Day Eight

Biology sucked. I'm just gonna put it this way.. I expected easier.

In the morning, when I was flipping through Paper 1, I was like shit omg. Tough.
But when I marked, I realised I got the same amount of mistakes as my Physics Paper 1 which funnily I found easy.

-_-

Paper 2 started 30 mins after the first one ended. Omg. The structure was very tough for me. I've never written so much crap in my entire life before. The essay part however, was easier. Hmm.

Paper 3. I guess it was kinda easy. I may have more wrong than I thought I would get after a small discussion I had with my frens but it should be okay.

If I get an A i'll be surprised.
If I get a B I'll be happy.
If I get a C it is expected.
If I get a D i'll be disappointed but not overly depressed.
If I fail i'll be shocked.

:/

Bio Paper 1 was the toughest of any other science Paper 1. Sigh.
If I were to rate the difficulty of all the papers,
It would be something like this..(top being most difficult)

Biology Paper 2
Biology Paper 1
Chemistry Paper 2
Chemistry Paper 1
Physics Paper 2
Physics Paper 1
Physics Paper 3
Biology Paper 3
Chemistry Paper 3

Haha. My 7 As target is gone I guess. =D
In order to achieve 7 As I would need to score A for my history which seems quite impossible now.
And even if I did score an A, I would need to get an A for either chem,bio,physics or add maths with Physics the only subject which stands a teeny weeny borderline chance.

And the rest besides English I'm not too sure too.
-_-

Oh yea, I also told my mum about what I got for forecast too. She didn't look too happy or she wasn't too sad or angry about it. Maybe just a disappointed face. I think she's thinking inside how dumb I actually am hahahaha.

Nahh, I'm a smart kid. She just told me I was lazy and all which I cannot disagree.
Lala.

Omg. I have nothing to study anymore. YAYYAYAYAYAYA!!!
Going to Pyramid soon to have dinner with Allen, some frens and his sister for his sister's birthday.

EST on friday. Also happens to be my final paper.

But what's there to study for EST anyway?

=/

-alexeO-

Day Seven

My birthday was yesterday. Happy belated birthday Alex!

Spent many hours revising Chemistry. I'm glad I went to the twins' house on Saturday for some 'intensive class'. It really helped me 10-20 marks at least total. Chunted.

Also studied myself a little. Paper 1 I had many wrong but not as many as my other Chemistry exams. When I realised many of my frens scored like 2,3-7 wrong. I already gave up hope. Graph gonna be extremely high. Sien. Chemistry was never my thing anyway. Paper 2 was okay. Still tembak-able. Structure was a little tough but essay was slightly easier. Hopefully there's no trick questions behind and I scored. Zzz. Paper 3 was easy. Yea it was. I'm hoping to score at least a 4B. I dont want a 5C and below for any of my subjects.

Right after the papers I went straight to Chrisanne's house for a 3 and a half hours Biology tuition. I never had a Bio tuition before. So that was my first. Freddy was the tutor. Really good first impression. I recommend him to anyone who's looking for a Chem/Bio tuition. Nice guy too.

So now. Extremely tired. I slept at 2am and woke up at 5am. I really don't know why. I couldn't sleep again. Then I didn't sleep till now. Sienz. Zzz.

I can't afford to sleep now.
I still got stuff to read.

Biology. My last study paper.

Very last paper on Friday, EST(nothing to read)

After tomorrow, it's gonna be so much more relaxed.


ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz

-alexeO-

Update on Day Six below, for now..

I've received a reply from the University of Melbourne. I sent them an email few days ago regarding my future plans and ambition.



I'm very pleased with the reply. At least I have a pathway and an idea in life now.

Update on my Day Six below btw.
Thx.


-alexeO-

Day Six

I just found out something today. I was on the phone with my mum earlier on and I jokingly asked her what is she expecting from me for this examinations.
This was briefly how the conversation went.

Me : Hahaha. So what are you expecting from me for SPM? :)
Mum : Har? Not much la.. I don't mind .. (friendly tone)
Me : Tell la. So at least I know what you expecting.
Mum : Okla. 7 As? (higher pitch)
Me : -_-
Me : If i cannot get how? I get all Cs can ar? (trying to reduce the high amount of pressure)
Mum : Ehh. All Cs cannooot. Cannot get nvm la. I not gonna cry or anything also.
Me : (less pressured) Okla. See how. But I seriously don't think I can get lor.
Mum : How many papers you have next week? 2-3 more then u start studying from now la. Then can achieve my expecatations.
Me : Okla see how.

Zzz.
My parents are actually expecting 7As. I also think that's the only results they'll be happy with.

Ironically, I just finished my 7th subject today.
7As so far? I don't think so.

Not really impossible or anything la. It all depends on the country's graph. I'm seriously wondering how the other 400,000 candidates are actually doing. I've been randomly checking anonymous SPM candidates' blogs to lighten up my curiosity.
Didn't help at all. They all are complaining about the same 'difficult' section or sharing similiar thoughts.

Sigh.

I think I'll be disappointed if I don't score for my BM, Eng, Maths, Moral. I'm not saying I'm expecting and predicting As for these few subjects but I'm just saying if I don't score an A for these few, I'll be sad. Geddit? :)
BM and Moral a little tricky though. But I know I won't be happy if I don't get A for both.

History. :/ How man. I really hope the marking is lenient as everyone is saying it is. Then I shall stand a small chance.

Those are my core subjects. Before SPM, i was targetting A for 5 of those. I think it's only natural if I'm doubting now.

Physics. I'll be happy if I score. Like I said before, I stand a small chance too. Hmm.

Today was Additional Mathematics. -_-
Paper 1 was good by my standards. I may not score as high as most of my frens did but when I checked the answers, I realised it's one of the best papers I had done.
Paper 2 was tougher. Section A was the toughest(somehow). Section B was easier. Section C I was actually wanting full marks but I just realised I got the meaning of 'acute' wrong. $^@#%!@%! 6 marks gone, not including careless mistakes for that section.

I have 3 more subjects left. Only one with a realistic chance with scoring an A. All the papers are next week.

Chem, Bio, EST.

Unless something amazing happen this weekend, I have to start thinking of ways to tell my mum on the last day of SPM that I may had just disappointed her.
Oh yea, it's her birthday btw, Happy Birthday Mum! The irony. Zzz.

I have already planned to have a chemistry discussion with Teck Eng. I'm gonna make sure it works out this time. I'll only disturb him once and that's it.
I really do not think I'm gonna score for Chem so I'll just leave it aside at the moment till my discussion.
Biology. It's all about notes and reading. Something I'm not good at but i'm still gonna try.

3 days left. 3 papers to go.
Cmon Alex. Only few days dammit!


-alexeO-

Day Five

Day Five is different from the other days cause I only had one paper today and it was at 2pm. Moral Studies.

I like to complain on how unnecessary it is but I guess it's kinda pointless now. So I spent the whole night yesterday memorising the bloody 'definisi(s)' and talked to Petaibabe till 4-5am. We didn't really chat much just asked each other definisi till we got bored. Thx to her I managed to memorise most. I also realised my memory is not so bad after all.

The paper was alright. Realised I had made several mistakes but it SHOULD be okay.
Like the other papers, I'll just wait for the results and not make any 'predictions' whatsoever.

I also wanna specially thank Tan Heng Keat from Sr 5 Arts who became my 'driver' for the last 3 months of school. He also fetched me on 5 days of SPM to and fro. Except today cause he had a morning paper and I didn't so he just fetched me home. Thx Heng Keat! He finished his SPM today btw. Wtf. -_- Congrats.

I have only like what? 4 more days to go. I have Additional Mathematics(sux) tomorrow and my next paper after that would be on next Tuesday.

I love Add Maths but I suck badly in it.
This is a subject which I only passed ONCE in my entire upper secondary period.
And that 'once' also I barely just passed. Zzz.

I love this subject man. But I just can't score.

In need of serious luck tomorrow.
Do-able questions for me for both papers tomorrow! Thx!!!


-alexeO-

If you have not tried the newly released and advertised Pepsi Tarik...




Don't try it.

As a fan of Pepsi, I have to admit how bad this drink is to my tastebuds. First sip, ok. Not bad. The coffee flavour was very mild. The pepsi was overpowering it. Few sips later, omg. What kinda drink is this. The cola and the coffee flavour doesnt blend at all. It was like drinking 2 different drinks at the same time. When my mind thinks of coffee, I taste coffee, when my mind thinks of cola, I taste cola. This is certainly something I will not purchase anymore unless I am in a desperate situation or something like that.

I finished it anyway. It wasn't a drink which would make you vomit or anything. But it just makes you cringe when you take a sip.

It's 4am now and I'm typing this. Overdose of caffeine. Crap.



-alexeO-

Day Three and Day Four

Sorry this is long overdue. I wanted to post this on a daily basis but something happened on Day Three which entirely spoilt my mood and plan.

On Day Three, there were the 2 Modern Mathematic papers. There was also an Art theory paper between the 2 papers but since I did not take Art for SPM, I had a 4-hour break. It didn't feel like 4 hours anyway. My friends drove me out for breakfast, then they bought MacDonalds for lunch. During the 4 hour interval, we also had a good time chatting with each other on our future courses and the Genting trip. Pretty interesting conversations.

Many also went home during the break. -_-

The Mathematic papers were pretty easy overall. Ms.Ki(my maths teacher in school) set harder papers for Paper 2. Paper 1 was easy but I had more mistakes than trials. Zzz. I'm pretty confident for Mathematics. Hmm.

The thing which spoilt my mood was I lost my friend's handphone. Well I didn't really 'lose' it. We both played a part in it. However I still feel very responsible and sorry. So lazy to explain again. Ask me personally for details. :/

Day Four was the 3 Physics papers. Paper One was easier than expected. Questions were straight forward and answerable. But I damn disappointed cause I got like damn many wrong. My frens had like 3,4,6,8 mistakes. But I calculated and realised it doesn't affect much if you count the OVERALL score. Cause their marks would be divided by 1.9 and bla bla bla. Not much difference. Paper 2 was still okay. It wasnt OMG SUPER TOUGH or wasnt OMG SUPER EASY too. Just do-able. Realised I made several mistakes too. Should be OKAY. Essay part was slightly tougher though. Paper 3 was still okay. I really don't know how I did. Just hoping I get an examiner who is not strict and just wanna finish his job. -_-. Sigh hopefully.

I calculated with my friend who was about the same standard with me and we agak-agaked our marks. Realised we actually stood a small chance to get a borderline A! Omgz. Haha. I am expecting at least a 4B for physics. And that is not a sign of arrogance. There are ppl who are expecting 1A. GOOD LUCK ALEX.

I had no paper on Friday. My next paper would be on Tuesday, Wednesday. Moral on Tuesday, Add Maths on Wednesday.

It's all about practicing and memorising this week.
Then the following week I have Chemistry and Biology and finally, EST.

Things doesn't get any better till my final paper.
I've already finished almost half of SPM. This is faster than I thought. :)

5 days to go, 5 papers to manage.

Bwahahaha.

-alexeO-

Day Two

I was feeling much healthier today compared to yesterday.

English One was fine.. I think I'm quite satisfied with my first essay. My 2nd one was alright. I chose the question which required me to write a story with the title An Unexpected Visitor. My whole story was alright but the same thing which happened to BM happened again. Only I was a little ready this time. Once again, they didn't announce the time remaining.. So as I was writing my final bit.. "okay..masa sudah tamat.." ZZz. Once again i hurried and wrote my last few lines. I was damn glad my story was already 'end-able'. Zzz. But I could had written a better ending!

Hmmph.

Sejarah 2 was... pretty tough. Sigh. I can see my A flying away from me.
:(
I studied all the wrong things. My mind filled with useless facts I'm trying hard to remove now. Sienz.
I don't wanna talk much about it as i fear it will jinx my results. Haha.

7 days to go. You can do it!


-alexeO-

Day One

I am sick. I feel extremely exhausted.

Day One of SPM isn't much to brag about. I started the day off in the early hours of the morning with this wanna vomit kinda feeling. I really thought I was gonna throw up that instant but luckily I managed to hold it in. Before that, I had diarrhea(however u spell it). I was quite frustrated on why all this sickness is only coming right before my SPM.

It sucks.

IT's not like I didn't have enough sleep. Normal school days I slept even less or about the same. But during those days nothing ever happened to me. Zzz.

So I did my BM essay paper and was feeling much better during the exam. Unfortunately, the freaking whiteboard was 100000miles away and even with my glasses I couldn't read the time duration written on the board. Without any time to calculate myself, I did what I could, not knowing how many minutes left to go. So I finished my First Essay in 1 hour and that is 15 minutes more than the time recommended for that part. I spent another 20 mins thinking of points for my 2nd essay and I think I picked the wrong question as after 4-5 points, I was stuck.

GG alex.

So I thought I write about that topic from another perspective just for the satisfaction of seeing a long written essay. Unfortunately, when I was busy scribbling down my 6th point, all I heard was this..

"Masa sudah tamat. Sila berhenti menulis"

What. The. F.

Omg.

......

I looked around. Ppl didn't mind the message as much as I did. Their answer book was nicely closed and arranged. I thought as if I was screwed right in the face.

What could I do? I finished my essay by writing down my last and final sentence and assumed my 6th point is my 'penutup'.

It sucks because the bloody pengawas doesn't tell you how many minutes more to go like any other exams.

So I duno how I did honestly. I think it depends on the examiner marking my paper. I was quite happy and satisfied on how I elaborated my points and every paragraph seemed detailed with examples. Only one point missing, and a lousy 'penutup'.. how
much marks could I lose there? :/

After my BM paper I had my objective history paper. Ppl were complaining on how tough it is compared to last year but I actually thought it's like any other paper I've done. The thing with this History Objective is that the level of difficulty is always the same for me and with my 32/40 marks for last year's SPM paper.. it's really a confidence booster for me.

After that, we had a 2 hour interval before our next paper. This was the time I got really screwed. Heat started to surround my entire body and I felt as if I was going to light something up on fire. I had a slight headache and I was extremely sleepy too. I only studied for my BM2 a little before I took a short nap(which wasn't that effective anyway).

I had fever. Why. Of all days and time.

I entered the examination hall feeling tired and sick. I felt as if I was going to fall asleep especially with the presence of the air-conditioned hall.

Zzz.

I finished the exam paper faster than most people not intentionally but I used that time to take my nap. Headache was getting worst and I was feeling more tired as the seconds went pass.
Sienz. I went home just now and immediately went to sleep. I woke up 2 hours later feeling dizzy and my head felt as if it was gonna burst. I just took a Panadol Actifast just now and it worked like a charm. I am feeling much better now, just a little tired. Must be the amount of sleep I had.

That pretty much sums up my entire Day One.
I'm hoping to recover 100% and concentrate for another 8 days.

History 2 tomorrow. The subjective part. Along with 2 english papers.
All the best, Alex.


-alexeO-

My last day, of school

So I woke up this morning, having this twisted feeling in my heart and knowing that it would be the final morning I wake up at this certain time and dress up for school. SPM is not counted because I have to wake up extra early and all I do is sit in the hall and do my exams. But that's another story alltogether..

It was an emotional day with no tears. That's how I would sum up my final day of school life. I am quite satisfied on how I closed this chapter of my life and already quite plan out how I am going to move on with my little life.

My final day started off with the distribution of the school magazine. I was part of the Editorial Board this year and I am actually feeling neutral about the magazine and that's a good thing. I expected to be disappointed after the disagreements and etc, but i'm actually feeling okay. There were many notice-able changes that were done but with a great deal of help from a teacher, it was done quite alright. Didn't turn out as planned for a few sections but it was still okay on the whole...


The orangy cover of the Cahaya 2005. Thicker than last year too!

Oh yea, they changed the cover too lol. And I'm actually not angry about that. Wow amazing. This final period of my school life really changed me. -_- The cover looks okay.. However the fonts still can be improved I feel but bah whatever. What's done is done. And once again, I'm quite pleased.

There was a short autograph session when we got our magazines when everyone started asking each other for autographs and messages. I gladly did the same as I may not get the chance to do it anymore.. Pretty fun. Nothing offensive passed throughout, I guess. Zzz.


My page of 5Science1 autographs. Not all signed as of yet.. :/

Also FINALLY got our photos we ordered like months ago. Photos we took on the Photography day. I ordered 3 and I got them all. I'm not sure if I ordered the prefects photo. If I did ..someone is definitely owing me something.. -_-


Top left : Class Photo. Top Right : Yellow House Photo. Mid : Table Tennis Club Photo(me president!)

The class was pretty small in the morning but the number increased as the time passed. Classmates came fashionably late and I guess I would do the same if I can drive too. Nothing except a short personal physics session with Ariff and the autograph session was done in the class. The rest of the day the guys went to play around like 7 year olds on their first trip to the playground. I did not join them. I didn't have the mood to. Kinda headache due to the unusual amount of sleep I had the night before.


The 5 Science 1 'guestbook'. Meant to have more signatures for sure. -_-

Surprisingly also, the birthday chart that was posted on our class' notice board quite early this year was still intact! I mean the rest like the duty roster and the timetable if there was one were not there anymore. Pretty cool. I feel it has some kinda hidden meaning behind the reason on why is it still in almost flawless condition too. ;)


The 'still intact' beautiful birthday chart designed by Pei Huan.

I went around the school with Kim after that to snap some shots we feel was meaningful. Kim also wanted to take some photos with her Senior 4 friends.. Kinda surprised she got Sr 4 friends but what the hell. We went up to the hall to have a peek on what we were gonna face the following week and weeks to come. The tables were arranged and the examination awaits.. Obviously the hall was locked so I only managed to snap a shot from the outside..


My table is visible from here! I'm not kidding. It's one of those tables at the further end.


Sekolah Seri Cahaya's view of the Junior's Block from the Senior's Block. Spent 2 years there. Good old times. :)

My friends are a great bunch and I'm sincerely glad to have them. Like I said in my speech on English Week, this school offered me nothing else but great memories and friends. Thank you guys for being there for me. 5,6,7 years. Even if we had our misunderstandings, we still always managed to get along in the end. This is especially to you, praveen. -_-


L-R : Teck Eng, Praveen, Kim, Teck Kuan.


L-R : Huey Shyan, Koi Lin, Hadyna


L-R : Jehan, Hadyna

I am so happy to have ended it yet I feel so 'lost'...the feeling is like i had lost something important and I cannot turn back time to retrieve it. I still can't get over the fact that this would be no more my 2nd home next year and my 5 year long classmates would be going on their seperate ways.

My memories would be unforgettable and full of excitement, fun and joy. I really love what Seri Cahaya had done to me despite what ppl often complain about it. It may not be the best school in the world but I appreciate the people who are in that particular school, teacher or learners, they have all been my friends for my 7 years in that school and I truly cherish every single moment I had been there. I have a tendency to forget sad events and I have already forgotten them all. Who cared what Punitha had punished me or what Mr.Yam had confiscated from me. The fact remains that every single person I meet in that school had influenced me in some way or another and without any of them I cannot be the Alex I am today. From the bottom of my heart, I thank every single person I met from Sekolah Seri Cahaya including my seniors, my juniors and my teachers.

Again from my speech,
"When I first stepped into this school, I was shocked. This was nothing like in the brochures. Why was there only one single small block? It was supposed to be 3! I thought I had made the biggest on my life but it was only now that I thought I made the best choice of my life. This school may not have the best facilities but it has given me great memories and fun. The friends I met here are all amazing people and without them I dont know what will I be"

Thank you guys for ur support and endless encouragements. If I offended anyone of you throughout the whole period I know you guys, I apologize from the bottom of my heart. It has been no easy ride or no pleasure cruise. But together we held each other hands and faced every obstacles that was in our way.

I know things will never be the same in the years to come. I love every single one of you despite the things I say or what any of you guys heard I said. If I'm being too emotional now, screw it. Because that is what i'm feeling right now and I'm happy to be expressing myself.

Once again, thank you all for making me who I am today. This feeling can't be any better.

If i was asked what last words will i give if i have a chance.. it will definitely have to be this last few words.

Thank you. Everyone of you guys have been phenomenal.



My schoolbag which I will definitely miss!


-alexeO-

3 more days

Omgz.
Hahahaha. I can count the days to go to SPM with one hand!
Bwahahaha. I think I'm going insane.

So tomorrow, much later today to be exact..since it has already pass 12am..
Will be the last day of school.

Not any ordinary last days. It's the last day, forever!
:O!!!!

I'm not really like omgz so sad or anything.. Just u know.. feeling a little awkward. Next year no more school. Kinda like. Passed a stage in life u know?
It's like.. Everyone goes to school. And now. School's over. Parents will automatically put more responsibility.. In that kinda way. I suck in explaining.

Hopefully I'll manage to take enough photos for tomorrow. I shall post some. FINAL DAY GODDAMMIT. ACT MORE EXCITED OR SOMETHING!

For now,
I'll be going to bed soon. Final day of school. And i'm not even 17 yet.

Eh crapz.
I missed Nimi's birthday by 10 mins.
Happy Belated Birthday Nimi!

I wished her exactly 24 hours ago.
Time is passing so fast.


creepy..

-alexeO-

5/lima

5 more days.

Hm..
My urge to drive is increasing.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY need to get a driving license. Just thinking bout the convenience makes me grin widly.


But for now, I know.. It's not for another 2 months till I finally get it.


Sienz.
-alexeO-

6/enam

enam hari lagi.

ish.

Less than a week till SPM. Wow. Haha. I'm a big boy. So close. I'm not gonna blog about how much I need to study now. Cause it's pointless.

:)

If the last post was dedicated to my class teacher, this post is dedicated to my class, Sr 5 Sc 1.

Thx guys for making it all happen. Because of you guys we have a class forum and a class blog. Eventhough they are both dead at the moment..but hey cmon, it's still there!
I'll start posting individual messages to each and every one of my classmates soon..and maybe some other ppl from other places which are of the same birthyear with me.. Yeap that includes you too, joyce. Just a personal word of thanks from me..since this is my final schooling year, I wanna give a little tribute to friends whom I met while studying in school.

Here are a few pics I took on the second last friday of school. The last friday is this coming friday btw.

Sorry if these shots are taken from limited angles. I just wanna post pics cause I'm in the mood.


Clockwise from top left : Chuang Sing, Allen, Vivian, Kelvin, Haris, unknown, Jia Xin, Wan Choy, Kar Wai and Richmond(hidden).


L - R : Richmond, Jia Xin, Su Cheng, Cezlynn, Kim, Kar Wai, Kelvin


L - R : Same la as above. Additional guy beside Kelvin is Chuang Sing.

Hmmz.
I know things will never be the same as before.


-alexeO-

8/lapan

8 days more.

It's getting closer..

How.

I woke up at 7pm on Friday. Not a good sign. Especially having an exam in less than 2 weeks.

Bwahaha. Btw, I dedicate this post to my final class teacher, Ms. Josephine! She teaches me chem(oh the irony) and is kinda cool really. Apparently she's the female version of Ariff or vice versa. She's not any ordinary science teacher.. She loves acting angry to scare the shit out of everyone. Thx for being a good sport this whole year Josephine!

7 most Memorable moments :-

1) Sent Kelvin Tan out of the Chemistry Lab after he intentionally spirked water onto her. The funny thing was, the whole class was shooting water to each other just the week before during the same class. Hahaha. This has to be number one here. This incident is in the running for the funniest event of 5science1 too :D

2) Made my life a living hell after being extremely 'honest' with my Dad during report card day. Yeap, no modem for 2 weeks. That's the one.

3) Tried 'comforting' me at Genting when i lost my wallet there after Form 3 when she followed my class to excursion. Lol good effort.

4) Helped me score an A for science in UPSR. She thought me in Junior 6 too.

5) Gave me a 6C for Chemistry for my forecast. <-- That's good by my standards.

6) Her evil laughter.

7) Her lameness.

This is her, not a good picture..but it shows her true..personality. Just look at those eyes... *shivers*



creepy.


:)

-alexeO-

11/Sebelas

11 more days till SPM begins.
That's very short.

I know.

It's already November. SPM starts this month. I gotta work 25125X harder.

Here's a look on my SPM registration slip thing.


Somehow I feel Number 8 shouldn't be there.. :/

Had tuition today at 9am in the freaking morning. So freaking early omg. So I slept at 2am but still realised that I did not have sufficient sleep. So I got back home, ate some breakfast and fell asleep at about 2pm. Woke up at 5pm just now. Ate half-boiled egg my sister made and I'm now here typing this.

I can imagine my friends cramming everything into their brains at this very second and I'm here staring at the computer screen. It reminds me of my PMR days. Only except I worked like 10% more that year. Only because it was so freaking 'study-able'. Unlike now. What happens if I come across something I don't understand now.
Then I have nobody to ask. Then ppl will tell me too late. Then I will be officially gg-ed.

My mind's full of junk I have to get rid of.

I also realised in exactly one month's time for now will be the last day of SPM.

For now, pls spend a couple of seconds n put me in your prayers. I do know there's a saying which goes 'God won't help ppl who doesn't help themselves'...but I also know there's another saying which goes 'we have to forgive and forget' and I hope it's not too late.


and No. I still will not regret.

-alexeO-