Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix



Trailer for the movie.

looks damn good. must watch!


-alexeO-

You think you know..

..but you actually don't.

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Internet di rumah rosak lagi..

macam mana la ni.

*sigh*


-alexeO-

Random

I just realised how ugly this blog layout looks if you are using Mozilla Firefox.

Wait. It doesn't stop there.

Include, if you are using a resolution less than 1280x1024.
If you are using any other browsers besides IE.
If you have a funnily-shaped monitor.
If you disagree with my taste in colors.

Ok that's a long list of how my blog could look ugly.
Actually there's more, but I wanna save some pride for myself so I shall stop there.

(yeah I understand how ugly my blog looks but I tried editing the template here and there but it only got worst, and there're no real good skins out there for me to select to replace this ugly layout :()

On another note,

I've finished my exams and my second semester stars on the 16th of July. Which is an approximate ONE month from now.
Gives me time to relax and do stuff I wanna do.
Except that, today was officially the first day of my break and it was really boring.

I don't know why but I'm having a headache now eventhough I slept for reasonably long
hours. Sigh. Sicky alexeo.

My previous post may give the false impression to some that I'm a cowardy and friend-less boy but I'm actually not. Sometimes, i really do think too much and that's something which I am trying to change. The people around me are great and all it takes is time for me to start appreciating them. :)

so now,

one whole month to escape reality.

i'll hopefully not waste it like any of my previous holidays.

toodles~(shit where did i get that from)



-alexeO-

Of friendship and friends

The saddest thing about my life is not the fact that I'm short, fat and stupid. It's the fact that I just cannot get the hang of the social-life people often boast about indirectly with their whole entourage of friends.

Whatever I do, regardless of smiling more or less, I just cannot make friends that easily.

When I smile less, people think I'm unfriendly and not-approachable.

When I smile more, people think I'm a lunatic and crazy.

I don't know how to strike a balance.

Then my low-self esteem comes into play. Everytime I see a certain someone's reaction towards my actions or just towards my presence, I automatically become paranoid.

"omg. she hates me."

"omg. he thinks i'm annoying."

"omg. they must be talking about me."

I just can't help it.

It's not being 'perasan' or anything like that. Sometimes, you just feel certain things and I certainly feel it almost all the time.

So in order not to make people 'hate' me or think i'm 'annoying', I hide myself in a corner, hoping that people will not hear me talk as much thus they would hopefully not talk bad about me cause they don't know me.

The result? The 'unapproachable' boy at the corner who seems as though the whole world is his enemy.

I'm so bad at this it's not funny anymore.

I consider myself only close to people who have seen my true silly behaviours and the part of me which I do NOT show in this new, strange environment.

Therefore, I generally feel closer to my high school friends cause after being in the same class for so many years, I obviously managed to come out of my shell.

I also understand that people who do not know me as well thinks I'm annoying and rude at first impression. Yea, I may not have the most polite speaking manners but that's my way of 'tightening-the-bond' if you like. My way of socialising. That's how I talk when I'm comfortable. I don't really mean to be rude or have any bad intentions. :(

I don't even know why I'm suddenly pouring out my miseries here in this blog.

I just finished my last paper few hours ago and I should be jumping for joy and not sit down behind the screen blogging about this. :/

But I can't help it. It's bugging me. To an extent that I can't feel the happiness and relief I should feel after my exams.

This is where the ability to Mind Read comes handy.

What do people actually think of me? Especially newly-met strangers.


Hmmm.


Will I really want to know?



-alexeO-

I don't usually do this but...

...today's an exception.

Cause 2 very special people are celebrating their birthday today! And they're ironically VERY 'identical' people too.


click to enlarge


To my favourite (or rather 'only ones i know') pair of twins in the world...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


May TE have a nice 2nd-half-of-the-year in the United States, and TK to do some reading in Reading. Bwahaha get it?

nvm.

anyway, hope you guys enjoy your final teenage year. it's nothing much, but hey, every year is something for the super-ambitious duo. :)


sidenote: final paper this friday! after that im freeeeeeee. at least for another month. :|

/endbirthdaypost


-alexeO-

1 down


Click on the banner to visit my 2nd blog, "look. it's my life".
*It was set up some time ago cause I was too free and now I decided to use that blog to post any compositions of mine over there. Be it a poem(yea rite) or lyrics, film narratives, etc... just keep in mind that blog exists.*

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COM1010 a.k.a Media Studies down. Stupid theoretical compulsary first-year unit. Despite it being very very knowledgable and somewhat 'intelligent', it's still a subject which gives me a headache. It's all about the connotation of the denotation.
argh. *pain*

Had a thumping headache today. Eye was bengkak like shit when I took my 2-hr paper. I literally had one eye closed when I was writing my essay. -_-
Not because it was easy ok. But my eye was super bengkak.

It was super uncomfortable. I think I'm never gonna stay up studying on an exam day anymore. The feeling is miserable. Not only I did my exam with only my left eye, but I went home with this headache and had to take a long nap to regain my conciousness.

It's 1.50am now and I feel as though if I sleep now, I would be wasting most of my day. Sigh. Stupid feeling.

So I have Contemporary Worlds 1(the 20th century history subject) test on Monday and my newsroom paper next Friday.

After that, I'm off for a month.

Someone go out with me please. Movie, lunch, supper, anything. Thx. (I know Teck Eng is free.) :)


Thanks.


(blogging cause I am finding an excuse not to start studying)
-alexeO-

Exam Period


Impersonating Hiro Nakamura from Heroes.


Exams tomorrow.
For the first time in my life, I have 3 papers which just require me to write, write and write.

Just what I like? No. Not really when it's overdone.

I shouldn't be blogging.

The funny thing is, I have nothing to look forward to after my exams. I think I like university. :)

gl alex.


-alexeO-

Sunset upon me

Wow. Just like that, my whole first semester has reached its final pit stop.

I started sometime on February(I think), and the clock ticked to the first of June about 2 hours ago as I'm typing this sentence.

My university application hasn't been all straightforward and direct. Nor has it been an easy choice or an obvious one. It was all complicated until I finally put pen onto paper (more like submitting my deposit, actually), and tada! I'm enrolled into the Bachelor of Communication, Semester 1 2007.

I'm not gonna go into the usual "wah time passed damn fast man" but "wow. time really passes fast."

Ok the reasons for the complications surrounding my university submission.

Firstly, the whole "eeee alex is taking communication thing". I mean, no disrespect to other ppl who may be taking this very course but there's this whole very 'judgemental' thing from the environment I grew up in. Friends and family alike.
Yea, dont deny. So I pretty much got confused and don't wanna be sorta 'looked down'?

That's all I think. It's stupid I know. I think too much, I know. But it's just me.

And my experiences of trying to convince people I'm doing communications and NOT mass comm!!!

So many times when I told people I'm doing Communication, they will immediately think of Mass Comm! Ok so my course has a little Mass-Comm stuff in it but it is really different la! Mass Comm, if i'm not wrong, focuses more specifically on like ways to advertise a product, ways to be a good PR, ways of etc, etc... and I don't really do that.

If i were to be theoretical, I would say that Mass Communications focuses on the American Empirical approach. This approach's sociopolitical stance is said to be liberal or pluralistic and its form of knowledge is taken from controlled and measurable occurences, like in a lab experiment.

On the other hand, the communication course which is what I'm studying now, is more macro in scope and its sociopolitical stance is 'critical of the society as it exists'. Influenced by the Marxist tradition.

If that is not convincing enough to prove that Mass Comm and Comm is different, I don't know what else is.

(ah, nothing like a few seconds to show off with complex terms and analogies. bwahaha)

OK ANYWAY,
After roughly about 4-5 months, I begun to notice who this course actually attracts! *besides the usual bimbos and .. guys*

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1) 'Lost' people like me who realised during their Pre-U year that they really just cannot do science and have no where else to go. So with what they think, their slightly above-average english, they enrolled into this course thinking that they can cope with the english level and (hopefully) do well.

2) Artsy-Fartsy people. People who what I like to call, has an 'anti-establishment stance' or against the norms of the society. More specifically, don't wanna just be a typical behind-the-desk worker or do some business or some IT technical stuff.

In other words, aspiring musicians, poets, film-makers, performing artists, creative artists, etc.

3) People who thought that Communication = Mass Communication. Sorry.

4) People with &*^E$%^#$%@# SUPERDUPEREXTRAFABULOUSFERGIELICIOUSGLAMOROUSSHAKESPEARE english. What they heck are they doing here intimidating their coursemates, making them feeling inferior all they long?! Go speak with your accent and usage of complex vocabulary somewhere else.

5) Good speakers. and I mean GOOD. (Different from number 4.), people who love talking but hates law.

6) People who genuinely love studying about the theoretical aspects behind the media and communications field. :|

7) People who love Monash University in Malaysia and cannot do anything else but Communications. Damn.

8) Lain-lain.

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So goodbye my first semester!
It has been great, albeit pretty tedious(YES GOT WORK ONE OK?!), but I still enjoyed most of it.

Exams coming soon and I really want to do well and have a great start to the course.
Wish me luck, my pals.



-alexeO-

Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry

Because I'm a fan of Fergie.



and because I'm your friend. And I like sharing good things with my friend.

enjoy ;)

-alexeO-