This week definitely isn't getting my life back on track week. Next week probably wouldn't be hardcore studying week.
If they have to be something-something week then they have to be crumpled shirts week.
This is what happens when you do not have an iron at home and you are too lazy/have no time to immediately fold and hang your clothes right after you take them out from the dryer. Learn it from me kids. If you don't want your friends to stare and point and scoff at you when you are not looking, or worst, when you are, either get a freaking iron or arrange your clothes immediately. (Or you could also put on a jacket and zip it up high for the next 2 weeks but that's not the point)
Now there's a huge pile of clothes half in the basket, half on my bed, some spilling/or have spilled to the ground, littered all over my room. Getting my life back on track alright. And this week has also been weird nap times week. GETTING MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK ALRIGHT ALEXYEO.
I have 3 tests next week which I was supposed to spend this whole week preparing for but I have not. This weekend seems occupied from a glance but I must somehow squeeze studying in. After this week I will be free for 3 weeks before one paper then I'll have another fun-filled, Gold Coast, clubbing, chilling with friends bound 3 weeks break before the next semester which also happens to be my final one. HAHAHAHA EXCITED!
Had my last class today minus the tests next week. 5 bucks I got zero for participation marks for 4 out of 4 of my subjects this semester.
Wuhoo!
Just felt like saying that.
-alexeO-
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
O.o
The strangest thing just happened.
So I have a class today at 10AM right, but it was only 9pm the night before and I was already feeling incredibly sleepy.
So I set my alarm at 12am thinking that I would take a 3-hour nap then wake up for a couple of more hours before finally going back to sleep for the class at 10.
At 10PM I woke up, feeling quite refreshed and quite confused on how it could only be one hour because it certainly felt like I dreamed so much and took a much longer sleep but I psycho-ed myself then that since it was only an hour I still had some time to spare so I closed my eyes and continued my nap. It must be also then that I resetted my alarm to 1AM.
Many many dreams later, the sleep was DEEP I promise you, I groggily opened my eyes to check the time.
12:45.
Oh SHIT MY 10AM CLASS!
I literally felt like shit because I made an oath this week to attend every class because they're the last before my tests and I was already thinking at that time of the amount I've missed and the possible 'tips' I did not get to hear. =(
While scolding myself, I kept calculating the hours I've slept and how I've managed to sleep for 15 hours.
The sleep felt long, but in a way also, not THAT long??
I looked at the tiny little alarm clock logo at the top right of my phone. It was still there.
Could I have resetted it to 1PM instead when I was half asleep?
But I rechecked and it stated 1AM. ;O. I went to check the AM/PM and what do you know. It was 12 hours before the time I thought it was. ;O
It was damn strange because it was in reality only 3-4 hours but the sleep felt damn seriously long.
It didn't feel 15 HOURS long but definitely closer to that than 3-4 hours..
I remember at that time of ranting to myself how I've missed the last lecture of the semester for that subject, I was thinking the things I would have done differently if I could turn back time and how it's all too late now..
So the actual realization that I wasn't 'late' for my class felt pretty damn good.
After all these, I better not oversleep my 'second' sleep for the night. =S
*
I've a presentation on wednesday shit. Abit nervous but still managing to keep it under control.
My first time to a class of ang mohs. Ahh abit intimidating but I'll take comfort in the fact that they wouldn't expect any more from me anyway heheh.
Bai.
-alexeO-
So I have a class today at 10AM right, but it was only 9pm the night before and I was already feeling incredibly sleepy.
So I set my alarm at 12am thinking that I would take a 3-hour nap then wake up for a couple of more hours before finally going back to sleep for the class at 10.
At 10PM I woke up, feeling quite refreshed and quite confused on how it could only be one hour because it certainly felt like I dreamed so much and took a much longer sleep but I psycho-ed myself then that since it was only an hour I still had some time to spare so I closed my eyes and continued my nap. It must be also then that I resetted my alarm to 1AM.
Many many dreams later, the sleep was DEEP I promise you, I groggily opened my eyes to check the time.
12:45.
Oh SHIT MY 10AM CLASS!
I literally felt like shit because I made an oath this week to attend every class because they're the last before my tests and I was already thinking at that time of the amount I've missed and the possible 'tips' I did not get to hear. =(
While scolding myself, I kept calculating the hours I've slept and how I've managed to sleep for 15 hours.
The sleep felt long, but in a way also, not THAT long??
I looked at the tiny little alarm clock logo at the top right of my phone. It was still there.
Could I have resetted it to 1PM instead when I was half asleep?
But I rechecked and it stated 1AM. ;O. I went to check the AM/PM and what do you know. It was 12 hours before the time I thought it was. ;O
It was damn strange because it was in reality only 3-4 hours but the sleep felt damn seriously long.
It didn't feel 15 HOURS long but definitely closer to that than 3-4 hours..
I remember at that time of ranting to myself how I've missed the last lecture of the semester for that subject, I was thinking the things I would have done differently if I could turn back time and how it's all too late now..
So the actual realization that I wasn't 'late' for my class felt pretty damn good.
After all these, I better not oversleep my 'second' sleep for the night. =S
*
I've a presentation on wednesday shit. Abit nervous but still managing to keep it under control.
My first time to a class of ang mohs. Ahh abit intimidating but I'll take comfort in the fact that they wouldn't expect any more from me anyway heheh.
Bai.
-alexeO-
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Second last week of the semester before my double holiday, coming right up
The past week was officially gluttony week.
The upcoming week will hopefully be getting my life back on track week.
The following week will have to be hardcore study mode week.
Having the two coming weeks back-to-back will be tough to the 'getting my life back on track' part but I will try. If not, then I'll just have that week this week as planned, and then postpone the life back on track thing to the week after that no problemo. Skip one week no biggie. Hehe.
random post divider
How do you stop disliking someone you just cannot dislike due to certain circumstances? It's eating me up insideeeeeee.
Maybe the person should stop acting like the bitch s/he is then all this would become unnecessary.
I am NOT a hater.
At least not anymore..
seriously.
but you can't help it if some people just never learn/change/mature/wisened-up. Unlike me. Hehe.
I sound as though I'm speaking from a better-than-thou position and it'll be really annoying if I read someone talking like that but trust me I'm not. In fact I almost always give people a benefit of a doubt and do not judge that early (at least not anymore i promise you) but there comes a time when you know when too much's too much and that you are right.
Ok time to sleep. Had damn good pork ribs today with damn good sauce. Hah beat that suckers.
And stop trying to guess who that person is.
Good night/morning.
-alexeO-
The upcoming week will hopefully be getting my life back on track week.
The following week will have to be hardcore study mode week.
Having the two coming weeks back-to-back will be tough to the 'getting my life back on track' part but I will try. If not, then I'll just have that week this week as planned, and then postpone the life back on track thing to the week after that no problemo. Skip one week no biggie. Hehe.
random post divider
How do you stop disliking someone you just cannot dislike due to certain circumstances? It's eating me up insideeeeeee.
Maybe the person should stop acting like the bitch s/he is then all this would become unnecessary.
I am NOT a hater.
At least not anymore..
seriously.
but you can't help it if some people just never learn/change/mature/wisened-up. Unlike me. Hehe.
I sound as though I'm speaking from a better-than-thou position and it'll be really annoying if I read someone talking like that but trust me I'm not. In fact I almost always give people a benefit of a doubt and do not judge that early (at least not anymore i promise you) but there comes a time when you know when too much's too much and that you are right.
Ok time to sleep. Had damn good pork ribs today with damn good sauce. Hah beat that suckers.
And stop trying to guess who that person is.
Good night/morning.
-alexeO-
Saturday, May 23, 2009
My First Time
.. at a rave.
1) Big burly white men. Many big burly white men.
2) .. with cool trademark dance. Fun to imitate.
3) Very dirty floor. At one point I couldn't dance properly because whenever I raised my right foot, it needed to get past the stickiness first. Kept swiping random 'debris' off the sole of my shoe.
4) RnB dance steps don't work.
5) Beer + Trance + Laser = Heaven
6) Situation which I kinda expected before going kinda happened. People getting excited over something which I have no idea on.
7) Luckily my little homework helped. The best parts were listening to the songs I became familiar with over the course of the past few weeks.
8) The bunch of us squeezed in the highest podium towards the end and I liked that. Great view, and just us. Actually it wasn't a 'podium' podium. It was more like a 'cage' thing for the go-go dancers. ;O
9) Started off slow, maybe I was too sober, maybe I didn't know what was going on, but adapted nicely somewhere in the middle. ;)
10) Completely exhausted with an hour or so to go, lack of sleep the night before, and standing for that many hours isn't exactly relaxing. But "Who Will Find Me" woke me up.
11) Ears ringing post-rave.
12) Hopefully the next time I will be more familiar with the tracks!
13) Cannot walk properly now because sole of feet hurts. =<
Sunrise now. Gdnight.
-alexeO-
1) Big burly white men. Many big burly white men.
2) .. with cool trademark dance. Fun to imitate.
3) Very dirty floor. At one point I couldn't dance properly because whenever I raised my right foot, it needed to get past the stickiness first. Kept swiping random 'debris' off the sole of my shoe.
4) RnB dance steps don't work.
5) Beer + Trance + Laser = Heaven
6) Situation which I kinda expected before going kinda happened. People getting excited over something which I have no idea on.
7) Luckily my little homework helped. The best parts were listening to the songs I became familiar with over the course of the past few weeks.
8) The bunch of us squeezed in the highest podium towards the end and I liked that. Great view, and just us. Actually it wasn't a 'podium' podium. It was more like a 'cage' thing for the go-go dancers. ;O
9) Started off slow, maybe I was too sober, maybe I didn't know what was going on, but adapted nicely somewhere in the middle. ;)
10) Completely exhausted with an hour or so to go, lack of sleep the night before, and standing for that many hours isn't exactly relaxing. But "Who Will Find Me" woke me up.
11) Ears ringing post-rave.
12) Hopefully the next time I will be more familiar with the tracks!
13) Cannot walk properly now because sole of feet hurts. =<
Sunrise now. Gdnight.
-alexeO-
Monday, May 18, 2009
Ova!
Sidenote: I think I'm a superhuman.
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Mizan inspired me to do this so here's a belated birthday post to guy with his eyes closed.
Happy 21st, Kelvin Pui. Hopefully this wouldn't be the last time I'm celebrating your birthday with you. If it is, well, then at least it was a whole lot of fun. :/
After this post, how can I still be lanci anymore right?
*
I can't stop sneezing! I sneezed at least 5 times typing this post alone! Stop bitching about me!
*
Got some space to breathe now. Maybe I can finally start watching my series hahah prav. Or reset my body clock hahah.
*
I'm 161cm to anyone who's wondering.
*
Bai.
-alexeO-
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Mizan inspired me to do this so here's a belated birthday post to guy with his eyes closed.
Happy 21st, Kelvin Pui. Hopefully this wouldn't be the last time I'm celebrating your birthday with you. If it is, well, then at least it was a whole lot of fun. :/
After this post, how can I still be lanci anymore right?
*
I can't stop sneezing! I sneezed at least 5 times typing this post alone! Stop bitching about me!
*
Got some space to breathe now. Maybe I can finally start watching my series hahah prav. Or reset my body clock hahah.
*
I'm 161cm to anyone who's wondering.
*
Bai.
-alexeO-
Sunday, May 17, 2009
3 Months, 3 Days
Most of the time, I do the odd thing that makes me feel that my capabilities are so much more far reaching than what my 'general' performance currently warrants.
Or rather, my laziness creates such an incredibly impenetrable force field that nothing else, potentially or not, matters anymore.
It is so extreme that its second-naturedness to my life doesn't even seem to bother me anymore. I genuinely don't feel any remorse or 'regret' that a particular thing could have been done that much better in an equally better way if not for my laziness.
Screw healthier eating habits, screw a better body clock, screw a more active lifestyle.
How does any of that even matter if the fundamentals of every single thing are already flawed to begin with?
If I'm going to have a resolution that I am going to make and stick with, it has to be getting my fking ass off my chair and just... do it, whatever 'it' might be. Distractions are an excuse but the essence of it all is ultimately, the four letter L word. To stay away from 'distractions' simply implies giving no space for laziness to shapeshift and present itself in a different form altogether.
What good are my capabilities - however out-of-this-world they might be - if laziness is the overarching theme of my life. I cannot even take the first step. Fullstop.
I suddenly feel extremely dirty and disgusting.
I think if there is something to be gained from this whole study abroad experience, successfully solving this aspect of my life has to be the greatest achievement I can ever ask for.
Moving on from the little essay on self-improvement I just wrote, I really feel I have learned so much academically or not in my 3 months in Melbourne so far. In university and to a lesser but significant extent outside, I learned how to apply the very theories I learn in uni properly this year by balancing it nicely with the usual aspects of my life without compromising any in anyways whatsoever. That statement does sound nerdy but what I learn aren't exactly physics or algebra so... hahahah.
I used to blame my course for making me think too much, but I realized that 'too much' didn't need to be taxing or discouraging on you at all and I could actually pick out the empowering aspects of it.
About 2 weeks ago, I sat in front of my computer in my little room and had a sudden moment of epiphany or realization that wow, I cannot believe I'm actually in Melbourne now studying abroad in a university. There were so many things 'wrong' about that I didn't even bother breaking them down one by one. Melbourne - abroad - university - etc. All I did was just to be wow-ed and enthralled by the entire situation of it all. I appreciated its significance even more because I believe it is a feeling difficult to imagine now but when the day I finally step out of this whole bubble comes, I will look back at this and get captivated by the entire experience and every little thing that comes along with it.
But.. have to be less lazy first -________-
*
Here's a funny comic strip I follow:
Hahahahah.. most of the time we like it because we know it's true..
Too long a post. Too late a time.
Goodnight.
-alexeO-
Or rather, my laziness creates such an incredibly impenetrable force field that nothing else, potentially or not, matters anymore.
It is so extreme that its second-naturedness to my life doesn't even seem to bother me anymore. I genuinely don't feel any remorse or 'regret' that a particular thing could have been done that much better in an equally better way if not for my laziness.
Screw healthier eating habits, screw a better body clock, screw a more active lifestyle.
How does any of that even matter if the fundamentals of every single thing are already flawed to begin with?
If I'm going to have a resolution that I am going to make and stick with, it has to be getting my fking ass off my chair and just... do it, whatever 'it' might be. Distractions are an excuse but the essence of it all is ultimately, the four letter L word. To stay away from 'distractions' simply implies giving no space for laziness to shapeshift and present itself in a different form altogether.
What good are my capabilities - however out-of-this-world they might be - if laziness is the overarching theme of my life. I cannot even take the first step. Fullstop.
I suddenly feel extremely dirty and disgusting.
I think if there is something to be gained from this whole study abroad experience, successfully solving this aspect of my life has to be the greatest achievement I can ever ask for.
Moving on from the little essay on self-improvement I just wrote, I really feel I have learned so much academically or not in my 3 months in Melbourne so far. In university and to a lesser but significant extent outside, I learned how to apply the very theories I learn in uni properly this year by balancing it nicely with the usual aspects of my life without compromising any in anyways whatsoever. That statement does sound nerdy but what I learn aren't exactly physics or algebra so... hahahah.
I used to blame my course for making me think too much, but I realized that 'too much' didn't need to be taxing or discouraging on you at all and I could actually pick out the empowering aspects of it.
About 2 weeks ago, I sat in front of my computer in my little room and had a sudden moment of epiphany or realization that wow, I cannot believe I'm actually in Melbourne now studying abroad in a university. There were so many things 'wrong' about that I didn't even bother breaking them down one by one. Melbourne - abroad - university - etc. All I did was just to be wow-ed and enthralled by the entire situation of it all. I appreciated its significance even more because I believe it is a feeling difficult to imagine now but when the day I finally step out of this whole bubble comes, I will look back at this and get captivated by the entire experience and every little thing that comes along with it.
But.. have to be less lazy first -________-
*
Here's a funny comic strip I follow:
Hahahahah.. most of the time we like it because we know it's true..
Too long a post. Too late a time.
Goodnight.
-alexeO-
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Woe is Me
Today I truly get the meaning/expression of feeling completely drained.
And I'm only halfway through my workload. And after this pile of work or 'wave', as I would like to call it, a presentation(not that stressful) and tests await.
To be frank I am quite sick of this semester already and I cannot wait for it to end. Maybe it's the combination of subjects I've selected, maybe it's the poor start to it due to bad adaptability.. but I'm sick. Both figuratively and literally.
I am very tempted to whine and complain about the amount I have to read and write each time for my assignments but I won't because I am going to take the initiative to actually be 'interested' in what I'm learning because it can really sound exciting if you look at it in a different way from how I have been looking at it.
My next assignment I don't quite get and it has the highest word limit. From next Tuesday onwards, I SHOULD be able to take some time off thinking and stressing about work at least for a little while before my tests and then my double holiday mid-year.
Sharing my burden makes me feel that tad bit better so thanks for hearing me out. I doubt anyone has read till this far anyway.
Can't wait for the day when I can wake up from my bed without thinking of what I'll do for the rest of the day. Before the party at night. Haha.
-alexeO-
And I'm only halfway through my workload. And after this pile of work or 'wave', as I would like to call it, a presentation(not that stressful) and tests await.
To be frank I am quite sick of this semester already and I cannot wait for it to end. Maybe it's the combination of subjects I've selected, maybe it's the poor start to it due to bad adaptability.. but I'm sick. Both figuratively and literally.
I am very tempted to whine and complain about the amount I have to read and write each time for my assignments but I won't because I am going to take the initiative to actually be 'interested' in what I'm learning because it can really sound exciting if you look at it in a different way from how I have been looking at it.
My next assignment I don't quite get and it has the highest word limit. From next Tuesday onwards, I SHOULD be able to take some time off thinking and stressing about work at least for a little while before my tests and then my double holiday mid-year.
Sharing my burden makes me feel that tad bit better so thanks for hearing me out. I doubt anyone has read till this far anyway.
Can't wait for the day when I can wake up from my bed without thinking of what I'll do for the rest of the day. Before the party at night. Haha.
-alexeO-
Thursday, May 07, 2009
This Post is Meant to Distract Me From The Harsh Realities of Life
A tiny sneak peek to my life in Melb.
Hahahah.
minus the uni workload, of course.. which should really be the utmost priority i know.. but... i'm coping, kinda.. anyway. :|
-alexeO-
Monday, May 04, 2009
Time Waits For No Man
Only in Melb
It's crunch time. The only thing which can help me during this period is something to look forward to. Then everything else I believe would fall into place comfortably.
Thoughts like partying, assignment-free days and nights, and chilling with people. I think if I let the workload become my sole and central focus, I will be doomed. Maybe that's the way I operate afterall. Hopefully I get it right this time around..
And I don't really need to put this down but as a gentle reminder to meself, I am going to learn and start to appreciate, just a little bit more. :)
-alexeO-
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