A Record



Congratulations on being part of the 20,000 who are all surely enlightened and purified by the very presence of this colourful, wonderful blog.

Out of the 20,000, maybe half of that figure came from myself but still! got at least thousands mah. :)

Didn't know my boring life stories can generate such huge numbers!

Out of all my posts, the one where I got caught by the policeman seems to be the favourite among my friends. I came to that conclusion because they kept either making fun of the whole situation or asking me to explain to them what really happened in person. -_-
So seeing me in trouble is pretty entertaining for people, I guess. -.-

I formally started my university life today!
There's nothing worth elaborating though.

I shall continue with my other stuff now.

Thx for visiting my pals.


-alexeO-

It's CNY already

It feels great to have many people thinking that I'm enrolled into a course which has me written all over it. I thought I was the only one who noticed but many of my friends seem to feel the same.

Proudness aside, I actually think it wouldn't be as easy as others think for me to excel in my course because judging from mere first impression, there seemed to be many people who seemed very intellectual and act like good communicators.

So I'll basically end up being the 'average' student again I guess.
:/

The Chinese New Year is here already.
In fact it's the 3rd day of the new year already.

Happy CNY everyone.
I remember last year I had a nice 'house-hopping' with some of my friends to collect extra pocket money. There's a plan to do the same this year but knowing us, I wouldn't be sure that it'll work out.

My only gambling session so far was the one I had with my cousins back in my hometown. There really seems to be limited CNY mood floating around.

Some of my hang-out-buddies have left to pursue their studies somewhere else and the rest seems to be very busy with their assignments and work.

Don't know if I will be going out that often anymore.
Gotta make friends.

Very interested recently to study about the art of feng shui too. I'm not a firm believer, not yet anyway, but I really like to read about myself in words because that's just who i am. What's the harm anyway to see what benefits me as long as I am not required to PURCHASE any stuff.

This post is a reflection of my current emotions.
Dull,
and dry.

Not unhappy, not angry, not sad but there seems to be something troubling me I don't know what.

And that's the end of my post.

Have fun people.


-alexeO-

My Communications Course

I never liked having to defend the things I do or the stuff I take. But there are times when I'm simply forced to do it.

Like my passion for table tennis for example. The cornier and more recognised name would be Ping Pong.
Yea. You heard right. Ping Pong.
The fact that it isn't as physical as many other sports really makes people have an extremely negative impression on that sport.
Inside the minds of those people, it is a sport where you play during family leisure times or times when you have simply nothing to do. It cannot be treated professionally.
Ever since Junior 5, I was registered to the Table Tennis Club. And ever since my name was put into paper, I had to stand up for that sport countless of times. I had to face terrible name callings and defend perceptions like you play ping pong so you are a wuss that kinda thing.

It sucks. But some people just don't get it. The very same unoriginal people who likes jumping on bandwagons and thinks whatever MOST ppl in this world are doing will be the thing they have to and must do.

It's not a matter of opting to be different from the society.
But at the end of the day, it comes to passion and true interest for something you want to do.

And what is wrong by playing a sport which I enjoy. Maybe it can be argued that I am not as good in other more physical demanding sports so I play Ping Pong. That's not entirely false but it can be argued back that you simply suck in a sport which requires reflexes and an eye for speedy balls.

That's the end of my ping pong argument. And just so you know, I'm not that good in Ping Pong anyway. Lol.

The other thing I'm having a hard time defending and explaining is the course I am currently enrolled to in Monash University.

BComn in short. Bachelor of Communication in long.

To be really honest, it isn't my first choice.
To be also really honest, I NEVER HAD a first choice.

Up until last year, I really don't know where my future really lies.
See, I took science subjects during my high school period.

My marks weren't excellent but I insisted and forced myself to continue taking several science subjects during my Pre-University Program because I feel there is where I may lie.

After a year of sufferings and below-par exam results,
I decided that I had enough and the science field is just not for me.

After 18 years of living in this world, I truly found out who I really am. I may have just found out the purpose I was brought to this world.

I'm more of thinker, an analysist, someone who can propose creative ideas from the tip of their fingertips.

That is why, I decided to have the whole transition thing to the Arts field.
It is a little saddening that the Arts field have not a very pretty impression by the general public.
It is often said that the field is for people who cannot do anything else so that is their last resort.
I admit I used to be one of the people.

Yea yea, many people are gonna say I'm starting to defend this course now just because I'm in it.
Maybe it's true, I don't know but it's good to have contrasting views anyway.

I was and maybe still am even a little 'embarassed' of what I am doing?
The very reason for that is how much pressure is put on the society today pushing for professionals like engineers, doctors, etc.

It isn't nice to know that the Arts field do not get much backing from the general public but it's fine.

Because I know that the real people who change the world politically and socially the most are the Arts people.
To learn about International Studies and issues involving the world's society like globalization etc can really be vital. Especially in today's world.

What is also wrong if I want to work for advertising companies? I like to think of how I want to advertise a product. I like people to like me for my excellent ideas on catching one's attention on something.

Is it STUPID and WRONG to NOT have a job which involves curing people or create some new robots?

Who is gonna be the middle man to promote the stuff professionals do anyway?
How are they gonna generate the market so they can earn money?

They need the thinkers.
And there is where I come in.

Maybe because I cannot be the one creating the robot.
But mostly because I like doing it.

Back to the embarassing stigma of the whole issue, I never liked meeting parents these days because the first question which will automatically pop out in their heads would be the "what are you doing now" question.

It sucked.

Because when they ask that question, I will sit up straigher, swallow my saliva and with the most of confidence I can garner in that very short period, say "communications".

And at that every moment when i finish saying that very simply yet long word,
I will instantly wait to see the look on their faces. Their instant reaction. To see any signs of eye twitching or eyebrow raising.

And every single time, I don't fail to notice a change in their expressions.
I'm "lucky" or "unlucky" enough to have friends who do very well in their studies. So naturally, their courses would be those which get most recognition from the public. So NATURALLY also, their parents would expect similiar things from their friends.
I tend to disappoint their expectations, I think.

:)

But many people I talked to regarding this issue told me that all that were bollocks and I was simply thinking too much.
I don't know. Regardless, there ARE still people who think such things.

My 3-day orientation ended today and I was pretty exhausted by the end of it. I didn't attend EVERY single stuff they offered but I think I attended the important ones. Like my course briefing which was very enlightening and nice to see. :)
I am really starting to love what I'm doing.

Stuff like newsroom practice and theory, studying about contemporary worlds and media studies.

I also chosen my elective too. Doing something on American Music and Popular Culture.

Can't wait for my semester to begin already!

Playing a game now.
So I guess the rant ends here.

Thank you for your time
IF you actually read through the whole thing, of course. ;)


edit : oh yea, happy valentine's day too!

-alexeO-

Not Day 3

No. I've decided not to continue posting about my Kuching trip.

Because I'm incredibly lazy.
I may however continue it some other day. :)

I sent off Vincent a night or two ago.
That's the first of my long list of SSC friends flying off to pursue their tertiary studies.

I had a talk with Richmond regarding the friends who might be leaving us and how 'lonely' we will become.

Sooner or later, it will just be 2 of us in Malaysia.

Damn..
Boring.

Orientation starts next week.
Did nothing productive last 2 months.
I could have been a thousand ringgit or so richer already.
But I am not.
Instead, I am probably a thousand ringgit poorer.

Sigh.

University,
here I come.


-alexeO-

Kuching Trip : Day Two

If you find this post boring,

blame Kuching. :P

On the whole, I find Kuching enjoyable not because of the places I went, but because of the company I had there. That's being honest. I was actually in for a pretty dull trip if not for the people I met. So thank God for that.

My travel experience tip would be, if you wanna go Kuching to have fun, don't just stay in Kuching City and expect to have the time of your lives there. Because coming from soneone who spent 5 days in Kuching City, it isn't exactly all fun. :)

Anyway,
Day Two started out with a promise, having Arsenal beating Liverpool 3-6 in Anfield, Liverpool's home that morning. Bwahaha.

Ok seriously,
we woke up reasonably early by MY standards that day, having few of the Kuching people who were also Praveen's college mates picking us up from the hotel. Everything's just so near to each other so we didn't trouble them much, i think.

First thing we did?
Breakfast.
First thing 'uniquely Kuching' we had?
The famous Sarawak Laksa.

Which unfortunately,
I forgot to take a picture of.
Dammit.

When I actually remember, 3-quarter of the Laksa is already gone.

My verdict : Pretty overrated actually. :P Tastes ALMOST EXACTLY the same with the curry laksa we have back here in KL. But that doesn't mean it sucks rite? It's good. Just nothing out of the ordinary. :D

We then went to one of the Kuching gang houses.
Because that is what they pretty much do everyday anyway for fun.
Going to each other houses.
Haha.

I was initially curious how houses would look like there.
To those Kuching people reading the blog, no I did not think of treehouses but more to 'different-styled' houses from the ones we see in KL.
=.=
I just had to be defensive there.

Yeap. Most houses in Kuching, actually looks like this.



NOTHING VERY DIFFERENT RITE?
CAUSE WE"RE ALL LIVING IN THE SAME COUNTRY-LAH THAT"S WHY.

Just because Sarawak and the Peninsular is divided by a reasonably big sea, that doesn't mean their houses will have to look any different rite. :|

We spent some time in the house,
actually... THINKING of what to do. Lol.

Random pics in the house.


Praveen, a friend of his and TK(standing up) looking entertained.


Me, pulling my pants up.

It was pretty funny for the 3 KL dudes because we felt a little bad 'troubling' them, making them think of where should they bring us next.

Conversations made throughout the 5 days went pretty much like this everytime..

"ehh... where to bring them now ah??"

"err.. want to go watch movie??"

"ehh lets go sit the sampan lah"

"dowan lah.. eh where to bring them... let's go eat?"

"what about a movie.."

"let's go eat..."

Tip of the day : When you can't think of anything else to do, bring your guests to someplace where they can munch of food (and actually buy you enough time to think of where to go next).

What the Kuching people told us is that, there's basically NOTHING else to do in Kuching besides eating. So that's wat exactly we did.

We finally all decided to go for a sampan ride on Day Two anyway.
Which was actually a pretty neat experience. :)

One trip to the other side of the river will cost you around RM0.30.
Very long never see such a price for ANYTHING in Malaysia liau.
So was pleasantly surprised lah.

Erm,
There's... actually... nothing... else.... much.. to.. talk.... about.. regarding.. the .. sampan..

So,
these are the photos I took.


A view of the river from the bank where we departed.


The inside of the sampan which a group of us sat in.


Row, row, row your boat..


A view from the 'other' side. Pretty nice huh.

That night,
we went to Sportsplanet Kuching.
To play futsal.
Yes. Sportsplanet have a branch in Kuching.


Futsal.

I didn't play though. Cause I'm 'kaki bangku'.
And I dont want to risk embarassing myself that night infront of my new friends.
So I opted for the wiser option of not playing. =)

What else, what else.
Ah.
That night, after the futsal,
the 3 of us went back to our hotels to change.


3 vain pots.

and,
Diana asked us out for dinner cum supper.
Praveen joined his friends while TK and I joined Diana.
Oh yea, Praveen's college mates are Diana friends too!
So they basically know each other. So hanging out won't be a hard time.

ANYWAY,
Diana brought her younger sister along and we... basically.. ate lah.
I ordered Char Kuey Teow because I wanted to see if they are any different from the KL CKT.
It's pretty much the same.. their portion's a little bigger though. Maybe just that shop lah. I shouldn't really generalise.
Price should be a little cheaper.


Diana(who wants to see her photo on this blog) and her sister, Sandra. Haha.


Kuching CKT.

Shit I don't know what else to say.
Day Three will be a little more interesting, I think.
:/

Sry for wasting your time.
It's Kuching I tell you!
Grr.


Day 3: The eating day, up next!
-alexeO-

Kuching Trip : Day One

It was one sunny afternoon(i think), when Praveen called me up and asked me whether I would want to join him, a few friends, and Teck Kuan on a trip to Kuching.

I didn't give him a direct answer then, but I ultimately refused anyway.
Few days later of doing nothing, I regretted refusing the offer, so I went and tell Praveen I would want to go and if it's possible.

Be it fate or what, Praveen hasn't booked the tickets at that time.
So I could actually still go.
I later also found out his friends couldn't join him for the trip..

So who finally boarded the plane to Kuching?




Us.

I must also mention that it was pretty unfortunate that I didn't take many photos on Day One as we arrived around dinner time and I was also extremely tired. Stupid plane rides.

So this is gonna be a boring Day One post.

blah.

Diana, a kuching resident who studied in the same college with me last year, was on the same plane with us! She came to KL to sell her books and to settle some uni stuff. We flew to Kuching with her. -.-


Diana and TK.

People often get curious how sitting AirAsia is like.


AirAsia. Now everyone can fly.

For me, AirAsia is like any other plane. The only exception is that they do not serve food.
They SELL them. Just like a ride on a plane without any extra services. And when I say extra services, I do not mean EXTRA services thank you.



RM7 Nasi Lemak. Praveen had it on the way home and loved it.

Approximately 1hr and 40mins later,
ears clogged and hurting with the pressure,

I finally got to set my tired feet on East Malaysia.

It was my very first time. On the Kuching International Airport runway.
I wanted to take a pic of the plane which I was on but as I was beginning to slide my camera out from its pouch, a big group of people unknowingly strode by in front of me.
I immediately slid my camera back into its pouch.

It wasn't long before I realised that hey.. this is really happening.

I'm in the famous Catcity.. where residents often joked to each other on how the "KL people" think they still live on trees.. where Teh-C-Peng is the morning drink for the adults and children alike.. where shopping isn't exactly fun and mamak(s) hardely seen,

Omg.




i AM in Kuching!


Day Two up next. :)




-alexeO-

Kuching is 'cat' in Malay with an extra 'h'

I got back from Kuching yesterday with Praveen and Teck Kuan after spending around 4-5 nights there.

In brief, Kuching's a nice little quiet, clean town/city.
Everything's just so near to each other. Friends, over there are generally closer too as they all live in the very same town just minutes away from one another.
It's like having the whole of my classmates staying in Subang Jaya for example.

I realised too I have not been blogging recently because nothing seems to be blogging-material.
Anyhow,
My next few posts shall be on my wonderful Catcity experience featuring of course, the wonderful people and food of course. :)

Kuching-in-brief which I may elaborate futher :-

Sat in a 30cents sampan in Kuching River

Kolo Mee.

Had 3 18-yr olds under one small gay flower-printed umbrella under a heavy rain

Laksa.

Met Kenny Sia

Kampar Mee.

To be honest, the Kuching people were right.
There's nothing else much to do besides eating and hanging out with friends.
But come to think of it, that's basically what anyone will do anyway regardless where he or she is living.

Oh well.
Photos up soon.


-alexeO-

Goodbye 2006

What an eventful year.

Seriously.

My first year out of school and I absolutely cherish it.

It was the year which I personally feel I've grown alot mentally and maybe to a certain tiny weeny extent, physically as well. :)

It's funny how much I learnt this year relative to 2005 which was a horrible year for me but a year which I didn't learn as much as this year, 2006.

For the first time in my life,
I feel like I'm maturing.

No. I am not saying that I'm fully matured.
I'm still useless and afraid of many things normal adults arent afraid of.

But I can FEEL that I'm maturing.
Which is a great feeling, of course.

Now,
I have a funny feeling in my heart which maybe, just maybe is a signal of me not wanting this year to end.

Because come next year, 2007, which is tomorrow,
things are gonna be different.

I had a half-class gathering dinner just now where I met some of my former high school classmates.
I felt nothing then. No sadness, no excitement, no emo-ness,

but come a few hours after the dinner,
I started to think of how much I took things for granted and that those people whom attended the dinner were the real people I can trust and have fun with.
People who I don't mind showing the REAL side of me and not pretend to be someone I'm not.

I actually missed them. Past tense.
A little bit.
But a bit is still a bit.

And I actually think I AM GOING to miss them. Yes. Future tense.

I found out that I really enjoyed myself making conversations with those people who I never thought was of much importance to me last time.

Of course, there are always the special specific few who I really feel very very upset when I think of how little I'm gonna meet them in the near future but I'm not naming any names. :)

On another note,
good luck Chrisanne who will be leaving in 2-3 days time to Australia for her uni studies.
And yea, I know you're probably guessing already, so yep.

she IS one of the few people who I really am gonna feel upset after thinking of how little I'm gonna see her again, how little I'm gonna hear her tease me, how little I'm gonna see her smile which always meant so much, how little I'm gonna see her intentionally ignoring me, how little I'm gonna hear her complaining how much pressure she got from a certain lecturer, and how little I'm gonna taste the product of her bakings.

I just shed a tear typing that.
Shit.

I hope no one misunderstands.
She may look like she meant alot to me but she's a good fren of mine and nothing more than that.
She may not seem to be backing me 100% all the time but she was there for me at the most crucial moments.
The time when I lost my dog.
Or some other time when I was upset.

I don't know what else to say but once again,
good luck Chrisanne.

And if you come telling me that the leaving-to-Australia is all a joke(like how you bluffed me u were going overseas last year),
I'll actually thank you for that. Because I think I may prefer to suffer embarassment from typing all this than to have one less friend to depend on.


I believe to mature is a stage where people learn how to overcome things they did not dare to overcome and for me,
I believe I matured a little more today.

Because, I didn't dare to post how much friendships may mean to me last time because I was afraid of what people may think of me being such a loser.
But now I believe that those who do not think the same are the real losers no one currently needs in the society.



Happy New Year everyone.


-alexeO-

my SAM results

(10:52 PM) -sirnsirn-: SAM is easy. jz needs super hardwork
(10:52 PM) -sirnsirn-: lazy boi like u, still can depend on luck and best wishes from ppl like me

I was talking to Kim on Messenger when I suddenly ranted to her about how I was feeling for my results which will be released the following day.

She then tried comforting me(i think), and then made a point which was so true.

She's right.
SAM isn't a tough course(i wouldn't say easy), but one would need to get through it with alot of hardwork.

And hardworking is not an adjective which can be used to describe me.

So what can I do now when my results are coming out in a couple of hours time?
Pray, I guess.

A friend of mine 'preached' to me about how he wasn't feeling worried about his SAM results because whatever he achieved is determined by God and how God wants him to travel a certain path or something or for some reason.

It was comforting for a little while, until I got back to my actual senses and realised that I'm not much of a religious person anyway and began doubting everything. (i'm not stating any religious stands here of myself in case u're mistaken)

So now I have to start praying,
and really hope that..
for the sake of
my family,
my close friends,
and
myself..

My exam luck is there again this time around.

Yes. The same exam luck which which was there for my UPSR, PMR and to a certain tiny weeny extent, SPM and of course not forgetting my driving exam. -_-

I told Kim how I hoped that 'luck' of mine isn't all used up.
But I really don't know.
I know I shouldn't really depend on LUCK instead of my own personal ability but I can't help it.
I also know that I shouldn't be saying out loud how I had this exam luck with me for the past few years even if it's true or not.

Results, results.
Happy faces, gloomy gazes.
That's a rhyme for you and me.

I'm excited.
Let's just hope my parents take it lighter than I expect them to.
:)

One important rule, Alex.
CANNOT CRY PLS NO MATTER WAT!


-alexeO-

I'm a lousy friend

When a friend you have not met for several months asks you,
"so.. u still going to the gym or not?"

you will be struggling to put on ur best smile, and forced to keep a straight face.

at that very moment, you will also tend to sit up slightly straighter and breathe in a little bit harder.

not forgetting having ur face jerk out ever so slightly.

then you will slowly reply that friend of yours, whatever the reply may be.

sometimes,
however much people TRY to be polite and nice,
the messages they try to send hurt even more.

It's obviously not a question to spark a conversation because there are roughly 10463464 more interesting conversation sparkers than that very question. So why choose that.

But i'm not bitter.
Nah.

If you think that friend who asks that question just wanted to know for his or her own personal curiosity, then you are wrong.
Because, why will she or he ask if the answer is obvious before his or her eyes.
If she or he sees a slim and fit me, the question wouldnt even arise, right?


In other words, I think I've put on weight.
Sigh.


Speaking about friends,
ah..
yes.

I think I'm a lousy friend. Any not many ppl will disagree I think.

People think I'm lousy because I do not invite them into my house.
I also don't seem to appreciate friends who travel far distances just to see me.
I choose sleep over hanging out with my group of friends.
I seem arrogant to people I have not met for a while, but trust me. I'm not. I'm just too shy.

I do think there are people who appreciate my friendship though.
Because those people know me well enough NOT to JUDGE me before they know me to a certain extent.

Sometimes, after talking with a friend on the phone,
my dad will ask me
"why you sounded so rude to your friend??"

I will then give him a blur and confused look and ask,"got meh?"

Then I think back slowly what I said and how I reacted and realised.. "hm... actually abit rude lo"

But that's just me.
And if you think I'm rude to you when I talk,
then you should be happy.
:)

Because I only talk like that to people I'm extremely close with.
Because I think they know I didn't mean any harm.

It's 3AM and I need to wake up early later.

My conclusion?
I'm a fat lousy friend.
That is something to seriously sigh about.

Sigh.


-alexeO-

hi

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Currently planning a trip to Kuching. Brief details on the trip can be found in my 5science1 class blog. CLICK!
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Yes. I've screwed up and lied to myself once again.
I was supposed to work on a writing project of mine but unfortunately,
till now,
all i have is myself to present.
-_-

Today I went and enquire a few stuff regarding my future course.
At first I went there with Architecture,Arts, Design in my mind.

But I went home thinking about Advertising, Marketing, Communications.

Actually, those are exactly what I wanted.
And I thought Arts and Design courses offered that!

But after much enquiring,
I realised that those advertising stuff are available in mass communication!
And I always thought mass comm only offers PR stuff or whatever.

But advertising is really under it.

Hmmm.
I like to be the brains behind an ad.
Be it a billboard ad or a TV commercial ad,
i want to think of ways to attract customers etc.
That, for me, is interesting.

I've also been told that I wont be doing the programming side of it, which is great, really, because I can just order 'those ppl' to do the job for me. Hehe. HOWEVER I WANT IT! *evil laughter*

So mass comm was always wat I wanted?
Well I'm still much confused.

Taylor's(my college) has a School of Communications which they recently partnered with UniSA and they now offer their degree programs which is totally parallel to THEIR communication program. Which is great for me.

They have 3+0 and 2+1 courses.
Which I don't know is a good or bad thing.

Because I DO WANT to go overseas as soon as possible.
But at the same time, I think I just may not be independent enough.

So my contrasting sides are totally shadowing my ambitions.

I'm also sure there are other Advertising courses in other Unis next year. Not necessarily I have to go UniSA!

So now I'm confused again. For different reasons.
Do I want to go overseas or do I not want to just yet?

And if I do, do I want to go UniSA or other universities which offer similiar courses.

If I don't, do I really want to do the Taylor course and be under Taylor management again for 2 years? And happily send my frens off in the aiport, one-by-one? And be less independent by the day?

The weightage is so equally balanced it's killing me. I can't decide.

And it's not that I'm really cleared that I'll for sure do the Bachelor of Communcations bla bla bla wat shit Media etc.

Because I may still be interested in the Melbourne U Creative Arts course.

So which is which and what is what.

I really don't know.

And if i do achieve the minimum score, will i apply for Creative Arts in Melb U? Or still stick to my Communications Advertising course? Does that mean I will go overseas then if I do achieve the minimum score required? But what if i don't go overseas but I achieved the minimum score required? Should I go overseas or should I not? Should I do creative arts or mass comm if my marks are good enuff for both?

I don't know.

I really don't know.

Sigh.


-alexeO-

Can anyone have an internet conversation these days...


...without having the word 'lol' somewhere in the conversation?


I can't.


-alexeO-

My Birthday Yesterday

28th of November is my birthday.
and that date was fortunately yesterday. Actually yesterday in the sense 55 mins ago as I'm typing this. lawl.

:)

I was actually somewhat 'afraid' for it to come because I was scared I will be spoiling the whole eighteen birthday big wuhoo thing because I had nothing planned and was fearing for it to be a boring, lonely birthday. Well it wasn't the fabulous party or anything but I did have fun. And I am completely and sincerely moved too by some wishes from people I never expected to get.


Thx guys!

I shall be more specific because they deserve it. :D

Special thanks to,
MUM, DAD, for being the first ones to wish me!!

Also, to
SISTERS for calling me from whereever they were after that!

and
BROTHER for calling me all the way from the UK!

Not forgetting,
NICK CHEONG for actually taking the time to edit my clan channel's Message of the Day to "Happy Birthday Chieftain!!" which certainly surprised me in a very good way. :)

and

CHRISANNE OH for being the first friend to actually call me!

To,
VIVIAN LOW for being the FIRST friend to SMS me a birthday greeting!

Also,
to my Aunt Jolene for SMS-ing me too!

And,
AMY TAN, KELVIN TAN, HUEY SHYAN FROM AUSTRALIA, CEZLYNN, MICHAEL TAN, KK, HARIS, TECK KUAN, TECK ENG, JANICE FROM AUSTRALIA, all for SMS-ing me!

Also to..
CARRIE, SUSAN, WILSON, SHAZA, SARAH, LING, MUN SHAN, BENJAMIN

and,
my T1 wild classmates, ANN, FRANCIS, MANDOF, MANWHORE,

all for their testimonials on friendster!

To also,
JAMES, SANDRA, ATIF, UNCLE HARRISON FROM SG, W.SHENG, NIMI GOH, CHRISTINE, KIM LIM(the first one on msn to wish me), PAIK SENG, ABIGAIL,
for their messages on Live Messenger!

Special special thanks to,
JOYCE NG FROM MELBOURNE BUT CURRENTLY IN KL for actually sacrificing a blog post at her blog for me!

WOW.
I never thought I had THAT many friends.
And I thought I was a lonely kid.
If i missed out anyone,
I'm so sorry! but thanks!!

I really really appreciate all those wishes.
Makes me all ready and geared up to be 18!

Bwahahahaha.

Once again,
THANK U!

Even to those who had forgotten or somehow are just not people who 'wish' other ppl. But I know wat you wanna tell me anyway. Tee-Hee.

TX!


-alexeO-

A lost boy

I think rite.. I need to get 'fixed' loh.

Everyday sleeping at 6am and waking up 12 hours later at 6pm isn't really healthy lah. Not that I am purposely doing it but that's the clock I set all thanks to the stupid exam period. The stupid exam period which also made me damn fat and heavy lor. Damn hard to try to reverse my clock back to normal leh. Zzz. If i go to bed at 12am suddenly, means I only stay awake for 6 hours?!! Abit wrong rite. Want to sleep also cannot lah. Will toss and turn until 6am which is the same thing again. And also, if want to wake up early also feel super tired. Waking up at 10 means 4 hrs of sleep. 4 hours of sleep isn't enough lah. Haih.

Damn confused and lost lah.
Duno wat to do.
I want to start on my personal project as soon as possible.
This stupid newly developed habit of mine is spoiling it all.

Summore my sister gave me 1 week period to get started on my project. Coz she wants to see me do something. Not wasting my holiday sleeping at 6am, waking up at 6pm. If after 1 week still got no progress, I'm gonna have to work lah! I dowan! I still cannot make up my mind what I wanna 'write' on. Probably I'll start with a fictional story first. But I think a biography of myself will be easier. :) I think my life can be pretty interesting wat. Zzz. I think I won't do poetry la. Too many bombastic words and vocab needed. I gonna design a logo for my company also. Hehe. Don't laugh lah. It's good to think highly wat.

Haven't even applied for universities. Really goner la me. I scared if I really can make it into those australian uni.. happy la of coz.. But the fact that I'm gonna leave like in 2 months time is scaring me leh. Other ppl got like 1 year to prepare themself mentally.. I feel like abit rush loh for me. :|

I also duno why this post has alot of 'lahs' and 'leh' la.
Maybe more comfortable talking like this le.

Dun care la. Someone help me. I'm a lost boy!
Waiting for results only now.. Haih. Gonna go to my college's placement centre to enquire a few stuff soon. :/



Me. A uni boy.
Hmmm.
Damn not-lookalike loh!

-alexeO-

Not.

I always thought one would feel best after his or her final examinations.
After UPSR, great.
After PMR, great.
After SPM, great.

After SAM Finals? Not so great.

I really don't know.

My exams have ended but I just keep thinking about the papers I did.. ranging from Specialist Maths to ESL on the very first day.

I keep thinking how badly I think I had done for my Spec Maths where most people found it "okay" and "easier than past years" which I beg to differ.
I keep thinking about ESL because that is the only subject I can score which hopefully be able to pull up my shit total marks. But it wasn't great I feel. How much 'crap' I had written. How 'rushed' my letter was. How bad my handwriting was. How will it all affect the examiners.

Same goes to the other 3 subjects.

I am so worried.

Ironically when I arrived home just now, my grandmother looked even more happier than me.
Being a former teacher, she really wants each and every of her grandchildren to know the signficance of examinations. It's like the ultimate thing in education life for her.
So she was smiling and all and asking me whether I was relieved or not.
With an invisible shrug, I just said Yah..
But inside me, I was doubting myself all the way.

Because honestly, call me a liar whatsoever,
I am not relieved.
Not a single bit.
No relief person will keep thinking back about the papers he did.

It's not as simple as thinking whether you had done enough or not.
It's thinking to the extent that I am figuring out for EVERY single question I can remember. Whether it was sufficient to gather marks.

You see, my South Australian Matriculation Pre-U Program works like this. Each subject will be tabulated to over 20. C13,B14,B15,B16,A17,A18.. for example, A20 being the max. Then somehow or rather(it is not just simple addition for the 5 subjects), i will get a TER(Tertiary Entrance Rank) where it is over 100. That TER is wat determines the entry requirements for the courses in University.

And that haunts me because,
I don't think I am gonna get a good TER.
Which is equally humiliating both from the public opinion side and the personal side.

A course which interests me in the University of Melbourne has a TER requirement of a minimum 83.
It may be low for some but to be honest, I would be happy with an 83 and above TER.

But what if I don't achieve it?
I don't think a TER of 83 and above is possible with a D10 for Spec Maths. And that is what I think I will get. Even my Spec Maths lecturer forecasted that.
What about Physics? I was always below average. I know the scores for each subject is moderated.. not as simple as just marking the final paper and tada.. ur marks. No. It will be compared to the entire group and moderated accordingly.

But it doesn't matter anyway.
Because I am below average for both spec maths and physics.

And if I really don't get a TER of 83 and above,
not only it is a huge blow to my confidence and future ambitions,
but it also a significant blow to my reputation.

Not fame-wise, but more to 'what-people-may-think-wise'.
To not be able to score a 80 and above TER is as simple as humiliating. And that sucks.
Especially when you start asking each other 'what did u get', 'what did u get' and they all announce proudly their high double digit marks.

As far as I know,
no one I know.. not a single senior, has a TER of 83 and below.
My sister's friends... however intelligent or average they were, achieved relatively high TER. My brother, who took SAM scored 90++.

Then why should I be worried if everyone scored so high?
BECAUSE,
every year, the percentage of people scoring 80% and above is only around 20-40%.
And to think,
I am not(at least I dont think I am).
In the top 20-40% of SAM.
Really worries me.

I don't know what happened last time when people I know scored relatively good marks but I only care about how I did myself now.

And that simple logic is why,
I cannot be relieved that my exams are over.
I just will keep thinking about it again, and again, and again, question to question,

Until it finally decides to go away by itself.
Which I hope is very soon.


Is it too late to start praying?
-alexeO-

I feel.. free

Exams over 30 mins ago.
Not any ordinary exams.

It's the FINAL exams.

and it's over.

but strangely,
I don't feel too happy like any normal being would.

I think it's because of the last paper I had. :/
:(

OH well.
I'm so free I don't know what to do now.

Confusion in life X200
gg.

-alexeO-

Time and Tide waits for no man

It's 2:43AM as i'm typing this.
It just turned Tuesday.
I have one final paper for my finals this Friday.

and..


I'm soooooooooooooooo BOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED!
:(


-alexeO-

:|

I really don't want to but...

I THINK I MAY BE FALLING FOR ANOTHER BLOGSITE!

I created a blog in Wordpress because I'm amazed at how neat Wordpress blogs are and I wanted to try one of my own..

After a few navigation in the dashboard, I realised it is indeed very neat and organised. And I may just be interested in getting used to it.

Nooooo. I can't move on! I duno wat to do. So I guess I'll just have both up now.

Oh yah. the link is http://alexycy.wordpress.com

Typical. -_-
I know.
Have fun!



Btw, 3 down, 2 papers to go!!!!~~~
-alexeO-

Late, again.

I know I have an infamous reputation for being late. But I like to blame it on my blood. :) It's in the genes man. My family members, whether unintentional or not.. will often be late for our own respective events. The only time when we're not late is when we actually are together. I guess too much negative energy will turn positive. :)

So anyway,
YESTERDAY,

I heard the tune of What's Left of Me by Nick Lachey playing melodiously from my handphone.
Wondering who might call at such wee hours in the morning, I looked at my phone and noticed a House number. Because it was not a mobile phone number, I picked up the call thinking the chances of it being a prank call is lesser.

"Heloo...?" I said, tired-ly.


"Do you have exams now?"

*'how rude,' I thought to myself. not even a hello. and who the heck is that anyway*

"Hello?" I repeated.


"Do you have a Physics exam now?" the mysterious lady said.

"Hello who's this?!" (already very curious and at that point of time I'm wondering if it is indeed a prank call. By Hitz.Fm perhaps? :p)


"You have a physics paper now rite? Your paper has started already"

"Huh?" *I look at the clock from my handphone. I was so tired I could not figure out what the analog clock displayed. 5am perhaps?

"What time is it now??" I asked rather stupidly.


"Your paper has started already. Where do you stay?"

It was frustrating to know that the lady, whoever it was does not reply to my questions. It was equally as frustrating to know that, MY FREAKING PHYSICS PAPER HAS ALREADY BEGUN AND I WAS ABOUT TO MISS IT.

"fark." I thought to myself.

I then proceeded to reply, "Shah Alam.. oh shit"


"You didn't know you have a paper at this time?" the lady asked with a weird tone, sounding as if she was inside thinking what kind of lousy, care-about-nothing student this is.

"Oh shit.. will I get extra time when I arrive??" I asked rather weirdly, knowing the answer was obvious. But I guess it was just the blur-morning me.


"er.. no?"

The lady then proceeded to speak in cantonese with another lady in the background.

She then came back to me and said, "No you won't get extra time.. but please make it within 30 minutes or you will not be allowed in.."

"oh.. thank you!"


"yeah.." I could actually imagine in my head how her eyes were rolling.

I immediately jumped out of my bed and rushed to wake my sister up who was supposed to fetch me. She sounded equally shocked too.

I am someone who cannot wake up without taking a shower.
So I had the quickest shower of my life.
I also had the quickest brushing of my teeth in my life.
I even had the quickest putting on of clothes in my life.

I didn't care about hygiene then. I just wanted to arrive and sit for the bloody paper and go home.

So my initial plan of having some 'last-minute-revision' was completely destroyed by my panicky behaviour in the car.

I arrived at the college at 7.15am. "Still got time!" I thought to myself.

I walked quickly as hell because I know I cannot run.
Luckily I made an initiative to check the venue of my exam earlier.

It was also bitchy that my exam was so happened in the freaking 4th floor.
My usual 'very-tired-when-arrived-on-the-4th-floor' was not visible. I was more worried about sitting for the paper on time. And maybe completing it too.

As I was at the corridor heading to the classroom, a lecturer was seen sitting outside.
She looked at me and asked, "Yeo?"

"YES!"

"That classroom.."she pointed out.

I walked towards a door and asked her back, "this one?"

"No. The other door."

"OKAY THANK YOU"

I then opened the door and saw an entire classroom of students already working with their calculators; calculating the final momentum of some ball perhaps.

Another 40-something lady lecturer was there, and she led me to my table.
On my way, I clumsily hit a chair. The lecturer just smiled. She then was beside my table, instructing me on the rules.. and the common protocol.. very softly.
She kept comforting me because she obviously knew I was panicking like a mad donkey.
I must say, her cool smile really made me feel much better.

15minutes into the exam, that very lady went towards my table and left a plastic mineral water on my table. And then patted my back twice.

OMG. So nice!
I must resemble her son or something. ><
Seriously,
WAT A NICE LADY.

I ended finishing the paper on time.
It was not like I could answer everything anyway. So I basically could do all I can and had time to crapped some answers.

When the lecturer was collecting the papers,
she 'ironically' warned us about not being late for this Thursday's paper because there would be many students bla bla bla.
I did not want to look anywhere else because I know there definitely will be some eyes laying on me.
-_-

I walked out of the classroom saying "thank you" to her. "You were very lucky~" she replied.

I was never late for a major examination before in my entire life and I guess it is better than never.

Surely now I will be more careful to be punctual during examinations.. I guess.
I oughta be.


2 down, 3 papers to go.
-alexeO-

N Arp-Dead


Pooch Cafe.

Anywayz,
I've deleted Warcraft from my computer.
Not slowly navigating my mouse and clicking the Uninstall button mind you. But just hastily and to an extent, angrily deleted the whole freaking folder which has caused me to be in such a lousy condition today.
Yes. I can't believe myself too.

My finals are exactly next week.
And it's 6pm already.
And i hardly studied today.

Exam mode on from now..(hopefully).
I'm not depending fully on it but I hope my exam luck is there again this time around. :(
I think I need it this time more than ever.

one
more
week
.
you
can
do
it
alex
!
.
_
.


-alexeO-