I am obviously not looking forward to it due to several reasons.
Firstly, and clearly, the workload sucks. Secondly, it may also mean the end of my university chapter, which equals to the start of the working-slave-to-capitalism chapter which is everything I am against to (but at the same time cannot do anything about which sucks even more for me). Subsequently, it will/may also imply the end of my Melbourne chapter which is one of the worst things that could happen now I think.
Sometimes I feel that my incomplete chores and dirty laundry isn't a simple direct consequence of my sheer laziness but more. Maybe I do want to leave things unpacked. Maybe I want things to be unready for the upcoming semester. Maybe, completed chores and clean laundry could imply that I'm all geared up and embracing the upcoming semester with open arms. Maybe deep down inside, subconsciously, I do not want anything to change and more so, anything to end.
My last semester. I am quite literally torn between two opposing spectrums. At one point, I want to do well, graduate, and get all these over with and at the other, I do not want this chapter to come to a dead fullstop.
I have built a new shell in which I must destroy and crawl out of again very soon.
Not looking forward to it - at all.
-alexeO-
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