RVP.
The score was 1-1, the clock ticked 85 mins and Arsenal fans were getting ready to release a huge sigh muttering the words "same ol', same ol'" under their breath.
Despite dominating 95% of the game against Inter, Arsenal just had to concede a goal first and stage a comeback afterwards. Just like any of the home games they played last season.
It was then.. this happened.
A wonder strike conjured out of nothing.
And the score was 2-1.
And Arsenal ended up winning the pre-season Emirates cup.
Thierry Henry?
Van Persie, I say. ;)
-alexeO-
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Saturday, July 28, 2007
See our family. And feel better about yours.
If there's any movie which would possibly top Transformers so far this year,
it would have to be..
The Simpsons Movie.
*
Ok fine I'm probably exaggerating. But the movie was a really really good laugh from start to finish! I initially thought the producers of the popular serial wouldn't be able to capture the movie market with their usual 30mins short skit but I was wrong. It had every single element which makes a movie, a movie. And yet at the end of the day, it's still the typical Simpsons. Just an hour longer than usual, and probably funnier too.
Has been a while since I last LOL-ed at a movie from start to finish. There are definitely times when I just want to slap my own forehead real hard but that's just typical Simpsons for you, eh?
oh well. a recommended watch if you are a Simpsons fan. :)
*struts off humming the simpsons soundtrack*
-alexeO-
If there's any movie which would possibly top Transformers so far this year,
it would have to be..
The Simpsons Movie.
*
Ok fine I'm probably exaggerating. But the movie was a really really good laugh from start to finish! I initially thought the producers of the popular serial wouldn't be able to capture the movie market with their usual 30mins short skit but I was wrong. It had every single element which makes a movie, a movie. And yet at the end of the day, it's still the typical Simpsons. Just an hour longer than usual, and probably funnier too.
Has been a while since I last LOL-ed at a movie from start to finish. There are definitely times when I just want to slap my own forehead real hard but that's just typical Simpsons for you, eh?
oh well. a recommended watch if you are a Simpsons fan. :)
*struts off humming the simpsons soundtrack*
-alexeO-
Thursday, July 26, 2007
University Carpark Dilemma
First impression of the carpark several weeks ago.
"Wah damn huge. no parking problems anymore!!"
Today, I am forced to eat my words.
The carpark is huge, but yet there are insufficient spaces. The end result?
PEOPLE SIDE PARKING AT PLACES WHICH AREN'T MEANT TO BE PARKED!!!
Their mindset: "Aiyah, as long as I set a space big enough so other cars can pass through can liau la"
Yes. So a car may be able to pass through. But ONLY IF that car succesfully makes the ONE perfect angle to avoid scratching your car you craphead.
I understand that certain people may be rushing for classes and they have no choice as all the allocated places are taken. But at least, take the initiative to really really ensure people will be able to pass 'stress-free'. Some cars are really inconsiderate. Must be the rich brats who doesn't give a damn if they damage their parents-bought chepeast car in the house.
Blame the Monash staffs too who did not find the students an alternative if there aren't any parking available. Hmmph.
Today, at the relatively somehow very congested parking area when I was departing, cars were stuck at the parking bays as people were having trouble trying to leave the carpark without leaving any scratches on their cars.
Being the erm, "not-so-good-in-judging-distance-of-object-from-car" driver, I almost died feeling the stress.
Ok bad illustration.
But I had to squeeze through to the right through the 2 side-parked cars. Which I thought was virtually impossible. I had thought of reversing all the way to avoid the trouble and fear but there were cars behind me. I also tried turning to the left to head to another exit but there were on-coming cars coming from the other direction. Thanks to the side-parked cars again, only one car may pass at a time.
So no choice. I had to pass the dreaded ring of fire.
Seeing other people attempting to pass the area isn't comforting at all. Those people struggled and they actually had other passengers in their cars looking out of the windows guiding them! I had nobody. I was alone in the 'avoid-the-car' battle.
I felt the strangely, powerful tension when it was my turn. Ok. Must-not-scratch. Must-avoid-embarassment. Many-people-behind-watching.
First right turn, unsuccessful, almost hit the car side-parked towards the left of the lane.
Had to reverse to get the proper angle. Almost had contact with the side-parked right car while reversing. But was too careful to hit the car. Then, had an angle which was the most i could ever get considering my car's position. There was no turning back now. I was already in the middle of the turn. Reversing was virtually impossible now. Heck it, scratch scratch la. No choice. Then, full right turn of steering wheel. Inched forward slowly. And..
..successfully made it. without a scratch.
WALAU! Damn lucky and proud of myself!
I had BIGGER angles to work with in the past and I banged stuff at the side at the right side twice before in my driving history. One is a stationary car parked. Another is a pillar at a shopping mall's carpark.
But this was fantastic. There was probably only ONE possible angle one could work with from my lane and I made it! I really cannot imagine how any cars bigger than mine could turn successfully. Explains why a van in front of me stopped at the side, considering what he should do.
Ok. Drove all the way home feeling all good and confident. Felt super good about myself. HAhaha. Like some pro-ass driver! People behind me at the parking bay must awe-strucked.
BWAHAHAH!
Ok. Probably not.
But people should really avoid parking at the sides. Especially if they don't park their cars nicely. :(
Then don't come back to ur car and marah marah when got scratches and all la!
ish.
Okey. Enough ranting about the carpark.
adios.
-alexeO-
First impression of the carpark several weeks ago.
"Wah damn huge. no parking problems anymore!!"
Today, I am forced to eat my words.
The carpark is huge, but yet there are insufficient spaces. The end result?
PEOPLE SIDE PARKING AT PLACES WHICH AREN'T MEANT TO BE PARKED!!!
Their mindset: "Aiyah, as long as I set a space big enough so other cars can pass through can liau la"
Yes. So a car may be able to pass through. But ONLY IF that car succesfully makes the ONE perfect angle to avoid scratching your car you craphead.
I understand that certain people may be rushing for classes and they have no choice as all the allocated places are taken. But at least, take the initiative to really really ensure people will be able to pass 'stress-free'. Some cars are really inconsiderate. Must be the rich brats who doesn't give a damn if they damage their parents-bought chepeast car in the house.
Blame the Monash staffs too who did not find the students an alternative if there aren't any parking available. Hmmph.
Today, at the relatively somehow very congested parking area when I was departing, cars were stuck at the parking bays as people were having trouble trying to leave the carpark without leaving any scratches on their cars.
Being the erm, "not-so-good-in-judging-distance-of-object-from-car" driver, I almost died feeling the stress.
Ok bad illustration.
But I had to squeeze through to the right through the 2 side-parked cars. Which I thought was virtually impossible. I had thought of reversing all the way to avoid the trouble and fear but there were cars behind me. I also tried turning to the left to head to another exit but there were on-coming cars coming from the other direction. Thanks to the side-parked cars again, only one car may pass at a time.
So no choice. I had to pass the dreaded ring of fire.
Seeing other people attempting to pass the area isn't comforting at all. Those people struggled and they actually had other passengers in their cars looking out of the windows guiding them! I had nobody. I was alone in the 'avoid-the-car' battle.
I felt the strangely, powerful tension when it was my turn. Ok. Must-not-scratch. Must-avoid-embarassment. Many-people-behind-watching.
First right turn, unsuccessful, almost hit the car side-parked towards the left of the lane.
Had to reverse to get the proper angle. Almost had contact with the side-parked right car while reversing. But was too careful to hit the car. Then, had an angle which was the most i could ever get considering my car's position. There was no turning back now. I was already in the middle of the turn. Reversing was virtually impossible now. Heck it, scratch scratch la. No choice. Then, full right turn of steering wheel. Inched forward slowly. And..
..successfully made it. without a scratch.
WALAU! Damn lucky and proud of myself!
I had BIGGER angles to work with in the past and I banged stuff at the side at the right side twice before in my driving history. One is a stationary car parked. Another is a pillar at a shopping mall's carpark.
But this was fantastic. There was probably only ONE possible angle one could work with from my lane and I made it! I really cannot imagine how any cars bigger than mine could turn successfully. Explains why a van in front of me stopped at the side, considering what he should do.
Ok. Drove all the way home feeling all good and confident. Felt super good about myself. HAhaha. Like some pro-ass driver! People behind me at the parking bay must awe-strucked.
BWAHAHAH!
Ok. Probably not.
But people should really avoid parking at the sides. Especially if they don't park their cars nicely. :(
Then don't come back to ur car and marah marah when got scratches and all la!
ish.
Okey. Enough ranting about the carpark.
adios.
-alexeO-
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Pronunciation Practice
(very slowly and precisely)The-rain-in-Spain-stays-mainly-in-the-plain.
Repeated another 500X n' i should be alright.
all because some ang mohs can never understand what I'm saying first time(it's not the accent!), and also because I must be good enough to compete with my tutorial mates who all seemed to be able to articulate words with such ease and fluency.
*jealous*
The OTHER problem, which is, my vocabulary, shall be enhanced some other day.
Major inferiority complex alexeo!
if you don't know where I got the rain in spain thing, you should buy yourself a DVD of My Fair Lady and start watching it asap.
for now, it's tv time.
-alexeO-
(very slowly and precisely)The-rain-in-Spain-stays-mainly-in-the-plain.
Repeated another 500X n' i should be alright.
all because some ang mohs can never understand what I'm saying first time(it's not the accent!), and also because I must be good enough to compete with my tutorial mates who all seemed to be able to articulate words with such ease and fluency.
*jealous*
The OTHER problem, which is, my vocabulary, shall be enhanced some other day.
Major inferiority complex alexeo!
if you don't know where I got the rain in spain thing, you should buy yourself a DVD of My Fair Lady and start watching it asap.
for now, it's tv time.
-alexeO-
Monday, July 23, 2007
Alexeo
Beautiful skies.
Watched the pilot of Buffy the Vampire Slayer for my Contemporary Television Studies lecture this morning.
Woah the effects were really ... 90s? The vampires looked as though they forgot to remove their masks they wore at the Halloween party the night before. But to be fair, I guess you can't expect much from a 1997 series. Very 'satisfying' however to see the introduction of key characters such as Giles, the girl, and Angel. Hrmph.
Too bad I'm not that much of a Buffy fan, neither am I a fan of Sex and the City, or the Sopranos, which will be shown in the future and are among the series I can choose from for my first assignments.
Why can't they have new series i.e Heroes or Grey's Anatomy! I would definitely prefer analysing the episodes of those series rather than the ones which are pretty outdated. :( But the nice thing is that Friends and South Park would be among the more interesting series which would be shown in the near future!
Okay this post is really boring. I'm really bad at blogging about my daily life which explains why there's rarely a "today I went to bla bla bla lecture and met so and so and so"
But I like people paying attention to the things I say.
So tada. A post for people to read.
I can't state how much I actually appreciate what I'm doing now. Because for one, people don't appreciate things until they lose them and secondly, I am just very 'ordinarily' thankful if that makes sense at all.
Thankful that I'm not stuck in some course which I struggle to pass or do not enjoy, dreading attending classes everyday. Thankful that I'm not asked to calculate some mathematical equation or memorise facts till I literally drop dead on the ground.
I actually learn how to write news feature articles and get to analyse the theoretical aspects behind drama series! How cool is that?
Ok. So analysing series aren't as interesting as watching them, but hey, I got an excuse now to laze in front of the TV and just watch seasons and seasons long of American drama series. Bwahaha.
And my other units require me to argue intelligently during the many times when there are no fixed answers to a specific question. Which is cool. No right or wrong. Just what I like. Cause I always like to argue till I'm right regardless of whether I am really right or wrong in the first place. Tee-hee.
I don't mean to be teasing anyone reading this who are possibly suffering in their respective courses. Everyone has a different taste afterall. What you enjoy may not be what I enjoy and vice versa.
Okay I just blogged for the sake of blogging.
New campus = cool stuff.
-alexeO-
Beautiful skies.
Watched the pilot of Buffy the Vampire Slayer for my Contemporary Television Studies lecture this morning.
Woah the effects were really ... 90s? The vampires looked as though they forgot to remove their masks they wore at the Halloween party the night before. But to be fair, I guess you can't expect much from a 1997 series. Very 'satisfying' however to see the introduction of key characters such as Giles, the girl, and Angel. Hrmph.
Too bad I'm not that much of a Buffy fan, neither am I a fan of Sex and the City, or the Sopranos, which will be shown in the future and are among the series I can choose from for my first assignments.
Why can't they have new series i.e Heroes or Grey's Anatomy! I would definitely prefer analysing the episodes of those series rather than the ones which are pretty outdated. :( But the nice thing is that Friends and South Park would be among the more interesting series which would be shown in the near future!
Okay this post is really boring. I'm really bad at blogging about my daily life which explains why there's rarely a "today I went to bla bla bla lecture and met so and so and so"
But I like people paying attention to the things I say.
So tada. A post for people to read.
I can't state how much I actually appreciate what I'm doing now. Because for one, people don't appreciate things until they lose them and secondly, I am just very 'ordinarily' thankful if that makes sense at all.
Thankful that I'm not stuck in some course which I struggle to pass or do not enjoy, dreading attending classes everyday. Thankful that I'm not asked to calculate some mathematical equation or memorise facts till I literally drop dead on the ground.
I actually learn how to write news feature articles and get to analyse the theoretical aspects behind drama series! How cool is that?
Ok. So analysing series aren't as interesting as watching them, but hey, I got an excuse now to laze in front of the TV and just watch seasons and seasons long of American drama series. Bwahaha.
And my other units require me to argue intelligently during the many times when there are no fixed answers to a specific question. Which is cool. No right or wrong. Just what I like. Cause I always like to argue till I'm right regardless of whether I am really right or wrong in the first place. Tee-hee.
I don't mean to be teasing anyone reading this who are possibly suffering in their respective courses. Everyone has a different taste afterall. What you enjoy may not be what I enjoy and vice versa.
Okay I just blogged for the sake of blogging.
New campus = cool stuff.
-alexeO-
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
An apologetic post
I'm sorry I took my life for granted acting like I have the most miserable life ever existed.
I'm sorry I never thought about others who may suffer worst than me or share the same fate but handling it much better than me.
I'm sorry I complain about my life I still have control over when people are laying on a bed 24/7, paralysed one half of the body, or depending on a life support system.
I'm sorry I rant so much, acting as if I need the sympathy, when there are people without limbs, starving to death, or dying of a horrible disease.
I'm sorry I feel sorry for myself, when there are people in this world who lost their loved ones, or suffering from a fatal disease.
I'm sorry for feeling miserable about my unexposed health problems, when there are people who are dying a miserable death as I speak.
I'm sorry I didn't appreciate my life.
I'm sorry for thinking as if my life is the worst of all.
I'm sorry for making people who are in a worser condition feel even worst.
Fortunately, I have not taken any drastic actions with my life. No, not suicide, but things less major but not very minor at the same time.
It's gonna be tough after 18 and a half years, but I'm gonna try anyway. Try looking at a more positive side to every single thing which may happen to my life.
Yes, it sounds corny. Yes, it may be cliche. But I understand it now. Even if I may not embrace it fully as yet, I still understand it at least.
There must be people out there who thought how stupid I was thinking my life is in a wreck when I complain about my inability to socialise comfortably.
I may not be the healthiest, or the most friendly, or the most liked, but at least I know I still have a 'normal' life to live for many years to come.
In case you wonder where I finally woke up from my sleep or apparent 'nightmare', it was all because I noticed the lost of someone yesterday. A man, a husband, a father, a grandfather, an artist, or simply, someone who had a life, like any of us. Yes, he was old, but does that justify the time of his death? I'm sure if he had a choice, he would want to continue living a normal, healthy life. And I'm also sure if noticed what I went through, he would not be happy seeing that how an eighteen going on nineteen teenager is feeling as if his world is in such a mess at such a young age. And no, it's not my grandfather, and there's no need to send any condolences because I'm not overly upset or anything as I am not relatively that close to him eventhough he may be considered as a relative of mine. And I'm not saying all these to gain any sympathy whatsoever. It's also to help anyone out there who may share the same perceptions as I did last time. Cliche, but it's worth repeating and posting in this blog to remind me of how life can be so short and fragile that it looks stupid that I, a boy of 19 yrs, actually felt as if my life was heading nowhere and towards a disappointing end.
Which also made the entire problem I faced last time such as the thoughts of what I would face, the fear of being rejected, embarassed or ignored, feel enormously ridiculous.
No, I'm not justifying that death is the only problem in this world people got the right to complain or moan about. There are other things worth complaining about but definitely not what I faced. If you're wondering why I'm actually feeling all these now when it may have seemed minor to your eyes, it was because it wasn't minor to me. My thinking problem was very much over the top and highly 'over-necessary'.
I'm not saying starting tomorrow I would have zero problems socialising or anything like that. I would definitely still have the same ol' problems but it's just that I'm refreshed to know that there are worst things in this world than that. And hopefully, *prays*, I would be able to cope this problem of mine with this stepping stone.
Does this mean no more complaining post in this blog? I cannot guarantee that. Afterall, I never had a philosophy I keep with throughout my life.
I admit I have doubts over religion, which may be triggering all thse feelings of mine. If I have a religion I have a deep faith in, it would probably mean me being more at peace with myself and not having to think of my downsides.
But there are times, no offense, random thoughts of how religion may be for the weak. Or for people who need something to put their blames on. There's a reason for this, and for that. Do people need to feel better by thinking that their miseries are all because the divine controlling the events of their lives for a reason? When people cannot comprehend why someone who does not 'sin' dies, he or she is just being brought closer to the divine? Thus, religion?
I don't know. But when I start 'imagining' that if this world truly has someone up there watching over me, having reasons for several problems I may face, all I know is I definitely feel much, much better. It's sort of something which soothes my soul and comforts me. But will it be wrong if I do not have a 100% deep faith into a particular religion but just 'believe' to make myself better? Then I would be no different from someone looking for something to blame, wouldn't I? As yet, I have not found any reasons whatsoever for me to put my 100% believe in religion. It's comforting, yes, but I would prefer it if I can fully devote my faith towards the so-called divine.
Eventhough it may sound harsh to some, I never intended to question the existence of God. If you are offended, I apologise sincerely.
I want to meet someone who could answer or all my doubts and provide reasonable logical answers to my questions. I don't know who can.
I may be sorry for alot of things but I'm definitely not sorry for one personality of mine people may feel strongly about.
The fact that I think alot, sometimes maybe too much, and the tendency to 'over-analyse'.
Ironically, my tutor asked the class today during today's first tutorial this semester of the unit.
"Would you rather be a happy pig or a sad philosopher?"
All because there was something mentioned before that 'on the more you know, the sadder you will become'.
Happy pigs were the favourite reply.
I was not surprised. Afterall, life is all just about being happy regardless of how much knowledge you may acquire, right? My heart shifted towards the happy pig answer too at that very instant.
And even up to now, the happy pig option seems very tempting.
But I don't know. There are reasons why philosophers think the way they do and they find the satisfaction in doing what they do. Perhaps it's not all about being happy? Perhaps satisfaction is equally as comforting?
What a load of spam I just typed. But it's about time anyway.
I want to be happy, and satisfied.
But that's never possible as I'm a human being.
So I guess life is just all about a journey of finding satisfaction and seeking happiness. Things people normally do not usually ever get at the end of the day.
A long journey of false hopes, regrets and endless cravings.
A long journey of happily never after.
-alexeO-
I'm sorry I took my life for granted acting like I have the most miserable life ever existed.
I'm sorry I never thought about others who may suffer worst than me or share the same fate but handling it much better than me.
I'm sorry I complain about my life I still have control over when people are laying on a bed 24/7, paralysed one half of the body, or depending on a life support system.
I'm sorry I rant so much, acting as if I need the sympathy, when there are people without limbs, starving to death, or dying of a horrible disease.
I'm sorry I feel sorry for myself, when there are people in this world who lost their loved ones, or suffering from a fatal disease.
I'm sorry for feeling miserable about my unexposed health problems, when there are people who are dying a miserable death as I speak.
I'm sorry I didn't appreciate my life.
I'm sorry for thinking as if my life is the worst of all.
I'm sorry for making people who are in a worser condition feel even worst.
Fortunately, I have not taken any drastic actions with my life. No, not suicide, but things less major but not very minor at the same time.
It's gonna be tough after 18 and a half years, but I'm gonna try anyway. Try looking at a more positive side to every single thing which may happen to my life.
Yes, it sounds corny. Yes, it may be cliche. But I understand it now. Even if I may not embrace it fully as yet, I still understand it at least.
There must be people out there who thought how stupid I was thinking my life is in a wreck when I complain about my inability to socialise comfortably.
I may not be the healthiest, or the most friendly, or the most liked, but at least I know I still have a 'normal' life to live for many years to come.
In case you wonder where I finally woke up from my sleep or apparent 'nightmare', it was all because I noticed the lost of someone yesterday. A man, a husband, a father, a grandfather, an artist, or simply, someone who had a life, like any of us. Yes, he was old, but does that justify the time of his death? I'm sure if he had a choice, he would want to continue living a normal, healthy life. And I'm also sure if noticed what I went through, he would not be happy seeing that how an eighteen going on nineteen teenager is feeling as if his world is in such a mess at such a young age. And no, it's not my grandfather, and there's no need to send any condolences because I'm not overly upset or anything as I am not relatively that close to him eventhough he may be considered as a relative of mine. And I'm not saying all these to gain any sympathy whatsoever. It's also to help anyone out there who may share the same perceptions as I did last time. Cliche, but it's worth repeating and posting in this blog to remind me of how life can be so short and fragile that it looks stupid that I, a boy of 19 yrs, actually felt as if my life was heading nowhere and towards a disappointing end.
Which also made the entire problem I faced last time such as the thoughts of what I would face, the fear of being rejected, embarassed or ignored, feel enormously ridiculous.
No, I'm not justifying that death is the only problem in this world people got the right to complain or moan about. There are other things worth complaining about but definitely not what I faced. If you're wondering why I'm actually feeling all these now when it may have seemed minor to your eyes, it was because it wasn't minor to me. My thinking problem was very much over the top and highly 'over-necessary'.
I'm not saying starting tomorrow I would have zero problems socialising or anything like that. I would definitely still have the same ol' problems but it's just that I'm refreshed to know that there are worst things in this world than that. And hopefully, *prays*, I would be able to cope this problem of mine with this stepping stone.
Does this mean no more complaining post in this blog? I cannot guarantee that. Afterall, I never had a philosophy I keep with throughout my life.
I admit I have doubts over religion, which may be triggering all thse feelings of mine. If I have a religion I have a deep faith in, it would probably mean me being more at peace with myself and not having to think of my downsides.
But there are times, no offense, random thoughts of how religion may be for the weak. Or for people who need something to put their blames on. There's a reason for this, and for that. Do people need to feel better by thinking that their miseries are all because the divine controlling the events of their lives for a reason? When people cannot comprehend why someone who does not 'sin' dies, he or she is just being brought closer to the divine? Thus, religion?
I don't know. But when I start 'imagining' that if this world truly has someone up there watching over me, having reasons for several problems I may face, all I know is I definitely feel much, much better. It's sort of something which soothes my soul and comforts me. But will it be wrong if I do not have a 100% deep faith into a particular religion but just 'believe' to make myself better? Then I would be no different from someone looking for something to blame, wouldn't I? As yet, I have not found any reasons whatsoever for me to put my 100% believe in religion. It's comforting, yes, but I would prefer it if I can fully devote my faith towards the so-called divine.
Eventhough it may sound harsh to some, I never intended to question the existence of God. If you are offended, I apologise sincerely.
I want to meet someone who could answer or all my doubts and provide reasonable logical answers to my questions. I don't know who can.
I may be sorry for alot of things but I'm definitely not sorry for one personality of mine people may feel strongly about.
The fact that I think alot, sometimes maybe too much, and the tendency to 'over-analyse'.
Ironically, my tutor asked the class today during today's first tutorial this semester of the unit.
"Would you rather be a happy pig or a sad philosopher?"
All because there was something mentioned before that 'on the more you know, the sadder you will become'.
Happy pigs were the favourite reply.
I was not surprised. Afterall, life is all just about being happy regardless of how much knowledge you may acquire, right? My heart shifted towards the happy pig answer too at that very instant.
And even up to now, the happy pig option seems very tempting.
But I don't know. There are reasons why philosophers think the way they do and they find the satisfaction in doing what they do. Perhaps it's not all about being happy? Perhaps satisfaction is equally as comforting?
What a load of spam I just typed. But it's about time anyway.
I want to be happy, and satisfied.
But that's never possible as I'm a human being.
So I guess life is just all about a journey of finding satisfaction and seeking happiness. Things people normally do not usually ever get at the end of the day.
A long journey of false hopes, regrets and endless cravings.
A long journey of happily never after.
-alexeO-
Monday, July 16, 2007
/\/\.0.|\|./-\.5.|-|
Had my first day of Semester 2 today.
Semester 2 looks promising. As usual workload can be quite heavy but adaptable.
Extremely tired and sleepy.
Lack of sleep the night before. Not used to waking up so early.
Bad thing of this semester is seemingly the fact that i have 4 morning classes out of 4, two 9am and two 11am. But should be ok. At least forces me to wake up in the morning which is, a good habit. Makes me sleep earlier too.
Met a primary school classmate today in the cafeteria. Looks like he just started his course. Until now still don't get why people actually opt for A-levels as their Pre-U program after high school. Now he's 6 months behind and there's no special conditions for him just because he was at A-levels. And dont even start on the UK studies thing. Almost any another 1 year Pre-U programme can go UK already.
I think I shouldn't pour such negativity(i.e, last post) into my blog anymore. I always thought such expressive behaviour will make me feel better but actually it's quite the opposite. I'll only think more about the so-called 'problem' I have by attempting to post it in the blog. It's like, maybe at the early stage it wasn't as critical but because I thought of the problem more at various angles to be posted in the blog as written form, it only made me think much more. more than necessary at least.
So, I'm a changed man.
At least I hope to be.
May this semester bring me newfound joy, happiness, and good grades.
Cheers.
-alexeO-
Had my first day of Semester 2 today.
Semester 2 looks promising. As usual workload can be quite heavy but adaptable.
Extremely tired and sleepy.
Lack of sleep the night before. Not used to waking up so early.
Bad thing of this semester is seemingly the fact that i have 4 morning classes out of 4, two 9am and two 11am. But should be ok. At least forces me to wake up in the morning which is, a good habit. Makes me sleep earlier too.
Met a primary school classmate today in the cafeteria. Looks like he just started his course. Until now still don't get why people actually opt for A-levels as their Pre-U program after high school. Now he's 6 months behind and there's no special conditions for him just because he was at A-levels. And dont even start on the UK studies thing. Almost any another 1 year Pre-U programme can go UK already.
I think I shouldn't pour such negativity(i.e, last post) into my blog anymore. I always thought such expressive behaviour will make me feel better but actually it's quite the opposite. I'll only think more about the so-called 'problem' I have by attempting to post it in the blog. It's like, maybe at the early stage it wasn't as critical but because I thought of the problem more at various angles to be posted in the blog as written form, it only made me think much more. more than necessary at least.
So, I'm a changed man.
At least I hope to be.
May this semester bring me newfound joy, happiness, and good grades.
Cheers.
-alexeO-
Saturday, July 14, 2007
A conversation with myself
*
Why do I have to think so much before engaging in a simple conversation every time?
No one hates you Alex. They see you for the first time like how you see them for the first time.
No, that's not true. They don't like approaching me because of how I act, how I dress, or how I may seem to them.
Why would anyone think that way? They'll just think you're not sociable and quiet and not approachable when you don't interact as much as you're required to.
But you don't know what first impression I may give. What if I really give a bad first impression until people start off with a negative feeling even before they got to know me. What if my attitude is not meant to be liked?
You wouldn't know until you try.
I can't stand rejection. I can't stand having people dislike me or hate me. I can't stand people not talking to me because they don't want to. I rather live with the satisfaction that people aren't talking to me because I am not talking to them.
Try.
What if I TRY TOO HARD. And I end up being annoying? That'll totally suck.
Your thinking problem is pretty extreme huh?
I know, Alex. I know.
*
New semester means meeting new people and people I knew for 5 months but haven't really formed a 'comfortable relationship' with.
Which once again, revived the battle of my self-esteem personalities and countless thoughts.
I'm verging on self-destruction once again.
I want to change. Once and for all.
But it's so tough.
-alexeO-
*
Why do I have to think so much before engaging in a simple conversation every time?
No one hates you Alex. They see you for the first time like how you see them for the first time.
No, that's not true. They don't like approaching me because of how I act, how I dress, or how I may seem to them.
Why would anyone think that way? They'll just think you're not sociable and quiet and not approachable when you don't interact as much as you're required to.
But you don't know what first impression I may give. What if I really give a bad first impression until people start off with a negative feeling even before they got to know me. What if my attitude is not meant to be liked?
You wouldn't know until you try.
I can't stand rejection. I can't stand having people dislike me or hate me. I can't stand people not talking to me because they don't want to. I rather live with the satisfaction that people aren't talking to me because I am not talking to them.
Try.
What if I TRY TOO HARD. And I end up being annoying? That'll totally suck.
Your thinking problem is pretty extreme huh?
I know, Alex. I know.
*
New semester means meeting new people and people I knew for 5 months but haven't really formed a 'comfortable relationship' with.
Which once again, revived the battle of my self-esteem personalities and countless thoughts.
I'm verging on self-destruction once again.
I want to change. Once and for all.
But it's so tough.
-alexeO-
Ancora Imparo
..is my university's motto.
I think it means "I am still learning".
But that's not the point.
Few weeks back, I went to the new Monash University campus in Sunway with Richmond to do some... uni stuff. We took the time walking around checking out the facilities which weren't installed fully yet at that time.
I initially thought I would be giving a very in-depth analysis and review of the new campus but I realised there are some people out there who have done better already.
Yala. I got nothing better to do but to google "Monash Malaysia New Campus" and check out some blogs which spoke about the new campus.
Nice to know that the library has shifted finally and there were damn many ppl using the facilities! Nice library area. Neat classrooms too. N da cafetaria looks good.
So, in-depth analysis and review next time. Equipped with nice photos of the "Library and Learning Commons" and classrooms. Second Semester starts Monday what. :)
I wanted to bitch about how rude the course managers were in Monash but I don't feel like doing it anymore. Lazy to complain. Maybe when I have the mood next time.
So anyway,
Aerial view of the new campus. Photo courtesy of Monash Sunway official website.
Monash Sunway new Campus which I would be going to on Monday.
If you are wondering where I studied before, the OLD monash was situated IN SyUC. Right behind it and it was a super turn-off for anyone who may opt to study in Monash.
Seriously.
That WAS one of the reasons I was reluctant to study in Monash at first.
First it was darn ugly and classrooms are kinda like "hidden" away from everything. Lol. But it wasn't THAT bad la after I started to study in it. Learned to like it and developed a 'bond' after several months.
But now, I get to enter this brand new awesome campus!
With an awesome looking Sky Bridge!
Photo courtesy of Monash Sunway official website.
Wahahaha!
Okla. Since I said this wouldn't be an in-depth review, so I shall end this post with pictures taken with Richmond's N95. -_-
Actually partly coz I suddenly feel lazy also. Bwahaha.
But I'll really post another post which boast about the new campus soon!
Long walkway from carpark. Photo taken from the campus building towards the carpark. What a sucky long, hot, tiring trip to the campus building it might be if I'm late for class.
The first thing which welcomes you to the campus if you are coming from the carpark.
Nice architecture. I know the color of the building sucks but hey, it's curved. Bet that impressed you huh. Bwahaha.
That's the entrance to the Library area. Super nice sign. Haha. A 3-floor building of its own. Pretty cool eh?
One of the many computer labs.
Ok. Seriously lost the mood to elaborate further.
My holidays ended already. :(
But at least the new campus gives me something to look forward to.
Afterall, Ancora Imparo. Right? ._.
side note: watched harry potter. was okay. could have been better. editing and acting got abit of problem. other than that was pretty good. hrmph. oh well. preferred the Goblet of Fire movie.
/end
-alexeO-
..is my university's motto.
I think it means "I am still learning".
But that's not the point.
Few weeks back, I went to the new Monash University campus in Sunway with Richmond to do some... uni stuff. We took the time walking around checking out the facilities which weren't installed fully yet at that time.
I initially thought I would be giving a very in-depth analysis and review of the new campus but I realised there are some people out there who have done better already.
Yala. I got nothing better to do but to google "Monash Malaysia New Campus" and check out some blogs which spoke about the new campus.
Nice to know that the library has shifted finally and there were damn many ppl using the facilities! Nice library area. Neat classrooms too. N da cafetaria looks good.
So, in-depth analysis and review next time. Equipped with nice photos of the "Library and Learning Commons" and classrooms. Second Semester starts Monday what. :)
I wanted to bitch about how rude the course managers were in Monash but I don't feel like doing it anymore. Lazy to complain. Maybe when I have the mood next time.
So anyway,
Aerial view of the new campus. Photo courtesy of Monash Sunway official website.
Monash Sunway new Campus which I would be going to on Monday.
If you are wondering where I studied before, the OLD monash was situated IN SyUC. Right behind it and it was a super turn-off for anyone who may opt to study in Monash.
Seriously.
That WAS one of the reasons I was reluctant to study in Monash at first.
First it was darn ugly and classrooms are kinda like "hidden" away from everything. Lol. But it wasn't THAT bad la after I started to study in it. Learned to like it and developed a 'bond' after several months.
But now, I get to enter this brand new awesome campus!
With an awesome looking Sky Bridge!
Photo courtesy of Monash Sunway official website.
Wahahaha!
Okla. Since I said this wouldn't be an in-depth review, so I shall end this post with pictures taken with Richmond's N95. -_-
Actually partly coz I suddenly feel lazy also. Bwahaha.
But I'll really post another post which boast about the new campus soon!
Long walkway from carpark. Photo taken from the campus building towards the carpark. What a sucky long, hot, tiring trip to the campus building it might be if I'm late for class.
The first thing which welcomes you to the campus if you are coming from the carpark.
Nice architecture. I know the color of the building sucks but hey, it's curved. Bet that impressed you huh. Bwahaha.
That's the entrance to the Library area. Super nice sign. Haha. A 3-floor building of its own. Pretty cool eh?
One of the many computer labs.
Ok. Seriously lost the mood to elaborate further.
My holidays ended already. :(
But at least the new campus gives me something to look forward to.
Afterall, Ancora Imparo. Right? ._.
side note: watched harry potter. was okay. could have been better. editing and acting got abit of problem. other than that was pretty good. hrmph. oh well. preferred the Goblet of Fire movie.
/end
-alexeO-
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Truly Malaysian
Where else in the world can you chill late in the night, with relatively many people around you, and be guaranteed of good food and drinks?
Teck-"It's a video la bugger"-Eng cameraman.
The Malaysian Mamak, of course!
Alex = Round, fat, ugly and annoying. What a wake up call this video is!
-alexeO-
Where else in the world can you chill late in the night, with relatively many people around you, and be guaranteed of good food and drinks?
Teck-"It's a video la bugger"-Eng cameraman.
The Malaysian Mamak, of course!
Alex = Round, fat, ugly and annoying. What a wake up call this video is!
-alexeO-
Sunday, July 08, 2007
!!!!
Damn crap!
I was waiting for the whole day of YESTERDAY to post this up but I only got to do it now! ARGH!
Anyway,
happy 7/7/07.
-_-
the reason i couldn't update was that i spent the whole day reformatting my computer.
I HATE REFORMATTING!
okla, it was my first time.
i didn't know i had to go thru so much hassle!
Firstly, the backup process took so long.
Then, the reformatting process also took equally long if not longer!
Then after that, I lost all my drivers and I had to search through thick dust and spider webs to locate my Driver CDs. Argh.
And until now, I think I haven't installed ALL of them yet but i'm not going to anymore cause I can do all the basic stuff already.
Sigh. I lost alot of features I use to have before I reformatted. :(
I feel super uncomfortable now cause I think my computer level is not at its optimum.
Now like.. have to restart everything again..
The good thing is, alot of things which couldn't work before could work already la.. like... youtube loading fully nicely and successful dload and installation of programs.. but still...
OH well.
since i was late, happy 8/7/07 i guess. :/
-alexeO-
Damn crap!
I was waiting for the whole day of YESTERDAY to post this up but I only got to do it now! ARGH!
Anyway,
happy 7/7/07.
-_-
the reason i couldn't update was that i spent the whole day reformatting my computer.
I HATE REFORMATTING!
okla, it was my first time.
i didn't know i had to go thru so much hassle!
Firstly, the backup process took so long.
Then, the reformatting process also took equally long if not longer!
Then after that, I lost all my drivers and I had to search through thick dust and spider webs to locate my Driver CDs. Argh.
And until now, I think I haven't installed ALL of them yet but i'm not going to anymore cause I can do all the basic stuff already.
Sigh. I lost alot of features I use to have before I reformatted. :(
I feel super uncomfortable now cause I think my computer level is not at its optimum.
Now like.. have to restart everything again..
The good thing is, alot of things which couldn't work before could work already la.. like... youtube loading fully nicely and successful dload and installation of programs.. but still...
OH well.
since i was late, happy 8/7/07 i guess. :/
-alexeO-
Saturday, July 07, 2007
A Vow
From today onwards, there will be no stupid suggestion from me like "bottoms up" when it comes to drinking. There will be no obeying such demands either.
Especially if I were to drive home an hour later.
I made it home safely after driving around aimlessly in a tipsy mode trying to find my way back. Not because I wasn't conscious of my directions, but because I had no idea even before I drank.
So not bad, 10 marks to me. Extra 5 marks because I wasn't fully sober.
and yes, I know drinking and driving is bad, and dangerous. But I have to go home right? I wasn't THAT tipsy till I cannot drive anyway.
Head's thumping, my digested food threatening to come out this very instant.
Come to think of it, bottom-ing up a cocktail is stupid and the after-effect isn't as nice as getting high, slowly.
Goodnight.
-alexeO-
From today onwards, there will be no stupid suggestion from me like "bottoms up" when it comes to drinking. There will be no obeying such demands either.
Especially if I were to drive home an hour later.
I made it home safely after driving around aimlessly in a tipsy mode trying to find my way back. Not because I wasn't conscious of my directions, but because I had no idea even before I drank.
So not bad, 10 marks to me. Extra 5 marks because I wasn't fully sober.
and yes, I know drinking and driving is bad, and dangerous. But I have to go home right? I wasn't THAT tipsy till I cannot drive anyway.
Head's thumping, my digested food threatening to come out this very instant.
Come to think of it, bottom-ing up a cocktail is stupid and the after-effect isn't as nice as getting high, slowly.
Goodnight.
-alexeO-
Monday, July 02, 2007
In desperate need to grow up
I was blog surfing randomly just now when I came across several blogs which were relatively popular and are undoubtedly, interesting reads. Several girls dressed in sexy tops equipped with a reasonable amount of makeup on their faces.
It wasn’t long until I realized they were people my age.
*drum rolls*
.
.
.
Yeah. The girls who seemed so mature and tall and full of energy were born on the same year with me, and got the same level of education as I have.
And then an imaginary mirror appeared in front of my face and I swiftly push the mirror to the side with a sigh.
=(
I’m...
so..
Childish. Or immature. Or whatever synonyms relevant.
For my age that is.
The girls were enjoying their teenage years to the fullest and I am here wasting my life doing childish stuff. And worrying about immature things. Like.. complaining daily on things which doesn't really matter.
And just look at my face. Super babyface. People actually mistaken the girls for being in their mid 20s and people thinks I'm having PMR at the end of this year. =(
I bet if I hang out with any of those girls people will think I'm their younger brother or something.
Sigh.
I'm wasting my teenage years and that suck.
Why am I not out partying and all like the girls. I don't speak their lingo and I certainly do not possess the same level of maturity as those girls. Why do they blog about drinking, clubbing, partying and stuff people my age should be doing.
And why do they look so.. mature.
I never thought I was in such a situation until recently as I grew up with people who weren't... that much of a difference with me.
I blame my school peers! Bwahaha.
One thing which suck though which I cannot do anything about is the fact that I'm far, far, far too short for my age.
*frowns*
70% of girls my age are taller than me. And that include the mature party girls too.
And that certainly wouldn't help the fact that my face looks like a bloody 15 year old.
I'm not saying that maturity means clubbing and drinking but the need to start thinking more maturely and do things which people will point and say, "Wah mature!" must certainly be there. But not pretending ler.
AIYAH. Don't know how to phrase it. I know I've beaten around the bush throughout this entire post but I was just finding a way to rephrase it. Nevermind.
Just know that I have a babyface, am short, and other people my age are having fun partying and I'm not.
-_-
Damn cheong hei.
Anyways,
On the way back from my parent's office just now, the song "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" played and I suddenly remembered Katharine McPhee's superb rendition of it on American Idol Top 3 round last year.
Damn good. Must listen!
I was rooting for Elliott to masuk the finals but after Katharine's performance, I was feeling rather... worried and neutral at the same time.
What about the other contestant since it's Top THREE, you ask.
Well,
It was only a battle among those 2 because Taylor Hicks was obviously entering the finals already considering his huge fanbase. Hmmph. *tak puas*
On another note, I think my computer is infested with virus. Loads of em'.
And the thing which suck is that I cannot do anything about it. Any files which I attempt to download from the internet does not get approve by my Windows as they say the file does not have a valid digital signature or something. Even a web browser such as Mozilla Firefox cannot be downloaded because apparently, it is 'corrupted'.
Stupid Windows.
Same goes to my antivirus software. And I don't have any antivirus softwares on a CD which I can install. So there you go, a virus infected computer which operating system does not allow file downloads breaking down by the minute.
*
I re-read everything I just typed and I realised I'm a damn drama and emo person.
*gasp*
That's not good for a masculine man like me. *flexes muscles and faces towards the sky*
WAH I REALLY HAVE TO STOP THIS STAR FOLLOWED BY ACTION THING FOLLOWED BY ANOTHER STAR!
Damn drama and annoying I know.
Adding "Be More Manly and Less Drama" to my soon-to-achieve resolution list which already has Be More Mature, Be More Fit, Be More Sociable as the few of many things marked on it.
I'm such a failure in life. Not a true manly man and not a happy, healthy person either. I suck in sports and academic wise, I don't come out tops either.
Shit. I think I'm going on an emo breakdown once again.
*crumbles into a million pieces*
-alexeO-
I was blog surfing randomly just now when I came across several blogs which were relatively popular and are undoubtedly, interesting reads. Several girls dressed in sexy tops equipped with a reasonable amount of makeup on their faces.
It wasn’t long until I realized they were people my age.
*drum rolls*
.
.
.
Yeah. The girls who seemed so mature and tall and full of energy were born on the same year with me, and got the same level of education as I have.
And then an imaginary mirror appeared in front of my face and I swiftly push the mirror to the side with a sigh.
=(
I’m...
so..
Childish. Or immature. Or whatever synonyms relevant.
For my age that is.
The girls were enjoying their teenage years to the fullest and I am here wasting my life doing childish stuff. And worrying about immature things. Like.. complaining daily on things which doesn't really matter.
And just look at my face. Super babyface. People actually mistaken the girls for being in their mid 20s and people thinks I'm having PMR at the end of this year. =(
I bet if I hang out with any of those girls people will think I'm their younger brother or something.
Sigh.
I'm wasting my teenage years and that suck.
Why am I not out partying and all like the girls. I don't speak their lingo and I certainly do not possess the same level of maturity as those girls. Why do they blog about drinking, clubbing, partying and stuff people my age should be doing.
And why do they look so.. mature.
I never thought I was in such a situation until recently as I grew up with people who weren't... that much of a difference with me.
I blame my school peers! Bwahaha.
One thing which suck though which I cannot do anything about is the fact that I'm far, far, far too short for my age.
*frowns*
70% of girls my age are taller than me. And that include the mature party girls too.
And that certainly wouldn't help the fact that my face looks like a bloody 15 year old.
I'm not saying that maturity means clubbing and drinking but the need to start thinking more maturely and do things which people will point and say, "Wah mature!" must certainly be there. But not pretending ler.
AIYAH. Don't know how to phrase it. I know I've beaten around the bush throughout this entire post but I was just finding a way to rephrase it. Nevermind.
Just know that I have a babyface, am short, and other people my age are having fun partying and I'm not.
-_-
Damn cheong hei.
Anyways,
On the way back from my parent's office just now, the song "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" played and I suddenly remembered Katharine McPhee's superb rendition of it on American Idol Top 3 round last year.
Damn good. Must listen!
I was rooting for Elliott to masuk the finals but after Katharine's performance, I was feeling rather... worried and neutral at the same time.
What about the other contestant since it's Top THREE, you ask.
Well,
It was only a battle among those 2 because Taylor Hicks was obviously entering the finals already considering his huge fanbase. Hmmph. *tak puas*
On another note, I think my computer is infested with virus. Loads of em'.
And the thing which suck is that I cannot do anything about it. Any files which I attempt to download from the internet does not get approve by my Windows as they say the file does not have a valid digital signature or something. Even a web browser such as Mozilla Firefox cannot be downloaded because apparently, it is 'corrupted'.
Stupid Windows.
Same goes to my antivirus software. And I don't have any antivirus softwares on a CD which I can install. So there you go, a virus infected computer which operating system does not allow file downloads breaking down by the minute.
*
I re-read everything I just typed and I realised I'm a damn drama and emo person.
*gasp*
That's not good for a masculine man like me. *flexes muscles and faces towards the sky*
WAH I REALLY HAVE TO STOP THIS STAR FOLLOWED BY ACTION THING FOLLOWED BY ANOTHER STAR!
Damn drama and annoying I know.
Adding "Be More Manly and Less Drama" to my soon-to-achieve resolution list which already has Be More Mature, Be More Fit, Be More Sociable as the few of many things marked on it.
I'm such a failure in life. Not a true manly man and not a happy, healthy person either. I suck in sports and academic wise, I don't come out tops either.
Shit. I think I'm going on an emo breakdown once again.
*crumbles into a million pieces*
-alexeO-
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Before I forget
My course manager in Monash is the rudest most freaking ignorant piece of crap ever existed in this world!
Some coursemates of mine may be gasping at that very statement but i dun care cause it's true.
Yes. Guys. Him. The one with the smile everytime u enter his office, the one who seemed so willing to help when you approach him. It's not real! *frustrated face* He's a totally diff creature when it's not during the semester days. Probably frustrated I'm there disturbing his supposed-break or something.
More info on that in my later post.
*
I've watched Transformers yesterday with the guys. Super.
Yea I loved POTC3(eventhough many thought it wasn't great) but Transformers has got a different edge to it.
If I were to rank the big big movies I've watched this year, it has got to be,
1)Transformers
2)Pirates of the Carribean 3: At World's End
BIG GAP
3)Spiderman 3
4)Ocean's 13
5)Shrek 3
6)Others.
That's about it I think.
I've entered the second half of the year in one piece which incidentally also marks the first half of my holidays completed.
Till next time.
-alexeO-
My course manager in Monash is the rudest most freaking ignorant piece of crap ever existed in this world!
Some coursemates of mine may be gasping at that very statement but i dun care cause it's true.
Yes. Guys. Him. The one with the smile everytime u enter his office, the one who seemed so willing to help when you approach him. It's not real! *frustrated face* He's a totally diff creature when it's not during the semester days. Probably frustrated I'm there disturbing his supposed-break or something.
More info on that in my later post.
*
I've watched Transformers yesterday with the guys. Super.
Yea I loved POTC3(eventhough many thought it wasn't great) but Transformers has got a different edge to it.
If I were to rank the big big movies I've watched this year, it has got to be,
1)Transformers
2)Pirates of the Carribean 3: At World's End
BIG GAP
3)Spiderman 3
4)Ocean's 13
5)Shrek 3
6)Others.
That's about it I think.
I've entered the second half of the year in one piece which incidentally also marks the first half of my holidays completed.
Till next time.
-alexeO-
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