the Parking or the 3-pt-turn.
*shakes head*
So after that,
he thought I should drive to my mother's office around 5-10 mins away with a normal car's speed.
So I drove. ZZZ. SUPER CONGESTION.
IF my first time on-the-road was bad, this was 10X worst.
I had to slow down, stop, move, slow down, stop, move, change gears, stop, balance, move, MORE TIMES THAN I EVER DID BEFORE.
THATS WHEN I REALISED.. IM NOT THAT GOOD AFTER ALL.
I got so bloody confused during the traffic part. Are some of the cars honking me because I am doing something wrong or am I just slow? I don't mind if I'm just slow.. cause there's nothing wrong with that. But my instructor is not saying anything. Is it because he is so frustrated or he thought I was doing alrite? Someone please say something.
I don't get why NOBODY complained about driving on the road first time.
Well I never heard any.
That is why I came up with a conclusion. My driving sucks. I think it's just me. I was super horrible I felt.
Anyway, back to my driving to my mum's office.
Got one part at the traffic light where there was a little slope so I had to do some balancing once again. What do you know? All I heard was honkings and seeing cars passing me quickly and the green light turning to red. GG alex. I was not even fast enough to make the car move. Haihz. Super embarassing.
It happened twice actually at different traffic lights. Twice the embarassment. :(
So my driving sucked.
Hey. I don't know if I will get any better or continue sucking.
But if I do get better, I would probably feel driving differently.
But until that time,
I will not boast about my driving skills anymore.
Smile Kelvin, I know you want to.
-alexeO-
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
My Mid-Year Examination is next week
I brought down a whole stack of files, papers and books from my room upstairs to the room downstairs just now.
I wanted to do my maths. Both maths. Just for a little revision for the exams next week, you know.
But all I ended up doing was sorting out my papers into their individual subjects.
Haihhhhz.
My preparations for the exams next week are so screwed.
Why oh why can't I just find enough will to actually take out my text book to aid me in finding solutions to the difficult questions that often bring down my mood?
Maybe it's the gym session I had hours ago.
Yes. That must be it.
I must be awfully tired.
1:08AM as I type this now.
I really need to learn how to pull myself away from my computer's screen.
But how?
:/
-alexeO-
I brought down a whole stack of files, papers and books from my room upstairs to the room downstairs just now.
I wanted to do my maths. Both maths. Just for a little revision for the exams next week, you know.
But all I ended up doing was sorting out my papers into their individual subjects.
Haihhhhz.
My preparations for the exams next week are so screwed.
Why oh why can't I just find enough will to actually take out my text book to aid me in finding solutions to the difficult questions that often bring down my mood?
Maybe it's the gym session I had hours ago.
Yes. That must be it.
I must be awfully tired.
1:08AM as I type this now.
I really need to learn how to pull myself away from my computer's screen.
But how?
:/
-alexeO-
Sunday, May 14, 2006
One week ago was my last post.
Somehow or rather, I don't feel like I have anything to post. I mean.. I do but.. everytime I think of something that I want to blog about, the moment I arrive at my computer's screen I will lose all mood to blog.
And so,
that explains the lack of posts.
The society these days are extremely health conscious.
And I am too.
;)
I've registered for Celebrity Fitness in Subang Parade. It's a gym in case you are blur.
A really cool one too.
Very often classes will be conducted and you can just walk in and join.
My muscles had been aching as I had been working them for the past week.
I hope I will be discipline enough to continue with my schedule.
If that's the case, I can't wait to see the results in a few months time. :D
Fit Alex. Bwahaha.
I went and had a look at the Celebrity Fitness 1Utama branch just now. I heard it was smaller but I wanted to see anyway.
The concept is very similiar(no surprises there) and it only differs at the placement of equipments and the rooms I guess.
The entrance from the Shopping Mall was very blue-ish lighted. It reminded me sort of like an entrance to a strip club or something. It felt that way somehow. Don't get me wrong.. I just happened to come across many many strip clubs at my trip to Australia few years back, and so.. I kinda know.
And yeah,
Happy Mother's Day to all mothers!
My Mid-Year Examinations will be coming up soon. The week after this coming week to be precise. Not really ready but since it will only last 3 days for me, it will pass like a breeze. After that I will have the mid-term break. Shud be some sort of a motivation for me. Work hard now, relax later.
Going out for dinner soon.
Will try to find some time to blog.
-alexeO-
Somehow or rather, I don't feel like I have anything to post. I mean.. I do but.. everytime I think of something that I want to blog about, the moment I arrive at my computer's screen I will lose all mood to blog.
And so,
that explains the lack of posts.
The society these days are extremely health conscious.
And I am too.
;)
I've registered for Celebrity Fitness in Subang Parade. It's a gym in case you are blur.
A really cool one too.
Very often classes will be conducted and you can just walk in and join.
My muscles had been aching as I had been working them for the past week.
I hope I will be discipline enough to continue with my schedule.
If that's the case, I can't wait to see the results in a few months time. :D
Fit Alex. Bwahaha.
I went and had a look at the Celebrity Fitness 1Utama branch just now. I heard it was smaller but I wanted to see anyway.
The concept is very similiar(no surprises there) and it only differs at the placement of equipments and the rooms I guess.
The entrance from the Shopping Mall was very blue-ish lighted. It reminded me sort of like an entrance to a strip club or something. It felt that way somehow. Don't get me wrong.. I just happened to come across many many strip clubs at my trip to Australia few years back, and so.. I kinda know.
And yeah,
Happy Mother's Day to all mothers!
My Mid-Year Examinations will be coming up soon. The week after this coming week to be precise. Not really ready but since it will only last 3 days for me, it will pass like a breeze. After that I will have the mid-term break. Shud be some sort of a motivation for me. Work hard now, relax later.
Going out for dinner soon.
Will try to find some time to blog.
-alexeO-
Sunday, May 07, 2006
I was awaken by my mum on Saturday who was muttering something about a dead snake found in the house, maid left it in the store room and it died of hunger and something about me having to take a photo of the snake along that lines.
:/
As I was sleeping very comfortably, I didn't really reply and just mumbled "mmm" as in "yeah, I heard you."
So when I finally woke up, there was a note written by my dad stating he wanted to have a photo of the snake taken for some complain he was going to make. Bahh.
However, I also had some driving lessons in the next hour so instead of preparing my camera for the snake photoshoot, I had to look for transport to get me to the freaking driving centre.
Ended up, my dad took me to the driving centre.. and I totally forgot about the dead snake lying in the kitchen.
Obviously, my dad wasn't happy and showed some signs of frustration.
Bahh.
Anyway, my driving lessons were a little embarassing. I told my friends yesterday that I shouldn't show off anymore after what happened. Hahaha. I was very proudly claiming that I didn't mati enjin once for my first lesson. Ended up, I mati enjin-ed around 4 times yesterday. -___- Nooooo. The most embarassing one was on the big hill where my car died right on the hill with one long queue of cars behind waiting. Oh my Gosh. And summore I wasn't used to have my engine dying so I didn't really know what to do and started to have a slight panic attack.
I asked my instructor and he told me to do bla bla bla. You wouldn't guess how happy I was to get down the freaking hill.
Another equally as embarassing moment wasn't really involving other ppl watching but just myself. I tend to put my left foot too high on the clutch and my instructor kept reminding me on that. So there was once when I was pressing the clutch but then I realised I was too high and I didn't want him to notice it.
So what did I do?
I tried to move my foot down -_-
ZZzzzZ. Tha was totally like a GG moment for me.
But it was alright la other than that. I get why most people fail at the hill now. Understandable. It's not something I like doing very much. My three point turn is pretty okay I guess anyway.
And summore I met Richmond there driving around. His test is on Monday, which is tomorrow so he was practising. Expectedly, he made fun of me driving after that. -_- I DIDN"T STOP AT THE ROUNDABOUT ON PURPOSE OKAY! The thing was.. there was a car stopping there for some reason. So I had to wait. And the worst thing was.. I had to stop at the part where there was a little slope approaching the roundabout. So what did I have to do... I had to do some mini balancing! Omgz. And considering I am a total newbie at balancing, I had to do step by step, trying to remember what to do each time. And Richmond was making fun of me that I stopped there. -__- And my reverse down the hill wasn't an accident!! It was on purpose. My instructor was trying to get my stopping on the line to perfection so he kept asking me to do over and over again. I had to change to free gear and release my clutch and my brakes. :( Thx. I hope I cleared that up. XD
I'm glad my progress in driving is finally moving.
Wuhoo. In no time, I would be driving around!!! HAHAHAHAHA. Can't wait man. I had been troubling people far too often. Now no need to go home at a specific time whatsoever. And I can go out on weekends too if I feel like it! Or yum cha at night with frens! Hahahaha. And also pay back my frens who had to fetch me home all the time! hahahaha. Relax! That time is coming soon.
I just hope I don't get lost though. My sense of direction is desperately in need of improvement.
So after the driving,
I had to go home and prepare for some birthday party at night.
And I also had to take picture of the snake remember?
But my maid already brought the snake outside and curled it up nicely.
:/
It was freaking geli I tell you.
The snake.
YUX MAN.
I thinking about it also damn geli.
The dead snake. With normal colorful scales and all.
AHHHHHHH.
I want to share the geliness so I'm going to post the photo here.
XD
YUX
Super geli.
And also rite.
My favourite comic, Pooch Cafe, came out with another funny script at the website I get the daily scripts from!
Poncho is just freaking adorable.
;)
-alexeO-
:/
As I was sleeping very comfortably, I didn't really reply and just mumbled "mmm" as in "yeah, I heard you."
So when I finally woke up, there was a note written by my dad stating he wanted to have a photo of the snake taken for some complain he was going to make. Bahh.
However, I also had some driving lessons in the next hour so instead of preparing my camera for the snake photoshoot, I had to look for transport to get me to the freaking driving centre.
Ended up, my dad took me to the driving centre.. and I totally forgot about the dead snake lying in the kitchen.
Obviously, my dad wasn't happy and showed some signs of frustration.
Bahh.
Anyway, my driving lessons were a little embarassing. I told my friends yesterday that I shouldn't show off anymore after what happened. Hahaha. I was very proudly claiming that I didn't mati enjin once for my first lesson. Ended up, I mati enjin-ed around 4 times yesterday. -___- Nooooo. The most embarassing one was on the big hill where my car died right on the hill with one long queue of cars behind waiting. Oh my Gosh. And summore I wasn't used to have my engine dying so I didn't really know what to do and started to have a slight panic attack.
I asked my instructor and he told me to do bla bla bla. You wouldn't guess how happy I was to get down the freaking hill.
Another equally as embarassing moment wasn't really involving other ppl watching but just myself. I tend to put my left foot too high on the clutch and my instructor kept reminding me on that. So there was once when I was pressing the clutch but then I realised I was too high and I didn't want him to notice it.
So what did I do?
I tried to move my foot down -_-
ZZzzzZ. Tha was totally like a GG moment for me.
But it was alright la other than that. I get why most people fail at the hill now. Understandable. It's not something I like doing very much. My three point turn is pretty okay I guess anyway.
And summore I met Richmond there driving around. His test is on Monday, which is tomorrow so he was practising. Expectedly, he made fun of me driving after that. -_- I DIDN"T STOP AT THE ROUNDABOUT ON PURPOSE OKAY! The thing was.. there was a car stopping there for some reason. So I had to wait. And the worst thing was.. I had to stop at the part where there was a little slope approaching the roundabout. So what did I have to do... I had to do some mini balancing! Omgz. And considering I am a total newbie at balancing, I had to do step by step, trying to remember what to do each time. And Richmond was making fun of me that I stopped there. -__- And my reverse down the hill wasn't an accident!! It was on purpose. My instructor was trying to get my stopping on the line to perfection so he kept asking me to do over and over again. I had to change to free gear and release my clutch and my brakes. :( Thx. I hope I cleared that up. XD
I'm glad my progress in driving is finally moving.
Wuhoo. In no time, I would be driving around!!! HAHAHAHAHA. Can't wait man. I had been troubling people far too often. Now no need to go home at a specific time whatsoever. And I can go out on weekends too if I feel like it! Or yum cha at night with frens! Hahahaha. And also pay back my frens who had to fetch me home all the time! hahahaha. Relax! That time is coming soon.
I just hope I don't get lost though. My sense of direction is desperately in need of improvement.
So after the driving,
I had to go home and prepare for some birthday party at night.
And I also had to take picture of the snake remember?
But my maid already brought the snake outside and curled it up nicely.
:/
It was freaking geli I tell you.
The snake.
YUX MAN.
I thinking about it also damn geli.
The dead snake. With normal colorful scales and all.
AHHHHHHH.
I want to share the geliness so I'm going to post the photo here.
XD
YUX
Super geli.
And also rite.
My favourite comic, Pooch Cafe, came out with another funny script at the website I get the daily scripts from!
Poncho is just freaking adorable.
;)
-alexeO-
Friday, May 05, 2006
Thomas Cup
Badminton has to be the most ever exciting game in the world.
Yes. It even surpasses football most of the times.
I don't know if it's because of my patriotic self taking over during Malaysia matches but gosh. It is a guarantee that my heart will be affected somehow. That is how much it affects me. My heart is feeling abit pain now. Very weak heart. I know.
But that's only because I just watched the Malaysia Vs Denmark Thomas Cup SemiFinals First Doubles Match.
Super exciting. 3 set. 2nd set the score was 30-28 to Denmark. Can you just imagine that. WON IN THE END BTW OMGZ!!
But first singles lost. I never watched. Can't report.
So now a game a piece. CMON HAFIZ OMGZAOPOPORERWEER.
Will blog more about the badminton part next.
For now, back to the TV!
When I say Malaysia, U shout BOLEH!
is that okay?
okay. here goes.
..
Malaysia...
Thx. I appreciate it. :)
-alexeO- XDXDXD
Badminton has to be the most ever exciting game in the world.
Yes. It even surpasses football most of the times.
I don't know if it's because of my patriotic self taking over during Malaysia matches but gosh. It is a guarantee that my heart will be affected somehow. That is how much it affects me. My heart is feeling abit pain now. Very weak heart. I know.
But that's only because I just watched the Malaysia Vs Denmark Thomas Cup SemiFinals First Doubles Match.
Super exciting. 3 set. 2nd set the score was 30-28 to Denmark. Can you just imagine that. WON IN THE END BTW OMGZ!!
But first singles lost. I never watched. Can't report.
So now a game a piece. CMON HAFIZ OMGZAOPOPORERWEER.
Will blog more about the badminton part next.
For now, back to the TV!
When I say Malaysia, U shout BOLEH!
is that okay?
okay. here goes.
..
Malaysia...
Thx. I appreciate it. :)
-alexeO- XDXDXD
Thursday, May 04, 2006
The Precious Second
omgzzzzzzz.
once in a lifetime experience.
and i was lucky enuff to print screen! XD
...
okla. actually i cheated. -_-
I was bloody doing my ESL project covers and when I looked at the time.. it was 1:04 already. -_____-
So I had to adjust my time back a few minutes to capture that.
Hey it's not that bad okay?!
Only a few minutes.. not like adjusting the whole clock by hours or weeks or months for that matter.
;)
I thought something would happen at that very second.
Nothing did.
:/
At least for me.
Back to projects.
Damn.
-alexeO-
omgzzzzzzz.
once in a lifetime experience.
and i was lucky enuff to print screen! XD
...
okla. actually i cheated. -_-
I was bloody doing my ESL project covers and when I looked at the time.. it was 1:04 already. -_____-
So I had to adjust my time back a few minutes to capture that.
Hey it's not that bad okay?!
Only a few minutes.. not like adjusting the whole clock by hours or weeks or months for that matter.
;)
I thought something would happen at that very second.
Nothing did.
:/
At least for me.
Back to projects.
Damn.
-alexeO-
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Poncho
Yesh. I still got alot of things to complete. Refering to the last post, my updated list of things to do would look something like this :-
ESL 2000 words final essay
ESL Planning Material + Annotated Bibliography
Physics Info-Search Detailed Outline
IT Database System
Mathematical Studies homework *new*
Looks better now. The IT Database I still got 2 months to complete so yeah.. ;)
Btw. I'm getting addicted over Pooch Café past few weeks. It's really really my type of comic and it's freaking hilarious. When I intro-ed Kelvin to it, he somehow went and buy a comic compilation for it. -_- The leading dog's name is Poncho btw. Hates cats and scared of squirrels. Really damn cute character. Funny shit.
-alexeO-
Yesh. I still got alot of things to complete. Refering to the last post, my updated list of things to do would look something like this :-
Looks better now. The IT Database I still got 2 months to complete so yeah.. ;)
Btw. I'm getting addicted over Pooch Café past few weeks. It's really really my type of comic and it's freaking hilarious. When I intro-ed Kelvin to it, he somehow went and buy a comic compilation for it. -_- The leading dog's name is Poncho btw. Hates cats and scared of squirrels. Really damn cute character. Funny shit.
-alexeO-
Friday, April 28, 2006
I'm a busy man
I got nothing interesting to blog about really, with the exception of Arsenal making the finals of the Champions League which is totally amazing. I don't care if ppl say they don't 'deserve' it or Villareal totally pwned them in the 2nd leg but the fact remains that you can't be lucky for so many games in a row. Something had to play a part and there is no such thing as 'deserve' in football. I've learned it through past experiences. Arsenal scored in the first leg. 2nd leg no one scored. Hence, they are through. Live with it. They knocked out Real Madrid and Juventus to get to the semis. It takes more than just 'luck' to get through. Thank you very much.
I have alot of things to do!
But I still cannot find my bloody pendrive which went missing one Friday. Argh. I got so many important files inside. Searching house soon.
Things to do :-
ESL 2000 words final essay
ESL Planning Material + Annotated Bibliography
Physics Info-Search Detailed Outline
Physics Homework
IT Database System
Specialist Mathematics homework
Mathematical Studies homework
GG la 4 days holiday.
From that list, I think most time will be allocated for the ESL final essay which I have to rephrase some of my contents from the draft I handed in. The planning material also stinks and I don't even have 7 sources to start with. And summore I am supposed to write bibliography for my 7 MOST used sources. Hello? Physics Outline will also take some time of mine. And my physics lecturer has already warned me jokingly regarding his homework. -_-
Specialist Maths, a must do. Maths Studies.. if I don't have the time, I think it's not possible. =(
GG.
-alexeO-
I got nothing interesting to blog about really, with the exception of Arsenal making the finals of the Champions League which is totally amazing. I don't care if ppl say they don't 'deserve' it or Villareal totally pwned them in the 2nd leg but the fact remains that you can't be lucky for so many games in a row. Something had to play a part and there is no such thing as 'deserve' in football. I've learned it through past experiences. Arsenal scored in the first leg. 2nd leg no one scored. Hence, they are through. Live with it. They knocked out Real Madrid and Juventus to get to the semis. It takes more than just 'luck' to get through. Thank you very much.
I have alot of things to do!
But I still cannot find my bloody pendrive which went missing one Friday. Argh. I got so many important files inside. Searching house soon.
Things to do :-
GG la 4 days holiday.
From that list, I think most time will be allocated for the ESL final essay which I have to rephrase some of my contents from the draft I handed in. The planning material also stinks and I don't even have 7 sources to start with. And summore I am supposed to write bibliography for my 7 MOST used sources. Hello? Physics Outline will also take some time of mine. And my physics lecturer has already warned me jokingly regarding his homework. -_-
Specialist Maths, a must do. Maths Studies.. if I don't have the time, I think it's not possible. =(
GG.
-alexeO-
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Pooch Café by Paul Gilligan
Today, I was reading the comics section in the New Sunday Times when I came across a surprisingly funny strip. It was surprising because I don't come across funny comics often. More came as either just plain stupid or they have some american/british joke I just don't get. :/
However, the comics these days I realised are more suited to the local flavour. The Star comics however, are still boring and dull. Thus, I prefer the NST's comics to The Star's anyday.
lmao.
-alexeO-
Today, I was reading the comics section in the New Sunday Times when I came across a surprisingly funny strip. It was surprising because I don't come across funny comics often. More came as either just plain stupid or they have some american/british joke I just don't get. :/
However, the comics these days I realised are more suited to the local flavour. The Star comics however, are still boring and dull. Thus, I prefer the NST's comics to The Star's anyday.
lmao.
-alexeO-
The birds are my friends
Remember last time I said I was trying to make my specialist maths teacher to have a good impression on me?
I give up already.
Somehow, it's just not to be!
Fate doesn't allow it. Not at all.
-____-
So eversince she checked my 'incomplete' or simply 'undone' homework, I've been doing her homework like mad, completing it every single time, also trying my best to pay attention in class as much as possible. So I thought, yea..finally heading to the right direction.
But,
SOMEHOW or RATHER,
it just wouldn't work.
So in the class one time, I was laughing out loud over a joke I shared with my frens..
Suddenly, she was like "what's the laughing there all about???"
Being the cowardly chicken shit me, I was like "ahh..nothing"
Then I took a quick glance at her noticing her looking at me..
And wtf. SHAKING HER HEAD IN LIKE WAT? DISBELIEF OR SOMETHING.
You could just see from her face she was like thinking ,"sigh..this boy not working hard..so weak and still can laugh like that"
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Screw it la.
I give up liau.
Now I'll just do my work for my own benefit.
No more trying to impress anybody.
Tee-hee.
I went to the quiksilver revolution thing yesterday. I came right before the click five performance. Special thanks to Kelvin Tan who even was extremely reluctant, he ran up all the way to the top to pass the ticket to me and then walk back then. Wuhoo!
Performance was pretty good.
Nothing much to say.
I have more tests coming up this week.
This would never end.
Omgz.
So tired and sleepy.
-alexeO-
Remember last time I said I was trying to make my specialist maths teacher to have a good impression on me?
I give up already.
Somehow, it's just not to be!
Fate doesn't allow it. Not at all.
-____-
So eversince she checked my 'incomplete' or simply 'undone' homework, I've been doing her homework like mad, completing it every single time, also trying my best to pay attention in class as much as possible. So I thought, yea..finally heading to the right direction.
But,
SOMEHOW or RATHER,
it just wouldn't work.
So in the class one time, I was laughing out loud over a joke I shared with my frens..
Suddenly, she was like "what's the laughing there all about???"
Being the cowardly chicken shit me, I was like "ahh..nothing"
Then I took a quick glance at her noticing her looking at me..
And wtf. SHAKING HER HEAD IN LIKE WAT? DISBELIEF OR SOMETHING.
You could just see from her face she was like thinking ,"sigh..this boy not working hard..so weak and still can laugh like that"
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Screw it la.
I give up liau.
Now I'll just do my work for my own benefit.
No more trying to impress anybody.
Tee-hee.
I went to the quiksilver revolution thing yesterday. I came right before the click five performance. Special thanks to Kelvin Tan who even was extremely reluctant, he ran up all the way to the top to pass the ticket to me and then walk back then. Wuhoo!
Performance was pretty good.
Nothing much to say.
I have more tests coming up this week.
This would never end.
Omgz.
So tired and sleepy.
-alexeO-
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Of studying and not
I had so many things to blog about but I cannot remember most of them.
:/
Also suffering from a minor headache thx to bloody spec maths homework and my fren who is trying to teach me through the net. Sigh.
So anyway,
I've been doing my work and not dota-ing these last wat..few days or so.
It's a pretty amazing accomplishment considering I'm not a guy who studies or does he homework last year at all.
However,
with my newly-found motivation and drive,
I somehow ventured into a journey of self discovery and discovered the true reason behind one thing.
Why have I not been studying as much as I was supposed to before..
(this post is priceless to the people who often is so damn curious on how I can be so relaxed even with not studying at all)
Yes. Of course laziness is a factor.
But there's another significant factor which I think triggers the laziness to happen.
It's actually the impression I will give to the ppl around me.
All these while, I thought if I don't study or study less, ppl will not expect much from me. And that feels great.
That is because I'll basically be in a no lose situation where if I score badly, it is expected and if I surprisingly do well, it will be 2X the happiness and shock.
And that is great.
However, if I DO study hard,
I'll place this impression on ppl's mind that I will be scoring well and thus ppl naturally will expect more from me.
In that case, if I do score well, it is expected and the happiness will be so-so whereas if I somehow do badly, it is gonna be uber 23346X disappointing.
This self-discovery process is making me feel smart. ;)
Yea.
So that's the reason. I know it may sound stupid. But heck it's me. And you cannot deny the arguments behind it.
Ppl always have this impression of me of being super lazy and not doing my work.
It's true. But at least I don't make them think I will score well.
However, it has already been proven a few times that I DO surprise ppl with my results that they say I do not really deserve.
And that is great. So much better than having expected to achieve that results and just getting it. It sucks.
This thinking of mine may be some sort of a negative but I feel it is benefiting me.
I know hard work pays off but I have not actually lived to experience it yet.
As I had that so called negative thinking eversince I was very young, I never actually know where hardwork can actually put me.
So I rather play safe and don't make ppl put high hopes on me.
And hope in the end I'll be as lucky as before to achieve good results!
Which seems very unlikely this year.
That is why, for the first time in my life, I am actually TRYING to put some effort in my studies.
Yes. Me. Studies.
I'm taking a risk by studying and making ppl put up their hopes on me. I realised that the positive of this hardwork thinking is that even if I do badly, it IS gonna be super disappointing but at least ppl know that I've tried hard enough. Rox.
And it has been in so many life-achievement inspirational stories where it has shown where hardwork can actually put someone.
I feel I'm at a loss if I just want to 'play safe' this year and not study as hard to 'surprise' ppl at the end. It's a risk too big to take. I'm playing with my future here. I could do that in high school as it brought no significance but not now.
My parents obviously (I know) has seen some effort by me. At least more than last year combined. Heh. But it's just screwed up to think that I screwed up my Maths Direct Investigation thing I had yesterday and today, my IT Common Test last week and I'm quite sure the upcoming tests next week which I can just predict the results.
Those results I am getting are not doing good to my hypothesis that hard work can actually bring success. And it's actually making me feel lower than ever. But I guess all those are just the obstacles I am bound to face by choosing this path of mine.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying I've transformed into a super duper hardworking Alex robot guy. No.
Not at all.
All I'm saying is I am putting slightly more effort than before in hope that it will bring me the benefit I seek.
I'm taking it step by step so the changes aren't visible but i will at least TRY now.
Don't bring Physics into the picture as I am indeed having some slight trouble with the topic. :( But once again, I shall TRY!
Why am I posting about all these which are bound to be false promises in the future you ask?
That is because, I need a reminder.
That everytime I visit this blog.. I remember about this post.
I need reminders of all sort. If you could do that favour for me that'll be great.
Just remind me about my promises and my future.
I have all sorts of reminders now. I have a Melbourne Uni manager namecard beside my computer, I have the Melbourne Uni website at my url history.. and now this post.
I've already not gamed for 2 days. And even the games I played few days back did not feel as fun as they did last time.
Slowly but surely, I hope.. like a man dying of thirst in the middle of the desert, surrounded by flocks of vultures awaiting his departure, with the rays of the sun almost literally nailing him to the hot sand...
I ..will..
reach..
my..
goal.
-alexeO-
I had so many things to blog about but I cannot remember most of them.
:/
Also suffering from a minor headache thx to bloody spec maths homework and my fren who is trying to teach me through the net. Sigh.
So anyway,
I've been doing my work and not dota-ing these last wat..few days or so.
It's a pretty amazing accomplishment considering I'm not a guy who studies or does he homework last year at all.
However,
with my newly-found motivation and drive,
I somehow ventured into a journey of self discovery and discovered the true reason behind one thing.
Why have I not been studying as much as I was supposed to before..
(this post is priceless to the people who often is so damn curious on how I can be so relaxed even with not studying at all)
Yes. Of course laziness is a factor.
But there's another significant factor which I think triggers the laziness to happen.
It's actually the impression I will give to the ppl around me.
All these while, I thought if I don't study or study less, ppl will not expect much from me. And that feels great.
That is because I'll basically be in a no lose situation where if I score badly, it is expected and if I surprisingly do well, it will be 2X the happiness and shock.
And that is great.
However, if I DO study hard,
I'll place this impression on ppl's mind that I will be scoring well and thus ppl naturally will expect more from me.
In that case, if I do score well, it is expected and the happiness will be so-so whereas if I somehow do badly, it is gonna be uber 23346X disappointing.
This self-discovery process is making me feel smart. ;)
Yea.
So that's the reason. I know it may sound stupid. But heck it's me. And you cannot deny the arguments behind it.
Ppl always have this impression of me of being super lazy and not doing my work.
It's true. But at least I don't make them think I will score well.
However, it has already been proven a few times that I DO surprise ppl with my results that they say I do not really deserve.
And that is great. So much better than having expected to achieve that results and just getting it. It sucks.
This thinking of mine may be some sort of a negative but I feel it is benefiting me.
I know hard work pays off but I have not actually lived to experience it yet.
As I had that so called negative thinking eversince I was very young, I never actually know where hardwork can actually put me.
So I rather play safe and don't make ppl put high hopes on me.
And hope in the end I'll be as lucky as before to achieve good results!
Which seems very unlikely this year.
That is why, for the first time in my life, I am actually TRYING to put some effort in my studies.
Yes. Me. Studies.
I'm taking a risk by studying and making ppl put up their hopes on me. I realised that the positive of this hardwork thinking is that even if I do badly, it IS gonna be super disappointing but at least ppl know that I've tried hard enough. Rox.
And it has been in so many life-achievement inspirational stories where it has shown where hardwork can actually put someone.
I feel I'm at a loss if I just want to 'play safe' this year and not study as hard to 'surprise' ppl at the end. It's a risk too big to take. I'm playing with my future here. I could do that in high school as it brought no significance but not now.
My parents obviously (I know) has seen some effort by me. At least more than last year combined. Heh. But it's just screwed up to think that I screwed up my Maths Direct Investigation thing I had yesterday and today, my IT Common Test last week and I'm quite sure the upcoming tests next week which I can just predict the results.
Those results I am getting are not doing good to my hypothesis that hard work can actually bring success. And it's actually making me feel lower than ever. But I guess all those are just the obstacles I am bound to face by choosing this path of mine.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying I've transformed into a super duper hardworking Alex robot guy. No.
Not at all.
All I'm saying is I am putting slightly more effort than before in hope that it will bring me the benefit I seek.
I'm taking it step by step so the changes aren't visible but i will at least TRY now.
Don't bring Physics into the picture as I am indeed having some slight trouble with the topic. :( But once again, I shall TRY!
Why am I posting about all these which are bound to be false promises in the future you ask?
That is because, I need a reminder.
That everytime I visit this blog.. I remember about this post.
I need reminders of all sort. If you could do that favour for me that'll be great.
Just remind me about my promises and my future.
I have all sorts of reminders now. I have a Melbourne Uni manager namecard beside my computer, I have the Melbourne Uni website at my url history.. and now this post.
I've already not gamed for 2 days. And even the games I played few days back did not feel as fun as they did last time.
Slowly but surely, I hope.. like a man dying of thirst in the middle of the desert, surrounded by flocks of vultures awaiting his departure, with the rays of the sun almost literally nailing him to the hot sand...
I ..will..
reach..
my..
goal.
-alexeO-
Saturday, April 15, 2006
It's Saturday
Remember Alexei?
I'm a happy big poodle.
It was just minutes ago when I saw Alexei again by the stack of cables and wires some metres away from my computer.
=(
Sigh.
:(
Everything comes to an end eventually doesn't it?
Huey Shyan surprised visit us last Saturday on the Scholastic Award Ceremony day thingy. I didn't go so I got the message kinda late. I heard the guys went to 1U after that and after their movie, Huey Shyan appeared from nowhere and startled everyone. Shocked and all. I heard they had a very emotional hug too. Hahaha. However sadly, I was still sleeping on my bed and putting down Kelvin's calls so I didn't get to witness the event.
However, I got my own fair share of shock when the guys decided to come over my house with Huey Shyan.
I was happily on my computer when my maid suddenly told me there were ppl looking for alex outside the house. I was like wtf? Zzz.
So I reluctantly went off from my computer to the maingate outside my house.
Wtf. Really there.
The guys were demanding me to let them in and all. What could I do. I opened the gate and asked what they were doing here.
They didn't reply or anything.. Just either changed topic or laughed it off.
Then out of nowhere, Chrisanne popped out.
"Eh? You here too?"
She just smiled at me.
Few seconds or so later, another girl walked in the gate.
It was dark so I took a little while to figured out who that was.
But that little while wasn't long.
OMG?
What's she doing here!
.
.
.
The guys were obviously silent with big grins on their faces when they noticed me trying to figure out who that was.
I saw her. Then I looked back at the guys?
???? Huh? What's this. Lol!
Walau.
Damn funny moment la. Surprising.
Eventhough Teck Eng expected me to be more surprised caused he was. :/
Then they spent some time at my place disturbing ppl on my MSN list and we had a little chat among ourselves.
Also managed to snap some pictures too.
First try too far.
The Group Picture.
Those are the 2 group pictures we took.
There are some other candid shots too but lazy to post them up.
:)
-alexeO-
Remember Alexei?
I'm a happy big poodle.
It was just minutes ago when I saw Alexei again by the stack of cables and wires some metres away from my computer.
=(
Sigh.
:(
Everything comes to an end eventually doesn't it?
Huey Shyan surprised visit us last Saturday on the Scholastic Award Ceremony day thingy. I didn't go so I got the message kinda late. I heard the guys went to 1U after that and after their movie, Huey Shyan appeared from nowhere and startled everyone. Shocked and all. I heard they had a very emotional hug too. Hahaha. However sadly, I was still sleeping on my bed and putting down Kelvin's calls so I didn't get to witness the event.
However, I got my own fair share of shock when the guys decided to come over my house with Huey Shyan.
I was happily on my computer when my maid suddenly told me there were ppl looking for alex outside the house. I was like wtf? Zzz.
So I reluctantly went off from my computer to the maingate outside my house.
Wtf. Really there.
The guys were demanding me to let them in and all. What could I do. I opened the gate and asked what they were doing here.
They didn't reply or anything.. Just either changed topic or laughed it off.
Then out of nowhere, Chrisanne popped out.
"Eh? You here too?"
She just smiled at me.
Few seconds or so later, another girl walked in the gate.
It was dark so I took a little while to figured out who that was.
But that little while wasn't long.
OMG?
What's she doing here!
.
.
.
The guys were obviously silent with big grins on their faces when they noticed me trying to figure out who that was.
I saw her. Then I looked back at the guys?
???? Huh? What's this. Lol!
Walau.
Damn funny moment la. Surprising.
Eventhough Teck Eng expected me to be more surprised caused he was. :/
Then they spent some time at my place disturbing ppl on my MSN list and we had a little chat among ourselves.
Also managed to snap some pictures too.
First try too far.
The Group Picture.
Those are the 2 group pictures we took.
There are some other candid shots too but lazy to post them up.
:)
-alexeO-
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
My Nokia 3250 first review
Hello all. This is gonna be my very first review ever on my new Nokia 3250 which I just bought yesterday.
This is also called a first review as I only used it for one day so far and I'm just gonna review on whatever I've discovered for that one day and simply my first impression on it. It is also gonna be short. So it's actually MY personal review/opinion and should not be considered for public viewing.
So anyway,
generally..
I love it.
My Nokia 3250 lying proudly on a table.
Everytime I look at it lying just like that.. I think about how cool and gaya it looks.
But I bet you don't know one thing which makes the gayaness 3236236X
IT CAN TWIST!
nono. not any ordinary camera twist. Its keypad! Twistable!!
One twist and you get a camera mode.
Another twist and you get the music player mode.
Twist once for Camera Mode.
Twist twice for Music Player Mode!
Woooooooooooh!
And it's black too. Extreme gayaness. And sexy too.
Anyway I couldn't consider any other colors anyway as they only had black/pink available then.
So obviously I chose BLACK DUH.
My previous phone was a Nokia 6600.. bought it quite early after its release. And I didn't upgrade it at all.. So I still had the 32MB memory card which didn't enable me to do anything at all.
So basically, this phone differ so much that my opinions are probably a norm for some who are more used to advanced Symbian phones.
The speaker quality is quite good. I like it. No complains.
However, the camera seems to be lacking slightly. It isn't as good as other 2megapixel camera phones somehow. Well it's definitely better than my 6600's camera duh. But even reviews said it isn't that good if compared.
I think the reason behind this is because of the phone being mainly focused on its music player functions rather than the other functions.
Thus,
the video quality seemed to be lacking to quite an extent too.
Nevertheless,
I still feel its camera is manage-able and it's pretty good.. just not AS good. get what I mean?
And another negative to this phone would be .. it doesn't support chinese characters.
-___-
Well not yet anyway.
So the chinese songs the ppl there helped me install all have funny boxes and codes.
Yea it's not like I can read chinese anyway but I know abit abit and at least I can agak agak it better than funny codes and boxes. :(
So I'm still in the process of trying to rename the files on the computer then transferring it back in as somehow I cannot rename any of the songs in my hp.
Puting all those aside,
the phone is still very very good for me.
It's just so damn cool.
Can you even resist the twisting of this phone?!
:D
It's pretty thick too. That's why I love it even more.
And oh yea, another thing.
It has Symbian OS which supposedly enables you to install applications in it and all from websites.
HOWEVER, sadly enuff.. its symbian version is TOO NEW!
So I basically CANNOT dload anything as of now because it say bla bla bla unsupported. Zzz.
Not to fear as I got a feeling new more updated and advanced applications/games will be coming my way which only my symbian version can dload! Bwahahaha.
I only managed to dload one game btw. Very very cheap loooking java volleyball game and I deleted it straight away. Sigh. I shall wait!
I also transferred most of my fav mp3s to the phone. Pretty fun. Now I can listen to them wherever I am.
I also am in the process of sorting out the tracks and arranging in nicely into proper track lists.
I also still need to figure out and delete some chinese songs which I have no idea what songs are those. Some are quite nice though. So i shall keep.
First day impression, excellent I would say.
Really catch the attention of many when used.
I shall/may review the phone again another like wat? few weeks or months from now.
Bye bye Nokia 6600. I will miss you. :( || Hello Nokia 3250 :)
-alexeO-
Hello all. This is gonna be my very first review ever on my new Nokia 3250 which I just bought yesterday.
This is also called a first review as I only used it for one day so far and I'm just gonna review on whatever I've discovered for that one day and simply my first impression on it. It is also gonna be short. So it's actually MY personal review/opinion and should not be considered for public viewing.
So anyway,
generally..
I love it.
My Nokia 3250 lying proudly on a table.
Everytime I look at it lying just like that.. I think about how cool and gaya it looks.
But I bet you don't know one thing which makes the gayaness 3236236X
IT CAN TWIST!
nono. not any ordinary camera twist. Its keypad! Twistable!!
One twist and you get a camera mode.
Another twist and you get the music player mode.
Twist once for Camera Mode.
Twist twice for Music Player Mode!
Woooooooooooh!
And it's black too. Extreme gayaness. And sexy too.
Anyway I couldn't consider any other colors anyway as they only had black/pink available then.
So obviously I chose BLACK DUH.
My previous phone was a Nokia 6600.. bought it quite early after its release. And I didn't upgrade it at all.. So I still had the 32MB memory card which didn't enable me to do anything at all.
So basically, this phone differ so much that my opinions are probably a norm for some who are more used to advanced Symbian phones.
The speaker quality is quite good. I like it. No complains.
However, the camera seems to be lacking slightly. It isn't as good as other 2megapixel camera phones somehow. Well it's definitely better than my 6600's camera duh. But even reviews said it isn't that good if compared.
I think the reason behind this is because of the phone being mainly focused on its music player functions rather than the other functions.
Thus,
the video quality seemed to be lacking to quite an extent too.
Nevertheless,
I still feel its camera is manage-able and it's pretty good.. just not AS good. get what I mean?
And another negative to this phone would be .. it doesn't support chinese characters.
-___-
Well not yet anyway.
So the chinese songs the ppl there helped me install all have funny boxes and codes.
Yea it's not like I can read chinese anyway but I know abit abit and at least I can agak agak it better than funny codes and boxes. :(
So I'm still in the process of trying to rename the files on the computer then transferring it back in as somehow I cannot rename any of the songs in my hp.
Puting all those aside,
the phone is still very very good for me.
It's just so damn cool.
Can you even resist the twisting of this phone?!
:D
It's pretty thick too. That's why I love it even more.
And oh yea, another thing.
It has Symbian OS which supposedly enables you to install applications in it and all from websites.
HOWEVER, sadly enuff.. its symbian version is TOO NEW!
So I basically CANNOT dload anything as of now because it say bla bla bla unsupported. Zzz.
Not to fear as I got a feeling new more updated and advanced applications/games will be coming my way which only my symbian version can dload! Bwahahaha.
I only managed to dload one game btw. Very very cheap loooking java volleyball game and I deleted it straight away. Sigh. I shall wait!
I also transferred most of my fav mp3s to the phone. Pretty fun. Now I can listen to them wherever I am.
I also am in the process of sorting out the tracks and arranging in nicely into proper track lists.
I also still need to figure out and delete some chinese songs which I have no idea what songs are those. Some are quite nice though. So i shall keep.
First day impression, excellent I would say.
Really catch the attention of many when used.
I shall/may review the phone again another like wat? few weeks or months from now.
Bye bye Nokia 6600. I will miss you. :( || Hello Nokia 3250 :)
-alexeO-
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Saturday, April 08, 2006
This feeling in my heart
I was rudely awaken this afternoon by the blasting simple plan ringing tone.
I looked at my phone's display screen and saw the ever so huge words blinking, desperately attempting to catch my attention.
Haih.
I was super tired and did not feel like talking to anyone at the moment so I just looked for the red button on my hp and pressed it. I know it wasn't really Kelvin's mum anyway. The kiamsiap Kelvin always uses his mum's hp to avoid the credit usage on his own hp. So, end of ringing. Back to sleep.
It wasn't a while later when I got distracted by another sound, probably something my maid was cleaning downstairs. So I opened my eyes slowly just to figure out it is probably late in the day already. I searched for my HP in an attempt to look at the time but I saw this instead on my hp display screen.
1 Message Received
I clicked on the Read function only to see a message from Kelvin HP which read,
You guys wan2 go out after scholastic?
Then it shot me.
My school's scholastic award day is today.
Dammit.
My whole original plans of attending the scholastic day crumbled so quickly, disappearing from sight.
I always got a habit of looking at Message Details to find out when the message was sent and I found out it was actually 9am in the morning. Yeap. Hours before the phone call from Kelvin Tan. So obviously I missed the whole ceremony and then I went back to my sleep again.
I woke up few hours later only to found out I slept for more than 12 hours already.
I had to take my shower before I finally got fresh enough to think. I remembered about the phone call Kelvin made and the message.
The scholastic award. Damn. I missed it. I really wanted to go.
It was only slightly later when I had another thought about the award ceremony.
My heart twisted slightly as I began pondering.
My eyes had the slightest shade of green as my heart became uncomfortable.
Scholastic Award.
I should be there.
Having attended the Award ceremony in 2004 for my PMR achievement.. I suddenly felt horrible that I'm not attending it again.
I was jealous.
I felt it.
It was so near yet so far.
I wanted my name to be called by the emcee. I wanted ppl to clap for me as I proudly walked onto the stage to receive my cheque.
But it didn't happen, obviously.
I remembered in 2004 during the ceremony or few days before it, I was telling my family on how I would not attend the ceremony ever again as I was struggling with my subjects at that time.. the very first few months of Senior 4.
I was really at a joking manner at that time but I was inside quite serious too as I never imagined how I would score for my Physics, Chem, Biology and Add Maths. I was thinking on how one could actually score so many As in their SPM examinations and I thought I would actually only probably got 1-2 that time. So I told my family that I would not be attending the award again and just told them to cherish the moment cause it would be my last.
How dumbfuck I actually was.
Because of the words I said, it became a reality.
However, I did manage much more As then I had imagined at 2004.
I know I did not work for my SPM so I don't really have the right complain right now.. but neither have I worked for my PMR but I was there.
I missed attending the scholastic award by a mere 1 A.
It was at MSN a while ago when I suddenly got all these feelings jumbled up.
|a.y| says:
why u gg-ed
Richmond says:
gg..
|a.y| says:
today was scholastic award day..
Richmond says:
what's that gotto do with me?
|a.y| says:
i'm sad.
|a.y| says:
i not attending.
Richmond says:
u shud know the reason why u not there
|a.y| says:
i know.
|a.y| says:
cause the school dowan to allow 1119 as an additional subject.
Richmond says:
rofl?
|a.y| says:
wat
|a.y| says:
it's true
|a.y| says:
they dowan to spend money
Richmond says:
rofl?
|a.y| says:
kiamsiap shit
|a.y| says:
or they hate me
|a.y| says:
bla
Richmond says:
rofl?
|a.y| says:
stfu
|a.y| says:
btw i am copying this conversation to my blog
|a.y| says:
tx
Richmond says:
wtf?
I had enough As on my SPM slip.
Only the school didn't want to look at that part to count the sufficient As needed.
My classmates in Taylor's all told me their school all actually looked at the 1119(a seperate marking for the English paper) when they were giving away rewards and all.
Even to include the 1119 in the total As were very normal for those from certain schools.
I didn't get to fight my case actively as I was the ONLY person with this problem in my school. The rest who got the same amount of As with me didn't get As for the 1119.
I'm sure if there were more cases like mine, I would actually get ppl to fight with me. But it never happened. So it didn't happen.
No use crying over spilt milk now I know. Whoever I tell this to they will simply tell me that I over-achieved for the efforts I put in last year. No one saw me working hard whatsoever but I achieved more than anyone could predict.
It's true I don't deserve the money if I had gotten it but I feel it is normal to complain after having the reward robbed away from you just like that.
Ppl will tell me that I would probably actually score straight As if I had actually WORK for my SPM which I did not really.
Does all these actually mean..
I am actually capable of scoring results only posted in the newspapers?
O_O
I am actually smart. Hey.
Just lazy.
Everyone tells me that.
LOL. I am starting to love myself.
And yes, I may just be saying all these to satisfy myself so just stfu.
Also,
I'm not becoming full of myself but.. if it is indeed true..
Will hardwork actually put me in Melbourne U like I had always targetted?
More tests up this coming week in college.
Time to prove my hypothesis.
Or not?
-alexeO-
I was rudely awaken this afternoon by the blasting simple plan ringing tone.
I looked at my phone's display screen and saw the ever so huge words blinking, desperately attempting to catch my attention.
Haih.
I was super tired and did not feel like talking to anyone at the moment so I just looked for the red button on my hp and pressed it. I know it wasn't really Kelvin's mum anyway. The kiamsiap Kelvin always uses his mum's hp to avoid the credit usage on his own hp. So, end of ringing. Back to sleep.
It wasn't a while later when I got distracted by another sound, probably something my maid was cleaning downstairs. So I opened my eyes slowly just to figure out it is probably late in the day already. I searched for my HP in an attempt to look at the time but I saw this instead on my hp display screen.
1 Message Received
I clicked on the Read function only to see a message from Kelvin HP which read,
You guys wan2 go out after scholastic?
Then it shot me.
My school's scholastic award day is today.
Dammit.
My whole original plans of attending the scholastic day crumbled so quickly, disappearing from sight.
I always got a habit of looking at Message Details to find out when the message was sent and I found out it was actually 9am in the morning. Yeap. Hours before the phone call from Kelvin Tan. So obviously I missed the whole ceremony and then I went back to my sleep again.
I woke up few hours later only to found out I slept for more than 12 hours already.
I had to take my shower before I finally got fresh enough to think. I remembered about the phone call Kelvin made and the message.
The scholastic award. Damn. I missed it. I really wanted to go.
It was only slightly later when I had another thought about the award ceremony.
My heart twisted slightly as I began pondering.
My eyes had the slightest shade of green as my heart became uncomfortable.
Scholastic Award.
I should be there.
Having attended the Award ceremony in 2004 for my PMR achievement.. I suddenly felt horrible that I'm not attending it again.
I was jealous.
I felt it.
It was so near yet so far.
I wanted my name to be called by the emcee. I wanted ppl to clap for me as I proudly walked onto the stage to receive my cheque.
But it didn't happen, obviously.
I remembered in 2004 during the ceremony or few days before it, I was telling my family on how I would not attend the ceremony ever again as I was struggling with my subjects at that time.. the very first few months of Senior 4.
I was really at a joking manner at that time but I was inside quite serious too as I never imagined how I would score for my Physics, Chem, Biology and Add Maths. I was thinking on how one could actually score so many As in their SPM examinations and I thought I would actually only probably got 1-2 that time. So I told my family that I would not be attending the award again and just told them to cherish the moment cause it would be my last.
How dumbfuck I actually was.
Because of the words I said, it became a reality.
However, I did manage much more As then I had imagined at 2004.
I know I did not work for my SPM so I don't really have the right complain right now.. but neither have I worked for my PMR but I was there.
I missed attending the scholastic award by a mere 1 A.
It was at MSN a while ago when I suddenly got all these feelings jumbled up.
|a.y| says:
why u gg-ed
Richmond says:
gg..
|a.y| says:
today was scholastic award day..
Richmond says:
what's that gotto do with me?
|a.y| says:
i'm sad.
|a.y| says:
i not attending.
Richmond says:
u shud know the reason why u not there
|a.y| says:
i know.
|a.y| says:
cause the school dowan to allow 1119 as an additional subject.
Richmond says:
rofl?
|a.y| says:
wat
|a.y| says:
it's true
|a.y| says:
they dowan to spend money
Richmond says:
rofl?
|a.y| says:
kiamsiap shit
|a.y| says:
or they hate me
|a.y| says:
bla
Richmond says:
rofl?
|a.y| says:
stfu
|a.y| says:
btw i am copying this conversation to my blog
|a.y| says:
tx
Richmond says:
wtf?
I had enough As on my SPM slip.
Only the school didn't want to look at that part to count the sufficient As needed.
My classmates in Taylor's all told me their school all actually looked at the 1119(a seperate marking for the English paper) when they were giving away rewards and all.
Even to include the 1119 in the total As were very normal for those from certain schools.
I didn't get to fight my case actively as I was the ONLY person with this problem in my school. The rest who got the same amount of As with me didn't get As for the 1119.
I'm sure if there were more cases like mine, I would actually get ppl to fight with me. But it never happened. So it didn't happen.
No use crying over spilt milk now I know. Whoever I tell this to they will simply tell me that I over-achieved for the efforts I put in last year. No one saw me working hard whatsoever but I achieved more than anyone could predict.
It's true I don't deserve the money if I had gotten it but I feel it is normal to complain after having the reward robbed away from you just like that.
Ppl will tell me that I would probably actually score straight As if I had actually WORK for my SPM which I did not really.
Does all these actually mean..
I am actually capable of scoring results only posted in the newspapers?
O_O
I am actually smart. Hey.
Just lazy.
Everyone tells me that.
LOL. I am starting to love myself.
And yes, I may just be saying all these to satisfy myself so just stfu.
Also,
I'm not becoming full of myself but.. if it is indeed true..
Will hardwork actually put me in Melbourne U like I had always targetted?
More tests up this coming week in college.
Time to prove my hypothesis.
Or not?
-alexeO-
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Insufficient sleep
Recently, I have been avoiding to doze off after coming back from college.
The progress is quite good, considering I have limited my napping hours to only 1 or less. And there are even days I don't nap. Wuhoo!
But it isn't very good on another side. I need my sleep. And going to bed everyday from 1-2am is not a very good help. My eyes are getting darker and smaller by the day. It sucks having to force my eyes open in the morning. Sigh. Even in classes, I am kinda reluctant to put on my glasses as it will have to ensure I put full attention and not play with my eyes whenever I want. Bah, hard to explain. You would never understand the eyes of a sleepy boy.
And why must my specialist maths lecturer whom I respect so much check my work everytime the time I didn't do?! I mean. I did all the work given before and so happens the homework she gave once I didn't do.. she checked on that particular day.
WTF?! Wat la. This is not good. Really not fated to give good impression at all.
Blah.
Next week Common Test 2 summore for Spec Maths. BAHhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Also on the same day, I will have my ESL Issue Analysis Oral Test.
One on one masuk talk to the teacher.
More than half of my class finished already. My surname starts with a "Y". Therefore,
I am gonna do it on the last day.
ADP library is cool. Somehow I feel more motivated and 'semangat' to do my work there.
Less cramped up.
Dun like the results for AI5 this week. Booo. So many more undeserving ppl shud go out. Blah.
Tomorrow FINALLY gonna go for my remaing 3 hour practical with my driving instructor. Wtf. Summore he's not fetching chrisanne and i there. Gay ass. Have to use our own transport. Talked to him just now summore. Sounded like so reluctant to teach us. Bla. Just get it over with asap la. Dammit. Too long of a delay. Argghhhh!
I will still make it in time before my Mid Year!! (my target) or maybe not. Since the Mid Year Examinations is gonna be around May. April already.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
And nobody fooled me on April's Fool.
:(
I miss the "your-zip-is-down" trick.
Bwahaha.
Heard my fren is giving tuition classes too to a primary kid.
Omg. Was so excited after that. The prospect of me teaching a kid.. walau. Gayanya.
Let's say la.. if I were to teach.. I think I would teach English and Maths to the primary kids. But I shall always bring a dictionary along for my English tuitions as my limited vocabulary is a major problem. :( What if suddenly the kid asked me a word I don't know! Then I have to pretend to be smart and say.. "the dictionary is your best friend" Hmmmm.
And don't laugh at me teaching maths okay. My primary maths is definitely do-able.
;)
But screw it la. As if I will find the time to do. Maybe if get license first.
See first.
I realised I am not a night homework person I thought I was.
I am more of a ..at certain situations kind.
Wtf gay.
Teck Eng messaging me. He lost his pendrive. Ironically both of us had the same pendrive. And also ironically, I lost the cover but not the pendrive and he lost the pendrive but not the cover. Then he just gave me his cover.
Omg so sad wei. But when I inserted the cover into my pendrive.
It was like.
The unity of two souls.
Oooo.
Too much fictional stories/movies/fantasy/anime.
Damn.
Ciaoz for now.
-alexeO-
Recently, I have been avoiding to doze off after coming back from college.
The progress is quite good, considering I have limited my napping hours to only 1 or less. And there are even days I don't nap. Wuhoo!
But it isn't very good on another side. I need my sleep. And going to bed everyday from 1-2am is not a very good help. My eyes are getting darker and smaller by the day. It sucks having to force my eyes open in the morning. Sigh. Even in classes, I am kinda reluctant to put on my glasses as it will have to ensure I put full attention and not play with my eyes whenever I want. Bah, hard to explain. You would never understand the eyes of a sleepy boy.
And why must my specialist maths lecturer whom I respect so much check my work everytime the time I didn't do?! I mean. I did all the work given before and so happens the homework she gave once I didn't do.. she checked on that particular day.
WTF?! Wat la. This is not good. Really not fated to give good impression at all.
Blah.
Next week Common Test 2 summore for Spec Maths. BAHhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Also on the same day, I will have my ESL Issue Analysis Oral Test.
One on one masuk talk to the teacher.
More than half of my class finished already. My surname starts with a "Y". Therefore,
I am gonna do it on the last day.
ADP library is cool. Somehow I feel more motivated and 'semangat' to do my work there.
Less cramped up.
Dun like the results for AI5 this week. Booo. So many more undeserving ppl shud go out. Blah.
Tomorrow FINALLY gonna go for my remaing 3 hour practical with my driving instructor. Wtf. Summore he's not fetching chrisanne and i there. Gay ass. Have to use our own transport. Talked to him just now summore. Sounded like so reluctant to teach us. Bla. Just get it over with asap la. Dammit. Too long of a delay. Argghhhh!
I will still make it in time before my Mid Year!! (my target) or maybe not. Since the Mid Year Examinations is gonna be around May. April already.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
And nobody fooled me on April's Fool.
:(
I miss the "your-zip-is-down" trick.
Bwahaha.
Heard my fren is giving tuition classes too to a primary kid.
Omg. Was so excited after that. The prospect of me teaching a kid.. walau. Gayanya.
Let's say la.. if I were to teach.. I think I would teach English and Maths to the primary kids. But I shall always bring a dictionary along for my English tuitions as my limited vocabulary is a major problem. :( What if suddenly the kid asked me a word I don't know! Then I have to pretend to be smart and say.. "the dictionary is your best friend" Hmmmm.
And don't laugh at me teaching maths okay. My primary maths is definitely do-able.
;)
But screw it la. As if I will find the time to do. Maybe if get license first.
See first.
I realised I am not a night homework person I thought I was.
I am more of a ..at certain situations kind.
Wtf gay.
Teck Eng messaging me. He lost his pendrive. Ironically both of us had the same pendrive. And also ironically, I lost the cover but not the pendrive and he lost the pendrive but not the cover. Then he just gave me his cover.
Omg so sad wei. But when I inserted the cover into my pendrive.
It was like.
The unity of two souls.
Oooo.
Too much fictional stories/movies/fantasy/anime.
Damn.
Ciaoz for now.
-alexeO-
a room
Check out this lastest graphic i made.
Pretty stupid actually. I just found a link to some photoshop brushes site and I was at a dload spree.
Then decided to come out with something.
All I did was to choose different brushes and splat it all over the page.
And added that very corny text.
Oh wait. The speaker thingy looks out of place. Zzz.
Yawn I'm a boring and a very un-artistic person.
Bwahaha.
-alexeO-
Check out this lastest graphic i made.
Pretty stupid actually. I just found a link to some photoshop brushes site and I was at a dload spree.
Then decided to come out with something.
All I did was to choose different brushes and splat it all over the page.
And added that very corny text.
Oh wait. The speaker thingy looks out of place. Zzz.
Yawn I'm a boring and a very un-artistic person.
Bwahaha.
-alexeO-
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Meet Alexei
arf!
Had Alexei made for RM1 yest from the Charity Drive Carnival thingy. So cheap. And damn fun buying a poodle made out of a balloon. Might as well la. Since it's for charity anyway. Wahahaha.
Found out that my class didn't make the highest profit. Thought about it a while and didn't really care after that. Charity is the ultimate priority. Not the hamper.
I just gained another 100 points. Haha.
Also attended the Taylors Next Top Model event. And a little bit of the Zest Party after that. Pretty cool la the Top Model competition. Nice seeing good looking Taylors students modeling around on the runway. And the male and female I voted for won in the end too. Damn I rock.
Party abit the sien. Simply because I think most ppl there know each other. So they had a good time dancing with each other. But I only know my limited Seri Cahaya frens.. so it was alrite. Not the party animal kind anyway.
Felt super tired and sleepy yesterday.
Glad I had a looong sleep.
Woke up not too long ago.
Tee-hee.
-alexeO-
arf!
Had Alexei made for RM1 yest from the Charity Drive Carnival thingy. So cheap. And damn fun buying a poodle made out of a balloon. Might as well la. Since it's for charity anyway. Wahahaha.
Found out that my class didn't make the highest profit. Thought about it a while and didn't really care after that. Charity is the ultimate priority. Not the hamper.
I just gained another 100 points. Haha.
Also attended the Taylors Next Top Model event. And a little bit of the Zest Party after that. Pretty cool la the Top Model competition. Nice seeing good looking Taylors students modeling around on the runway. And the male and female I voted for won in the end too. Damn I rock.
Party abit the sien. Simply because I think most ppl there know each other. So they had a good time dancing with each other. But I only know my limited Seri Cahaya frens.. so it was alrite. Not the party animal kind anyway.
Felt super tired and sleepy yesterday.
Glad I had a looong sleep.
Woke up not too long ago.
Tee-hee.
-alexeO-
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
It was all about the charity
After 2 extremely tiring and exhausting days, my class, T1's haunted house has finally come to an end.
I have to admit it didn't feel so good ending it but at the same time, we were all glad as we really worked hard for the past 2 days and were just very tired.
The reception we got was superb. Honestly, I never thought we could get that many. As I was in charge inside telling the ppl outside on when the next group can come in, I could take a peek of the crowd outside through the door. The line was incredibly long and it extended till the corridors. O.o I think when the people working inside heard about the crowd, they felt extra motivated too, knowing the effort they put in has finally paid off.
The feedback was fortunately very positive too. So far I hadn't came across someone who actually came to me and said it sucked. I mean, maybe they told other ppl.. but if it really sucked that bad, I would had heard it somehow. But I didnt! Wuhoo.
We earned alot! Damn glad we did. We were all extremely pleased on the profit. Ah.. thinking again about the crowd lining up outside. Damn exciting to see that I tell you.
The haunted house also allowed me to see the many different personalities of ppl man.
There are these few who actually respected what we've done shouting praises as they were walking somewhere towards in the beginning. Things like "wah..shit. quite scary man. T1 rox" "Shit this is scary. Nice sound effects guys!" or simply showing their fear as they walk towards the beginning really boosted our self-confidence. It showed our house actually achieved its objective and is really scary ppl off. It doesn't suck. =)
Unfortunately, there is this other group of ppl who seemed like they just have to show their 'bravery' or 'courage'. They come in in groups of 4-5. Normally guys, they just walk in, ignoring every wall they bump into, being very aggresive with the walls and even to the extent of hurting our 'ghosts' who were working inside.
Damn freaking angry when I see them tearing down papers or disturbing any props which was inside. Gahhh. But we ought to expect this kinda things anyway when we are doing the project.
100% of our profit goes to charity. I don't mind actually. The most important thing for me is recognition. I want ppl to recognise us as the actual makers of the Haunted House. Another interesting point in this project was how it actually brought the class community closer. That part was interesting. I feel without it, some groups will eventually drift further apart.
The last 'group' which went into the house had I should say one of the best rounds anyone had ever had. When they crossed each section, I signaled the 'ghosts' which was at a certain position they had crossed to stand up and follow them. When they were walking, we were crashing down boxes at them and screaming to scare them off. When they were walking towards the end, one huge group of 'ghosts' was tailing them.
Then when they finally went out, we had a huge sigh of relief and everyone applauded.
You could actually see the relief on the faces of everyone. It was great I tell you. We finished the house united. Whether it was during the distribution of the flyers or till the cleaning up of the house, we stood together and everyone did their parts.
I am now thinking on how stupid I actually was to even bother about telling my Specialist Maths teacher who did the flyer. The class did it. No one deserve any extra credit.
And oh yea, speaking about the last group which went in, it was twice the fun when I realised that group consist of a girl who was extremely reluctant to enter the day before. At the entrance to the 'house'(which was my position), she was screaming her lungs out, holding on tightly to the door when her guy friends tried pulling her in.
Her guy frens kept persuaing her in, saying they'll be with her and all but she kept screaming "NO!" and looked as if she was about to cry. In the end, they had to give up and the guys entered themselves. I think today they returned as they didn't want to waste the girl's tickets. Hahaha. And what an experience it was for the petrified girl. I'm sure they had a blast.
And to the visitors who came twice. Yesterday and today. They were simply phenomenal.
It is seriously extremely encouraging to see people come again bringing different sets of friends. It actually showed how they liked it in a way. There is no denying that. Some may argue they were just bringing their friends in as a tour guide but cmon man, would anyone pay another additional entrance fee just to bring their friends in? I seriously doubt so. They sure had liked the house in a way. A special thanks to them. ;)
It was also funny seeing girls taking baby steps as they walk. Some even stayed at the entrance, not willing to move at all. I had to ask them to proceed but to those extremely stubborned ones or simply 'too-scared', my class rep had to scare them off as a ghost from behind. Seeing the girls screaming at different parts of the house was very funny in a way too. Hahaha. It was clearly the I-am-too-brave-for-your-house guys who were taking away all the fun. But we didn't let those ppl hurt us I guess. Just hoped they exited quickly. :P
To those who didn't go, I felt it was their lost actually. Hahaha. Too bad la. ZZz.
The Taylors Management was also extremely supportive on our project. Some came to see and to ask us how it was going. The program director also got to take our pictures after we finished today. I believed one of the director also asked why only 2 days or something. The lecturer or someone who was asking us to clean up quickly or something was a pain but we expected it anyway. It was one of the fastest clean up works I ever did in my life. But with a combined effort of the class, we managed to finish it the fastest possible.
From a haunted house to an examination room. What a contrast. O.o
Speaking about taylors management, they had also sent our first progress report to our houses. My parents took a look at it already. Funnily enough, they didn't lecture me or something which may be a bad sign somehow but I shall leave it at that at the moment. I really hoped I improve for my 2nd progress report for my own benefit actually.
Bah. The haunted house was great fun and an experience we would not forget for the time being. But like all things, good things come to an end and I guess we just had our end some few hours ago.
Time to focus more on our academics.. which is quite the sien but I dont think as a student anyone can avoid.
:/
Out.
-alexeO-
After 2 extremely tiring and exhausting days, my class, T1's haunted house has finally come to an end.
I have to admit it didn't feel so good ending it but at the same time, we were all glad as we really worked hard for the past 2 days and were just very tired.
The reception we got was superb. Honestly, I never thought we could get that many. As I was in charge inside telling the ppl outside on when the next group can come in, I could take a peek of the crowd outside through the door. The line was incredibly long and it extended till the corridors. O.o I think when the people working inside heard about the crowd, they felt extra motivated too, knowing the effort they put in has finally paid off.
The feedback was fortunately very positive too. So far I hadn't came across someone who actually came to me and said it sucked. I mean, maybe they told other ppl.. but if it really sucked that bad, I would had heard it somehow. But I didnt! Wuhoo.
We earned alot! Damn glad we did. We were all extremely pleased on the profit. Ah.. thinking again about the crowd lining up outside. Damn exciting to see that I tell you.
The haunted house also allowed me to see the many different personalities of ppl man.
There are these few who actually respected what we've done shouting praises as they were walking somewhere towards in the beginning. Things like "wah..shit. quite scary man. T1 rox" "Shit this is scary. Nice sound effects guys!" or simply showing their fear as they walk towards the beginning really boosted our self-confidence. It showed our house actually achieved its objective and is really scary ppl off. It doesn't suck. =)
Unfortunately, there is this other group of ppl who seemed like they just have to show their 'bravery' or 'courage'. They come in in groups of 4-5. Normally guys, they just walk in, ignoring every wall they bump into, being very aggresive with the walls and even to the extent of hurting our 'ghosts' who were working inside.
Damn freaking angry when I see them tearing down papers or disturbing any props which was inside. Gahhh. But we ought to expect this kinda things anyway when we are doing the project.
100% of our profit goes to charity. I don't mind actually. The most important thing for me is recognition. I want ppl to recognise us as the actual makers of the Haunted House. Another interesting point in this project was how it actually brought the class community closer. That part was interesting. I feel without it, some groups will eventually drift further apart.
The last 'group' which went into the house had I should say one of the best rounds anyone had ever had. When they crossed each section, I signaled the 'ghosts' which was at a certain position they had crossed to stand up and follow them. When they were walking, we were crashing down boxes at them and screaming to scare them off. When they were walking towards the end, one huge group of 'ghosts' was tailing them.
Then when they finally went out, we had a huge sigh of relief and everyone applauded.
You could actually see the relief on the faces of everyone. It was great I tell you. We finished the house united. Whether it was during the distribution of the flyers or till the cleaning up of the house, we stood together and everyone did their parts.
I am now thinking on how stupid I actually was to even bother about telling my Specialist Maths teacher who did the flyer. The class did it. No one deserve any extra credit.
And oh yea, speaking about the last group which went in, it was twice the fun when I realised that group consist of a girl who was extremely reluctant to enter the day before. At the entrance to the 'house'(which was my position), she was screaming her lungs out, holding on tightly to the door when her guy friends tried pulling her in.
Her guy frens kept persuaing her in, saying they'll be with her and all but she kept screaming "NO!" and looked as if she was about to cry. In the end, they had to give up and the guys entered themselves. I think today they returned as they didn't want to waste the girl's tickets. Hahaha. And what an experience it was for the petrified girl. I'm sure they had a blast.
And to the visitors who came twice. Yesterday and today. They were simply phenomenal.
It is seriously extremely encouraging to see people come again bringing different sets of friends. It actually showed how they liked it in a way. There is no denying that. Some may argue they were just bringing their friends in as a tour guide but cmon man, would anyone pay another additional entrance fee just to bring their friends in? I seriously doubt so. They sure had liked the house in a way. A special thanks to them. ;)
It was also funny seeing girls taking baby steps as they walk. Some even stayed at the entrance, not willing to move at all. I had to ask them to proceed but to those extremely stubborned ones or simply 'too-scared', my class rep had to scare them off as a ghost from behind. Seeing the girls screaming at different parts of the house was very funny in a way too. Hahaha. It was clearly the I-am-too-brave-for-your-house guys who were taking away all the fun. But we didn't let those ppl hurt us I guess. Just hoped they exited quickly. :P
To those who didn't go, I felt it was their lost actually. Hahaha. Too bad la. ZZz.
The Taylors Management was also extremely supportive on our project. Some came to see and to ask us how it was going. The program director also got to take our pictures after we finished today. I believed one of the director also asked why only 2 days or something. The lecturer or someone who was asking us to clean up quickly or something was a pain but we expected it anyway. It was one of the fastest clean up works I ever did in my life. But with a combined effort of the class, we managed to finish it the fastest possible.
From a haunted house to an examination room. What a contrast. O.o
Speaking about taylors management, they had also sent our first progress report to our houses. My parents took a look at it already. Funnily enough, they didn't lecture me or something which may be a bad sign somehow but I shall leave it at that at the moment. I really hoped I improve for my 2nd progress report for my own benefit actually.
Bah. The haunted house was great fun and an experience we would not forget for the time being. But like all things, good things come to an end and I guess we just had our end some few hours ago.
Time to focus more on our academics.. which is quite the sien but I dont think as a student anyone can avoid.
:/
Out.
-alexeO-
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