Hello, Sunshine!

I woke up damn early today damn proud of myself! 12.30pm to be exact! =D

But because of that I'm freaking tired now can?? :( My eyes are like blurry for some reason and I am sooooo super tempted to lie on the bed and like take a nap or something.

But Joe told me not to so I shall tahan and go to bed early today and be a fresh uni undergrad tomorrow for my lecture bwahahaha!

Okla one of the reasons why I got out of bed early was that I had a super weird dream omg. But I already memang wanted to wake up earlier today so that I could go to bed earlier tonight because my semester resumes tomorrow...

But anyway, the dream was damn weird! I think I finally found something which can wake me up!

All I've got to do is...

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... think about mathematics!!

Omg! I seriously dreamt of this slightly-past-middle-aged man(can't remember chinese or indian) who was balding and was teaching me maths!!! AHHHH!

One of my worst nightmares can!

The teacher firstly wasn't very friendly... and to top it off, he was teaching me Trigonometric Function!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DON"T EVEN KNOW WHY THAT PARTICULAR TOPIC BUT IT JUST HAPPENED!!!

Actually he wasn't just teaching me alone.. it was like a classroom.. bore a very similar resemblance to my Form 5 classroom and there were other students too but I don't remember who they are.

Hello if you ask me to tell you anything about trigonometric function now I can tell you nuts ok?? But the stuff which was taught in the dream... omg it all was real and made sense!!! I suddenly remembered all the stuff I learnt in Form 5!

T_______T

And then I suddenly woke up due to thinking too much because I remember I was cracking my head trying to figure a question out!! :-O (because the stupid teacher was going so fast I only had time to copy down and barely understand and only had time to read back and TRY to understand during the little intervals I had.)

And then I just lay there on my bed feeling super fresh. My alarm clock didn't even ring yet so I tried continuing my sleep but I couldn't.. then I wondered what was wrong because on normal days I would be feeling so tired everytime i ter-wake up then I thought about my dream..

Then to test it out, I thought of whatever little bits I could think about mathematics and omg I could feel my brains waking up again all of a sudden.

WOW SO CANGGIH. BETTER THAN COFFEE CAN.

And then I just got out of bed la. But now feeling damn tired la hahaha.

I think what could be the reason behind my trigonometric function dream was that the night before on my computer, I spotted a photo of my Form 5 maths teacher teaching that particular topic la(it was written on the board).. so, yeah.. that could be the reason. But that photo didn't realistically TEACH me anything right?? But! I could comprehend everything which was taught in the dream.. HMMMM. And who was that man?! His face was so clear... ~_~

Strangest ever.

Lala.

Eh today's Pooch Cafe comic strip very... nostalgic? Don't think that's the word but what the heck.




Reminds me of someone man.. but dunno who can't think of it now. It's probably myself for all I know.

Hmm.




-alexeO-

I was adorable once.

I was reading Pei Huan's sentimental post on her ex-classmates and there were some photos of myself and some others which I found really funny!! I actually looked ... innocent!

*_*

So I started my little hunt for old school photos(no pun intended) and here are some from what I found~


WOULD


standing middle row right-side guy. dem lengchai. (2003-14 going on 15)


YOU


front row left-side guy. (2003-14 going on 15)


JUST


TE and I. One thing I remember from this photo is that my pants was really really tight that day which probably explains why I am not in a squat position. (2004-15 going on 16)


LOOK


far right-side guy. not so lengchai anymore. (2004-15 going on 16)


AT


Ergh. A 'Kodak-moment' of a supposedly drunken-state me but I wasn't I'm sure.. Positive! (2004-15 going on 16)


ME???!!


Standing far right-side guy. Sup y'all. I am the cool. (2004-15 going on 16)


HAHAHAHAHAHA.

ok. self-narcissism ends here.


edit:- just for the record, here is a photo I found of myself taken in 2005(which JL had proudly posted on his blog when he wasn't supposed to pfft). Was 16 going on 17.


The guy in the middle.


I think I actually looked older in the very first photo. Okla not really but I certainly looked fresher in the first photo! Hmmm.

ok now self-narcissism REALLY ends here.





-alexeO-

=D ---> A Wide Smile

I sounded so whiny and angry in the previous post I just had to post a new post just to push it down.

I wanna be cheerful and happy and live in denial weeee!

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Hmmmm.

I'm currently right in the middle of my "break" now and so far, it has been the most unproductive break I ever had in my life.

I'm sleeping and waking up at the wrong hours again and the only thing I do waking up is typing and clicking away on my computer.

Before the break, I thought I would either be going out a lot or spending time doing my assignments or readings but hey, what do you know, it came down to neither.

It could be an aftermath from my first four mentally-draining and exhausting weeks of university but then again, I think it's just me.

As a result I get so tired everyday it's so bad! T_T

Oh well.



-alexeO-

DDDDL

I am so hurt, upset and disappointed right now I cannot hold myself in.

After the match was over, I just sat in front of my TV stunned and I really really couldn't move at all. If possible, I felt like wanting just to stay at that same position for the next 24 hours or so.

It was that bad. Even till now, I cannot take away these emotions of mine which is pissing me off so so much.

I simply cannot comprehend how Arsenal converted a 5 point lead in the EPL to being 6 points behind the current leaders.

The worst thing was that it wasn't anyone who took the title away from the Arse but themselves.

Form last 5 games? DDDDL.

What a heck of shitload.

How can a team challenging for the title possibly achieve such despicable results. With all due respect, it could very well be Derby's record for the last 5 games or something.

What is it about playing attractive football when we cannot even win games? What is wrong with the players who defend so badly and look useless in front of goal?

I hate blaming the team for losses I really do but if there are so many games which we have underperformed in, it has to be no one else's fault but the team's.

Defensive wise we were to be honest very very bad whole season long and even our goals have started to dry up upfront. Even luck wasn't to be on our side as taking an example for the last game, we lost to an offside goal.

The latest round of games almost looked as though the players don't possess the character to win games anymore. Players standing there letting opponents challenge them blindly and waiting for the ball to reach them instead of actually going for the ball is so disappointing to see.

My support will always be with the team but it is about time they payback the trust of the fans imbued onto them in the form of goals and wins.

Maybe the squad lack depth. That is probably why we look visibly tired in the run of the last few games. Maybe it's the loss of form, I dunno.

Whatever it could be, it better get rectified fast. Or whatever last tiny glimpses of the EPL title could very well be brushed off.

And now the best thing coming out from this. Fans of the 'other teams' will start their pathetic array of laughs and mockeries.

Which irritates me alot really.

Not because it is a law that no one should insult and hurt another but it amounts to the simple fact being that most of these people I speak of involve the pathetic 'fans'.

They are to put it simply, fake with a capital F.

They know nothing about football and hardly anything about their team yet have the nerve to laugh at another opposing team's fan's fate.

Just because that particular team they support has been winning recently and all, SUDDENLY they become their biggest fan and whoever their "team" defeats, they will act like its their responsibility to laugh and mock the other team's fans whoever they may be.

Look. Firstly, you are freaking pathetic already for supporting that "team" of yours whom you only know from recent successes.

Secondly, you may be laughing at someone whom know better of the team you actually support than you yourself.

The joke's on you pathetic cunt. Get a life, seriously. Than supporting that team of yours just to mock other people.

And honestly, the true fans of the team you mock wouldn't care because secretly inside, they are the ones laughing at you and shaking their heads sadly inside at your pathetic doings. It will only result into you bringing the oh-so-great reputation of your team down at the end of the day. But hey, then again, you wouldn't care right? Since you wouldn't have any 'true' feelings for the club you 'support' in the first place.

And now I bet everyone is going to say, "so what makes YOU a 'true' fan?"

Could it be the 'genuine' sincerity I feel for the team at every win, every loss? Or for the very fact I have been watching their matches in the strange hours of the day without fail? Or the time and money I have greatly spent on the team? Or the years I have been behind the team?

It could be everything and more and I don't feel the need to justify anything because at the end of the day, I believe everyone will know for themselves deep down inside.

And oh yea, if you still claim you are a true fan and thus have every right to mock another team's fan, then so be it. But at least be willing to accept the opposing team's own piece of mockeries towards your team and statements rather than being childish and just insult for the sake of it without hearing their piece.

I will be mature enough to say that Arsenal simply wasn't good enough for the past few run of games and I hope 'you' will be mature enough to STFU and concentrate on your own team rather than finding the time to criticise others thanks.

You probably wouldn't care but hey, people do have feelings you know. At least the true fans would.

Thank you for your time.

Feeling much better now.


/end rant.





-alexeO-

Untitled Post #393

4th week of the semester looms and I'm already lagging behind.

Please start working already Alex Yeo Chia Yuan!

So much to read, so many things to do, so little time!

I think I've finally discovered why. It all amounts to the lack of sleep I have. The very reasons behind me feeling like crap for an entire day which could be very much more productive.

I can't be productive because I'll be tired like a dog for the whole day thus making me just wanting to crawl back home and do unproductive, non energy-sapping things like spending my time on the computer dwelling in cyberspace. Then I'll remain seated at the very same spot till the early hours in the morning and the cycle continues.

I think it's time for a change.

*semangat*





-alexeO-

Japan Series #2 - Faster Than A Speeding Bullet

Woman + Train



-alexeO-

There Always Has To Be Something

So this morning felt perfect when I parked my car at the uni carpark at a reasonably nice spot eventhough I did not have sufficient hours of sleep the night before which made it actually quite a surprising feeling to feel at that point of time even for myself.

It got even more 'perfect' when I strolled into class thinking of how to hide my face like always when I realised there is not even a need to hide my face at all because the lecturer wasn't even there yet!

For the very first time, I was earlier than the lecturer for a lecture this year!

So I tucked myself comfortably behind a seat and said my hellos and his to my abundance of hi-bye friends feeling pleased and contented with myself.

The lecturer walked in, which I smiled 'greetingly' to as well but she didn't notice of course, considering that I was just 'another student' of the many students in the lecture hall, but I didnt care because that morning felt so perfect nothing could possibly ruin the little moment of sunshine I was in.

The lecture slides were then projected on the screen. People were taking out their notebooks and pens which prompted me to search for my own.

Sunk my hands into my bag, no sign of any notebook in place.

Scrambled my sunken hands around the insides of my bag, no notebook.

No. Notebook. ?

Repeatedly told self that "this is not happening" while searching intensely with eyes, still no notebook.

The only essential item of mine for university which I write every single stuff and depend thoroughly on - wasn't there.

It couldn't come at any better timing than that.

Perfect day = ruined.





-alexeO-

Tagged by Sze

***
Today I crashed into the toll house barrier omg! Damn scary okay when it happened. It broke too but I just drove away! What could I do?? Stick it back together again? And there were like cars behind me.. What if the highway toll people ask me to pay for the damages?!

It wasn't my fault!!

There was a *beep beep* from my Smart Tag thingy which also means I paid right? Sigh. As I was driving I was damn scared the police or something would appear in my rear view mirror chasing me from behind. T___T None of that happened fortunately enough. *traumatized*
***

I got tagged.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
30-32

2. If you can turn into anyone, who do u wish u can turn into?
Brad Pitt.

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
1st: Richmond Chin - he entertains me.
2nd: Teck Eng - he entertains me, and will be the hardest worker I am guessing. Necessary to survive!
3rd: Wei Liang - to bully.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
The Caribbeans! Omgz awesome.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To be successful. Specifically, rich and living in my big beautiful house by the beach waking up to the sounds of the waves crashing into the rocks. Sigh.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
I force myself to every single time believe me.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
As ridiculous as it sounds, my friends and family.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Invest it wisely(i dunno how yet) in order to achieve my dream of ultimate luxury.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No, but I would do things to make her love me back so that she could confess to me instead. If she doesn't, then that's just too bad. Fear of rejection overpowers everything.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Sze Jia: - super witty, doesn't judge people, a social butterfly.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Able to love me genuinely and sincerely for who I am. Will always be there to the best of her capacity for me.
Shorter than me, pleasant-looking, fun to be around with, open-minded.

Ya ya, now you know why I'm still single.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Sarcastics, Hypocrites, Backstabbers.

13. What is your ambition?
I don't know. To be successful? Deng. The epitome of general-ness.

14. If you have a flaw, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Point out to me. Privately.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My dignity and self-respect.

16. What would you most want to achieve right now?
Contentment. A specific answer would be having a healthy body clock.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
There are too many parts lah. Perhaps it'll be the part of loving myself more in that case.

19. What would you want to be after you're dead?
-_- huh. I don't really understand the question but if it means reincarnation, another human I guess?

20. What makes you different?
Because I don't just see things. I see the t, the h, the i, the n, the g, and the s, of things.


I tag Joseph Yap, Joyce Ng, Richmond Chin , Mei Chan, Meng Yen, Natasha, Teck Eng, Kar Wai.





-alexeO-

My First Remix

LAMEST SHIT EVER HAHAHAHA

BE WARNED YOU'RE ABOUT TO WASTE 1 MINUTE AND 14 SECONDS OF YOUR LIFE!!

NAH!




EH CUT ME SOME SLACK OK FIRST TIME NIA! DJ GOLDFISH IN THE MAKING YO!

HAHAHAHA!!





-alexeO-

My Eighth of March

Ok yesterday was damn eventful.

For 15 minutes, I was Jothi, a girl from India.

There's this OneLife thing at Monash where they allow you to live through the life of someone stricken in one way or another by HIV/AIDS.

You wear these headphones and a voice will guide you through the entire exhibition thing. They rebuilt like the living conditions of the victims and the places they go to and all.

The coolest part was the clinic! This was where people from the other stories are all guided to somewhere towards the end to get tested for HIV positivity. They do this by stamping your hand! -_-

(It was actually quite malu la cause there was this volunteer acting doctor and I was thinking if she was actually laughing at us inside cause we were so serious and all hahaha. But I didn't laugh la of course.)

Jothi was the only one who was HIV negative yay lol. The rest were all positive. Then there was a bench for those people with HIV positive blood so sad. The lady in the headphones told me I was lucky and asked me to see if there was anyone on the bench with HIV positive and asked me what would I do now! Was I willing to bring them out or something! Omg put me on the spot for nothing!

So ngam there was this guy who was on the bench and then he stared at me with the saddest of eyes ever and it looked damn convincing HAHAHAHA! BUT HE WAS JUST ANOTHER MONASH FELLA IN THE EXHIBITION LA SO WEIRD IF I BRING HIM OUT RITE.

You must be thinking why was there even a Jothi in the first place in a HIV/AIDS exhibition when she wasn't even HIV/AIDS positive!

Coz right.. as far as I remembered... her parents died of the disease or something. Both her younger siblings are infected. But she's not. She has to take care of them etc etc.

Quite depressing lah. But I couldn't fully concentrate and put myself entirely into Jothi's shoes because for some strange reason there was this guy who was damn fast behind me la kept catching up to me as I went from room to room. Damn kacau zzz. I kept looking back cause I didn't want him to be next to me la.. damn potong stim rite if there was another person there. -_-

But mana tau he affected me anyway sigh.

Ok anyway I wrote a message for the HIV/AIDS patients and even bought a T-Shirt which I think the money will go for donation laa.

On the whole, the exhibition was very good and enlightening!!

*

After all that, you wouldn't believe what I did.

I went ice-skating omgz!

I have not skated in like 10 years and as far as I remember I was equally as bad as 10 years ago so shy!

I think I lost all my romantic points liao. Cannot bring girls out to ice-skate like in the movies T_T

*

Elections results out and damn good outcome for the oppositions hurray! Won many parliamentary seats and states even!

Hopefully they make full use of it now.

Okay that should be it for my 8.3.08.

One heck of a productive day by my standards hahaha.




-alexeO-

My Seventh of March

I made a lame joke which really wasn't funny at all to a very nice Indian ticketing young lady in the cinema today when I was purchasing movie tickets for Step Up 2.

I was buying tickets for my friends who weren't at the counter with me and when I tried to get student rates for everyone, she didn't let me as she wanted to see everyone's student cards but I only had mine with me at that time.

Then she said,

"Nevermind la, 1 Ringgit difference only"

(I think she wasn't actually being rude/act-smart but was actually nice enough to try telling me that the price reduction was not much as it could be because the movie's price was already reduced from the normal price for some reason)

To which I happily replied,

"1 Ringgit can buy one nasi lemak! 1 nasi lemak bungkus!!"

Gg.com.

I could see from her eyes that she didn't know how to respond to my very brilliant statements. But at least she had the courtesy to manage a polite smile.

A friend who was beside me simply rolled his eyes in bewilderment.

Sometimes random things get into me for some strange unknown reason I don't know why.

The movie was very entertaining even by my standards hah. I don't easily get satisfied with movies recently and my course has made me very, very critical of the things I see on the wide screen.

I didn't have much to criticise for this movie which can only be a good thing of course. But I do have a sudden urge to wiggle my entire body now. But I also shouldn't have said that.

*

As the night enveloped itself into darkness(wah damn drama), I headed over to HELP University College(which I still don't know why people would ever go there to study sorry) with Karina and SJ and met Yasmin Ahmad in person! We had a Q&A session in which she also showed the commercials which she had made over the years..

Damn nice la some of them. One of them almost made me cry but being the manly man me of course I didn't la hahaha. Ask SJ though if she did. I wasn't quite sure. *cough* Hahaha.

Also managed a short talk with her after the session! Short as in super duper short la. But still got to snap a pic with her, got her namecard and shook her hand. *star struck*

Actually not really star struck la.. but still.. hmmm.. she IS someone afterall right right right??

*

Now you know what I did for the day! Feel proud la!

That.
Should.
Be.
All.
I.
Think.

And oh ya.

Vote wisely, peeps!!





-alexeO-

Japan Series #1 - Under My Umbrella(s)..

Umbrellas + Rain.1





Umbrellas + Rain.2





Umbrellas + Rain.3





Umbrellas + Rain.4





-alexeO-

My First Week

Late for every single class available. Hurray. And wasn't reprimanded for any of the days too. Uber..

Things don't look as scary as they did previously. Which can only be a good thing.

Found out that I have a lot to read and that I may read myself to death by the end of this semester. The worst part of it all, I am not very much of a reader before and definitely not much of one today. So.. that is 'sucky-thing-about-university' #325 on my list checked.

I am so tempted to post out the things I have to read for this semester but that would only make me a whiny complaining b*tch and that is a title I was hoping not to achieve anymore so no whiny post by me because I am positive now! (quote Meng Yen)

Despite of all that, I still had time to go clubbing on Thursday which is a strange enigma to crack. Lololol.

So what else what else.

So boring but this is what my timetable looks like *yawn*.

***
Monday: 12-2(Lecture)
Tuesday:1-3 (Lecture)
Wednesday:11-1(Lecture), 3-5(Tutorial)
Thursday:9-11(Lecture), 11-1(Tutorial), 1-3(Tutorial)
Friday:11-1(Tutorial)
***

Yala, yala everyday got class can or not.

Also,
I have a strange suspicion in the coming weeks, I am going to miss the lecture on Thursdays.. a lot.

Fingers crossed hopefully not!




-alexeO-

I'm emotional and I like it that way

2 days of returning to uni had sadly revived the unwanted miserable memories of the previous year I thought and hoped wouldn't return.

The lack of confidence when communicating and the ultra-thin skin I have are among the memories I hoped would never ever haunt me again.

It is weird because I realised that when I step into the grounds of my campus, I suddenly transform into this quiet figure who speaks boringly and looks extremely shy. Even talking and acting like myself to people I already knew before became so difficult it is annoying.

I was trying so hard to be myself and joke and tell lame stuff like I always do but I just cannot. I don't know why. I could feel it as I speak but I can't do anything about it. For God's sake I wasn't even talking to newly met people! They were people I hung out and partied with for the previous months who has seen the best and worst of me. WHY WAS I ACTING LIKE A TOTALLY NEW AND DIFFERENT ALEX!

I did a little mini postmortem on my situation and I came to the conclusion that it could be just the fear of doing something wrong and passing off the wrong impression to people. I seriously don't know what has gotten into me.

There must be some sort of aura-like thing in Monash which limits my socialising capabilities. Or it could be just me. My gut feeling is leaning towards the latter.

And with all of that happening, my worst fear came true.

I embarrassed myself in front of my entire lecture. Well at least I think I did la. Don't feel like sharing it out here so if you wanna know, ask me personally.

Also just so that you know, I really hate being lonely and walking alone to places most of the time. I am one who really cannot live without his friends by his side. But I have no choice because I don't have a fixed group I hang out with in my uni. I have plenty of 'hi-bye' friends but that's that. It ends there. No hanging out after class, no chilling over the weekends, no house parties. Which is quite sad, really. But blame no one but me for giving the impression to everyone that I am an anti-social geeky arrogant proud kid who sits at the corner and who probably enjoys solitary confinement.

I hate life.

Just kidding la. Life is okay but there are just so many things troubling me lah I cannot stand. I don't want to be alone yet I have no guts to approach anyone to 'hang out' with. What is wrong with me dot com.

And I don't really have no friends la. I have plenty in uni who I think will not mind my company la I think. Not perasan la ok but I really think so lo coz they are super nice people but it's just me who's staying away I guess. sigh.

Anyway, I really shouldn't be dwelling too much on my apparent 'problems' because for all you know, it may all just be bullcrap from the over-speculative me. Thus by dwelling on my probable non-existent apparent 'problems', I may worsen things by tricking my mind that all of that really is true and therefore I may go deeper into depression. *knocks head*

So that's my new resolution for this year. To avoid ranting too much on something which may not be 100% true or known yet.

Glad I got that out of my system. Phew.

*

Here's a pic of the group I have been hanging out with alot during my 4-month break.



Thanks everyone for the insurmountable amount of fun I had over the past months. The clubbing sessions and drinking parties have been alot of fun and they are good memories I would cherish for a long long time. It is just unfortunate that everyone is heading back to different parts of the world and I would not get to see them for at least another year or so. :(

Yes still got Rich, Cel, MY and myself but I still think it's not the same larh. Also not forgetting Prav, Adrian, Andy and Mike who I will also not see for a long time.

How sad.

Joe's flight is scheduled for tomorrow night(technically tonight) so I guess that's another 'party friend' crossed out of the list. =(

To Joe: It has honestly been damn fun la partying with you for the past months and thanks alot for attempting to motivate me when I was down for one short period la.. take good care and all the best in NZ dude. Don't be a loser like me ok?! Show everyone there the Joe you are to your friends here. And oh yea.. RM50 is mine hahaha.

I guess it's a long enough post to keep everyone and myself busy/inspired/motivated for a while.

Hopefully Day 3 of uni onwards would be much much better! Not that it is damn sucky now la but it really can be better I feels.

Better sleep early(like now!) to avoid being late for my 3rd class in a row.


Good night, world.




Was fun while it lasted. *tear drop*





-alexeO@around 3AM-

Four Months Gone

The title sounds like it came from an episode of Heroes but it is actually a reality that I have to accept regardless of how much I like it or not.

My four months *cough*break*cough* as I like to see it, has come to an unfortunate end and I have honestly lost all the mood in the world to do any more learning or studying which I hope will be reverted after my first week back in Monash or so.

It freaking sucks but no matter how much I bitch or whine or complain, the reality is in fact that it is all things of the past now and I definitely knew before that this day would be coming eventually.

This.. 'end-of-holiday' emo-ness feeling thing.

I have partied so much it is unbelievable.

Even now I am struggling to construct proper sentences grammar free on this blog.

I think I've lost any remaining little intellectual brain cells I have left over the 4 months period.

I am sure there would be people boasting of how much they achieved over the previous months and how much time was so well spent for them. Something I achieved almost the total opposite sadly enough.

But I am not regretting. Oh, hell no.I believe there are good things coming out of this apparent 'lazy' 4 months I had not many people may notice but it's there I tell you. It may not be in black and white obvious but it's there.

I will perhaps write a more detailed and specific(with more flair too) account of how I spent my time during the previous months but then again, perhaps not because knowing me, I don't do what I say most of the time strangely enough.

Tomorrow(or later today rather judging by the time), I will step back into the grounds of my campus once again.

Tomorrow, I will be reborn and have a life again.

But that doesn't naturally mean it is a life I would like to have.

and you can stop rolling your eyes now.





-alexeO@3:30AM-

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger

This song is damn cool in itself but this hand jig thing makes it so much cooler than it already is if it can be any more la that is.

Watch till the end thx. It gets better when the tempo increases.

Oh, another worthless opinion of mine: I also think I actually prefer the ori version of this song by Daft Punk over the Kanye West's rap version. But both is good.


Edit: Oh I just realised there's another one using bodies instead of hands which is equally as cool. You can check it out here.

Edit#2: There's a lot going on in my mind right now that I don't really know the proper decisions and directions I should make and take. I hope it is something which takes time but I seriously doubt it as it has been lingering with me for so long now I can hardly remember the first time it came. It just so happens that it is troubling me once again now. I hate being emo and all but I can't help it. I know it's annoying and many people want it to go away but believe me, so do I.

Which, probably explains the youtube-surfing I have been spending much time on visibly evident in this blog.


*coughs*




-alexeO-



-alexeO-

Replay

In a devastated world by men, the only glimpse of hope is the memory of a forgotten past.

But be careful not to let your dreams control your mind...


Something worth your time.


-alexeO-

The Confession

Sometimes, there is a fear that there is only so much one can hold inside, and at anytime, anytime at all, he will explode in a tragic and painful way.

Sometimes, one bleeds and weeps so much inside that his outside begins to wear and tear like a tried and weakened haggard man.

Sometimes, one feels that the day will come when he'll not be able to sustain the lies and deceits put forth by him through his apparent bubbly personality and cheerful smile, and the day may henceforth be the day the world crashes destructively down on him.

Sometimes, one puts his hand upon his chest and feels; a side of his mind reading and analysing his quickening pulse while another, whispers to it pleadingly like a captain trying to steady his sinking ship.

Sometimes, one wonders why.

Sometimes, one never discovers why.




-alexeO-

Guess I didn't feel like it

Happy CNY everyone.





I just got back from Melaka a few hours ago, and in another few hours time, I would be off again with another luggage bag this time to the airport. Wah I'm damn busy omgz.

To the land of the rising sun. To the land of animes and all things lala. I'm going to Japan! (TE: I would try to meet Naruto for you and get his autograph no worries)

So in case I don't see you before the Chinese New Year ends,

Happy CNY!

Save angpau for me if possible tx.



Bwhahahah.





-alexeO-

Trance-d@HardSequence 2008, Solar

I have officially been trance-d(lousy attempt at sounding cool but i like la wth).


shit quality photo

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More tomorrow(if i feel like it)!





-alexeO-