I didn't like it that much initially but it kinda grew on me despite having my forehead amplified like 10x.
Side view.
Top view.
I even had a small mohawk action going on.
Should I or should I not.. hmmmm.
-alexeO-
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Short Hair
My shortest hair in 4 years. August 2008!
I didn't like it that much initially but it kinda grew on me despite having my forehead amplified like 10x.
Side view.
Top view.
I even had a small mohawk action going on.
Should I or should I not.. hmmmm.
-alexeO-
I didn't like it that much initially but it kinda grew on me despite having my forehead amplified like 10x.
Side view.
Top view.
I even had a small mohawk action going on.
Should I or should I not.. hmmmm.
-alexeO-
Thanks
My whole life I only believed in one thing. That is to make the least amount of enemies and to make most people I meet not have any problems with me.
Throughout highschool, I received all kinds of shit. Probably due to my said belief. But I tolerated. Because people close to me tell me I am doing things right and I should never ever change. And I believe I will reap the rewards from it one day.
I sometimes still sit down and ask myself. What is wrong with me? What is wrong with the people around me? I try so hard to please the crowd, I try so hard to make everyone happy, I avoid conflicts whenever necessary, I try very hard not to bring two very obviously opposing factions together because I don't want to stir up any awkwardness.
I try to be as helpful as possible with people. I try to be there for people when they need an ear. I try to be there when they need a shoulder to cry on. I try my best to make people feel their happiest on their birthdays even when there's no official party. I wish people Happy Birthday on their special days because I know how much a greeting can mean.
Last night, or earlier this morning, I slept to an extremely upsetting thing that happened, and woke up 4 hours later from a nightmare. I now cannot go back to sleep because the only thing my mind is what that has happened.
I cannot help but feel extremely betrayed and used, and boycotted. All the effort and journey to a friend's house into trying to please everybody through the guestlists, through a fun plan I thought of, through an attempt to be entertaining.
All gone. All because some people thought I do not deserve to celebrate my special day this year.
Something done some disgustingly and in poor taste, something I would never get from people who really care.
To add fuel to the fire, even some of those who know me long enough decide which side they wish to be on.
I never felt so angry and upset ever since high school. To the extent of I am still in a state of disbelief at this very instant. I thought my darkest days were over, I guess not.
-alexeO-
Throughout highschool, I received all kinds of shit. Probably due to my said belief. But I tolerated. Because people close to me tell me I am doing things right and I should never ever change. And I believe I will reap the rewards from it one day.
I sometimes still sit down and ask myself. What is wrong with me? What is wrong with the people around me? I try so hard to please the crowd, I try so hard to make everyone happy, I avoid conflicts whenever necessary, I try very hard not to bring two very obviously opposing factions together because I don't want to stir up any awkwardness.
I try to be as helpful as possible with people. I try to be there for people when they need an ear. I try to be there when they need a shoulder to cry on. I try my best to make people feel their happiest on their birthdays even when there's no official party. I wish people Happy Birthday on their special days because I know how much a greeting can mean.
Last night, or earlier this morning, I slept to an extremely upsetting thing that happened, and woke up 4 hours later from a nightmare. I now cannot go back to sleep because the only thing my mind is what that has happened.
I cannot help but feel extremely betrayed and used, and boycotted. All the effort and journey to a friend's house into trying to please everybody through the guestlists, through a fun plan I thought of, through an attempt to be entertaining.
All gone. All because some people thought I do not deserve to celebrate my special day this year.
Something done some disgustingly and in poor taste, something I would never get from people who really care.
To add fuel to the fire, even some of those who know me long enough decide which side they wish to be on.
I never felt so angry and upset ever since high school. To the extent of I am still in a state of disbelief at this very instant. I thought my darkest days were over, I guess not.
-alexeO-
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Bai?
I feel obliged to write a farewell post.
Farewell undergraduate studies, farewell Melbourne.
But I can't. The latter because I honestly still don't know if I'll be saying goodbye for good.
And the former, I don't want to get my hopes up too high yet.
So maybe when the time comes I will post a proper goodbye post.
Post ends here because I suddenly don't feel like blogging anymore.
-alexeO-
Farewell undergraduate studies, farewell Melbourne.
But I can't. The latter because I honestly still don't know if I'll be saying goodbye for good.
And the former, I don't want to get my hopes up too high yet.
So maybe when the time comes I will post a proper goodbye post.
Post ends here because I suddenly don't feel like blogging anymore.
-alexeO-
Friday, November 13, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Monday, November 09, 2009
Tolerance
I think, in tandem with the International Day for Tolerance on Nov 16, I should work on this aspect I might have a little problem with.
Despite me having certain principles I hold onto, despite me clearly not agreeing with certain qualities people have, I am going to tolerate, and not let that affect my own happiness in life.
For too long, I have been swayed by others, I let my own happiness get depended unto them, and I feel discouraged when I see someone goes against what I constitute as basic human virtues.
I am not going to make it my concern anymore unless I am asked or required to. I always thought the best way to live life is to be as honest as possible with my emotions and just speak my mind every single time.
I realised that cannot be the way anymore because firstly, clearly not everyone appreciate my comments and secondly, they probably didn't deserve my time and effort in the first place anyway.
So I might feel uneasy with a certain person, heck, I might even hate being around that person, but I'm not going to let their contradictory ways get to me personally. Because I am going to tolerate.
There is only this much someone can change, and chances are, they probably wouldn't even appreciate your time and effort to begin with.
If they want to change, they would, eventually.
On a sidenote, I still don't know what I'm going to do after this year. And I still have my last exam ever in my life to sit for at the end of this week.
Hopefully I get my body clock fixed in time.
-alexeO-
Despite me having certain principles I hold onto, despite me clearly not agreeing with certain qualities people have, I am going to tolerate, and not let that affect my own happiness in life.
For too long, I have been swayed by others, I let my own happiness get depended unto them, and I feel discouraged when I see someone goes against what I constitute as basic human virtues.
I am not going to make it my concern anymore unless I am asked or required to. I always thought the best way to live life is to be as honest as possible with my emotions and just speak my mind every single time.
I realised that cannot be the way anymore because firstly, clearly not everyone appreciate my comments and secondly, they probably didn't deserve my time and effort in the first place anyway.
So I might feel uneasy with a certain person, heck, I might even hate being around that person, but I'm not going to let their contradictory ways get to me personally. Because I am going to tolerate.
There is only this much someone can change, and chances are, they probably wouldn't even appreciate your time and effort to begin with.
If they want to change, they would, eventually.
On a sidenote, I still don't know what I'm going to do after this year. And I still have my last exam ever in my life to sit for at the end of this week.
Hopefully I get my body clock fixed in time.
-alexeO-
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