N Arp-Dead


Pooch Cafe.

Anywayz,
I've deleted Warcraft from my computer.
Not slowly navigating my mouse and clicking the Uninstall button mind you. But just hastily and to an extent, angrily deleted the whole freaking folder which has caused me to be in such a lousy condition today.
Yes. I can't believe myself too.

My finals are exactly next week.
And it's 6pm already.
And i hardly studied today.

Exam mode on from now..(hopefully).
I'm not depending fully on it but I hope my exam luck is there again this time around. :(
I think I need it this time more than ever.

one
more
week
.
you
can
do
it
alex
!
.
_
.


-alexeO-

Arsenal may have drawn against Everton but..



..the stats were by no doubts in Arsenal's favour.

C'mon.
29 freaking shots against everton's mere 2.
Everton's foul almost triple Arsenal's.

Arsenal's corner kicks 5 times of Everton's.

and just look at the freaking possession.

After last week's 4-0 trashing of Reading, I would say Arsenal was extremely unlucky not to have bagged this one.
But Everton which is doing relatively pretty well so far can be stubborn at times. And I hope they do the same against the other top teams.

Season's still a long way to go.
On-form Arsenal extremely extertaining at every game unlike 'some' clubs which still win boring-ly. *yawn*.

So don't smile just yet, Chelsea/ManU supporters.

We will make the 1-0 win at Old Trafford the deciding, 'painful' game for the season. ;) (lol to the win and the faces of the players after Adebayor's goal. :p)


Arsenal Fan
-alexeO-

Yesterday was the last day of my college

and I'm disappointed in myself.

The girl who I realised existed somewhere before the mid-year, who made me promise I would at least make her acknowledge my existence sometime before the end of college, appeared in front of me for the very last time in college (unless I'm really lucky of course).

But what did i do?
I walked back a few steps.

and looked away.

and that was the end.

someone pls throw a rock at my head.


-alexeO-

My results weren't 'that' bad afterall

I received my Forecast results today and eventhough it wasn't impressive, somehow or rather, I just wanted to show my parents what I've achieved. They clearly showed their unimpressed faces as 2 lecturers of mine gave me exceptionally low forecast results for their subjects which I think may not be fair to my liking. -__-
No prizes for guessing what those 2 subjects are. ><

My mum then brought up my brother's academic file to show me HIS forecast and final results which were very good. I then saw MY OWN ACADEMIC FILE and decided to dig through it to see wat precious records i may find. :D

The most surprising thing was my Kindergarden's progress report!



It was damn cool. I don't even remember having it. It was like recovering an artifact from 18 years ago.

I didn't know my kindergarden Peter and Jane somewhere near or in Taman Megah was so precise and all. Apparently they claim they are guided by the Montesorri method of Education, London whatever that is. But it sounds good. ;)

But anyway, they actually have such detailed analysis about me! In different aspects!
I damn lazy to take photo of every single detail(and most of them are boring anyway) so I just took the first 2 sections. Haha.

And ehh, it's not like school where the teacher remarks are full of insincere compliments and stuff which sounds too good to be true. This is kindergarden where one's growth is essential to be monitored! So if anything's negative it will be negative. Bwahaha.


Me aged 3 going on 4. :)

I then found my primary srikl report card which wasn't erm, very nice.
The only nice page was my Standard 1 page where I was 5th in my class for the first semester and 3rd for the final. :D Then came the following year when I had a drastic drop to 14.. then the following year which I was reaching the tail end of the class... and ...yea. :/

If anyone doesn't know yet, I had 4As for my UPSR out of 5. Bloody Karangan Paper. Argh. But such results were good by my standards at that time... Me being the 'average' kid. But no one can be satisfied rite? So when I had that results I wanted more-loh. :( I don't know where my results slip went. Damn.

I then found my PMR slip too! Which made my heart twitched in delight again the moment I had my eyes on it.



Bwahahahaha. simply unbelievable ok!
To be among like the wat? 15-20% among my peers to have obtained 7As and above. And not forgetting I wasn't a bright bright kid?! Walau. Seriously damn happy. I still remembered my reaction! Kelvin was there beside me. Haha. Haha. Shit. Haha.

My SPM slip was among the thick set of papers too.
I have never told anyone publicly about my SPM results before. So this is gonna be the first time. It wouldn't matter now anyway since it's a year ago already. :|



I know it consists of many numbers and alphabets unlike 'some' people's which only has A1 and A2.
-_-

But if you see properly, I actually obtained 3A1s and 3A2s making them a total of 6As! And if include the tiny A1 at the right side, it's 7! XD
Some schools actually include that okay when giving out awards. -_- My school didn't. Zzz.

I know the 5C is ugly but.
It's just me.

and and also.. my results actually quite 'unique' in it's own way!
if you see properly.. From the top to bottom.. It's ... Dua, Satu, Dua, Tiga, Satu, Dua, Tiga, Empat, Lima, Satu... :o

So it's.. 2...
1...2...3..
1...3...3...4...5..
..1

It is actually in order! Haha! Only I got such results I bet. *bangga* So dem special lor.

So finally this year, my college year.
I have not sat for the finals yet but it's gonna be very soon.
So all I got now is my FORECAST results. Results which is predicted by my lecturers.

Speaking about those prediction,
I seriously not really that happy lor.
A friend of mine who obtained around my results throughout the year has a grade higher than me. And it matters ok?
Because I got a freaking D for my forecast.

.......
Damn deng rite?

One more grade to C summore. Honestly it would look better if I had 11C or 12C la.
Not.. 10D. Goddammit.

Luckily I don't intend to do engineering anymore man. The 2 most crucial subjects. Spec Maths and.. Physics.

Yala. My physics got D also.
-_-
Damn suck man.
I checked alot of ppl's results in the class and I saw no Ds ok?!
How come only me! I'm not the worst also!
:(

10D <--passing mark.

I DONT WANNA OBTAIN A 'PASSING MARK' FOR MY FORECAST LA!
But once again, engineering subjects. :(

However if you see the Subject average for the whole of SAM,
you can see I only had 2 of those subjects LOWER than the subject average.
The rest I got higher. :D

One proud mark can be ESL. I damn thankful to my lecturer for that one. I thought she was gonna give me 16B! Bwahaha. At least it looks better la with ESL.
But 2Ds. Cmon man. Universities see also get turned off la. Haih.



And apparently,
I saw the scholars forecast and realised their subject average is different from normal!
Theirs were comparing with the OTHER scholars!
It was freaking cool to see such high subject average for the 5 subjects. O.o

But but...
Their subject average for Esl... was.. 15!
Bwahaha!

Yes. Once again I'm looking at the very small details which can make me happy.
:)
Like beating the top scorer of the country in 1119 for SPM. Hahahaha.

My conclusion is,
my results. Are NOT that bad.
At least I don't think so.

The reason I obtained 2Ds was wat I think the choice of subjects.
I'm just not scientific enough.
Maybe I can right a long winded essay which requires thinking better.

My holiday started liau. Going back to college next thursday then friday will be the last day of college.
The week after that will be a study leave for the students.
My class took photos with our lecturers today. Pretty sad considering it took me one whole year to get to know everyone better and we're all gonna seperate again.
:|

And then it's gonna be back to square one and the whole freaking process repeats again.

Life.

-alexeO-

Simply too many salesmen around college

I think women are worst drivers than men.
I mean seriously.

Worst as in driving to one's liking and totally ignoring the other cars on the road.
I think my oldest sister is an example. :p

And today I saw this polite,gentle-looking tudung malay lady driving like a... road...queen? Like she owns the road or something. It can be argued that she's experienced enuff to know nothing will happen but it still doesn't give her or anyone else the right to drive like that. -______-

First I noticed from my mirror she was between 2 lanes.
Then she went zooming pass my right with a distance too close for comfort. -_-
Then she cut my front to go to my left lane. And ATTEMPTED to cut me again! But luckily I was already near. -.-
Bloody..impatient...lady.

The heavy jam at the roundabout didn't ease me at all. :(

Then I got home and I got 'zhadou'-ed by my maid.

My maid doesn't have the best hearing or anything. I don't think it's a medical condition but sometimes her mind just wanders off far too easily. And she doesn't pay attention much. At least she can make nice chicken curry. Zzz.

The moment I opened my house door,
I heard a phone call rang.
My maid's voice could be heard answering the call.

I then asked,"siapa tu?"

Maid : Li Min(a cousin of mine)~

Me : Ohh. (it didn't take me long to figure out the reason she called as it was my grandmother's birthday. ((oh happy birthday grandma!)))

But somehow, I still asked anyway,


Me : Cari siapa?

Maid : Ama.. (We call my grandma ama)

Me : Mana ama?

Maid : Li Min!!

Me : ??? Bukan, mana ama?

Maid : Oh, bilik.

Me : -________- (like duh) Bilik siapa??

Maid : Li Min!

Me : ?!WTF. (I DONT HAVE A ROOM FOR MY COUSIN IN MY HOUSE) <-- at this point i damn impatient already.

Me : Bukan! AMA DI BILIK SIAPA? (u have to know my grandma sometimes goes to my parent's room to watch TV)

Maid : Ama!

Me : (diu) BUKAN!! AMA DI BILIK SIAPA SEKARANG? (my most correct pronounciation with the loudest voice. it was harsh.)

Maid : Ama di bilik ama la!

Me : -_______________________-


Honestly , I just kept quiet for a few seconds and at that very moment, I can swear I could see a speech bubble popping out beside me with three black dots happily horizontally aligned right in the middle of it.

She just made it sound like it was the most obvious thing on earth. But in actual fact, it isn't.
-.-
It may not sound as 'zhadou' as my time experiencing it but it was.
Zzz.

And also,
today when I was walking to my car after college,
I walked through the dreaded 'lorong' as a shortcut route to my car.
Ppl close to me have been asking me to avoid the 'lorong' as many drug addicts are said to be hiding in the corner waiting for a potential victim before raping/robbing the poor fella.

I never thought anything like that could happen in broad daylight and in such a populated area like Subang Jaya. But I still was more careful anyway.

As I was a quarter into the 'lorong', a man called out behind me.
"EXCUSE ME EXCUSE ME HELLO"

Me : shit.

I forgot how the conversation went after that but I realised immediately it was some SALESMEN attempting to sell some DIGI POSTPAID PROMOTION to me.
Well looking at the bright side, at least it was not a bad guy. -_-

Maybe he was. Shit.
*checks wallet*
still here.

Well at that time I was really uninterested and wanted to leave but my family members got it right. I just care about ppl too much and I will lose out in the end because of my too-nice-to-everyone attitude.
I gave the salesman(eventhough he claimed he's not) a benefit of a doubt and listened to wat he has to say.
After much thought, I managed my 'sorry-but-i-am-really-not-keen' speech and almost got myself out of it when his female 'boss' came and talked.

It was damn funny because SHE THOUGHT SHE COULD TRICK ME.
Cheh. Just because I look innocent.
><

It was damn obvious la.
Coz it was like she saw him writing down his hp number to me on a brochure..
then she asked,"wat are u doing?" the guy told her lah.
Then she said "ohh.. why don't he just fill in the form now and hand in la? so much more convenient!"

My heart 'lol-ed' in disbelief and i was so tempted to show her this _|_
But of course, once again I'm a polite kid so I just acted the way I am and managed another 'escape' speech and got myself out of there.

Stupid man! It was soooo long! around 10 minutes or so. -_- Next time must faster abit.

Before I was 'caught' in the 'lorong', I saw 2 students talking to some man with some sort of a file or something.
Inside, I was laughing at them and it was just so tempting to call out,'losers!'.

Then as I turned the corner, I became a 'loser' as well. -__- paiseh.

Anyway, after I got myself out of the situation and continued walking to my car,
I saw a woman with her children talking to some Burger King promotion man.

WTF WEI!
TOO MANY!
Getting out of hand.
Stupid.Sales.People.Intentionally.Placed.There.To.Trick.Students.

From now on they are gonna be known as the SSPIPTTTS.
Shit. Too long.
But how am I gonna remember that is gonna be another issue all together.
zz.

My finals are coming soon!
Too fast la wei.
My pre-u course is basically divided into internal and external assessments.
External would be the final big exam thingy and the internal would be the assignments and test I did throughout the whole year.
I got back 4/5 of my internal marks already.
Damn suck okay.
Unhappy, but strangely pleased as well.

:)
I did not fail anything!
As yet of course, still need my physics. -_-

BUT COME TO THINK OF IT.
NOT FAILING IS NOT ENUFF!
How to score high high for my final final results now.
Damn hard lor. unless I score some miracle marks for my finals. -_-
Which is not likely because I am a lost kid.

Okla too long.
Rants about my studies will continue next time.
:(


-alexeO-

Some people are just more talented than me

I once thought i was better than everyone else in this and that but I was proven to be wrong by the emergence of a few other ppl in my life.

Hey,
If i'm not gonna excel and be the very best in anything i do, so why bother rite?

Which brings me to my university courses dilemma.

Obviously i'm not gonna be doing anything related to science cause I already gave up and admitted I ain't one of the top fews who can do science. (I actually thought I was before entering form 4).

What about Arts, you ask?

You see.
Comparitively,
I ain't good in drawing, painting or illustrating on a piece of paper.

I already know that since young. There's just this person sitting in the corner of the colourful class, having everyone at awe over his/her artwork. In that very same colourful classroom, in the other corner, you will see a boy smirking and trying his very best to ignore the very presence of the very talented artist at the other corner of the class. And that boy would be me.

I have ideas, yes. But I realised very recently that eventhough my ideas can be of an interesting bunch, there's just this other few people which can strike the equivalent or even more interesting ideas compared to mine.

Which sucks, obviously.

Because if I ain't good in Science.
And not among the best few in the Creative side,

WHAT AM I THEN?!

A person brought to this world which will bring totally no significance watsoever?
Before I entered my Pre-University programme,
eventhough I once said I was totally clueless over my future at that very time, my mind was actually set to ONE thing.
I will not sit behind a desk in an office doing some business-related thing for some people.

I WANT TO WORK AS SOMETHING I HAVE TO STUDY FOR?!
Not business where you don't actually need to graduate in to work for it.

So anyway,
back to the topic.

There's also this other bunch(alot of them actually),
where they are better than me in their Science field,
and are also MORE CREATIVE than me!!!!
Argh.
The unfairness.

My heart turns sour each time I hear them discussing about their future course.
They are 'confused', they claimed and 'dont-know-what's-best-for-them'.

Their case seemed similiar to mine but the only ONE difference is,
THEY DONT KNOW WAT TO DO BECAUSE THEY CAN BASICALLY DO ANYTHING AND I HAVE TOO LIMITED CHOICES!

Gahhh.

So don't anyone dare try comforting me by saying,"hey alex i know you didn't do very well for the sciences, but cmon.. you are so creative and good with ur designs and essays!"

BECAUSE I KNOW,
it-is-not-true.

not anymore anyway.

So basically,
I'm gonna enter a course which I will once again be from the middle to the last of the class.
Because there WILL be people who are gonna be better than me.

Which totally loses the point of a course selection for me.
Because I only want a course where people COME to me to seek help and I can be one of the top few in class.

A little bit greedy?
Don't think so.

It's just a type of frustation caused by not excelling in anything I had done throughout my 18 years of life.

Don't think anyone else will understand.
My life can be of a sad one if told from a different perspective.
But i'm not complaining.
Not just yet.


-alexeO-

Of Architecture

I met a senior of my school just now at the Architecture talk organised by the Taylors School of Architure, Building and Design.
It was initially surprising to meet her but it got comfortable after a while.

She came over to talk to me while we waited for the talk to begin.

She : Heya how are you? Which programme are u taking now?

Me : SAM hehe. U are in TCPJ izzit?

She : Yah.. so why architecure?

Me : Oh..coz it looks interesting...

She : O...hm...

Me : Well, is it interesting?

She : It's a tough course.

Me : hm?

She : Many sleepless nights.. projects and all..

Me : oh haha. It's a long course rite?

She : yeap! all my frens are in australia already except me still here..

Me : k..


anyway,
we watched a few presentations and video clips which was really attractive.
it is something i would be willing to spend my time on.

we also had a little bit of fun by attempting to design a 'shelter home' for tsunami victims in Acheh.
-_-

some kind of fun it was.
well we were serious.. we tried.

but at the end,
the other groups structures looked so much... better than ours. :o

ours look like one clump of...well u know.

so architecture is pretty interesting.
but i realised it can be quite demanding with the workload.
to cut and paste.. and all that.
it can really drain one's energy.
even just now i felt very tired and was in no mood to cut precisely etc.

it is still a course im considering, however.

we'll just see how things goes from here.

:)


blogging from college's library now.
time to search for hot chix.
lol.
just kd.
time to study la of course. :)

-alexeO-

Some quiz from quizfarm.com..

Nick sent me a link just now regarding some quiz testing you on the most suited course for you or something like that.
I did something of similiar style in Taylor's as it was compulsary.

And my results turned out to be quite the same too.

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You scored as Visual&PerformingArts. You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in the Visual or Performing Arts (e.g. Art, Art Education, Art History, Ceramics, Culinary Arts, Dance, Drawing, Fashion Design, Film, Graphic Design, Interior Design, Marketing (advertising), Music, Music Education, Music Theory, Painting, Photography, Theatre). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal. Visual&PerformingArts 88% English/Journalism/Comm 75% Psychology/Sociology 69% French/German/Spanish 56% Religion/Theology 56% Education/Counseling 50% PoliticalScience/Philosophy 44% History/Anthropology/LiberalArts 44% Biology/Chemistry/Geology 44% Mathematics/Statistics 44% Nursing/AthleticTraining 44% Accounting/Finance/Marketing 38% HR/BusinessManagement 38% Physics/Engineering 38% WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU? created with QuizFarm.com

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So interesting - visual arts.
walau.

And look at my physics/engineering score. lowest of them all.
and hello don't forget i'm doing physics this year for my South Australian Matriculation and my class is an ENGINEERING class.

totally wrong choice of subjects.
mathematics pretty low too. and i'm taking SPECIALIST mathematics.
-.-

duno y i took them oso. but maybe it was bcoz i hadn't make up my mind last year on wat to do yet. so i just wanted to be safe. ><

oh well. not much regrets though. at least i've learned ALOT of things this year and to know that mathematics is not just as far as wat we learn in high school but it is so much more. I can confidently say that no one has seen maths yet until they take specialist maths. tertiary students may argue that their maths is the REAL deal and it's true. no problems there. i'm just saying for those who did not take mathematics after their schooling period, they shouldn't think it's just..'there'.

cool bunch of engineering-minded ppl(and some not) ppl i met too in the class. :)
so thats something definitely not worth regretting on.

and at least by taking those engineering subjects this year, i basically confirmed for myself that i am not gonna be doing it on a higher standard. i wouldn't know, would i? if i had not taken those subjects then kept wondering what it may be like for me. :)

70% mind made up now.
that's a stunning improvement. :D


-alexeO-

Today is a Sunday



fav comic. :)

-alexeO-

Hazy-nya


Taken from the 4th floor of Taylor's College SJ.


Air so dirty omg.
I think I shud stay at home more often.

But wait. I don't go out that much anyway.
Eh, isn't going to college considered going out?

Putting the pieces together..
hmmm.

CANNOT!
too important my last few weeks!

also,
i'm gonna speak more mandarin/cantonese from now on.
weee.
however much i suck i gotta start somewhere!
:)

ni hao.
zai jian.
zhoi gin~

-alexeO-

The blogger from space

I'm not sure if anyone heard of her but she blogged about her experience when she was in space.. not when she landed.. but when she WAS IN space.

So darn cool. Check out her link here.

I wasn't really a follower of the blog. Just read a few posts of hers when she was still blogging from space. I damn like space lor. I always wanted to view the Earth from outer space. So reading what she wrote was pretty interesting. :)

But she landed already. And among those informative posts of hers, many are very inspirational too. She tend to write many inspirational stuff for some reason. I mean I feel damn proud of her. For SOME reason. I duno wat.

I know she has nothing to do with me.
She's the first Iranian space tourist and the closest thing probably related to me is that she's Asian.
But I'm quite sure that's not the reason why I am so proud of her.

Maybe it's because she still can motivate ppl in her way eventhough she must be completely overwhelmed that she actually got to see what most ppl cannot. I mean, to be able to travel to space may mean the WORLD to some ppl. Until some ppl just wouldn't bother on other minor stuff anymore, like putting corny inspirational messages around. But she still cares lor!

Haiya.
Duno how to explain.
She seems and looks like a nice lady too. :) Feel so happy for her that she was able to travel to space.

Lala.

On another note,
I got myself a new dog! A Siberian Husky! Wuhoo!
Didn't buy it. Given by my sister's fren.
Seriously looks damn intelligent lor.
But definitely not watchdog material.
><

And ooohh yah.
My trials over liauz.
Not totally impressed.
More of relieved that it's over. :/

Can start concentrating on finals already!(yea rite la) :D
Still got one more physics presentation to go though.
Gonna present something on the Twin Paradox.
Damn regret taking that topic, okay.
zzz.
Thought of having something so super gaya and interesting that it will impress the hell out of my lecturer.
But it's gonna backfire now. SIGH.
Not completely understanding the topic oso.

Okla enuff.
A crappy post with such 'formal' language.
Damn sienz jor.


Zzz.

-alexeO-