Starstruck at MDG Grand Finale!

No spoilers here no worries but it's not like you haven't heard from somewhere else already anyway. =/

Anyway, I managed to take photos with some finalists of the Malaysian Dreamgirl(MDG) reality show!! Wahahaha I think I am incredibly too easy to be pleased.. damn easy to be star-struck wtf. Anyone who I deem as "personalities" in their own respective ways I immediately become so star-struck when they appear beside me. I mean.. they're somewhat fehmes right.. got fanbase(no matter how small) and all.. so yeah la. hehehe.

So to make you all jealous(hahaha like you will lah eh actually maybe some of you will hmmm *grins*), here are some very-bad-quality photos I took with the girls! Stupid camera phone. Shud have brought my DSLR. Gaah!

And oh yea I need to make a special mention to Karina who became my cam-whore partner with the models lol.

Thanks Sze for taking the photos for us!

And also, I think I'll post some photos of the contestants when they were in the competition la to 'make value' the photos I took with them lol.

Anyway here they are:-




A photo with Rihanna. Hahaha nola duh but Msian version of Rihanna. She may not be the most attractive in person but seriously her modeling photos damn good/geng/yeng model material lor. Here's one:-



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Caption 'strategically' placed to block out my bulging tummy. Hoho. Jadi! She's a Top 3 Finalist btw. And YALA I KNOW SHE'S ONE HEAD TALLER THAN ME BUT I'M NOT THE MODEL HERE RIGHT RAWR! Here's her 'bright-and-shiny' photoshoot:-



Last one.. yah 3 only can sorry la! too shy T_T




Okay I look everything like a stressed out and exhausted over assignments boy here(damn crappy crap) but don't care la die die must show off also wtf. She was my favourite in the beginning. And she is very very pretty in person! Of Chinese-Malay parentage if I'm not mistaken. Here's a picture of her I can already imagine on those Wella Hair-Dye product boxes:-



And also also since I'm on a roll wtf, I shall talk about the other fehmes celebrities I spotted at the event!

Actually abit regret la I was damn shy when they were all socializing downstairs and they were damn near la.. so I didn't get to take photos with the ones I wanted to. Not only the girls/contestants la.. but also fehmes bloggers like ShaolinTiger(damn big ang moh), Pinkpau(damn regret), Ringo(is she counted? dunno where to place her hmmm cause she's both a contestant and a fehmes blogger for those who dunno crap too much words in a bracket -___-) and Kenny whom Sze Jia took with though.

I did a little Alex's 'Celebrity' Hunt but I only ended up with very lousy candid photos of some popular bloggers and Jonathan Putra(TV Personality).. so not worth posting. The others I 'spotted' ended up on stage anyways :/

So maybe I shall now post some photos of the event itself. I also took some videos but don't feel like uploading videos now so next time maybe.

And oh oh before that I have to say that the 3 girls I took the photos with were very very nice indeed! ~_~

Okay roll the photos.






The Stage/Runway.




The contestants' catwalk.




Kenny Sia, Elaine Daly, Jimmy Lim - the 3 judges. Elaine was the emcee for the event and I have to say she was very good indeed. Okla damn boring Alex so 'uncritical' everything also damn good, nice or pretty one. But speaking about pretty, Elaine Daly was within touching distance(I waved at her and she waved AND smiled back haha) and she was really sizzling hawt rawr! Okay maybe not sizzling sizzling but really very... beautiful? no.. gorgeous? not quite there.. urgh can't avoid the word. p-r-e-t-t-y.


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Damn lazy liao suddenly so that's it I guess.

Excuse me while I go rub off the stars from my eyes now.

Omg I am damn pathetic sigh.





-alexeO-

Psycho

Okay the ignorant me never knew that the 1998 movie was actually a remake of a 1960 Alfred Hitchcock's masterpiece.

That is why when my lecturer said that we were about to watch "Psycho" during lecture I wasn't particularly jumping out of my seat. What was there to critically 'analyze' anyway?

And hey, as embarrassing as it sounds, it was the 1998 one which had permanently traumatized me till, to a certain extent, today. Because of that 'infamous' shower scene, I rarely, or never ever use the shower curtains when I use the bath tubs in hotels - yes it's true. So I definitely do not want to be re-traumatized again if you know what I mean. It took me a little while to get over it and I'm almost there and I cannot possibly imagine spending another 10 years trying to live past the trauma again.

And then again, the 1998 movie wasn't really some work to behold in the first place isn't it? I mean, even after watching the remade version first, as much as I remember, I still feel it pales in comparison to the 1960 one which I never even knew existed before today. :/

But now I know.

Considering the period the movie was made, and after reading the trivia section in its imdb page, all I can say is wow - seriously, what a great movie this is!

The music is classic, and the extent in which Hitchcock went through to pass the movie of as 'real' as possible is really admirable.

Okay it wasn't really that scary maybe it startled me a few times now and then (during the scenes when we all know something is about to happen) but when "it" actually happened, it was actually pretty funny.

But regardless of anything, its idea, script, cinematography and Hitchcock's own personal flavor to it is really compelling to say the least.

To better value and realize the "workmanship" of the movie, we all have to always keep a mental note somewhere at the back of our minds that at that period, psychological thrillers like Psycho was virtually non-existent. If anything, the "horror/thriller" genre would comprise of vampires and werewolves and things of that sort. I wouldn't be surprised if the movie is actually accredited for influencing the existence of other psychological thrillers we have in abundance today.




On the whole, a very good movie. Certainly goes up to my personal list of the 'Top 10 Best Movies of All Time', if there's such a list that is.


"A boy's best friend is his mother." - Norman Bates




-alexeO-

Scary

You know what's scary?

Like assignment/tests are not scary by themselves already.

What's scarier is that... I have almost every week one due until the semester ends!

OMG!

I was like as usual right, being the very "organized" me(*haha*), noting down the dates and deadlines on my phone's calendar and then only I realized how sucky my remaining time of this semester is gonna be T_T

Cause right as usual I'll be looking for the period where I can relax but I couldn't find any T_T

By the time I can finally relax, my semester would be as good as over already T_T

T_T

How lah to enjoy my uni days like that.

And even then I cannot really relax because I have exams right after. And I also need to mention that my exam dates totally suck!

I have one relatively early paper on the 12th of June then another on the 23rd! OH THE WAIT FOR NOTHING AT ALL! SUMMORE THE PAPER ON THE 23RD IS A SUBJECT I HAVE VERY LOW CONFIDENCE IN! HOW TO RELAX?!! T_T

And, the later my exam ends, the shorter my holiday!

And I think I've only got like 3 weeks of break/"holiday" until my Sem 2 begins. But like I told Liang, the beginning of my second semester this year would probably be the relaxing part I seek la. Guess I can only enjoy my uni days next sem then T_T!

And also, my idea of break is actually to sleep-in at home one. The more sleep and rest I get, the better and more efficient the break is for me. Yes yes what a lazy idea measuring through my idle-ness but that's me la okay.

But the thing is.. because of the short break and this thing I'm gonna shortly mention after... I don't think I'll get that this break at all! Cause if I'm not mistaken, I will be going overseas for some family trip and to attend my brother's convocation!

Which also can be interpreted as...

NO SLEEP-INS ALEXEO!!!

GAAAAHH *pulls hair wildly*

I think I'll be real restless come early next sem. Because of my apparent lack of "break."

Oklah I think I better sleep now. I dunno what am I doing staying up also. And I also think I've shed too much tears writing this post T_T




-alexeO-

No one likes reading other people's emo stuff because everyone has their own pre-existing issues to deal with already.

*points to title* Yep, it's true.

Anyway I've finally completed and submitted my very very long and exhausting international studies assignment on the International Criminal Court. Yes cue the yawns.

When I was at somewhere 2/3rd of my essay, my brain literally felt... "dry". Omg. Really man. Any sort of juices be it creative or intellectual ones were completely dried off at that moment of time and I could actually feel it. That feeling totally sucks and it's the ultimate case of all ultimate cases of severe writer's block.

So I likened my assignment-writing to driving a car with an empty tank (if you actually bothered to read my personal message on Windows Live that is).

Cause its true! I had nothing in my mind working and I was just forcefully 'vomiting out' sentence after sentence and then the attempt to make it look coherent and 'flowy' was only done as a process of itself later.

Hey my "car" barely moved and I had some distance to go but I was patiently pushing through foot-by-foot knowing that if I just keep going regardless of the rate I was moving, I would eventually reach the destination and so I did T_T omg so inspiring.

Very torturous. In fact these 2-3 weeks would be and are very torturous for me. :(

I have 2 more assignments due this Friday and they're all like damn many words lah WTF LA ARGH@@#$@%@!!

What a rude awakening Year 2 is. Last year the bunch of us had our lecturers patiently coaxing us and we started off like systematically with easier assignments with less word counts and then only moved on to the "heavier" ones later in the semester which weren't so "heavy" anyway now that I think of it.

But this time no fore-warning for you LOSERS!!! 2500 word essays as your first assignments and how about having all of them due almost at the same time?!!! BWAHAHAHA!!

As you can see, I've gone slightly mental.

If anything, I think it's the lack of sleep I had today and yesterday. Yes I blame the lack of sleep. 10am isn't a really good time to crawl to your bed, is it? Especially if you have classes couple of hours later. Must-not-get-used-to-it-alex-yeo!

After this week and hopefully come sometime mid-next week, I'll be a much.. lighter man with much.. lighter burdens.

Come on Alex. Think of the destination!





-alexeO-

Another Passing Eclipse

I left a big cut in another friendship today.

At this rate of open wounds I'm causing, I predict my future lonely hermit status to be brought forward another 5 years to an estimate age of 30 years-old.

The ugly, permanent, scars it'll become.

You know, I really shouldn't be caring about all these things at the moment. But it's hard to ignore when it's one heck of a serious case of bad timing. Everything coming together from all directions at the same time... you know that sort? I'm sure you do.

My assignment which I need to prioritize is currently lying at the bottom of the list for some weird, unfathomable reason.

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It takes more than what I currently have to be sincere in my apologies but if it makes anyone feel any better, I am sorry. But until I find the day to achieve that sincerity(which can also be interpreted as knowing exactly what I did wrong), I guess everyone will just have to live with that.

And yet I still insist it's never always only my fault. It is a two-sided thing, it always is.

I am so internally-stressed now it's not funny anymore. It doesn't really show outside and that's the scary bad part of it. I won't be surprised if I fall sick anytime soon. Item on checklist #34765: Improve mental strength.

Like everyone else(I believe), I want the old Alex back too.

Believe me, I do.





-alexeO-

Post = A little bit of (this + that)

Hola Amigos!

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I'm so mathematically expressive wtf (refers to title of post).

I am actually blogging without a fixed conscience of what I want to rant about today so this is cool.

*thinks of any possible but but highly unlikely interesting events which occurred recently to me hmm*

Okay I think this is interesting enough.

I attended many interesting talks/seminars in my uni recently!

Okay there was Lat the popular Msian cartoon artist(who I thought was somewhat overrated before lol sorry fanatics, but not now! grr) and then there was a Burmese refugee who came to my migration unit's lecture to give a talk on his experiences of himself and other refugees in this country oh so wonderfully contrasting but yet fascinating in their little own ways.


"Lat", for the ignorant few. Albeit being only a comic character, I still feel and thinks that picture doesn't do Lat justice for some reason something wrong with me wtf.

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Nothing to say liao.

Shit I'm so lousy at this..

Perhaps it's time for another Japan Series(sounds strangely wrong but nvm)!

I shall call this "Japan Series #3.5" because it isn't really DISTINCTIVELY MAJOR enough to feature in a post by itself.. or maybe it is. Well here it is anyway!

Japan Series #3.5

Ladies and gentleman, *drums rolls*

Meet...

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... a human-version of Shin Chan!


BWAHAHA DAMN SIMILAR RITE RITE RITE?!!


THE "REAL" CARTOON SHIN CHAN FOR COMPARATIVE PURPOSES!


HAHAHAHAHAHA ADMIT IT LAH.

I didn't actually notice the similarities until I got home and started browsing the photos I took and it was then I stumbled upon that photo of that boy sheltering himself from the freezing winter who was in some sort of a field-trip presumably with his other classmates in Tokyo Disneyland!

There were other photos of the kids which turned out quite good too in the album but I shall consider if I want to post them up potentially as a series in itself on this blog or not. Due to erm,..... several reasons which might limit me wanting to do so. Shaddup sickos. Omg I can't believe I even thought of that. Sigh what is wrong with you Alex.

Okay I'd like to talk about my assignment now. HAHAHAHA.

Nola I know how whiny I might have sounded when I actually talk about my assignments lololol. But on a serious note, seriously lor. I have it like due and I am not even... doing it. I'm planning to hand up a day or two later than it is due.. = ( sigh it's not easy to understand where I'm coming from okayyyy? = (

Instead, I spent the whole day re-layouting and re-viving my long dead and abandoned high school class blog!!



A preview of my 'very detailed' and 'elaborated' class blog.


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Something wrong with me seriously.

Then now that I've spent so much time on it(trial and error templates, uploading, etc) I suddenly have the obligations to "look after it" and "check it out" more than usual??

And besides, I don't know if this is another thing wrong with me but it can be fun reading how people from oh so different backgrounds perceive a certain thing differently!

Oh and on another note, argh *cringes* I really cannot stand people with pretentious and fake accents! Particularly in classes. In one of the seminars someone came out with this omg so obviously faked accent and my bulu roma all actually stood up!! That was how serious it was!! T__T

But ON THAT NOTE, I dunno why-leh but I seem to have it also when I try to talk seriously!! I think it's because I am damn scared to make a mistake and when I try so overly hard to articulate and pronounce my words so perfectly, a pretentious geli accent actually comes out of it! =-O

Sigh must change. But then do I now purposely go and sound 'Malaysian'? I mean that's a horrible accent in itself too... Oh dilemmas, dilemmas.

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They say I have a wee-bit tendency to over-think things.

Hmmm.






-alexeO@2:30am-

ENH2407

It was the usual case of Assignment Anxiety all over again.

The more I proofread my work, the more erroneous and worst it gets.

Happens without fail. Nothing in my life gets more definite and indisputable than that.

It became so bad that the final skim-through had me cringing through just to get to the last page.

But when the assignment submission box is within touching distance next to you, all you could do and muster at that particular point is to forcefully shift your mind to something else for that few vacuum-like seconds, drop your assignment in and walk off as quickly as possible from that spot which you had probably occupied for the last many minutes you spent doing nothing but flipping your papers front and back, which wouldn't change anything at all, really. And you know that. But anything for a sense of closure and satisfaction at that point.

No question, the toughest and most tedious assignment I had ever done in my whole very limited but still evident, university career.

It strikes you when all which seemed to move isn't your pathetic looking word count but time.

It strikes you when you go to bed at freaking 10am in the freaking morning and skip two classes on two different days and it has something to do with your assignment.

And even after all that, there is no closure.

There is no satisfaction.



Welcome to University.






-alexeO-

Japan Series #3 - Sheets of White Snow

Snow + Nature.1





Snow + Nature.2





Snow + Nature.3





Snow + Nature.4





Snow + Nature.5





-alexeO-

Anti Center of Attention

I hate it when the spotlight's on me.

So many times, I just want to sink and disappear beneath the shadows of the party, and morph with the surrounding walls, much to no avail though most of the time.

But when it happens, "it" being me getting forcefully shone under the bright glare of the spotlight, it usually turns out not as bad as I typically imagined it to be.

I am (and believe will be) a behind-the-scenes person.

a.k.a the-shy-one lah.

pathetic-nya. so much for being an arts/communication/international studies student.

Today you learn another thing about me. yay congrats good for u.




-alexeO-

The Only Consolation of the Day

Taken in the university's carpark. [09.04.08]



A heart-shaped puddle <3.





-alexeO-

Heart-wrenched but Not Completely Devastated

Gutted, but it just had to happen isn't it? Every single thing going against our way.

Before the game, Richmond C was asking me if he should stay up and watch the game. This was my reply.

me: then watch la
me: watch how decisions all go against arsenaL again
me: watch how we deserved to win the 4th encounter with the same team
me: AGAIN
me: but somehow
me: something just wont jadi for us

I guess there is nothing much left to say other than the fact that the semi-final spot was robbed from us so evidently that it is almost laughable. This is not a mere biased remark coming only from me, but from every single source and people who watched the match I have come across thus far. Even Gerrard the Liv captain himself couldn't directly reply the question on whether his team deserved it or not.

The most heartbreaking thing was how it looked like we were going through already with 7 mins to go and then boom. One minute later, a controversial penalty decision awarded to the opposing team fairly softly. And then suddenly everyone remembers the tug by Kuyt on Hleb last week in the penalty box and the incomprehensibility of how a penalty was not given for such an obvious foul.

We were the better team over the 2 legs but I guess that's football. It doesn't matter if a team deserves it or not, all that matter are the results at the end of the day.

Everyone praised Arsenal's football last night but it doesn't matter does it. How people hope we win the league now etc etc for our football but I guess that doesn't alter the fact that we clearly underachieved for all our beautiful football this season. Not because we didn't deserve it, but how luck and decisions all went against us every single time. By luck I mean injuries, refereeing decisions, and the sorts.

One thing's for sure at least, the Liv fans and others who trashtalk now about how Arsenal lost last night are clearly the "superficial fans" I ranted about a few posts ago.

But thankfully thus far I hadn't come across any yet.

A special thanks for the moral 'support' from fans of other clubs who all exclaimed how unlucky we were and all. It means something. One consolation I could get is that we clearly showed our quality and what we are made of last night.

If we win this weekend's EPL match, then the tiny flicker of hope for silverware suddenly becomes that much brighter. But even if we don't, with the young team we have, we have already done so much better than last season. Signs of more things to come in the seasons to come. And then I guess it'll be till next season then.

But for now, come on you gunners.





-alexeO-

"I am Fine" is the World's Biggest Lie

Just when all seemed smooth-flowing and 'tranquil' again, you just know that something you do not wish to happen will happen just because it will and it must for whatever reason it might be.

Be it a philosophical scientifical natural law thing of the way the world operates or some intellectually-moulded or mere 'biased' religious assertion, it WILL just happen.

That is why when someone answers "I am fine" to an over-asked insincere(like the other person really cares) "How are you?", that person who answered is lying(as much as the person who asked was, but that's another topic in itself reserved for another day). The sole reason being, no one in this world can be or feel fine. Because, one reason being the impossibility of everything going 100% for a particular someone and another reason suggesting that 'being fine' itself is already so subjective that one's fine may differ from another fine. Someone may have his house burned down or his dogs kidnapped and that could be fine for him but for another, at least for me, it isn't 'fine'.

And besides, if we were to generalise 'fine' on an international worldwide scale, the word wouldn't even exist anymore because we will never come to a general consensus on what fine is. Like I said previously, no one will be satisfyingly, fine because for one, nothing goes 100% for anyone even if you're Bill Gates and secondly, even if it somehow seems and looks 100% smooth-flowing for that particular someone (which will never happen because that's just the way it is), that particular someone will NEVER feel the same way cause we are all humans and we are weak in that way. The never-feeling-satisfied way.

However sad that could sound, it's the truth. Face it.

So I've drifted a great deal from what I wanted to say originally about nothing going 100%(at least for me you living-in-denial prick).

Oh, how right I was.

Yesterday, my Internet connection at home went kaput for NO reason at all.

I'm 200% positive that my modem is perfectly fine but for some annoying reason I just cannot access the Internet.

Very, very annoying.

Which proves my 'depressing' theory all the more.

I'm now blogging from my university's "library and learning commons" and it's a struggle because I've got to switch to a new browser or minimize the page immediately when someone walks behind me. Now now, you certainly do not want anyone anonymous from your university to be reading your blog, would you? Or even knowing you are blogging at the library you pathetic loser for god's sake, for that matter..

I'm hoping now that miraculously my Internet connection somehow gets revived when I go home later as exceptionally as how it died. But experience and being Alex Yeo tells me otherwise.

Ok. Excuse me now while I go 'check my university email' for the 999th time.





-alexeO-

Wasn't Busy

Short hiatus not because I was busy, but because there wasn't anything interesting to talk about. No dreams recently about scary mathematical questions or teachers alike, unfortunately.

The only thing I could possible have been busy at was YouTube and some in my shoes might post videos on this blog during my little hiatus but I find that a little.. 'cheating' don't you think? Like posting filler posts with videos and all. Not like anyone will click and watch them anyway. But then again, it's not like anyone really read what I says here ANYWAY. So.. life sucks for me.

It's April now and from next week onwards, make that.. tomorrow(judging by the time of post), I'll be as busy as a cow. Like damn busy lah. Cow's not the appropriate animal to be used here but I DONT CARE ALREADY LA CAN WHY AM I EVEN DEFENDING MYSELF SO MANY TIMES HERE GAH SO ANNOYING (AND I USED 'CAN' ZZZ).

Ok anyway. Yes yes. Busy.

Cause I'll have an assignment due on the coming Friday and then again on the consecutive 2 more Fridays and then and then I'll have like a mini break from work and then class test and all coming in after that! *exhales*

Fuiyoh so stress and busy.

I'll probably post Japan Series #3 next or something pictorial-ish unless I have something interesting to update on suddenly. Maybe some interesting dream again later or something else..

I just realised I'm posting like I'm some big-shot blogger la. Hahaha. This is so unnecessary seriously. I'm supposed to blog anything I want at anytime I want la! It's my prerogative right right right?? I mean for example if I emo ma emo lor.. my blog maaaa.. Zzz.

BUT that aside, perhaps it's healthy to once in a while imagine yourself as an established someone else..! not in blogging la maybe but in whatever else profession it might be.

Okay getting unnecessarily philosophical and preachy.

So for now, goodbye my readers.

Goodbye my 'huge following'~





-alexeO-