I am taking a stupid compulsory unit which is very much like a preparation for Honours/Masters level of studies in which you are guided to write a huge research essay of your own at the end of the semester. The problem is, every proposed research topic I come out with my lecturer doesn't like so it's now week seven of the semester and I literally have nothing to work with. Hence, no free weekend this week. Everyone else in my class is so far ahead it's depressing really.
Even after the consultation today, all I probably gained from it if anything at all are some bad impressions by the lecturer who probably thinks I'm all stubborn and lazy now. Stubborn for looking as if I kept insisting on my original topic and lazy for not doing enough research. I wasn't stubborn but confused over what he wants! And I wasn't lazy but I just happened to have looked at sources for my INITIAL topic and not what he suggested to me.
My biggest fears for this unit came true and now it's up to me to work things out and get it over with.
One final semester.
I truly understand the expression now of how the last step is always the hardest.
So near yet so far. One thing's for sure, the probability of me doing a research based postgrad after this year has reduced drastically.
What more I'm doing some ridiculously difficult units for this sem. Getting worried now.
How uni students like myself work.
-alexeO-
