Screwed

No one told me college life was this stressful.
No one ever did.

-_-

And to think that it is far more important than whatever you achieve in high school is just the last straw.

My course isn't meant for ppl like me. No. It definitely isn't.

It's meant for people who actually can work. Who actually is hardworking or simply isn't lazy.

Which is so totally opposite from what I am.

I have handed up my assignments on time and all but so what? My results are stinking like a pile of shit.

I thought I had chosen the perfect set of subjects for me but I may have just screwed myself over.

That set.. is like, the perfect set. A little bit of this a little bit of that. Perfect for me.

But who did I actually think I was?
A boy who passed his Additional Mathematics in Form 5 only once out of 6 times.
A boy who thought he wasn't weak in mathematics but just unlucky as he could understand most of the stuff tought.

Has the boy gotten out of his mind?
TO ACTUALLY TAKE A SUBJECT CALLED :



Yr 12 for South Australian syllabus.

Note the word "specialist"

From dictionary.com:
specialist
-an expert who is devoted to one occupation or branch of learning
-One who is devoted to a particular occupation or branch of study or research


eh, hello alex of 7 months ago.
To take specialist maths is also basically to mean that you are actually SPECIALISING in MATHEMATICS.

WHICH IS SO NOT MY FORTE?!

My forte would be.. let's see, something to do with communication.. presentation.. or language basically. Or something fun like.. "design an advertisement banner/poster!"
:/

Mathematics.
I don't hate it.
It's just not my kinda thing.

Hey i get the fun part of it and all.. and the logical part of it.
I get why some ppl are crazy over it.
And why some ppl just got the naturally grasp of the subject.

But it's not my strong point.
I hate to admit this but.. I actually think I suck in Maths.
:(
And I thought I was good.
Just 'unlucky'.

My mind works far too slow to process these numbers and funny algebraic stuff in my head.
=(

My other subjects for my current course are okay.

On a totally different and irrelevant note,
I had this for lunch on Tuesday!



It's some.. wanton noodles garlic sauce with honey bbq chicken thing.

!!!
Nice. But quite costly.

Why the heck did I post that picture up.

I have no idea.

Back to my college life.
Which had been giving me some serious eyebags.
and a very tired face.

And oh yea.
I try so very hard to pay attention during class for specialist maths.
Because if you miss 1 minute of the class, the whole of the next hr is basically pointless cause you wouldn't understand anything.
I may be exaggerating but I dont care.

So anyway,
I will try my best to concentrate and understand everything that was being tought.
And each time I force myself,
I get a headache.
A painful one.
:(

Sometimes I like to feel the pain.. like some sign telling me that my brain is finally working after all these years.
But sometimes I feel it's just pointless and annoying.
I LIKE MATHS OKAY.
And my lecturer doesn't really make it any easier for me.
With her constant naggings and pressure.
SHE REALLY EXPECTS HER STUDENTS TO STUDY 24/7!!!!
JUST BECAUSE I THINK SHE WAS LIKE THAT LAST TIME DURING HER STUDY DAYS,
NOT EVERYONE CAN LAH~

Ok i wasted so much time blogging.
When I should be resting now until I am called up
for the semi-final 2.

gdnite world.


-alexeO-

World Cup 2006

Okay. So now all my favourites are officially out.
I supported Ivory Coast and Australia and a little bit of England since the tournament began.
But Ivory Coast crashed out in the group stages eventhough they were very convincing indeed.

So after that I fully focused on Australia.
Which CONTROVERSIALLY(sp) THEY WERE UNLUCKLILY KNOCKED OUT.

Then I supported England.
Which.
Just hours ago,
lost in penalties.

But there was one team which had me build my passion towards to as the last 16 progressed..
It was..
France.

Omg with Henry, and the damn chun Zidane and many many more.
I was hoping they would somehow upset the Brazilians or I will never have a favourite ever again as I am seeming to be putting a curse on my favourites.
AND IT HAPPENED!

:o

I mean.
France WON!
Damn convincing summore. Deserved it.

Not that I hate Brazil..
But,
It's just that I support France.

It's 5:44am now and I'm tired.
I can't seem to get a proper sentence constructed properly.

Nice semis.

Germany vs Italy

France vs Portugal(go france)


=D

B18

It's true.
The class B18 in Taylor's College SJ,
there's something hypnotizing about it.

seriously.

i never once entered that class for a class and completed it wide awake.
i'll for sure doze off for some reason.

it's a class which makes everyone feel like sleeping.

i dunno if it's just the order of subjects for that day but still!

noooooooooooooo.


the horror.

the horrorrr..


-alexeO-

If you have some serious eyebags, I'm afraid you are starting to look like me.

With total no relevance to the title and my previous post in this blog,


I will not make fun of people's driving anymore.
I will not make fun of people's driving anymore.
I will not make fun of people's driving anymore.


=(
-alexeO-

It's bothering me

The statement, 'what goes around, comes around.'

Is it even,
true?

I know those with a strong religious mind will believe in that strongly. But being a not so religious person, I beg to differ.

If I put glue on my friend's chair, will I get gum on my shoes sometime not long after?

Those instances when something bad actually happened when you did something bad, are all I believe, coincidences.

One of the reasons would be,
I can see many successful ppl who aren't that nice of a person if you get to know him or her. I also see many nice, kind, (whatever positive adjective u can find) people living miserably and not as happily as the others.

I believe having this 'karma' belief is mostly what a mastermind has invented ages ago. When something bad happens, everyone looks for something to blame. And when the fingers are pointed, it normally ends unhappily. Having no one to blame but themselves actually not only prevents any misunderstandings but also makes everyone try their very best to NOT do anything evil (insert evil smiley here) as they do not want anything to happen unto them.
So at the end of the day, everyone becomes nice.


O.o


like so wtf rite?
philosopher alex.

But I have to agree it may be true to some extent too.
Newton's theory of action = reaction is a weird argument though I feel.
What meant for force has become such an overused theory and simply put in any possible scenarios. :/

I'm a damn nice person la.
I don't think just because I jokingly punch a friend on the shoulder makes me hit by a huge boulder at a random construction site the next day.

I also don't think just because I happily joined in a crowd insulting a person leaves me having no one to talk to the following week or something.

Because if it's true, then who is responsible for these 'counter attacks'?
God?
Nature?
Myself?

Some may argue that none of the above makes sense but that we should do unto others what you want others to do unto you because,
Eg :- you tell X something bad about Y. Y heard about it. Ur reputation gets tarnished. Everyone found out you talked bad about Y. No one likes you now.

something like that.
I cannot explain.

But to explain it in terms of religion or karma just seem so mind boggling for me.

Haih.
I'm such a confused kid.

Also,
technology is evil.
Communication through technology should never be invented.
Simply because the other party does not know the tone of voice you are giving out when you deliver a message.
As simple as that.

Wat meant as a compliment can look as an insult.
Wat meant as sarcasm can be seen as a death threat.

o.O

Sad la the world today.
Don't so sensitive pls!
Everyone!

another thing,
I want to clear something up.
Just because,
I said something bad about you, showed my temper, or become angry at you for some reason,
all I want you to know is.
It doesn't last. Not at all.
As much as I want it to, it doesn't happen unfortunately. :(

However, it does not mean you should be taking advantage of it.
Tx.

So if you see me talking to you the next day after an argument or something,
just know that I'm sincere!
Not angry anymore. Or just can't be.
-.-

My life's so messed up I'm actually shocked there are people jealous of me [you know who u are, ;)]

Hehe. And thats not a perasan statement okay?

Lala.

And yea,
some driving questions I would like the answers to:

1)You are reversing straight without any turn then you want to turn left, meaning the back of your car will move towards the right. When you turn, do the left side of ur car 'makan' any more space than what it originally 'makan-ed'? Like move to the left more abit. Does it?

2)Do you think the left side mirror is not as easy to see as the other 2 mirrors?

3)Agree with estimation of cars distance from the mirrors is not something you get immediately when you first started driving?

4)Parking for the first few weeks/months is not as easy as you thought it was?

5)That it sucks to be involved in an accident?


Tx for the answers.
I'll be glad to hear em anywhere. MSN preferably. :)

-n-



-alexeO-

Luck

Do you believe in luck?

I remember my brother triggered this question in my head a few years back or something.
For one, he said he didn't believe in luck and gave some 'beat around the bush' explanation on why it cannot be possible. I wouldn't know if he still thinks the same but that's not the point now.

The thing is,
I feel like I'm on a streak of... negative luck. (yea i'm superstitious. so wat?)

Yes. Bad luck if you may call it. (shivers)

I bet for the World Cup.
And I'm on a terribly losing streak.
like.. wtf?

So yesterday, my friends and I decided to rest. I said to them. Ok. I'm taking Australia. I'm not betting but I'm taking Australia. See what happens. If Australia wins with the handicap, means my luck is coming back.
What do you know?
Brazil has an 1-0 lead until the 89th minute. Like WTF?!!

Korea. I kept asking my friends to go for it. But they said my tips or predictions rather can't be trusted anymore. And what do you know? They won with the handicap.

HUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?!
WHAT IS WRONG LA.

And just, Togo vs Switzerland.
Like wTF?! again.
Took Togo.
Winning half with the handicap until the 88th minute or something. 2-0.
?!!!@$!@$!@$!@$!@$?!@%!@?%!@?%!@?%!?@!??!?!?!?!?

Why.
Why.
Why.

Had a minor setback with my driving this morning. Super bad luck. Not minor to some extent. But it was still part of the bad luck thing I'm under I think.

Everyday I tell myself,
there is no such thing as luck.
There is no such thing as luck.
There is no such thing as luck.

Then I see Luck everyday hiding at the corner of my room giggling happily to himself, distracting me while I groan in disbelief at the TV. I looked at Luck. He sees me and suddenly I became stupid.

Sometimes it is just too hard to deny the existence of luck.
I don't think anyone have a day where they will say at the end of it,"Wow. What a neutral day!"

It will either be,"DAMN BAD DAY TODAY"(sings Daniel Powter - Bad Day)
Or,
"WOWOOWOWW GOOD LUCK TODAY MAN"(sings any other random song)

Some may argue they had something bad happen in the morning and that night it became the luckiest night of their lives.
But,
I'm ignoring that cause i have nothing to say to that.
Not a big chance of it happening anyway. At least compared to my early examples. Lala

So anyway, like I was saying, I'm on a streak of bad luck.
I don't know how to see the end of the streak.

Maybe I shud toss a coin and see what I guess is correct 3 times in a row.
Or something. Shit too much Mathematical Studies.

GO AWAY DARK CLOUD! STOP DRAINING MY LUCK AWAYYYYY!
SHOO!


p.s:- nick, richmond what bet next?

-alexeO-

Sing-a-long!

See the orangey(i think) music player thing at the side? Let it buffer a little while, and start singing! :)

I'm so nice.
---

Daniel Powter
Bad Day

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day


-alexeO-

Taylor's

I'm now happily enjoying the cool air-conditioned at Taylor's, blogging.
:/

There's this guy behind me who kept groaning or releasing some weird sound once every few minutes. He sounds like he's crying/laughing.
Ok I just looked back. He's surfing wikipedia. I think it's for his project for SAM. I think like almost all of us, he has gone either totally insane or dwelled into depression.

Ok.
Today is the first day after 2 long weeks of holidays. Sigh. Damn tired. Friends also noticed the heavy eyebags at my eyes. :( I hate waking up early.

The week of college before the holidays being the exam week, I got my exam results today. Omg.
I duno wat to say. At first I was quite satisfied. But I ended up being very disappointed because it isn't very good. Dunooooo ler.
Honestly, I felt like I did my best for Specialist Maths. I was happy with the outcome, but the result is still so insufficient. Just not enough.

Dem tired now.

Sure sleeping early today.
After Australia vs Japan I guess.

World Cup gogogo.

(just another random boring update)


-alexeO-

Holidays ended

My longest break of the year has reached its end.

My supposed plan of watching the 4 movies I listed has failed miserably as expected.
In the end, I only managed to watch 2 out of 4.. and it was for 2 days straight on Friday and Saturday.

I watched Over The Hedge on Friday with the guys before departing to Subang for some cafe session.



The movie was quite funny at parts. Quite good I would say but doesn't deserve any more praises than that. It was soooo much better than Chicken Little but that's not saying much. There were parts I laughed my head off but the movie didn't really leave a lasting impression on me. Funny ler, but just that. Entertaining to watch.
I'm not picky.

I watched X-Men 3 : The Last Stand just now.



Superrrrrrrrrrr gaya!
The fighting scenes were extremely 'kan cheong'.
Got some parts I just had to whisper into my friend's ear, "Damn gaya!"
Omg serious la damn gaya.
I don't care what the X-Men fanatics are saying but this movie is great! I know this movie didn't really please some ppl but it certainly pleased me!

Bwahahaha.

So now,
I still need to watch Poseidon and Da Vinci Code.
But I'm removing Poseidon from the list because it is not really a MUST watch for me now.
I've also added another to my list eventhough my college is about to start on Monday.
Zzz.

Cars! Of course.
I heard my frens said it was damn nice.
Must must watch!!

---

Eh after the X-Men, I attended some sort of a gathering at a very very expensive japanese buffet, Shogun in 1U.
Not really worth it la. I did not have much appetite anyway. Aih. Summore got a little bit of stomachache.
Terrible night for buffet.
I was trying so hard to make it worth it that I took so much Salmon the 2nd round.

Really couldn't eat in the end. :/
Had a great time meeting ppl I didn't meet for a few months now.
MY biggest regret was only not talking as much to the other ppl from the other table.
Must communicate more wat!
I hope I didnt come across as arrogant or something.

Nooo.

College starting on Monday, like I said.
I'm okay with it. Already trying to withstand the boulders of pressure that are gonna mount on me.

Stay strong Alex. 5-6 months of college to go!

-alexeO-

World Cup 2006

I've just watched the opening match - Germany vs Costa Rica.

The match ended 4-2 btw and the commentator said it was a very high scoring match for an opening match. How would I know anyway. My craze for football came 3-4 years ago.

Anywayz,
It was pretty exciting because I was betting on Costa Rica with the handicap but I lost half cause Germany scored a wonder goal at the 87th minute. WTF?!

Games are always nicer to watch if you bet on a team. =)

I'm totally heated up for this world cup. Yeah.

Weeeeeeeeeee.

I got myself ready by purchasing a World Cup 2006 Guidebook which had posters charts and all in it. Pretty worth it.

I tend to support the underdogs for competitions so I'm all out for Ivory Coast and Australia! Gogo Toure. Gogo Viduka.
I also support England because I watch the EPL(:/).
I don't have a specific team I don't like but being asian, it's weird that I do not really enjoy South Korea much. Or Japan for that matter. I hope Iran goes far though.


It sux cause I know several courses which are having their holidays right now. WTF. Mine just ended. ARGH. WTF LERRRRRRRRRZZZZzz.

But try la.. to watch some important matches. Hmm.



My guidebook and the charts and all.
Heh, bring it on WC2006!


-alexeO-

I...

..I...

omg..

I...

...actually...

PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I CANT CONTROL MY EMOTIONS?>!!!?!@#@

U KNOW WHY?!

BECAUSE,

FOR SO MANY FREAKING DAYS

I HAD SLEEPLESS NIGHTS.. TOSSING AND TURNING IN MY BED.. THINKING ABOUT HOW AM I GONNA PASS MY DRIVING TEST.

I WAS NERVOUS AS HELL.
I NEVER FELT SO NERVOUS BEFORE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.
I DONT FEEL SO NERVOUS FOR NORMAL ACADEMICS EXAMINATION.

BUT I WAS SUPER NERVOUS THIS TIME.

SO ANYWAY,

I CAME SO EARLY IN THE MORNING, WAITING FOR MY NUMBER TO BE CALLED.
IN THE END, I WAITED A TOTAL OF 5 HOURS AND 45 MINUTES UNTIL MY NUMBER WAS CALLED TO GO ON THE ROAD.

HA-HA-HA.

MY NUMBER WAS "36". THEY CALLED 33,34,35,37,38 SO EARLY BUT NOT 36 I DONT KNOW WHY.

BUT WHEN I WAS WALKING TO THE WAITING FOR THE ON THE ROAD TEST AREA, ONE OFFICER STOPPED ME AND ASKED,"AWAK NOMBOR 36??" I SAID YES AND HE BROUGHT ME TO A NEARER CAR WHICH I HAD TO REVERSE. I COULDNT MAKE THE CAR MOVE. IT WAS DIFFERENT CAUSE IT HAD AIRCON ON AND IT WAS QUITE NEW. HAHAHHAHA I THOUGHT TO MYSELF. I WAS SO NERVOUS I TOT HE WILL FAIL ME FOR SURE WHEN I ASKED,"KENAPA MACAM INI??? TAK BOLEH BERGERAK" HE SOUNDED SO PISSED AND SAID TEKAN LAGI OIL LEPAS CLUTCH!!!!

HAAHAHA IN THE END IT MOVED. BUT MANUALING THAT CAR SUX. I PREFER MY INSTRUCTOR"S EASY TO MOVE CAR. HAHAHAHAH AND WHEN I ENDED THE WHOLE JOURNEY, I SAW I PASSED. DAMN HAPPY. HALF BURDEN GONE.

ok enuff of caps.

I am just too excited. I just passed less than 30 mins ago. Barely.

Anyway, it sucks to have you feeling all so worried and nervous in the morning when u arrive awaiting ur turn.. but in the end u had to wait for SOOOO LONG instead.

By then, you don't know if you rather hope you're next because u are getting restless or hope ur turn doesn't coem soon because u are so freaking nervous.
Sucks.

Talking back about the officer in the car testing me, when he sounded irritated.. i really thought it was all over there. Thank God something happened. Miracle I think. I didnt let the engine die but I couldnt make the car move. SUX. WELL OF COURSE I DID IN THE END.

I waited a while again for the "hill-parking-3ptturn" combo.

My instructor was there... before I went, he told me his students ALL passed today.. he looked so proud.. like never happened before. Since I'm the last one of his students to be tested, I was like shit. Additional pressure.

He purposely chose a car for me.. BUT OMG WHAT HAPPENED SO EMBARASSING.
THERE WASNT THAT MANY PPL BUT MY FIRST ATTEMPT ON THE SLOPE FAILED MISERABLY. I CAN ACTUALLY HEAR MY INSTRUCTOR GROANING. EITHER IN ANGER OR EMBARASSMENT I DONT KNOW.

The freaking car jerked up jerked up jerked up before I stopped BEFORE the yellow line.
GG.
THE MAN on top asked me for my number and asked me to go again.. MY JOURNEY UP WAS SMOOTHER BUT!!!

But, I actually felt I stopped far too early and same with my first try.
OMG I WAS SO SAD THAT TIME.
I THOUGHT I ALREADY FAILED. SO LONG WAITED FOR NOTHING.
But that guy ask me to go on..
So I went over that hill and down and stopped the car somewhere..
And when to sign the form.. and on the way to the hill, I prayed and prayed and prayed for a miracle.

AND WHAT DO U KNOW. I ACTUALLY SAW THAT MAN TICKED LULUS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SO KAI. I THINK I FAILED ACTUALLY. WELL I COULDNT REALLY SEE. BUT IT FELT THAT WAY.
I AM SO HAPPY. I BARELY PASSED THAT PART.

Parking.. my favourite. Cause I love to enter tight spaces and the turning and all is fun.

BUT WHAT DO U KNOW? IT WAS MY WORST EVER PARKING. WHY. WHY MUST IT HAPPEN EVERY TIME. IT WAS PERFECT DURING PRACTICE.

This time, my car was far too out parked. I THINK IT WAS RIGHT ON THE WHITE LINE. An officer in charge stopped and checked. With a reluctant face, he asked me to continue and go to the 3 point turn.

AH?! I THOUGHT FAILED MEANS GET OUT? OR ASK ME TO ENTER AGAIN AS IT IS NOT 5 MINS YET?

SO I WENT TO THE 3 POINT TURN AND DID IT PROPERLY. MY CAR HAD A LOUD VROOOOOOOM SOUND THROUGHOUT THE PARKING AND THE 3 POINT TURN BY THE WAY. I DONT KNOW WHY. IT DIDNT HAPPEN DURING PRACTICE.

I think i heard the officers actually saying "aiyoh". I THINK THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT MY CAR!!!

Anyway, I think the loud sound is caused by the aircon. U need to press additional oil and I couldnt release the clutch cause everytime I attempt, the car will jerk like a monkey.

SO I STOPPED MY CAR AFTER THAT SOMEWHERE AND WENT TO SIGN THE FORM.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I SAW LULUS TICKED EVERYWHERE

I CANT BELIEVE IT. THE OFFICERS MUST LIKE ME SOMEHOW. CAN IT BE MY NEW HAIRDO? OR THE PITY MY CUTE FACE.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

IT WAS SO JUST!

and BARELY.

But TO HELL WITH IT.

The fact remains that,

I PASSEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!



HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
The most desperate guy for a license this year HAS FINALLY GOTTEN IT.

I AM SO HARPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!


hHEHEHEHAEHAEHaheheahae
HEHEHAEHAHEA
HOW TO STOP SMILING. TEACH ME PLS.


-alexeO-

My Hair and I

Ladies and gentlemen,
this,



is my hair. (frontview)

and this, ladies and gentlemen,



are my eyes.

I have not had a haircut for a long long time and thus my hair has grown very very long; to the extent of it become sort of an annoyance.



THAT boy right there(yes it's a boy), is me.
As you can cleary see, the long hair in front, clearly 'interacts' with my eyes.

It hurts.

My eyes gets sooo bloody itchy and dry. Thx to my hair.
I realised I can't have long hair. It disturbs my vision and hurts my eyes.
Other ppl especially those from other countries can without a problem. Because their eyes are set deeper in. Unlike mine. :(

I will be going for a haircut soon. I think the haircut will happen the day the next time I wake up. I want a new fresher look actually. Bye style #46 of mine(random).

---

On another note,
I am using a new computer. It's much better compared to my old one anyway. Not new as in new new but just new in a sense that it's newer and it's a replacement for my old one. I'm actually using my dad's one last time(which is better than mine). It's great and all but unfortunately, it's not all perfect. There's something wrong. My computer keeps restarting itself during games. I checked and it says something wrong with the installation of a new hardware/software and they asked me to check. But HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO CHECK when EVERYTHING I installed is new?! Sigh. I guess I gotta call some technicians.

No games till then. :(
Sigh. Why can't I have anything perfect? Why must there be a flaw somewhere everytime.

Why.

-alexeO-

Movies2watch

I'm currently doing nothing whatsoever for my 2 weeks holidays and I have several movies I HAVE to watch by the end of the holidays. I don't care. MUST watch. I'm outdated enough in the movie world already.

1. X-Men 3 : The Last Stand
2. The Da Vinci Code
3. Over The Hedge
4. Poseidon
5. Mission Impossible 3

I've watched MI3 some weeks ago but I'm just putting it there cause it's apparently a big hit in the cinemas and the box office worldwide.

C'mon! Searching for movie kaki(s) thx.


-alexeO-

Update

My instructor just called. I have another driving lesson tomorrow. YAWN. Already so sick of it. I just want to barely pass the test and get over it. I had enough of my inability to 'feel' the car when it is moving slow or know when to change gears. And to start a car from the traffic light. Too stress. Must...get... over it.

I also really really want to watch a movie! So many nice movies out. 2 weeks holidays summore. Weee~

Nothing else to blog about.
2 weeks holidays just enough to get my thoughts straight.

C'mon Alex. I know you can drive better than that. :(
I hope so.


-alexeO-

I see a change in me

Hello world.
I thought about posting this ever since the day first I started blogging and I'm finally doing it now. I will not have as much determination to do this as I don't have the mood to be on a searching frenzy but since I'm free now.. this will probably be just a rough one.. the more detailed one will be for some other time.

Coming back to the topic,
I thought it'll be interesting to note the changes that happened over the years. Yes. In me. :D
Are u excited now?

and of course I'll be taking my best-looking pictures of that time. duh. or some funny ones too.

*warning - picture-filled post*

Well for starters,


there. everyone gets treated to a very cute baby pic of mine. I seriously do NOT remember the year of that photograph.



duno what year. looks older than the baby one so i'm putting it here. so cute~

and then, I grew.

(i don't have a 2001 pic, will try to locate it)

2002. Form 2!:

June


Nov(don't ask)


Dec(hehe)




I realised my face didn't really have a shape.. yea i'm sure it's round and all but it's like I don't really have a feature. I think cartoonist will find it hard to sketch me out cause I looked so messy. -_- I know I wasn't good looking and all but thx for letting me live in denial! weee~ (and don't start the omg alex u were so thin shit, thx)


Now,
2003:





How... horrible!
2003 lagi no shape or feature. ><

But somehow, my class pic that year I looked good man! But why those pics didn't agree. :o I get it now.. I look different at different pics! Yes. that's the reason.


2004:(lazy to upload so there's only one)



Hm. I liked my glasses.
And I looked as gay as hell.


2005:(also happened to be the most eventful year of my life, positively and negatively)

November/December

With a twin-


-and another.



Man. I looked sexy.
Major weight gain however, I realised from my previous years.

Finally, this year,
2006:

This is the most recent pic of mine(at least the one I like anyway)



Ok. you can start the OMG ALEX YOU ARE SO CUTE I LOVE U comments now.
XD

But seriously,
did I change THAT much?

only time will tell.

A more detailed and less-lazy version will be posted. :/

Still as charming as before,
-alexeO-

Nick Lachey - What's Left of Me

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Yeah...

[Chorus]
Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Driving underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place ive never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man i thought i would be:
But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You give me a reason for standing still

[Chorus]

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me: It's all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

[Chorus]

I've been dying inside you see
Im going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?

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:)

-alexeO-

EEAEAETAEYAEAEERE

There. Is. Something. Wrong. With. My. Connection.

I don't know what.
So many sites I can't visit. Those sites which I usually visit everyday.
What's wrong?

I'm so pissed.
Gahhh!

-alexeO-

Mid Year

Doing maths in the MPH is just wrong.
It's the Multi Purpose Hall in Taylor's in case you are wondering.
FREAKING COLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
2 hours in a fridge kills. It freezes whatever I use to think. Maths summore! Can you just imagine. Zzz.

People did warn before but I didn't bother. Well I didn't really feel it anyway until the last 10 minutes. My hands were as cold as ice. Seriously. Not exaggerating. I think I could make a hot milo to a chilly one. (thinks of Iceman from X-Men. Gaya!)

2 more days. Tomorrow worst day. Specialist Mathematics followed by IT Studies.
I seriously don't know what I'm gonna do for Specialist Mathematics. On the verge of giving up.. I don't know how am I gonna face it for the rest of the year. Thank god for 2 weeks holidays next week! Considering consulting a counsellor about the problem. :S I thought I had managed to pick myself up in that subject.. but after trying the past year papers for the Mid Year.. Lost all hope again. Zzz.

Thus, gonna concentrate more on IT Studies I guess. At least more hope of scoring.
See how. Very tired now anywayz.

Learnt a new thing today. Never skip questions for college maths! You may think you will have time to go back but nooooooooooooooooo.. you won't. After skipping a particular question, it's like kissing that question goodbye as you won't be seeing it again until it's marked. So I basically skipped some do-able questions and oh wellz. We'll see what happens.

End Update.


-alexeO-

My life so far

What happens when it's 4:30am, got no one to talk to online, all sites have been surfed at least 3 times for the past few hours, and revising your work leaves you more frustrated at the end of the day?

You blog.

And so my boredom and un-willingness to sleep started.
My original objective was to revise my work until the early hours of the morning then getting my sleep after that, but I guess I've got to put on hold what I planned to do.

It's not as easy as it seems.

And so I began surfing Friendster randomly in hopes to find something or someone interesting that will occupy me for the next half an hour or so, and what I did came across strangely didn't leave me satisfied I thought I would be.

I came across an old friend of mine profile which left my school quite some time ago but we still managed to keep in touch somehow..
It wasn't until just now when I realised how unfairly I had treated her(yes, it is a her) last time.

All those while, I had this thought on my mind of me being the superior one. I thought I was the guy everyone loved and everyone just wanted to be in line to get my approval for a friendship. My ego-istic, self-centred self did not feel as if I was having any troubles with finding friends at all, no.

It's not like I was boasting around telling people around how many friends I had and how many people loved me. I wasn't also telling aloud I was very likable and people cannot get enough of me. But those assumptions were INDEED in my mind. And thinking about it is bad enough.

However, I am still not denying that I treat many people very nice and also am not denying that what I do everyday is genuine and sincere. Throughout my life in school, I had been criticised and accused of 'faking' my actions each day but the only thing I faked was acting friendly in front of those accusers. I was nicknamed bubbly, happy-go-lucky and most often people describe me as fun to be with and simply cheerful. Hey I'm not stating all those because I'm letting them get to my head because that is definitely not my intention in this post.

My intentions are, I want to clear it up once and for all that for one, I was genuine in what I do each day and how I may react to certain situations.
And secondly, however much people may have a positive impression of me, I thought far too highly.

Yes, positive impression.. but must that mean they must like me?

Most definitely not.

And so the conflict began, when my thoughts of everyone MUST somehow like me in a way came crumbling down.

Which was actually triggered from me surfing the friendster's profile.
I searched through her photos she posted and all I saw was her smiling and doing funny poses with her new-found friends at college. She even had plenty of pictures of friends from her school she went to after mine. I remembered just a few months back, she had a pic of me and another classmate of mine and she caption-ed it as "Old friends from SSC" But today, the pic is non-existent.

It then shook me. I had treated her unfairly, not giving her the attention she gave me and not caring for her as sincerely as she cared for me. All because I thought she just wanted my friendship for the sake of it. And then thoughts of her spending time with me just flashed before my eyes. Yes. She did care. But I didn't. Not as much anyway.

I didn't appreciate her friendship and hence she has moved on with her life and has left me behind regretting what I did in the past.

I don't blame her.
It was not worth waiting for me anyway.

Which leaves me very confuse in a way actually. At the same time, I'm afraid some friends I had or currently have are just using me in a way. Because I certainly suspect a few but hey, who am I to judge right?

I just want to apologize to the friend of mine who has gone many steps ahead eventhough it's far too late now. It's highly doubtful she will read this but at least I said it. You've made a good decision. Thx for giving me the wake up call.

My Mid-Year Examinations this whole week.
Weee.
After that 2 weeks holidays. 3 days of exams= 14++ days of holidays!
That'll be exciting.
It actually acts as some sort of a motivation that I shud work now and rest like mad later but somehow attempting to study is tough.
Hey I tried okay? I started ATTEMPTING some Specialist Mathematics question and realised that was a terrible decision. Me not being able to solve MOST(almost all) of the questions just made me super frustrated. Sigh.
I dunno man. I thought I was actually heading in the right track until the past year questions for the Mid Year came. So hard. HOW AM I GONNA GO THROUGH SPEC MATHS!!

AIHHH.
Maybe I shouldn't had started with it. Spoilt my mood only.
Tomorrow hardcore Mathematical Studies. Ok. Not that hardcore since I'll probably wake up at 5pm or so. But still must stardeeeee!

must must must!

:o


-alexeO-

Arsenal Arsenal

Just, I took a cab home from Taylor's College at around 3pm after my class.
I was abit hesitant at first to enter the cab but I just had to go home as Chrisanne told me she was going to gome home at 7.30pm today for some studying at the library.

So anyway, I assumed the price I need to pay for a trip from Subang Jaya to Shah Alam is around RM20 because that was what I paid the last time I took a cab from Subang Parade to my house. But I don't even know if I was cheated that time. And I'm not even sure if I was cheated just now.

So when I opened the door asked if he could get me to my house, he asked me for a rate. "Biasanya bayar berapa?"

I gave a ?_? face and started thinking.
Damn. How much should I say. If I said RM20 will I be cheated twice?! I don't know cab rates these days. I don't use em. How much how much.

So I just tried my luck and said,
"Kira-kira 15 ke 20 ringgit macam tu la"

Then he said, "Beri rate la, senang sikit"

Me : Oh er... RM15 la.

He just showed a slightly annoyed look and agreed to take me. Like it's too cheap or something. But he may be acting so I wouldn't know.

Oh well. If anyone somehow DO know the taxi rates from SJ to SA, pls let me know. Thx. So I won't feel like I'm being cheated anymore.

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Looking at the topic of this post simply sums what I was going to post about.
It's the long-awaited classic. The game which promised to be the most exciting game ever played in a CL finals. The game of all games. Yeah, I'm talking about the Champions League Finals showdown between Arsenal and Barcelona.

U see. I was an Arsenal fan ever since few years back and I became more and more passionate for 'my' club as the years went by. I was obviously upset they didn't do well in the Premier League this season but on the other hand, the Champions League glory became possible.
I wasn't very excited bout the finals until a few hours before the match as I read the write-ups to the match online and newspaper articles which triggered the hype.

I would imagine being extremely happy to see Henry lifting the cup and the confetti raining down in full glory.
So I stayed up and watch. I had to.

But what happened to the so-called 'promised-to-be-a-classic' game?

At the 18th minute, Lehmann whose form has been fantastic this season especially in the Champions League, got sent off.
I looked and was shocked to my guts.
The dark clouds just overshadowed me at that very moment. And my hopes of seeing Arsenal in Champions League glory came crashing down in front of my very eyes.

Arsene Wenger has tried so hard. Arsenal has gone so far. Everyone has spoken so much.
But it was unavoidable now. Defeat I meant.

Pires got taken off. Almunia replaced as goalie.

I was almost proven to be wrong when Sol Campbell headed the ball into the opponent's net.
1-0 to Arsenal.
Scored with 10 men.
I couldn't contain my excitement and I started messaging the people I know who was interested.

Scored with 10 men. Wow. Arsenal. Truly magnificient. 10 men against the Spanish Champions and scored. Just wow.

The commentators seemed to agree with my viewpoint.
They seemed pissed, annoyed and frustrated with the referee.
Henry and many other Arsenal players got yellow carded with their 'hard' tackles. All Henry did was initialising a fantastic tackle. But he got yellowcarded.
Barca players came tackling late from the back. Many times. Yellow card offences for sure. But all the referee did was to give the free kick in Arsenal's favour.

Halftime came and I managed to take a breather. 10 men. What can Arsenal do.
I didn't write them off just yet. There is still a chance. A small glimpse of hope remains glowing in the dark.

Barca pushed like mad in the 2nd half. As expected.
All Arsenal did was defend. But they even managed to almost scored some as well with great runs from Fabregas, Ljungberg and Henry. But with 10 men, it is simply too tiring. They either lose their footings after a while or concentration on attack cannot be of 100% as they are afraid of the counter attack.

At the 79th minute, Barca equalised. They looked like scoring ever since Lehmann got sent off. With that goal, the 16 hour record mark Arsenal not conceding a goal came to an end. I was not upset with the way Arsenal conceded the goal. 10 men against Barca. Too big of an advantage to give I'm afraid. Eto was fantastic too I admit.
Then came the moment where my prayers all ended.
Barca scored a 2nd just 2 mins after they scored the first.
End of the match. Fullstop.

It was a climax-less CL Finals with at least one of the teams not to its full potential obviously. Lehmann who had a record of 100% saves in the CL would be the difference in this match. If it was 11vs11 with the on form goalkeeper still, I believe Arsenal had a chance to score even more. They looked great. Very focused until the sent off. Heck, they even had a chance at the 2nd minute. From that 2nd minute, I became more confident. All until the nightmare 18th minute.

Pires will have something to prove as he may be leaving to Spain next season. Arsenal were just great last night I thought. Even with 10 men. They defended extremely well and even had many, many opportunies to score considering their 10 men status.

Alot of ppl will come and tell me, "well they lost, get over it"
But I can't.
If Arsenal did lose with the fairest of referees and the best of the teams,
I would not be that disturbed.
But it obviously didn't happen. The game which was hyped up weeks and weeks by the media and the people around was simply destroyed by the red card decision.
It's just very unfortunate that we will not know if the truly best team had won.

And don't come telling me the game will end up the same even with 11vs11. Because it's not true. I believe people who start laughing at Arsenal now would be the people who didn't watch the match. The climax-less, one-sided CL Finals. 10 players having to work the work of 11 was simply too much especially against a quality side from Barca.

I repeat, it is just very unfortunate that no one will know if the best team had won.
It started off with what it promised but the game ended at the 18th minute. That was how I see it.

All that being said, I have to give credit to Barca. I believe Ronaldinho proved why he was the World Player of The Year with his fantastic dribbles and sight for goal. He was just simply too hard to tackle 1on1. I thought Eto was their best with his never-ending commitment and his skills were just electrifying. I like that man. I thought he was very professional too with the way he played the game.

Now the speculations will begin regarding the future of Thierry Henry.
I hope he stays, of course.. but it will only depend on what he sees in Arsenal comparatively to the team he saw at Barca. If I were him, I will definitely see that Arsenal simply had as much or maybe more quality to the spanish team that night.
With Henry already claiming that London was his one true home, I hope that even if he leaves, it wouldn't be the reason of seeing that Arsenal cannot match his ambitions.

Because I honestly felt they certainly did early this morning in Paris.
At the very, 'interesting' CL finals.
Arsenal to the end.

-alexeO-