Hah.

For the first time in a long time, I'm actually feeling tired. As in the need to sleep. At 12:30AM.

This can only be a good sign as I have been sleeping at sunrise for the past week or so. Speaking of which, my holidays have ended.

Fall's here in America and that can only mean (besides dry leaves falling down from their branches) that network TV Series are back in either their new seasons or premiers.

If anyone is interested to dload them as well so that we can have something to discuss on, *wink wink*, I'm currently catching.. Heroes S2, Grey's Anatomy S4, Private Practice S1.

I'm still thinking if I would want to catch Bionic Woman S1 (sounds damn corny), Ghost Whisperer S3, and House S4 cause I don't really catch House religiously anyway.

Ok after stating that much of things which nobody really cares about, I would like to talk about my assignments again. Stop moaning you over there.

I have one big major assignment left for my television studies unit, a visual test for that same unit, a presentation for my contemporary worlds unit, all due this coming week. I feel bad for my fellow presentation group mates cause I don't think I can fulfill my promise of having everything completed by Monday (presentation's on Wednesday). But what the heck rite? They will know me soon enough. Hahaha. By the same time next week, I can finally begin to relax thinking that I have one final FEATURE WRITING assignment to go which is due on the final(i think) week of the semester. But that should be interesting so that's fine.

I summed that up in one whole paragraph so you don't have to read it if you don't want to. But if you already did, then that's just too bad.

I feel like going for a medical checkup soon. Like a blood test thingy. I heard you can know alot of stuff from your blood alone. That should be good. I feel sickly. If anyone knows anything about blood checkups, pls do share.

verysleepyandtired.

tq.



-alexeO-

Apologize



Timbaland


+



One Republic

=



Apologize


The most awesome music video there is. The song itself is already awesome dreamy mystique-like but the video makes it 3X better. Watch.



p/s: it is NOT their official video, YET. it is made by a random but is already viewed by over 2 million on YouTube. However, according to the guy who made it, the 'manager' will view the video soon to consider.


p/p/s: yes, richmond intro-ed to me the song (in case he thinks I'm not giving him enough credit). But the key here is the video anyway. superbly artistic.


p/p/p/s: and once again, because I like sharing good things with my friends. :)




-alexeO-

Annoying

I hate this. As I was doing my assignment, researching, not writing just yet, attempting to read through wordy texts and articles to find points suitable for my question of choice, I got stuck.

And after looking at the question again, the question suddenly looked so... 'undo-able'

And then after wasting those many precious hours of researching, and reading and understanding, I thought better and decided to change question.

This sucks.

University assignments suck. I want someone to shove a guideline at my face with questions to be answered and then I answer all those questions in essay form then I get my essay done.

But no. All I get is one big vague ambiguous arguable debatable question and there. Go do your research and give me your answer in thousand over words.

*pissed*

and i am not even sure if I am gonna stick to this 'new' question I selected.



-alexeO-

Communications at a whole new level




Because Messenger is no longer only limited to text.


everyone is sick to see this but once again, i'm occupied with assignments. and thus, i'm not in a very pleasant mood. please no more procrastination alex.


***

update



Just clearing some things up in case the 'whole world' misunderstands. She was NOT.

***

-alexeO-

Pretty looking people everywhere

Girls in big flair colorful dresses, men's hair carefully styled and looking smart, jittery couples on their first dates, nervous performers before the big showdown, camera flashes all around the hall, a classy affair.

The Monash Ball is proceeding now as I type this.

this post speaks for itself.



-alexeO-

Longest week, ever

This is turning out to be by far the longest week ever for me.

On tuesday, it felt like friday, on wednesday, it felt like sunday, and on thursday, it felt like a new week.

It was seriously, THAT long.

One of the reasons behind that could be the fact that I'm absolutely dreading the piles of workload I need to do and that I simply cannot wait for this week to be over.

I will be having my holidays next week. I wanted to finish all my assignments before my holidays. So I can just rot at home for a week.

But I guess that will not be happening anymore.

And after all that, it's only Friday today. And I still have assignments due.

Sigh. If only I had more practice in school.

Kids, please do your homework. Or you may just end up like me.



-alexeO-

Pissed. With a capital P.

I am appalled. Seriously. I may even barf.

I just found out MINUTES ago that Astro will not be showing the Arsenal-Sevilla match which will take place in approximately 2-3 hours time from now.

So what will they show?

Boring ol' struggling Man Utd against a reasonably 'lesser' side known as Sporting Lisbon.

and Barcelona vs Lyon whose fanbase may be questionable over here in Asia.

Like what the heck?

I have been reading pre-match buildups to the match in forums and soccer sites and almost everyone all over the world is anticipating the Arsenal-Sevilla encounter! Closely followed by the Barca-Lyon match.

Argh. I'm so freaking pissed I am struggling to find words to explain my inner emotions.

I think I know. Freaking ESPN-Star Sports producers are biased people. I can imagine the very scene right now.

Mr.Producer#1 looks at the list of fixture briefly and then asks, despite quite reluctantly, "Eh, what match should we show ah this week?", all while stroking his coffee mug with a huge Manchester United emblem printed on it.

Mr.Producer#2 stares at Mr.Producer#1 in somewhat disbelief and replied, "U say leh?" His prompt reply was closely followed by the shifting of his attention towards his computer screen which not long later, pops out a website displaying the latest Manchester United football team news.

Mr.Producer#1, the more PRACTICAL of the two, was deep in thought for a few seconds before he finally voiced out, "Barca and Lyon I think we show la, since it's arguably the best match of the day, and afterall, we don't show much European football besides the usual EPL on our channels anyway."

Mr.Producer#2, with a growing annoyed smirk displaying on his face, nodded slowly.

"Arsenal-Sevilla should be a very good match...," whispers Mr.Producer#1 in a voice barely audible.

Mr.Producer#2, now visibly irritated, pretended he didn't hear Mr.Producer#1 and then said ,"wah, Rooney may be coming back oh"

Mr.Producer#1 is now in a slight dilemma. Should he jump on the bandwagon and be a streotypical MU fan? Biased in every aspect and thinking they're superior without any valid reasonings?

At that very moment, Big Boss walks in the room, his motions indicated he was frantically searching for something which was clearly lost.

"Eh big boss, you come here right time la. This week hor.. got Arsenal-Sevilla playing... good match."

Big Boss continued his search and irritatedly replied ,"oh, izzit? good la show that then."

"But Man Utd also playing wor...." the indecisive Mr.Producer#1 said.

"Is it? Then you say leh? Need to think meh? of course show them la!" said the Big Boss, sounding more irritated this time. "Ah! there it is."

Mr. Producer#1 incidentally caught Mr.Producer#2's evil-looking smirk before noting down the decision given by the Big Boss himself. And at that very moment, the Big Boss stuffed what appeared to be previously lost into his pocket, leaving no trail whatsoever on the Manchester United keychain he bought during his last trip to Manchester, England.



manure.


*

update: Arsenal 3 - 0 Sevilla FT. nuff' said.

*



-alexeO-

I can never be satisfied

After finishing my 2k word assignment, despite rather much damages to my brain and confusion to what I was writing, I started looking at how much it sucked. The assignment I mean, not the process.

You see, my point is, I can never be satisfied.

I can never lie down on a couch comfortably thinking that I can relax now that I completed my work. When I was halfway doing the assignment, all I thought about was how much I wanted it to end regardless of whether it sucks or not.

And now, I unsatisfying-ly am looking at how bad of a job I've done.

From being "out-of-the-topic" to feeling miserable about how little sources I have compared to my other coursemates, this tinge of regret will live on and on.

And after I get back my assignment, marked, I'll look at how much better I could have done if I had started earlier or had more initiative to research or understand the topic further.

And now,

I'm looking at how my INTRODUCTION is looking as if it doesn't belong there. It may be out of topic.

***

The 21st century is a century which marks the most significant of rapid development changes and the scale of this technological advancement is one to behold. Over the past few years itself, there have been a tremendous increase in the advancement of technologies which has naturally prompted many academic studies on the effect this ‘transformation’ may have brought to the world.

***

My references are mostly written in the 20TH century. And the examples I used, the television and the telephone, are NOT marvels of the 21st century. They exist before then.



Alex, you're an idiot.



-alexeO-

Random facts about me

My ideal world would have everyone being sincere at every single thing they do, be it greeting, assisting, or conversing

I would like everyone to open up, be themselves to me

I stutter more than usual when I talk to 'ang mohs'

I'm shy in front of newly met people

I think too much, sometimes. No, make that most of the time

I have an assignment due very soon, and I am struggling once again to do it. Make that a few assignments

I really shouldn't be typing here.

goodbye.




-alexeO-

I am superman

*post deleted as post is written due to a momentary lapse of happiness and satiscation leading to extremely stupid expressive emotions which means really nothing at all.


p.s: btw, i've finished my long long overdue assignment. haha. 3 more to come next week. gg me.

-alexeO-

Argh

I'm at the Monash library now.

It's 12:15pm.

There's a reason why I'm here when my 'supposed' 2-hr class was to be at 11am.

Don't know what happened but all I know is I arrived in campus only at 12pm. No thanks to stupid carpark which was full and was stubbornly not issuing anymore parking tickets.

I'm so pissed at myself!!

This was a self-replacement class I allocated for myself as I missed the one yesterday.

And now I missed the replacement. -_-

And the worst thing is, I wanted to see how the other groups do their group presentations, and handle the Q&A sessions, but now I do not know. So slight disadvantage there.

And not forgetting no more 100% attendance. And not forgetting missing the very same subject which I did very badly for one assignment.

So now I missed class, am here doing nothing at all, next class a long 3-hour away, need to complete an assignment by tomorrow, can't do that assignment because I don't have the stuff, and people around me here are probably pointing at me and chuckling at this very moment because I'm blogging at the library.


-_-


What an extremely sucky period for me.

I'm missing classes, and doing badly in my assignments.
And to think that I have 3 huge MAJOR assignments back-to-back next week. *_* This semester is turning out to be a nightmare. I miss my smooth-flowing first semester.

I can't wait for November to come, the much needed long long break. :(

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.




-alexeO-

=(

I normally get my alarm from my handphone to wake me up for classes especially during the morning sessions.

Unfortunately, no matter how much I searched and looked, I couldn't find my handphone last night (i only realised the next day that I left my handphone in my car). So I trusted my trusty alarm#2 i.e, my Arsenal table clock, to do the waking up job for me.

Alarm#2 did a reasonably good job waking me up at 9.30am the next day for my 11am lecture. It's just unfortunate that Alarm#2 does not have a 'snooze' button. So I had to manually switch off the alarm and depend on my own willpower and strength to pull myself out of my bed after the '5 more minutes of sleep' everyone seeks when they attempt to wake up.

I failed miserably.

The next time I opened my eyes, my Arsenal alarm clock showed 10.55am. 5 more minutes to class. And I was still lying sleepily on my bed.

"Bah, heck it la," I thought. "Just another long-winded lecture on globalisation."

So I slept, with the pleasing thought that my next class, which was a tutorial, will only be at 3pm.. meaning another extra 3 hours or so of sleep.

Something which I don't remember what woke me up a while later which prompted me to lazily look at my Arsenal alarm clock for the time.

1.05pm.

Great. One more hour. Should be sufficient to give me a nice long rest. And then I dozed off once again.

Something else made me wake up later. I was not sure what it was. But all I thought was, "wow. glad I had that extra hour. I feel so much less sleepy now somehow."

Then I stared to the windows outside and thought of how cloudy the day looked today.

I then searched for the Arsenal alarm clock I left aside to get the time.

"1.05pm"

Hmm. Strange. Wasn't it 1.05pm the last time I woke up?

And then to my horror, I saw the minutes hand of the clock moving forward and backwards in successive motion.

My alarm clock ran out of battery.


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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.


I prayed to the heavens(for the first time) and hoped that it was somehow still 2pm or so and the alarm clock simply 'ran out of battery' not long after I dozed off. The first clock I saw outside my room showed "9.30". WTF!!%$#@!%!# DOESNT ANY CLOCK WORK AROUND HERE.

I went to a family member's room and started shrieking silently to myself when I saw the time displayed on the working clock.

5.00pm.

T_T

Because I felt so bad, because I felt like I've wasted my day, because I felt like oversleeping a 3pm class is very irresponsible of me, and because I know that my tutor would be returning my first assignment today..

.. I made my way to uni at 5.30pm. After i got ready.

And after surviving through a mini-jam to uni, I walked to my tutor's office hoping he was still there. I knew chances were low cause it was after-work time but I didn't care. I felt so angry with myself I had to make myself travel the extra journey and pay the extra effort for something I was not sure was even there.

And so it turned out he WAS indeed still there, on his mobile phone, as I peeked into his office. He saw me peeking and prompted me to enter.

I told him I would be attending tomorrow's tutorial cause I missed today's and asked for my assignment.

His reply shattered the already 'broken' me.

"You didn't do very well."

"I was hoping more from you, Alex."

His words weren't as hurtful as the self-realization of my results as I flipped the pages.

I cannot remember clearly what he said after that but it was something along the lines of he thinks I am a potential High D scorer as I was with him for one semester and I clearly disappointed him or something like that.

I routinely told him I would try to work harder for my upcoming assignments but he just shrugged and said 'you better' or something like that.

The thing is, how would he know, right? I mean he himself said ONE semester. one FREAKING semester. And maybe it was all fluke, I duno.

Aih. But the fact which remains is, I still sucked at that assignment. And it hurt real, real badly. And the worst thing is? He's the same lecturer/tutor I have with my feature writing unit too, which I have an assignment long overdue.

So one semester of good impression gone with the wind I guess. Just like that.

I posted last time on how a bad result may be able to pick me up again and trigger me to work harder.

And so I got the apparent 'trigger-er' already.

Has the apparent 'determination' arrive yet?


Iono. =(


-alexeO-

What happened to me.

Perhaps it wasn't such a good thing that I achieved reasonably good grades for my first semester.

One of the things which keep me working hard for my assignments and exams is the satisfaction of giving a good impression to my lecturers/tutors. Don't ask me why. I just seem to have this tendency of sucking up to my lecturers instilled in me.

And because I have already seemingly done that for my first semester, I have lost all passion and determination to do well for my work presently.

I thought about this once and I realised that the reasonably good grades I achieved in my first semester isn't really all fluke and luck (or the fact that my course is 'easy'). The more I think of it, the more I think of the surprising amount of effort I actually allocated on my work. I actually WORKED for it. I actually remember for my major assignment of me having borrowed piles and piles of books from the library for research purposes. And for my finals, I actually had the initiative to write a book full of notes for a unit I took, and even participated in a study group.

I worked so freaking hard.

But now, I cannot. I don't know why.

I simply cannot produce the very same determination I had. Maybe this 'determination' would come back if my results start dropping real badly. But do I really need that to happen before I could stand up on my feet and drive myself forward again? Sigh.

Stupid rant.

A friend told me once to get a hobby. Good idea, as I thought it could distract me from thinking too much about things not worth thinking about.

Or perhaps I just need someone's shoulder to cry on. Or a hand to pull me up and proceed forward into the path ahead.

It's always the want to obtain something I don't have, isn't it?



I think I know what's wrong with me.


I'm deprived from all things which matters.


Or at least I think I am.


nature photographer alexeo(random)

greatest timewaster ever existed
-alexeO-

Randomnya

Today Monash University, Sunway campus had their official opening/launch/whatever.

Many big big shots were present. O_O

biggest of them all is of course our very own DPM, Najib. And got some other ministers too la. Like Samy Vellu( duno wat's he doing there also. no one acknowledged his presence funnily enough). And of course the people from Monash Australia and the Aussie high commissioners.

Anyway, thanks to those big big shots..

Students like me, the apparent 'leaders of the future', who got classes in the afternoon, have to park far far away from our usually already congested carpark! They closed about 200 parking lots to freaking welcome the DPM who wasn't even looking that all interested in the event! (i know, coz i was in a room allocated for students and staffs to view the entire event 'live')

So anyway, I had to drive all the way deep into some construction area, full of mud. My car damn freaking dirty because of that. And it was some distance to walk too!! *angree*

The only thing nice about the opening ceremony was the monash intro video which i am proudly part of!

HAHAHA! they promised the students who got involved a copy of the video, and the first thing i'm gonna do with the copy is to upload it to youtube so people can hear my voice in its full glory! *Beams* HAHAHAHA.

Actually it was nothing much la. I only had 3 words. no face summore. just a voice-over. HAHAHA! :D

Okla. Nothing to say liau. Just wanted to share my frustration that I had to walk far far over muddy grounds just to get to my university just cause the university people want to 'wipe' some 'shoes'. *pissed*

And also,

hotdogs, are NOT a 'tapau'-friendly item. So don't ever attempt to bungkus balik unless you want to get yourself all dirty! I learned that the hard way. T_T

*5 bucks wasted* but screw it la. still ate it anyway. :|




assignment still not completed.
-alexeO-

Sigh

I think i'll make a very bad journalist. So that's one option out of the window.

The reason?

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Deadlines.

I simply cannot meet deadlines.

If I really do find work as a journalist in the future when I enter the workforce, I bet i'll be sacked within a week. 2 weeks tops.

But probably not la. Since my life and money all depended on it and all... so should have more initiative to work... oh, whatever. :/

Sigh.

Another deadline not met for my writing assignment. what is freaking wrong with me? :(




-alexeO-

Jens Lehmann, Arsenal keeper

Inconsistent, but at times, saves Arsenal with some out-of-this-world saves.

Have to mention that he has somewhat a temper too. ;)


Game: Arsenal vs Bolton (11/2/06)

the pundits were funny lol.


-alexeO-